I uninstalled Huangmao System

[8 month 2 day]

Today is the one-month anniversary of my official relationship with him.

Looking back on this semester, I really have an unreal feeling that I actually agreed to his pursuit.

I know that I am not qualified to do this. I should not accept his or anyone else's confession.

However, these few months of getting along with him have convinced me that he is a more delicate and fragile person than he appears, and there is something about him that makes me unable to leave him.

Unconsciously, I fell into the whirlpool called love.

Summer vacation has finally arrived, and I plan to record my first summer vacation with him.

Will it become the most youthful memory of my high school career?

If only it could.

Starting tomorrow, we can date openly.

I never thought I would fall in love with someone, but now I am so excited and excited.

Is this love?

It's incredible.

.........

[8 month 4 day]

Today we went to the Sunshine Aquarium in Ikebukuro. The penguins are very cute. It turns out that they can actually swim above people's heads. It's really magical.

I only left him for a short while, and when I came back from the bathroom, I saw him being accosted by a trio of young girls.

I can't describe my feelings at that moment. I just felt that a naughty child from a relative broke into my room without permission and held the teddy bear next to my pillow in the palm of her hand, as if she was the owner who accompanied it every night. Similar.

I felt extremely wronged and wanted to go up and argue with them, but I saw him walking towards me without looking back. His smile almost made me think my heart was going to stop beating.

It was as if he had put my heart on a hot air balloon, rising warmly to the highest altitude. The overwhelming feeling of weightlessness hugged me sweetly.

Maybe it's because we don't get too close in school, so when we were dating, I tended to pester him unknowingly. I was obviously one year older than him, and I never knew I had such a side before.

What made me even more shy was that when we were lying next to each other in the planetarium, surrounded by the magnificent and vast starry sky, he quietly held my hand tightly.

I stole a glance at him and saw that he was blushing slightly, which was particularly cute.

and also.

This is the first time we hold hands.

Hmm... The hand that was holding the pen and writing at this time seemed to still be able to feel the residual warmth in his palm. It was so embarrassing.

I think I will never forget what happened today.

I have a good memory and will never forget it.

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[8 month 8 day]

When I went out with him today, I almost met a classmate from school. He originally held my hand, but then he let go.

I was devastated, but I couldn't blame him.

When he was at school, he never wanted to take the initiative to talk to me. I would drag him to the student cafeteria every time.

I know that he doesn't want to affect my prestige in the school.

If only I could remove everyone's prejudice against him.

He is obviously a gentle man.

No... maybe this is just my excuse. I'm just afraid that everyone will look at us differently.

When I think about it like this, I feel that I am a bad woman with evil intentions.

I decided that if there is another time, I must hold his hand tightly before he lets go of my hand.

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[8 month 11 day]

On the way home from the date, he kissed me.

This is my first kiss.

He doesn't seem to be.

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[8 month 12 day]

Mom said she would have dinner with that family at the end of the month.

I seemed to suddenly wake up from a dream.

Should I tell him?

I'm still too selfish.

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[8 month 13 day]

During the date, he noticed that I was absent-minded.

He has always looked at me well and kept an eye on my affairs, but I kept cheating on him.

I couldn't be honest with him, couldn't speak out, couldn't tell him the fact that I still had a fiancé.

I seem to have forgotten it a long time ago.

Every day I was in love with him made me so happy that I forgot about myself.

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[8 month 14 day]

It would be great if I were not a child of the Hoshino Mori family.

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[8 month 15 day]

Yuejun...

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[8 month 16 day]

Yuejun...

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[8 month 17 day]

Yuejun...

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[8 month 18 day]

Had a big fight with mom.

I plan to confess to him tomorrow, and I am already prepared to be hated by him.

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[8 month 19 day]

help me.

Yuejun...

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[8 month 20 day]

I just felt like the world was turning upside down. The gray world I had been used to so far was suddenly dyed a dazzling pink.

I even forgot how I got home. I just felt that my heart, which had been empty until now, was completely filled with the love of this sixteen or seventeen-year-old.

His smile, his words, his hugs.

His touch and body temperature seemed to be engraved into my body, making me unforgettable forever.

I used to think that I was a puppet with nothing in my heart, and I often wondered why he liked me like this.

If he just liked this skin, why would he push me away at that time.

I gained courage, dreams, and love from him.

I really want to respond to him, I really want to show him.

Let him look at Hoshino Mori Hoshino and respond to the miracle.

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[8 month 22 day]

I did it.

I did it.

Can I control my life from now on?

However, I was indeed a little scared.

Without the guidance of my parents and their arrangements, can I really make the decision for myself?

At only 17 years old, do I already have the right to decide my own life?

I don't know yet.

But as long as I think of him by my side, I feel much stronger.

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[8 month 25 day]

We went to see the fireworks display with him today. He looked really handsome in his yukata.

So, I kissed him in the crowd and couldn't help myself.

I have even made plans to entrust my life to him.

Yeah...what should I do?

If I can be this happy every day for the rest of my life, I am really worried that I will drown in this happiness.

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In the dead of night, the bedroom was extremely quiet. The girl was sitting at the desk, her long azure hair tied up casually, lying quietly on her chest.

She flipped through page after page quietly, as if she was in a beautiful fairy tale.

This is a very strange feeling. I obviously have no impression of the content above, but I am sometimes excited and sometimes jealous when reading this text. It seems that there is really another girl named Hoshino Mori Hoshino, who is in the period of love, vividly appearing in this text. In front of your own eyes.

It was so immersive that she was shocked.

The girl turned the diary to the last page, and her soft eyes dimmed at this moment.

These days, she didn't know how many times she had read this diary back and forth.

Touching the deeply sunken handwriting with green fingertips, it seems that you can truly feel the sadness and pain behind this line of handwriting.

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[8 month 28 day]

we broke up.