After rebirth, my wife just wants to be a widow

The breathing in my ears calmed down.

Shen Ruoyan recalled all the experiences in her previous life in her mind, and did not press any more questions, patiently waiting for Lu Yan's answer.

After a long time, an inaudible "hmm" sounded in Shen Ruoyan's ears.

The boot hanging in my heart finally fell to the ground.

Shen Ruoyan didn't know how to describe her feelings. There was a sense of relief that it was true, but also a kind of pain of old scars being revealed.

She lived a very miserable life in her last life.

Even though it has been so many years, I still feel a lot of pain in my heart when I recall it.

This also led to the fact that after being reborn, Shen Ruoyan was focused on how to kill Lu Yan and refused to give Lu Yan a chance to do it again.

Feeling the fluctuations in the heart of the person in his arms, Lu Yan's arm holding her trembled slightly, and said with a nasal voice: "Ayan, I'm sorry, everything that happened in the last life was all my fault."

Shen Ruoyan sniffed, tried to keep her voice calm, and asked the question she had never dared to face: "So...our whole family died tragically in the last life...all because of you..."

A glistening tear slipped from her cheek.

Thinking of the tragic ending of the family in the previous generation, Shen Ruoyan really couldn't continue what she said.

"No." Lu Yan denied eagerly, "I did have a misunderstanding about my father-in-law in my last life.

But I didn't take action against Master Shen, I just... just watched silently. "

Speaking later, Lu Yan's voice became softer and softer.

Lu Yan was deeply grateful at this moment that he was hugging Shen Ruoyan from behind and did not need to make any eye contact with her.

Shen Ruoyan tried to hold back Shen Ruoyan's arms, but was afraid of hurting her. The end result was that Lu Yan's arms were too tight and his whole body trembled slightly.

Shen Ruoyan let out a long sigh and turned around. Seeing Lu Yan lowering his head like a child who had made a mistake, she couldn't help but hold the man's face with both hands.

The bright moonlight coated their faces with a layer of fine silver. Shen Ruoyan opened her red lips lightly and pressed a comforting kiss on Lu Yan's cheek.

"In this life, since I choose to start over with you, it means I have let go of the past.

Now I want to ask you about the last time, just because I want to find out.

No matter what you have done, I will never make things difficult for you again. "Shen Ruoyan said.

The man's pupils widened, he understood the meaning of Shen Ruoyan's words, and hurriedly defended himself: "Ayan, I didn't lie to you.

I really didn't take action against the Shen family. "

Despite the hatred for his father's murder, because he couldn't bear to see a woman sad, Lu Yan in his previous life was just a bystander, silently watching Master Shen being unjustly imprisoned, without adding insult to injury or offering any help. Knowing that the Shen family Everyone ended up with the whole family dying tragically.

Lu Yan put his forehead against Shen Ruoyan, felt the warm touch coming from the other person's body, and slowly told the story of his previous life.

Ayan, the first time we met was actually not at the shore of Wuyou Lake.

At that time, I accidentally learned that there was a hidden reason behind my father's death that year, so I ignored my grandfather's objections and sneaked into the capital in disguise, hoping to find out what happened.

During that time, whenever night fell, I would sneak into the mansions of major officials and secretly investigate the swimming pool for clues, which naturally included the Shen family as the Shangshu Mansion.

That day I came out of Mr. Shen's study and was about to climb over the wall when I heard someone talking in the yard.

"Miss, please be careful where you step and don't fall into the lake." A woman's voice warned with worry.

In the darkness of the night, a sweet female voice floated in, "Qin'er, don't worry, I'm naturally sensible."

"Property, propriety." The girl complained angrily, "If others knew that the eldest daughter of the dignified Shangshu Mansion stayed up in the middle of the night and ran into the yard in the dark to catch stray fireflies, others would laugh out loud. ?

If word of this gets out, your reputation as the most beautiful woman in the capital will be in jeopardy. "

"My dear Qin'er, there is no one around now. God knows this and earth knows it. You know it and I know it. As long as you don't tell it, who will know?

Besides, who stipulates that beauties cannot come to catch stray fireflies? "After being lectured by the personal maid, the young lady didn't seem angry at all.

Lu Yan was only a boy of eighteen or nineteen at that time. Hearing the conversation between the two, he suddenly became very interested in this young lady and simply found a suitable spot on the roof to sit comfortably. Sit back and see what happens next.

When the moon was dark and the wind was high, Shen Ruoyan didn't realize at all that her every move was completely caught in the young man's eyes.

She squatted on the ground and carefully pushed aside the grass, trying to find some fluorescent light in the darkness.

After fiddling for a long time with no results, Shen Ruoyan stood up and beat her numb legs.

Qin'er took the opportunity to persuade: "Miss, let's go back. We haven't found it after searching for so long. I guess there are no fireflies here at all."

"No, I checked it in the book. Liuying Chong likes to live in humid, warm places with lush vegetation." Shen Ruoyan pointed to her surroundings, "There is grass and water here, and with the current temperature, it makes sense. There should be some flying fireflies."

Qin'er couldn't help but pour a basin of cold water on Shen Ruoyan, "Miss's book only said that Liu Ying Chong likes to live in moist, warm places with lush vegetation, but it didn't say that there must be Liu Ying Chong in humid, warm places with lush vegetation.

Let's go back quickly. "

Shen Ruoyan squatted back unwillingly, "It is true that there may not be fireflies in humid, warm places with lush vegetation, but if you don't look for them, you will definitely not find them.

I've been looking for it for so long. Maybe I can find it if I look for it for a while longer? "

Seeing that Shen Ruoyan couldn't be persuaded, Qin'er could only squat down and help them search together.

While looking for bugs, Qin'er asked: "Miss, what are you looking for that stray firefly for?"

"Actually, it's nothing." Shen Ruoyan remembered her whim idea and smiled sheepishly, "I didn't see the allusion of fireflies in the bag reflecting the snow. It's just like catching a few fireflies to verify and see if they can use the fireflies. Can the words on the book really be seen clearly at night with the light of an insect?"

Lu Yan, who was sitting on the roof, couldn't help but almost laughed when he heard Shen Ruoyan's words.

Unexpectedly, the eldest lady of the Shen family was actually a wonderful person.

Although Lu Yan tried his best to restrain himself, Shen Ruoyan was still keenly aware of something unusual, stood up suddenly, and looked around cautiously.

"Miss, what's wrong?" Qin'er raised her head in confusion, "Did you find the firefly?"