Rebirth and redemption, I have pampered my paranoid madness to heaven

The sound of the cup breaking attracted the attention of the elders at the table.

Not only were they shocked by Li Shiyan's sudden behavior, but Li Shen, who was sitting next to him, had an even ugly expression.

A pair of eyes stared at him like Ling Chi, as if they didn't understand why Li Shiyan was suddenly so angry.

At this moment, Li Shiyan seemed to be waking up from a dream. He was in a dilemma with a cold face, standing there like an animal being watched.

"What are you going to do?"

Li Shen was so angry that he pushed the young man down on the chair and lowered his voice: "You have really disgraced me!"

Originally, everyone was praising his son for being calm and capable.

The show off to everyone just now was like a slap in the face, making Li Shen blush with embarrassment.

The middle-aged man glared at Li Shiyan, calmed down his anger and explained to everyone in embarrassment: "Shi Yan may have accidentally knocked down the glass. Don't worry, everyone, just keep drinking."

"Hahaha, so that's it."

Everyone was watching with their noses in their eyes, knowing full well that they were telling lies to smooth things over, and they obviously didn't want to offend the people in charge of the Li family.

"Shi Yan, what do you think of the company's long-term development?"

Hearing the sound, Li Shiyan raised his eyes and looked at Li Shen who asked the question. The eyes of his always loving father were full of unfamiliar threats.

It seems that if he says the wrong thing next, he will be punished.

Such a strange father reminded him of memories from his childhood.

"Dad, you are so busy at work. Mom and I miss you very much." The young boy looked up at Li Shen expectantly.

The handsome middle-aged man in the memory was just carrying a briefcase and sternly rubbing the boy's hair.

Li Shen: "It's not prudent to call me father. My company is busy with things. I will come back to see you from a business trip in a few days."

"But..." The black-haired boy's eyes were lost, as if he still wanted to say something.

By the time Xiao Li Shiyan came to his senses, all that was left in front of him was the back of the man driving away in a hurry.

He took the medicine and carefully returned to his mother's room.

In that empty room, the woman sitting on the balcony painting had a gentle face and gently rubbed the boy's dark hair.

"Where's your father?"

"Dad...no...Father, he..." The boy lowered his head, not knowing how to tell the truth that Li Shen left on a business trip.

My father never spent much time with my mother, and even when his own mother was ill, he always put work first.

Does dad love mom?

He didn't know, and his little brain couldn't tell the difference.

The boy could only raise his hands childishly, showing a warm smile: "Father, he will be back soon, and I will always accompany my mother obediently."

"Okay, our family Shi Yan is the most well-behaved." The woman coughed and took the medicine bowl with a soft voice.

At that time, he was thinking that since his father was away, he must spend more time with his mother.

But until that day...everything changed.

That day, he watched helplessly as his mother's face was filled with tears, and she accused her stalwart father sentence by sentence.

But the father in his heart just kept saying excuses and finally slammed the door and walked out.

From then on, my father rarely came back, my mother cried every day, became depressed and violent, and my nanny's belly grew bigger day by day.

Little Li Shiyan didn't know what happened, so he could only make his mother happy.

"Mom, please take a bite of food. Dad knows that he will be worried." The boy was not as tall as the others. He raised the spoon greenly and wanted to feed his mother food.

Unexpectedly, that sentence stimulated the woman. She seemed to be crazy, threw the bowl on the boy, and cried harder.

"It's all her fault...It's all her fault! If it weren't for her, Li Shen wouldn't have done such drunken and sexual things!"

The black-haired dumpling remained silent, holding back tears and picking up the pieces on the ground. He could only comfort his mother over and over again.

At that time, he didn't understand his mother's heartbreak at all. He only knew that he had to grow up quickly.

Be sensible and don't make your mother angry.

Be calm and obedient, because he is your mother's only support besides your father.

But everything collapsed after the nanny gave birth to a child. The mother passed away, but the father did not apologize. He just stopped being so busy and taught him personally.

"Shi Yan, don't cry. My Li Shen child can't cry."

"Shi Yan, you look too unstable and want to hide your emotions."

"Shi Yan, study hard. Everything else worries me. I work very hard in the company. You have to shoulder your responsibility as a son and stop causing trouble for me."

Those words of instruction were engraved in his heart.

He was afraid that like losing his mother, he would lose his father again and could only work hard to be an obedient child in the eyes of his elders.

Later, he even discovered that as long as he scored high in the exam, his father would praise and accompany him.

He knew that his beautiful life was ruined by that illegitimate son.

But he never thought about hating him. He was too young and could only choose to ignore the white-haired boy.

Li Shen warned him time and time again that the boy named Gu Qi was an illegitimate son. As the future heir of the Li family, he should not recognize such a younger brother.

As if being influenced by Li Shen for a long time, he began to hate Gu Qi and began to hide what he really wanted.

As long as he does his best in everything, only thinks about becoming Li's successor, and as long as he stops showing his emotions, he won't lose anyone.

As long as you are sensible, just be the best young man in the Li family, and be the proudest son of Li Shen.

Others are not worth his eyes at all.

Is this really right?

Is this the real him?

Is this kind of life, living as a child that others say is excellent, really what he wants?

Li Shiyan withdrew his thoughts and looked at his expectant father. He remained silent and did not answer his words.

"Shi Yan, have you forgotten my teachings? Have you forgotten what you learned? Uncles are still listening!" Li Shen couldn't help but asked questions repeatedly.

The young man's eyes were tired and he didn't want to answer these boring questions.

Suddenly I feel that these things I care about are becoming more and more boring now.

The tall, long-legged black-haired boy stood up, ignored the slightly angry voice behind Li Shen, ignored the surprised expressions of his elders, and turned back to his room.

He sat in the dark room and couldn't help but sneer.

He really deserves it.

If he hadn't always gone his own way, why would Yu Tang choose to be with Gu Qi?

She clearly used to be his, and she clearly liked him so much.

As if being abused, Li Shiyan repeatedly checked the photos of Gu Qi and Yu Tang on his phone.

As if by mistake, he reached out his hand to touch the smiling girl in the photo, and a bitter taste filled his mouth.

What else can he do in the face of Gu Qi's provocation?

Yu Tang no longer likes him and should obviously give up.

But the truest self buried deep in his heart was extremely humble. Even when she insulted him, he didn't feel angry at all. Every breath he took was painful.

Tears fell on his phone. He deliberately cut out Gu Qi in the photo and stared at the outstanding-looking Yu Tang in the photo.

The next second, he lowered his head and kissed the girl in the photo, his eyes were very red, and tears fell on the dim screen.

I'm sorry... He really regrets it. Why can't he look back at him?

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Belated affection is worthless than grass. Li Shiyan will probably become crazy in the future, so be prepared. After all, I like to watch aloof and self-possessed people go crazy.