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An An's crying was heartbreaking, and it also tugged at my heart as a mother.

This annoyed me so much that I even blamed the childcare teacher, thinking that she couldn't coax the child. The child was already crying like this, but she still let the child continue to cry.

I rushed forward angrily, walked directly to the nursery teacher, snatched An An from her arms with a cold face, and reprimanded me with a cold face: "Are you going to take care of the child? What is the child crying like?!"

My reprimand made the childcare teacher look aggrieved. He wanted to defend but hesitated to speak. He just bit his lips and watched me hold An An. He wanted to take the child several times, but I avoided it indifferently.

I coaxed An'an softly, sang to him, walked around non-stop, shaking him in my arms, which gradually weakened his crying.

Seeing An An who was slowly falling asleep in my arms, my aching heart eased a bit.

The childcare teacher advised me cautiously: "Put the child on the bed, it will spoil the child if you keep holding it like this."

As she said this, she stretched out her hand to me, trying to take the child, but I didn't give the child to her.

I hugged An'an, looked at her sleeping face, and felt more and more that she was very similar to Xixi when she was a child.

Xixi also liked to cry when he was a child, but every time he came into my arms, he would obediently stop crying.

My gentle eyes stared at An An for a moment, but I subconsciously pronounced Xixi's name.

"Xixi is not afraid, Mommy is by your side! Mommy is with you!"

During this period, the childcare teacher persuaded me several times, and I reluctantly put An An back on the crib.

At this time, I gradually calmed down, thinking of my attitude towards the childcare teacher just now, I couldn't help but feel guilty.

Xixi was brought up by a childcare teacher when she was young, and now An'an is also taken care of by her.

The childcare teacher has been following me, and I know how much she cares about Xixi and An'an.

But my behavior just now really hurt the parenting teacher's heart, as if I didn't trust her.

Feeling guilty, when I walked out of the baby room, I took the initiative to stop the nursery teacher.

I sincerely apologized to her: "I'm sorry, it was my bad attitude just now, I was too worried about the child, she cried so hard that my heart hurts like a pain, I didn't know why I was stunned for a while, to you Got angry."

"It's okay, I can understand." The childcare teacher didn't blame me, but comforted me with empathy: "Every mother is reluctant to let her child cry. Just now An An did cry a little fiercely. But children can't Just pick him up when he cries, not to mention hugging and coaxing while walking, this will make the child get used to it, and it will be difficult to coax him when he cries later."

In terms of raising children, the childcare teacher is a professional after all, and knows more about children than I do.

I nodded knowingly, knowing that I had misunderstood the parenting teacher.

"I know you must have your reason for doing this. I was confused at the time. I don't know what happened to me. When An An cried, I seemed to lose my mind when I was hungry..."

Listening to my explanation, the childcare teacher sighed.

She looked at me seriously, and persuaded me earnestly: "I suggest that you go to see a psychiatrist. Whether you are in a good mood or a good mental state, nothing is right..."

The parenting teacher spoke carefully, but she still told me the truth frankly.

"When you were holding An'an just now, you kept shouting Xixi's name."

I was stunned, I didn't realize it.

I did think of Xixi when I saw An'an, but did I always call the name "Xixi"?

Looking at me suspiciously, the childcare teacher nodded affirmatively, "Yes."

"I know that Xixi's death has hit you hard, but you can't keep making things difficult for yourself like this. If you continue like this, you will get sick."

The childcare teacher frowned, full of worries about me, "So I still suggest you see a psychiatrist to completely open up your knot."

My mind was a little confused for a while, I always thought that I had gradually accepted the fact that Xixi passed away, but the reality is that I did not face the reality.

The childcare teacher patted me on the shoulder, "Xixi doesn't want to see you like this either."

My heart is empty and uncomfortable, and I don't know what's wrong with me.Maybe it's true, as the parenting teacher said, I'm sick.

……

Since returning to Su's villa, I have slept in Xixi's room every day, and only in Xixi's room can I sleep peacefully.

And I'm also used to shutting myself in Xixi's room, playing with the toys he once liked, disassembling and reassembling those Lego, as if Xixi was still playing with me by my side.

Until two knocks on the door broke my self-fantasy.

I raised my head subconsciously and saw Xie Yue in surprise.

Xie Yue was still carrying a suitcase at this time, obviously rushed over just after getting off the plane.

"You're back?" I was still a little surprised, I remember he said that he would go overseas for a long time on a business trip.

Xie Yue let go of the luggage in his hands, walked into Xixi's bedroom, sat down beside me slowly, and picked up the broken pieces of Lego on the floor.

"Is this what Xixi likes?"

Xie Yue asked softly, which made my eyes blush.

I responded and smiled bitterly, "But I'm too stupid, and I can't assemble it after taking it apart. If Xixi is here, I can definitely assemble it quickly."

"I'll help you." Xie Yue patiently stayed by my side, helping me put together the Lego bit by bit.

Looking at the reassembled and complete Lego, I didn't feel any relief in my heart.

Lego pieces can continue to be assembled together, but life cannot.

Those who have lost can never come back to me, just like my empty heart can never be filled.

Xie Yue's mood was also very low, he stared at the Lego, and said softly: "I heard about Xixi as soon as I got on the plane, I know, this is a hurdle that you can't overcome."

Xie Yue hit my point.

Everyone is persuading me to relax and to move forward.

But everyone understands the truth, but Xixi is my son, I watched him grow up little by little, how can I feel relieved?

My tears fell down, and I laughed at myself: "I feel like I am the most incompetent mother in the world. I failed to give him a happy family, and I failed to give him a warm environment to grow up. He was forced to be sensible, and he was not even given an innocent and happy childhood."

I frowned in pain, and looked at Xie Yue as if asking for proof: "You said, does Xixi regret choosing me as a mother? If there is another life, he will definitely not choose me again."