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I have aphasia, but it doesn't bother me much.

I didn't want to say anything, and I didn't have any emotions. I just looked at everything in the ward numbly.

"Shishi?" Yu Chenjun called me tentatively.

I heard it, but I didn't respond.

Yu Chenjun sat beside me, with distressed and helpless expression on his face, and comforted me: "Shishi, be stronger, you can't just go down like this."

I know they will persuade me that during the days when I was hospitalized, whether Gao Pan or Yuan Yue, they all came to persuade me to accept the reality and think about it, but Xixi's death was like a thorn in my heart. It's stuck deep in my heart, numb with pain, and I can never pull it out.

Yu Chenjun sighed, and took my hand, "I can understand how uncomfortable you are feeling now. I thought that when Su Yu passed away, I was like you. But Xixi's matter has not been investigated yet, and there are still An An is waiting for you, you must not give up on yourself, you must cheer up quickly."

I slowly shifted my gaze to Yu Chenjun.

As Yu Chenjun spoke, his eyes turned red and tears fell from his eyes.

I numbly raised my hand to wipe away Yu Chenjun's tears, but my heart was empty, and I really wanted to cry with her, but my eyes were so dry that I could no longer shed tears.

Yu Chenjun forced a smile at me, and said softly: "I asked the doctor, your physical condition is still stable and you can be discharged from the hospital. May I take you to find Ayu? We live together and stay with you. looking at you."

I looked into Yu Chenjun's eyes, full of sincere concern, but there was no wave in my heart.

I didn't answer, and I couldn't answer, I just lowered my head silently and let them arrange.

Yu Chenjun asked Yuan Yue to handle the discharge procedures for me.

That night, in order to take me away, Yu Chenjun disguised himself and left the hospital with me.

Arriving at Bi Changlin's old house, Yu Chenjun knocked on the door, and soon someone opened the door.

The door opened, and the first person I saw was Su Yu.

"Shishi, you're here!" Su Yu looked at me with surprise eyes, and pulled me in.

Seeing Su Yu's simple and pure smile and clear eyes, it must be that Yu Chenjun did not tell him about Xixi.

Yeah.

Su Yu's condition improved after a long time, so he shouldn't be affected by these stimuli.

I was pulled into the room by Su Yu, and I looked around the whole room. The room was cleaned very clean by them, and the tidy up was also very warm, not at all like the deserted one when I first came here.

Yu Chenjun didn't see Bi Changlin in the lobby, so he asked Su Yu: "Where's Teacher Bi?"

Su Yu shook his head, "I don't know why he went, so it's not easy to ask people. I only know that he went out."

"Didn't you say when you'll be back?" Yu Chenjun glanced at me, hesitant to speak.

"No."

Su Yu shook his head blankly, Yu Chenjun frowned and sighed.

"Wait for Teacher Bi to come back, and show Ruan Shi a good look."

Hearing what Yu Chenjun said, Su Yu walked up to me and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you? Are you sick again? And you refuse to eat and sleep well, right?"

Looking into Su Yu's eyes, I thought of Xixi.

Su Yu didn't know that Xixi had passed away. In the explosion, Su Yu would have sacrificed himself to protect Xixi and me.

But now, as a mother, I failed to protect my son.

Eye sockets were sore, I closed my eyes in despair, the chill in my heart was about to swallow me.

Su Yu's worried voice still rang in his ears: "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?"

Facing Su Yu's questioning, I didn't know how to answer, and I couldn't answer.

Fortunately, Yu Chenjun changed the topic in time.

"It's getting late, Shishi must be tired too. Let's take her back to her room to rest first."

Su Yu nodded, completely obeying Yu Chenjun, and sent me back to the room.

Su Yu happily introduced to me: "Mr. Chen specially arranged this for you. I said she has a great talent for interior design. See if you like it."

Everything in this room is brand new, which shows Yu Chenjun's intentions.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Su Yu continued to mutter: "Mr. Chen said that the beautiful environment makes people feel at ease. If you live here, your mood will also improve, which will also benefit your recovery from physical illness."

I know Yu Chenjun's intentions, but she doesn't have to do these things.

Su Yu also seemed to sense my abnormality, so he didn't say anything more.

"Then...you have a good rest, tomorrow we will have a barbecue in the yard together."

I was not at all interested in what Su Yu said. After he left the room, I didn't change my clothes, and just nestled on the small sofa at the end of the bed.

The bedroom was beautifully furnished, but it seemed empty to me.

My mind always thinks of Xixi involuntarily, and every time I think of it, my heart feels suffocating pain.

I was barely half asleep on that small sofa, and would always wake up suddenly, trying to call out Xixi's name, but I couldn't make any sound when I opened my mouth.

Until dawn, Yu Chenjun was really worried and came to my room to see me, while I was sitting on the sofa with my knees hugged, my eyes half-opened, neither wanting nor daring to sleep.

As long as I close my eyes, I will see Xixi's charred corpse.

My Xixi, what kind of pain did he go through?He must have been screaming "Mommy" at the top of his lungs as the fire burned through him.

But what about me?I don't know.

I was also full of hatred towards myself, I hated myself for not staying at the school gate for a while when I sent him to school.

If I hadn't been in a hurry to go to the playground, I would have stayed a little longer and nothing would have happened to Xixi.

Blame me!I am an incompetent mother!It was impossible to give him a happy family, and I experienced those things with me at that young age.

Now, I can't even protect his life.

I hated myself and wanted to take revenge on myself, so I bit the back of my hand without feeling any pain at all.

"Ruan Shi!"

My behavior frightened Yu Chenjun, she pulled my hand away and stopped my behavior.

"Are you crazy?! Don't you want this hand?!"

I looked over in a daze, only to see that the back of my hand had begun to bleed, and the deep tooth marks were shocking enough.

But I didn't feel the slightest feeling in my heart. Looking at my wound, I felt a little relieved.

I am an incompetent mom and I deserve what I get.

But as long as all the pain and revenge befall me, why do you have to hurt my Xixi?

I raised my head to look at Yu Chenjun, I didn't know if she would understand, I told her with my eyes, the damned person should not be Xixi, it should be me, it should be me!