My son is obviously a dandy, so why did he become a tiger of the empire?

The last shot is over.

Gunshots echoed over the cemetery.

All the soldiers turned around in unison and led the team back.

Lin Hui walked up to the family members, helped them up slowly, and bent down sincerely: "I'm sorry, did I not take good care of them? It's all my fault!"

The woman got up from the ground and grabbed his arm tightly.

Lin Hui closed his eyes. If he could be beaten up by them at this time, he would feel much better.

But the woman didn't do anything, but asked seriously: "Are you... his deputy head?"

Lin Hui opened his eyes and nodded vigorously.

The woman wiped her tears vigorously, and forced a smile at him: "Our family Xiaowen wrote back before, saying that his deputy head is the best leader, and that he can meet such a good deputy head in this life." , is his greatest happiness."

"He also told me that he doesn't want to go back for the time being. He wants to stay in the army and work with you for a few more years."

"So, don't apologize. We should apologize to you. Thank you for taking care of him. My son has caused you trouble..."

As I spoke, tears kept streaming down my face.

Another middle-aged man also grabbed Lin Hui's arm and said seriously: "Comrade Chief, please don't say sorry. Our kid was a bad soldier before."

"If you hadn't come and made him a non-commissioned officer, he would have come back to farm with me long ago."

"When he called me, he was always very grateful to you, saying that you are the best soldier in the world, and you are very kind to each of them."

"You can still bring so many people to see them off today, don't say anything, it's not your fault... this is fate!"

He covered his face in tears, and the people behind him also burst into tears.

They held Lin Hui's arm tightly, but Lin Hui could no longer hear the following words clearly.

At this moment, Lin Hui's head was clouded.

There is only tinnitus in the ears.

He seemed to have fallen into the sea, as if cut off from the whole world.

I don't know how long it took, but the cemetery also became quiet.

Everyone was gone, and the sound of crying and crying disappeared.

Lin Hui sat at the bottom of the last step, staring blankly at the arched gate of the cemetery in a daze.

At this time, someone called him.

Lin Hui opened his mouth and turned his head blankly. It was Xu Qianshan.

Xu Qianshan was also looking at him, with a smile on his face: "What's the matter, are you still sad? Tell uncle what's on your mind."

Lin Hui glanced at him, then looked at the gate: "Uncle, a long time ago, when I returned from the island to my current regiment, I thought I had found the meaning of being a soldier, but why am I getting more and more confused now? "

"Why do you want to be a soldier?"

"Is it to protect the family and the country, to protect those people I have never met, or to protect those brothers who eat in the same pot and fight together?"

He looked at Xu Qianshan suddenly: "What does it mean to be a soldier? Uncle, you have been a soldier for so many years, can you tell me?"

Xu Qianshan looked at him and was stunned for a long time.

I wanted to speak several times, but when the words came to my lips, I didn't know how to speak.

He smiled wryly and shook his head: "Uncle can't give you the answer."

Lin Hui looked at him in a daze.

Xu Qianshan also looked at him: "Every good soldier has his own understanding of what it means to be a soldier, and it's naturally the same in your heart. People are different, have different experiences, and have different opinions."

He looked forward: "If this gate is the gate of the army, many people come in every year, and many people leave. Whether they leave or stay, they all have different understandings of being a soldier."

"You need to think about it yourself. I can't impose my understanding on you, and you can't integrate into it."

Lin Hui was silent again.

Looking at the arch ahead, his eyes were full of confusion.

After a long time, he murmured: "I understood the meaning of being a soldier before, that is, to be a good soldier. Wearing this military uniform, one should be worthy of being a soldier."

"To be a soldier of the day, one should love oneself and do one's job well."

"Later, I thought that I could make my brothers stronger and better than other troops. No matter if we stand together, bragging or doing other things, our tiger regiment will always be the strongest one. No one can compare to us. .”

"Later, I wanted to surpass my two elder brothers and even surpass my father."

He went on to say: "Didn't they keep saying that they are such good soldiers? I couldn't refute them before, but now I am not convinced. I also wear this uniform. Why am I worse than you?"

"I just have to surpass you, just to prove it to you!"

Xu Qianshan looked at him deeply, as if looking at the road he walked when he was young.

Lin Hui continued: "Later, it was our military duty to put out the wildfires, because wearing this military uniform means being worthy of the clothes!"

"But I must stand in front of everyone, because I am their commander, and if they fall, I should be the first to fall!"

"Since that day, my meaning of being a soldier has changed again."

"I want to protect every one of my brothers, absolutely nothing can happen to them, but now..."

Lin Hui shed tears sadly: "I didn't protect them. I watched them fall in front of me. I couldn't do anything. My faith was shattered!"

He looked at Xu Qianshan suddenly: "Uncle, what is the meaning of being a soldier? I can't even protect my own brother, am I still a fucking good soldier?"

Lin Hui was emotional and panted heavily.

Seeing his sweat and tears falling together, Xu Qianshan couldn't help feeling heartbroken.

It's not just about the pain.

It is also a pity for the ups and downs encountered by my younger generations on the way forward.

He took a deep breath, patted his shoulder and said, "Boy, maybe you really should take a rest."

"In the special forces, some recruits kill someone after their first mission, and his belief collapses. He can't even pick up a gun, and he can't be a good soldier again. It takes a long time psychologically. Counseling."

"As for you, you are an excellent commander. From the moment your regiment was about to disband, to the number one in the Southwest, your heart is full of pride and confidence."

"But when your soldiers died in front of you, the sense of powerlessness and guilt shattered your pride and self-confidence, just like the special soldiers who killed people on mission for the first time."

Xu Qianshan said earnestly: "Take a good rest for a while, go and clear your mind, if it doesn't work, tell me anytime, I will find the most professional psychological counseling."

Lin Hui stared at him blankly: "Are you going to give me a vacation?"

Xu Qianshan nodded: "You are too tired, go out and relax, go wherever you want."

"The ends of the earth, no matter where you want to go, do whatever you want, meet whoever you want to see, and use this time to do something you want to do."

"I'll give you a month. Think about it carefully. I'll be waiting for you here, and your soldiers will be waiting for you here."

"I will give you good news when you come back."

Lin Hui turned his head in a daze, and the voices and appearances of the two soldiers came to mind again.

And the faces of those family members.

How much he wanted them to come back to life, how much he wanted their family members to beat him up.

In this way, maybe he will feel better in his heart.

So at this moment, no matter what kind of good news it is, it doesn't matter to him anymore.

Lin Hui took a deep breath, stood up slowly, and walked aimlessly towards the outside of the Martyrs Cemetery.

Xu Qianshan also stood up slowly, looked at his lonely back, and sighed softly: "Lin Hui, you still have to untie this knot yourself!"