The women I let down in those years

I suddenly regretted not telling Sister Qing everything about Xiaoya.

If I tell Sister Qing about Xiaoya's situation in advance, maybe Sister Qing can find Xiaoya, so that she doesn't have to marry another person in Xiaoya's place, and I don't have to worry about Sister Qing losing contact with me.

But it's a bit late to say this now, I don't dare to say it anymore.

If I say it at this time, how can I hide the thoughts in my heart from Sister Qing?

Unless I can find the exact trace of Xiaoya and make up for it.

Before there is a clear result, it is best for me not to say anything and just pretend that nothing happened.

That night, Sister Qing was particularly crazy.

This is her last date with me. After today, she will restrain herself and prepare to marry a well-matched man.

Regardless of whether it is before or after marriage, her identity, her future husband's identity, and their family background will not allow her to act recklessly outside.

I also worked very hard and wanted to use all my strength.

It took until three o'clock in the morning for Sister Qing and I to fall asleep.

When I woke up in the morning, Sister Qing was gone and she left me a note on the bedside table.

"Brother, you are still responsible for managing the bar, but you have to sign a contract with the company. I will ask my secretary to come to you this morning. Just follow her arrangements."

Although Sister Qing is getting married and cutting off contact with me, she still has me in her heart.

Although Sister Qing can no longer come to me after she gets married, and I have lost my support as Sister Qing, Sister Qing is willing to sign a contract with me in the name of her company and let me continue to manage the night bar, but she left me a way out.

Her company is my new supporter.

Looking back on the days I spent with Sister Qing, I feel really grateful.

Without Sister Qing, I wouldn’t be where I am today, nor would I be able to earn so much money.

Although Sister Qing's motives for being with me are not pure, it is no longer important, because I have received too many benefits from Sister Qing.

To say that she is the first noble person in my life is not an exaggeration at all.

When I got up from the bed, my waist was still a little sore. I called Wang Qiu and told her to take a rest this morning. Then I simply washed up and turned on the office computer.

I don't want to lose contact with Sister Qing just like that, so I have to try to see if I can contact Xiaoya.

Although I feel sorry for Xiaoya by doing this, I don’t care so much anymore.

If I had known that Xiaoya's departure would bring me such big trouble, I shouldn't have said those mean words in the first place.

As for what kind of life Xiaoya will live after she comes back?

I don't think about it anymore.

It is better for others to suffer and suffer than for oneself to suffer.

Log in to the mage's trumpet. Xiaoya is not online, and I am not offline either. I just stand in the main city and wait.

Xiaoya likes playing games so much. As long as she has a chance, she will definitely go online.

I just stayed in the game until about ten o'clock in the morning, and Xiaoya finally came online.

I couldn't wait to chat privately with Xiaoya, but I typed a few words and then deleted them.

I can't act too eager, otherwise it will arouse Xiaoya's suspicion. I have to pretend to be the same as before.

As soon as I deleted the few words I typed, Xiaoya's private chat came over.

Xiaoya: You are here! You haven't been online for a long time. Is the bar busy?

Me: Not bad, busy with other things.

After a pause, I sent another sentence: What are you busy with? how are things?

Xiaoya: Has my sister already told you?

what did I say?

I started acting stupid.

Xiaoya: There’s no way she wouldn’t tell you about me running away from home, right?

Me: You’re talking about this. She mentioned it some time ago, but I didn’t ask any more questions. Didn’t you say you were unhappy at home? It's okay to run away from home and live the life you want.

Xiaoya: Yes, after I came out from home, I felt very relaxed. All the worries I had before disappeared, and I was very happy.

Me: Isn’t this great? I have been very busy and tired recently. If I have time, I would like to go out and relax.

Xiaoya: You can go out and play now. Many things are not as important as you think. Put down the burden in your heart and you can live a happy life.

Me: What you said makes me suddenly become a philosopher.

Xiaoya: Yes? I just have some thoughts during this period.

Me: But what you said really makes sense. Work is never over. You have to learn to relax. When I'm done with this period of time, I'll go out and relax.

Xiaoya: Well, you can’t work all the time and don’t relax your body and mind, which is not good for your health.

I felt that the opportunity was almost there, so I said: That's right, you really can't work all the time, and you have to speak out what's on your mind. By the way, where are you? When I'm done, I'll go play with you.

This time Xiaoya didn't reply to me for a long time. I couldn't help but get nervous. Could she have noticed it?

Sure enough, Xiaoya waited for almost two minutes before replying.

Xiaoya: Did your sister ask you to ask?

me? No, I just asked casually. I can come and play with you then.

Xiaoya: Don’t ask, I won’t tell, and I don’t want to go back to my previous life. I’m living a good life now and don’t want to be disturbed by anyone.

Xiaoya: Of the people I knew before, you were the only one who could contact me. You were still in the game. I just didn’t want anyone to know where I was.

Me: Do you hate your previous life so much?

Xiaoya was silent again, and after a few minutes she sent a sentence: You think that is my home, but to me, it is a cage and a prison!

Xiaoya: They have been very strict with me since I was a child. They have paid close attention to my every move since I was in kindergarten and did not let me have too much contact with strangers. I thought they cared about me, but I realized when I grew up. They don't care about me, they just want me to grow up according to their expectations.

Xiaoya: What they wanted was not a daughter, but a tool for marriage, so except when I was in school, I had no contact with anyone from the outside world. The ideas they instilled in me were to put family interests first. Let me make sacrifices for my family.

Xiaoya: They thought I didn’t know anything, but I knew very well in my heart that I was just a victim. They had no feelings for me and just regarded me as a tool.

Xiaoya: My sister is older than me, and she also knows this. Originally, she was the most suitable marriage partner, but she was unwilling to accept this reality, so she started to indulge herself very early, and even found an ordinary person to get married. Escape the responsibilities of marriage.

Xiaoya: Because of her escape, I became the victim, but now that I am gone, she has become the only choice. Even if she is not willing, even if her conditions and reputation are not so good, but marriage, how can it be so How suitable and likeable, but it is just the pursuit of interests.

Xiaoya: So, you don’t need to tell me or persuade me. I won’t tell you where I am, and you don’t need to look for me. I just want to pursue a free life.