Traveling through books in the 70s: The group favors the Wang family’s little koi carp

Shen Cao'er: "Shen Jin, can I talk to you alone?"

"This……"

Everyone looked at each other, and Shen Jin nodded without hesitation.

Shen Cao'er was like this, so what could she have to guard against if she disagreed? It couldn't be that she was worried that Shen Cao'er would jump up from the hospital bed and beat her.

Besides, she and Shen Cao'er didn't have such an enmity to the extent that Shen Cao'er could ignore his body and risk his last breath to give her a break.

Nothing to worry about.

After watching the people crowded in the ward go out, Shen Caoer struggled to sit up from the bed when the ward door closed.

In the spirit of humanitarianism, Shen Jin did not help her, but could only persuade her: "Don't move."

If everything was fine and something happened and she ran out of breath, then she would still have to bear the responsibility.

Shen Cao'er tugged at the corner of her mouth and said indifferently: "Don't worry, it's okay. I know my own body."

"I can't hold my breath until I hear with my own ears that Shen Hua'er gets retribution."

Shen Jin paid no attention to the grudge between her and Shen Hua'er.

Shen Jin was more curious: "What do you want to say to me alone?"

She didn't think she and Shen Cao'er had any topics that needed to be avoided.

Shen Cao'er struggled to position herself, breathing heavily, looking at Shen Jin with uncontrollable envy.

He didn't answer Shen Jin's question. Instead, he leaned against the bed as if he could finally sit down and chat with an old acquaintance, his eyes vacant...

Shen Cao'er: "Shen Jin, I really envy you. You were obviously the most inconspicuous and least popular person in the family before."

"I didn't want to talk to you at that time. You were ugly and withered. You could tell that there was a lot on my mind, but my mouth was like a stuffy gourd. I couldn't even beat you with a stick. That kind of temper …”

She sneered softly: "I don't say it's annoying, but it's not popular."

And she didn't like those cousins ​​in the first place, so before the family split, or before her fourth uncle Shen Jiang was injured and retired from the army, and her fourth aunt Xie Fang ran away, she never looked at Shen Jin seriously.

The expression on Shen Jin's face was slightly solemn. She thought that Shen Cao'er saw that something was wrong with her and left her alone just to reveal that she was not the same person as Shen Jin before.

But she didn't expect Shen Cao'er's next words to make her confused on the spot.

Shen Cao'er: "You looked away when the family was separated, right?"

Shen Jin: "What do you want to say?"

What to look away from?

Shen Cao'er acted as if he hadn't heard her question and said to himself: "That's right, the situation in your family was like that at that time. If you don't look away and change your coward character, you really won't be able to survive. "

"If it were me, I would probably be able to fight with my family regardless of the situation."

"Shen Jin, do you think it's funny or not? Looking back on the past, I actually envy you for having such an opportunity and having the opportunity to be reborn in such an environment."

Her face was full of envy that Shen Jin had the opportunity to be forced into a desperate situation.

She was so envious that Shen Jin was confused and didn't understand what she was envious of.

What's there to envy?

As if she could see Shen Jin's confusion, Shen Cao'er answered her doubts this time.

Shen Cao'er: "You must think that I am not clear-headed and half-crazy."

"I'm not crazy. You don't understand my thoughts. Even if you are a smart person, you don't understand why I envy your past."

She blinked her dry eyes: "When people live, they either encounter obstacles or they are uneventful."

"If you live an ordinary life, you will be like a toad in the pot, being boiled bit by bit in warm water, and you will not know it is too late until you are about to die."

"Just like me, I have been boiling in the warm water in the Shen family's main room. I am obviously stupid, but because the environment is so comfortable and my parents are taking care of everything, I don't even realize how stupid I am. .”

"I thought I was a smart person. When my wings hardened, I wanted to fly outside."

She smiled bitterly and looked down at her broken body lying on the hospital bed.

"This is the result. Arrogance cannot see the consequences of one's own weight."

This was the first time in her life that she admitted her failure. In front of Shen Jin, Shen Caoer had nothing to be embarrassed about.

Admitting one's own failure and stupidity in front of mediocre people is something Shen Caoer cannot accept and cannot do.

But in front of smart people, no one is smart, and admitting that you are stupid is just a normal thing.

Shen Cao'er: "Shen Jin, don't blame me for speaking out. You were stupid before. You were so stupid that you hoped to get maternal love from someone like Xie Fang."

"You work hard at home without complaint. You are as stupid as Shen Zhaodi. You think that as long as you are good and obedient, you will be treated well."

"But your life is different from mine. If there hadn't been any changes, which is what I call a 'failure', you wouldn't have been able to see through it and it wouldn't have turned into what it is now."

After hearing what she said, Shen Jin vaguely understood what she meant.

Sitting on the stool, Shen Jin said, "You mean, I should be grateful to my father for returning home after being seriously injured?"

Shen Cao'er shook his head: "I'm not that vicious. My fourth uncle is still very nice. There's no need for me to trick you into thanking him for being the person he is now when he was about to die."

"I want to say that this is fate. If nothing had happened to my fourth uncle at that time, Xie Fang would not have remarried in a hurry because he was afraid of becoming a widow."

"Your life will be like my previous life, without any troubles. Even if you live a useless life, as long as your fourth uncle is here, he will be able to support you no matter what happens."

"Someone will make the decision for you and help you. If you don't have the chance to be forced to a dead end, your character will not change. You will grow up from a small child to a big one, and then be arranged by your family to marry someone who is not praised by outsiders for your so-called "honest temper". A good country boy."

If there were no changes, nothing happened to Shen Jiang, and there were no ups and downs in life, then this should be Shen Jin's original life.

A frog is boiled in warm water. He will be boiled to death in a lukewarm manner throughout his life. In the end, he will remain a frog in a well.

Shen Cao'er: "That's why I envy you. At the critical moment, you encountered a life-changing obstacle."

"We have different fates. I don't have any obstacles that can force me to change, so I can only be a frog in the well who wants to change the status quo but doesn't know how."

"I was not forced into a desperate situation, and my family did not rely on me to survive the crisis, so I had no say in the family."

"But I am an ambitious toad. I don't want to suffer in that small pot all the time. I have to go from one small pot to another for the rest of my life."

“I want to live a good life and see bigger places.”

"But I don't have the right to speak at home. No one cares about my ideas. They don't agree with me. They think I'm fooling around. It's not like you in the fourth room. Why do you want to do something as useless as going to school? The whole family can support you and be proud of you.”

And it's not just about their status in the family, Shen Cao'er knew that the biggest difference between her and Shen Jin was their personalities.

But Shen Jin's personality before was worse than hers, and now he has grown up like this. Isn't it thanks to the things that happened in the fourth room and the setbacks that tempered people?

Shen Cao'er: "Without the profound ups and downs you experienced, I can't change my temper, and I don't realize that my temper needs to be changed."

Looking back, she was full of regrets: "I had such a low self-esteem, dark, greedy and timid character, and fled in a panic from the 'pot' that kept me boiling with warm water in the big room."

"I thought I wouldn't be who I am after I jumped out of the pot, and I would be able to live a good life without being arranged to marry a poor man who would never be able to live in the fields for the rest of my life, but..."

She looked at her current embarrassment, but she still overestimated herself.

Shen Cao'er doesn't have to do anything now, she just needs to wait to die.

So she has a lot of time to review why she failed and got to this stage step by step.

She was a little unwilling: "If I could have noticed the problem with my character earlier, experienced a transformation like yours earlier, and become as tough, smart and confident as you are now, then I would definitely not end up like this in my life... …”

It was obvious that Shen Jin was not as good as her before. If someone like Shen Jin could become so outstanding, could she not be as good as Shen Jin back then?