After rebirth, my wife just wants to be a widow

Shen Ruoyan lifted Qin'er who was kneeling on the ground and held her hand tightly, unable to bear to let go.

If we say goodbye today, I'm afraid we'll never see each other again in this life.

As if he felt something, Shen Chang, who had always been well-behaved, suddenly burst into tears.

Shen Ruoyan's heart throbbed with the crying. These were the last two people she loved the most in this world, but now she had to send them away with her own hands.

Pressing a gentle kiss on Xiao Changchang's forehead, Shen Ruoyan immediately handed the child to Qin'er, quickly turned sideways and waved her hand, signaling Qin'er to get on the carriage.

The curtain of the carriage fell, and Shen Ruoyan felt that a piece of her heart had been cut out, bleeding silently.

She stood at the threshold and watched dreamily as the carriage gradually moved away until it turned into a small dot and disappeared into the vast night.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival of this year, she gave away her last trace of care.

Since Qin'er left, several more maids were sent into Shen Ruoyan's courtyard.

They are all well-behaved and smart. Apart from leaving the house, they can satisfy any request made by Shen Ruoyan. However, Shen Ruoyan understands that these people are sent by Lu Yan to keep an eye on her, so he is not close to them. Sitting in my small yard, staring at the trees that were withering day by day in a daze.

One day, after lunch, she felt a little uncomfortable with bloated stomach, so she dismissed the maid and wandered alone in the yard.

Suddenly, a familiar figure by the pavilion caught Shen Ruoyan's attention. It turned out to be Lu Yan talking to Doctor Zhang.

Somehow, Shen Ruoyan quietly walked over. Through a courtyard wall, the conversation between Lu Yan and Doctor Zhang came through. In a blur, Shen Ruoyan only heard the words "body" and "child".

Until Lu Yan said:

"Leave the child behind."

These words fell on Shen Ruoyan's eardrums so clearly that she was shocked and froze on the spot for a moment before touching her slightly bulging belly with trembling hands.

Shen Ruoyan sighed sadly.

He eventually rejected me and his children.

The doctor was kind-hearted. After hearing Lu Yan’s decision, the old doctor reluctantly advised:

"My lord, have you thought about it?"

Lu Yan's voice was still so cold and waveless:

"Yes, prescribe medicine."

Doctor Zhang still didn't give up, his old voice was a bit anxious:

"This is your first child! Sir, please think about it carefully."

Lu Yan was silent for a while, as if he had made up his mind, and said decisively:

"Go."

There was no sound on the other side of the wall, but on the other side of the wall, Shen Ruoyan was leaning against the wall in despair.

She touched her belly with one hand and covered her eyes with the other hand. She could only see faint blood marks on her tightly pursed lips.

Is Lu Yan crazy?

She was forced to raise a baby some time ago, and now she has to abort the baby!

Could this be another way to torture her?

Touching her slightly bulging belly, Shen Ruoyan's fingers trembled violently. She finally accepted the existence of this child. Why didn't Lu Yan even give her the last glimmer of hope?

Shen Ruoyan staggered towards the door. She wanted to leave, she really wanted to leave this cannibalistic place.

"Second lady!"

Several maids rushed over, took Shen Ruoyan's hands from left to right, and half pulled and half pulled her back to the yard.

Shen Ruoyan, who was being dragged, raised her head helplessly. The smoky gray sky was like a huge net, covering her head tightly, trapping her tightly, leaving her with nowhere to escape.

That's all, that's all, it's okay not to come to such a dirty place.

But, she was so unwilling to do so!

Her only hope in the Lu family was about to be wiped out.

Lu Yan's style has always been vigorous and resolute, so in the afternoon the maid came over with a bowl of dark soup.

"Second Madam, your medicine."

Maybe she knew what kind of medicine was in the bowl, but the maid lowered her head, not daring to look directly into Shen Ruoyan's eyes.

Shen Ruoyan smiled bitterly and comforted herself:

That's fine. She and Lu Yan have a blood-and-blood feud. If this child is born, he is destined to live a hard life. It is better to go to another world as soon as possible. Anyway, his mother will be there soon to accompany him.

After taking the medicine bowl, Shen Ruoyan drank the soup in one gulp. Because she drank too quickly, she couldn't stop coughing and her eyes turned red.

With her peerless appearance and stern eyes, she looked like a lustful ghost crawling out of the hell.

Seeing that she drank the medicine, the maid immediately brought another bowl of ginseng soup.

"Second Madam, drink this too."

"What is this for?"

"Madam, this is the thousand-year-old ginseng that your Excellency invited from the palace. Drinking it will be good for you."

Shen Ruoyan smiled mockingly. He had just given her a bowl of abortion medicine, and now he was bringing a bowl of tonic ginseng soup. Did Lu Yan want to spare her life and continue to torture her?

"Take it off! I won't drink it!"

Seeing that Shen Ruoyan refused to drink, several maids gathered around with their heads lowered and said:

"excuse me."

Their attitude was very respectful, but the movements of their hands were not polite at all. One of them held Shen Ruoyan's shoulders on the left and the other, and the other pinched her chin, forcing Shen Ruoyan to open her mouth and pour the ginseng soup directly into her. poured down his throat.

After being force-fed ginseng soup, Shen Ruoyan didn't cry or make a fuss, and let them wipe the juice from the corners of her mouth, lying on the bed in a daze and looking at the bed curtain above her head, not wanting to say anything else.

She touched her belly and waited quietly.

This was the last bit of time she had with the child.

Shen Ruoyan once thought that if there was a boy in her belly, he would be like little Changchang, strong and cute.

If it's a girl, she's probably a smaller version of herself. She wants to make beautiful dresses for her and personally teach her music, chess, calligraphy and painting.

However, she will never have the chance to see her child.

Within an hour, she felt severe pain in her lower abdomen, and large swaths of blood stained half the bed red.

Several steady-looking women ran in from outside the door, loudly giving orders to the maids.

Shen Ruoyan's consciousness was a little blurry. In the confusion, she seemed to see Lu Yan's face. Mr. Lu, who was cold and self-possessed, had an anxious look on his face. He held Shen Ruoyan's hand and kept mumbling in her ear:

"Yan'er, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, you will be fine."

After walking around the gate of hell, Shen Ruoyan finally woke up.

Some of the maids said that it was the thousand-year-old ginseng that played a role, while others said that it was Mr. Lu's tireless care that moved God and made Madam safe.

Shen Ruoyan lay on the bed silently, not feeling lucky for being rescued, but instead letting out a long sigh because she had to continue living in this world.

After losing her child, she really became a loner in this general's mansion.