Quick thread: Xiao Qingmei became a millionaire after focusing on tea art

There is a poem from the ancients that says: Heaven and earth represent the reverse journey of all things; time represents the travelers of hundreds of generations.

And the dream of life, what is the joy of geometry?

The ancients went out at night holding candles, which is good for them.

……

Jinli didn't know where Xiaotuanzi had gone, or why she had browsed through her past in such a bystander manner.

She just felt a little sad.

Is this what my life looks like in the eyes of others?It seems that what has kept me from taking a step forward is not the hurt I suffered when I was a child, nor the brokenness of what I once thought I believed in, but the cocoon in my heart...

I heard that for people who wear masks for a long time, the masks will eventually become one with them.

When she was very young, she thought she had achieved everything, thought she was happy, and thought her future was bright and magnanimous... So even though she suffered many setbacks later, she still stubbornly maintained the almost perfect and upward child image created in her childhood textbooks. As an eternal yearning.

She would feel ashamed of her selfish thoughts, and the garbage she didn't clean up at the train station seemed to be engraved in her heart forever.At that time, she hated rejecting the family in her hometown, and she also hated her classmates at school.But deep down in her heart, the standards and standards instilled by others told her that she should repay evil with kindness and lead the people around her to make progress together.When she heard the truth told by Rong Zixiu in the Rong family garden, she felt disgust deep in her heart.She should have left the Rong family and redressed these injustices with a righteous heart...

Too many things happened that did not match the knowledge she received when she was young.She really didn't know what to do, and she once wanted to ask the teacher for help.Because those knowledge and principles were told to her by the teacher, she might be able to answer her questions.

Unfortunately I couldn't find it.

Later, when she had a mobile communication device, she talked to her teacher about some things at school, and all she got was: "After all, junior high school is different from elementary school."

It's funny that she realized later that what she knew as a child was not comprehensive.

Repaying kindness with kindness is just the teacher's way of hoping there will be less disputes in the class.

The complete sentence is this: How to repay kindness with kindness?Repay kindness with kindness and repay evil with kindness.

But at that time, she couldn't retaliate directly.She has a good relationship with everyone, but she doesn't like anyone.

Later, in college, Jinli took some elective courses.She has learned a lot about things she didn't understand before, but she still seems unable to establish her own principles of doing things, or in other words, she cannot establish the way of doing things that she longs for.

Seeking advantages, avoiding disadvantages and pretending have become instinctive.

She didn't know why Chi Mu became dependent on someone like her.She had obviously told him a long time ago to think independently about what she wanted and what she wanted to do.

She had always known that Chi Mu had low self-esteem due to being ostracized and isolated by her classmates as a child and having a bad family background, so she was the only one she was willing to talk to in elementary school.He regards her as a reliable person, but as he gets older, he spends time with her and knows most of her past. He should have known what kind of person she is.

She was not, as he thought, someone who could share his suffering.She also couldn't understand his pain, nor would she try to.On the contrary, every time she saw their family of three, she would think of the scene when she was a child.

The more I think about it, the more I feel like I have never been loved.

So of course she thought about staying away, but once she took the initiative to alienate him.Soon you will hear that he was bullied and talked about by so and so again.Jinli didn't believe that Chi Mu could be so weak, he just did it on purpose.

Being bullied on purpose.If Jinli didn't care about him, he wouldn't cherish him.

Since he doesn't cherish himself, what if he is used by her?She made it clear to him early on.

At the airport at that time, Jinli was actually not sure whether Chi Mu would help her stop Lu Yu.Because Chi Mu obeyed her at first because he wanted to stay by her side, but that time she wanted to leave.

She didn't know whether he sensed her wishes, or whether he was tired of chasing and simply gave up - none of this had anything to do with her.What she has learned over the years is not to speculate too much on other people's emotions towards her, and to avoid all sentimental considerations.

Self-disgust is a state she has been in for a long time.

This state can always be covered up by her.Shen Yunshu can be regarded as a trigger point.

Jinli didn't know how to describe how Shen Yunshu felt in her heart. She just felt that everything was fine with him.It is the sunshine she most wants to be.

Her dislike of herself also came from this. She once wanted to be a very good and bright person.Later, when she was hurt, she wanted to be an indifferent person.She seemed to have succeeded, but she was so unsteady.She always tortures herself in her heart.

The louder the praise from the outside world, the deeper the loneliness inside her.

Shen Yunshu can always cure her anxiety very well.He would take her to do many meaningful things instead of deliberately doing things to please her.He made her feel like they were on equal footing and she became good friends with him so naturally.

However, she soon developed an escape mentality.She didn't want Shen Yunshu to see that she was always pretending.She hoped that in the eyes of her senior, she would be a trustworthy good friend like him.

However, Shen Yunshu treated her better and better, even gradually surpassing the boundaries of friends.Jinli felt that he seemed to have changed a little.In the past, he only did what he believed was right and good, but later he became more and more accommodating to her.

This was not what Jinli wanted to see.She couldn't understand it and even felt that she had influenced him.The inner condemnation was overwhelming, and finally turned into determination and self-destruction.Maybe... just admit how bad you are.

In fact, she was not completely ignorant of Shen Yunshu's mood.But being friends already made her feel more pressure, and she couldn't bear more of his preference.She cannot love, nor can she learn to be loved.

When the plane crashed, there was a roar in my ears.Jinli felt a little relieved, so let's leave it like that, that's good.

She actually didn't understand why she wasn't dead yet, but she didn't care where she was going.She went to the world that the white-haired dumpling talked about with a game and indifferent attitude.She found that the people in these worlds were still the same passionate people. She was so capricious and willful, but they never condemned her.

One world after another...

Maybe the time to live is indeed too long.She actually gradually stopped worrying about how bad and bad a person she was.Her eyes gradually shifted from self-examination to people outside.

Look at their benevolence, justice, etiquette, wisdom and trust, and see their chivalrous and sentimental hearts.Everyone has their own life and emotions, as well as their own unwillingness and grievances.The world seems not to be black and white, but she seems to have a future.

Wandering in time and space, Jinli suddenly thought of something deep in his memory.Human essence is the collection of all social relations.She keeps meeting new people and new things, does it mean that her nature is also changing?

They are so determined, so what about her.Does being good at concealing something mean it must be false?Does wearing a mask mean you are a bad person?She always felt that she was not who she was when she pretended to be cute, but what was she really like?

Let go of yourself and embrace the world instead.

Thank you for all the encounters...

[Ding dong, Li Li, your mission is completed.I have become the most powerful little dumpling, and you will also be the most brilliant Lili in the future! 】

When Jinli opened her eyes, the dazzling sunlight almost made her unable to open them...

Snow-white ceiling and the smell of disinfectant.She wakes up in a hospital bed.

"Lili, are you awake?!"

It was Lu Yu's excited voice. It was his turn to take care of her today.

……

A month later, Jinli was discharged from the hospital.

She was sitting on the balcony of her apartment, the sun was warm.

This month, there is no emptiness and no dumplings, everything is so real.She was even a little dazed, not knowing whether those small worlds were real and experienced, or whether they were just a means of treatment as the seniors and others said.

Or maybe the so-called treatment method was the reasonable reason for Xiaotuanzi and the others to successfully revive her.

But...it doesn't matter.

She will always remember it.

Jinli raised her hand and looked at the dazzling sunlight through the gaps between her fingertips.As long as she remembers these encounters, they all have meaning.She can't change what has happened, but she still has a future.She will also encounter new scenery, which is enough to dissipate all the haze in her heart.

Jinli did not go abroad in the end, but in an ordinary town, there was a quiet and elegant primary school teacher.

It is said that the teacher not only has a gentle temperament, but also is versatile and gets along extremely well with the students.However, he lived a very simple life. He did not leave any savings throughout his life and dedicated them all to public undertakings.

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