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"You don't love Hong Yue." Li Jing said suddenly after driving for a few minutes.

Qin Feng looked at Li Jing in surprise.

"No matter in the past or now, including when you wanted to marry Hong Yue before the accident, you have never loved Hong Yue in your heart. From the beginning to the end, the only person you love in your heart is Zhou Qian." Li Jing said slowly, not asking, but making a direct and affirmative judgment.

Qin Feng was somewhat shocked because Li Jing said something that he had always known in his heart but had not dared to admit.

"I didn't say that." Li Jing glanced at Qin Feng and said.

Qin Feng glanced sideways again. Since these words were not said by Li Jing, they could only have been said by Hong Yue.

"Hong Yue told me that she was very happy when she first married you, but gradually she began to suffer, very much. She was very depressed every day and was under tremendous pressure. This pressure made her feel suffocated."

Qin Feng knew what Hong Yue's pressure was. Hong Yue's pressure came from self-blame. It was indeed as Hong Yue said, by marrying Hong Yue, Qin Feng almost sacrificed his lifelong happiness.

"At first I thought she was just being overly emotional, but after spending more time with her, I knew she was telling the truth."

"In addition, she is now very happy in the school for the disabled. She is happy from the bottom of her heart. She has said many times that this is the life she wants to live now, a world that belongs to her."

"Because of her paralysis, she has low self-esteem and is very sensitive to the strange looks from people around her. Her emotions have also become fragile. In this school for the disabled, because everyone is physically disabled, no one will think she is different. She lives very comfortably there."

"If... Qin Feng, if you want me to give you rational advice as an outsider, I think you... should get divorced."

"Not only Hong Yue is suffering, I can also see that this marriage makes you miserable as well. In fact, you may suffer no less than Hong Yue. Am I right?" Li Jing asked Qin Feng.

Qin Feng smoked heavily and did not answer Li Jing's question.

In fact, Qin Feng had already given his answer by not answering.

"Actually, it doesn't matter whether we get divorced or not. The relationship between her and I has no practical significance." Qin Feng said slowly.

"But I am worried about one thing now. If I divorce her, will her mental state be stimulated again? I decided to get married because she had psychological problems in the first place."

"Secondly, if I divorce her, what will she do in the future? If I divorce her, given her personality, she will never accept any help from me, and her brother and sister-in-law will most likely ignore her because she divorced me. Who will take care of her then?"

"Have you ever thought about how miserable and lonely she will be once I divorce her? This sadness is not only material, but also psychological." Qin Feng said slowly.

Li Jing was silent. She had never thought about these things.

Qin Feng had not just thought about this issue today. He had been thinking about this issue since Hong Yue proposed divorce to him a few months ago.

Qin Feng knew that Hong Yue was very depressed and he himself was also very painful. It was because of these considerations that Qin Feng had always insisted on not agreeing to a divorce.

"I don't think so. If she hadn't entered the school for the disabled, she might have had the problem you mentioned, but after entering this school, I don't think she would have the problem you mentioned."

"She likes and enjoys life here very much now." Li Jing said after thinking for a while.

Qin Feng nodded. This was the reason why he started to seriously think about divorce after he went to the school for the disabled and saw Hong Yue's condition today.

"Qin Feng, if you don't want Hong Yue to get a divorce, her strong sense of self-blame will completely crush her." Li Jing persuaded.

Qin Feng was silent again. This decision was not easy for Qin Feng to make.

"Li Jing, lend me some money. I want to buy a house in Dongyang, next to the school for the disabled. I have some money from Li Li, but it's not much, only tens of thousands of yuan, which is definitely not enough for the down payment."

"No matter whether I decide to divorce Hong Yue in the end, I must first give her a home, a place to settle down. With a home, she will feel safe. This is what I should do before deciding whether to divorce her." Qin Feng said slowly after a few minutes of silence.

Li Jing was very surprised by Qin Feng's decision. She didn't expect that Qin Feng would have such an idea in his mind, but she was not surprised at all that Qin Feng would think so.

"Qin Feng, you are kind-hearted, and I also think this is necessary. Without a house, there is no home, and without a home, there is no sense of belonging and security. For a woman, especially a disabled woman with no one to rely on, this is indeed very important."

"But a house is too expensive for you, and it will also be very stressful. Hong Yue may not accept it. You know her character, she will not let you be burdened with debt." Li Jing said.

Qin Feng sighed. Li Jing was right. Hong Yue would indeed not accept it.

"Buy it in full. If you take out a mortgage, she will think that you will need to tighten your belt and live a frugal life for more than ten or twenty years to pay off the mortgage, and she will definitely not accept that. But if you buy it in full, maybe she will accept it for the sake of divorce." Li Jing said after thinking for a while.

“Pay full price… I don’t have that much money.”

"I'll pay for the house, you just need to tell her that you bought it. Don't forget, you own half of my beauty salon, but you refused to take it at first. But I owe you this, so consider this house as my repayment to you." Li Jing was afraid that Qin Feng would not agree, so she quickly found an excuse.

"You gave me the money for the investment in your beauty salon a long time ago. We have already settled our debts and you don't owe me anything. As for buying a house... I'll think about it again. Don't tell her about it for the time being." Qin Feng shook his head. There was no way he could accept Li Jing paying for it.

"Okay, tell me when you've made up your mind." Li Jing didn't insist any further. She knew Qin Feng's character. Talking more would not produce any results and would make Qin Feng disgusted.

Li Jing drove the car to the front of the Red Building, and Meng Dan was standing at the door to greet her.

When we walked into the private room, there was a table full of dishes and Xiao Jianan had already poured the wine.

"Boss Xiao, I've already told you that if there's anything we can just sit down and have some tea and talk. There's no need to make it so grand, and I've already had a meal."

"I don't know what you're drinking and eating today. Can you be full just by drinking? Look, what I prepared for you are all home-cooked dishes that go well with rice. Come, come, sit down. This is the 20-year-old Maotai that I specially took out when you returned to Dongyang." Xiao Jianan smiled and pulled Qin Feng to sit down.