[The Silmarillion] Romimus

"Twilight and Twilight", this is the interpretation of the name of Romimos, which has gradually become familiar among elves and humans after the first era. It seems that people can easily accept that the rebellious witch has a character that is so reminiscent of desolation and decline. The name, so that occasionally when a few people learned that the original meaning of Romimos should be "twilight", they were all surprised.

"How can such a person have a name that symbolizes light?" They said in unison.

However, that was indeed the original name of Romimos when the world was created, and for Enu, the name was not only a simple title, but also revealed their essence to some extent.

So no matter how unbelievable it is, Romemos is indeed an Ainu subordinate to the light from the beginning of her birth. Although her power is weak and hazy, it seems that she can be completely swallowed by the thick darkness in an instant, but for The yearning and longing for light is the nature of Romimos after all.

But this couldn't explain how she was so attracted to a mere Glorfindel that she couldn't extricate herself!

Of course, Romimos admits that Glorfindel still has some advantages. Even in the entire Glorfindel, Glorfindel is one of the most popular and beloved elves. He is handsome and powerful, but his personality is friendly. Cheerful, with blond hair that Romemus favored.

But in Arda, there are many fair-haired and beautiful elves, the most famous of which is the Vanya elves, but they are the ones that Romimos is least interested in in-depth association; and Anata, objectively speaking It is said that Romemos admitted that Sauron's appearance is indeed perfect and impeccable, but what if the person in that scene that day was not Glorfindel but Anata?

Romemos imagined the scene and felt nauseated.

It's so disgusting.

So Romemos could only reluctantly come to the conclusion: the reason why she was attracted to Glorfindel was not because of his dazzling blond hair, nor was it because the afterglow of the sunset was too charming that day, it was just because——

……

Because he was Glorfindel, simple as that.

If it were any other person that day, even if that person was ten or a hundred times more beautiful than Glorfindel, even if that person was Idril, Exilion, Lucien, or even Varda, Romimos would not It would be so inexplicable that he would fall headlong into it just because of the other party's ordinary glance back.

But why Glorfindel?

Romimos had of course asked himself this question, and the answer was on the verge of coming.

Who ever loved Romimus like Glorfindel Arwenwen?

Undoubtedly, before Romemos did something wrong and was ordered to guard the prison of Mandos, the person she loved the most was Varda Elantieri, and it was precisely because of her love for Varda that she Enter the world of Arda after choosing to follow the stars.

However, as one of the most powerful Valar, there are almost as many Mayas who love Varda as there are stars in the sky, and Romimos is just the most insignificant one of them. Even Varda is unable to take care of every one of them. entourage.

It is worth mentioning that Romimos did not complain about this. The biggest difference between her and Morgoth is that Romimos did not insist on taking possession of the things he loved. It is the desire to completely destroy it, and she is satisfied just looking up at the Goddess of Light from afar.

This situation continued until she offended the Valar for her private opinion, and spent thousands of years with Morgoth in the deserted Mandos prison.

Although there is still a little love for the light deep in my heart, I am completely disappointed with Valeromemus, and even Varda, who has been in love for a long time, can no longer be the reason for her to stay in Valinor. Escaping from the rule of Valar, Romemus came to Middle-earth, oh, not to mention here, it was completely different from what Romemus imagined at first, just look at the people she met: Io, So Lun, Anggolian, Morgoth... One by one is cruel and vicious.

So later Romimos thought, is there really no harm if there is no comparison?In that case, even if Glorfindel was only eight points good, compared with those shameless ones above, he would still shine brightly.

Later, Romemos came to Gondolin. There are many people who are friendly to her here, not only Glorfindel, but Arisil, Idril, Exilion, etc., Romimos And there was no doubt that they had, at least once, been true to themselves.

"If that's the case, why did you only fall in love with him among so many elves?" When Romemos was serving her sentence in the Mandos Palace, a curious Maia once asked her this.

It was even difficult for Romemos to answer this question in words.It can only be said to be a feeling, everyone in Gondolin is very kind to Lan Wen, just like what Turgon said, they accepted Lan Wen as a member of Gondolin without reservation, But... It seems that this is the end of it. Apart from her overwhelming beauty, Lan Wen has nothing special about them, or in other words, she is not special enough to be indispensable.

For example, when Ya Ruixie and Lan Wen got lost at the same time, how many people could be as worried about Lan Wen as much as or even more worried about Ya Ruixie?

So this is the final reason: only in Glorfindel, Romimus ever felt that she was irreplaceable to a person, even though she was small and humble among the gods, she was still treated like a human being. Like the new name that Glorfindel had given her to Lammyn shortly after her return to Gondolin, she was his Iruana—"a gift like no other."

"That's just because you designed the elf lord to think he is responsible for you." Maia said sharply, "If he saved another real elf in the forest, he would treat you the same way. Care for that elf."

"Yes, our relationship has been built on my deceit from the very beginning. His love is not for me, but for 'Lan Wen', and 'Lan Wen' is dead, and I am nothing to him Not anymore." Romimos closed his eyes and sighed softly.

"That's what you did to yourself." Meiya mocked her.

Romemus did not object, because it was so.

But then again, even if we start from scratch, Romimos will still choose to sneak into Gondolin in order to escape from Angband, and Glorfindel will once again decide to take Lan Wen back. Love her unreservedly, and she will definitely be tempted again, nothing will change in any way, it seems that everything is already destined in the dark.

People always think that "destined" love is a very romantic thing, but Romemus hates and fears these four words.

So she would never admit that she was in love with Glorfindel.

However, Romimos did not deny that she had some feelings similar to obsession with Glorfindel at that time, and it was precisely because of this that she did not return to Angband in the first place.

Romemos has been dissatisfied with the law that Gondolin cannot come and go at will for a long time. Even though she admits that there will be no city more beautiful than Gondolin in the whole of Middle-earth, this has nothing to do with how good Gondolin is, the key is It's about whether she has the freedom to choose whether to stay or not.

In the original plan of Romemos, once she found the entrance here, she would leave the closed city immediately. When the location of the secret passage inside Dorin, Romimos would turn around and leave without hesitation.

But now Romimus changed his mind, and she was not weary of Gondolin for a moment, nor did Sauron enforce a time for her return to Angband, though Turgon forbade anyone without him. Agree to leave, but anyway, she knows the exit of Gondolin, can someone stop her if she wants to sneak out?

That being the case, she might as well stay in Gondolin as Lan Wen for a while, and it won't be too late to return to Angband when she is completely tired.

This stay lasted another 300 years.

Romemos put down the scroll in his hand and sighed.

She woke up before dawn, which was not a big deal, Romemus never had the habit of sleeping late.

"Sleep is a waste of time unless it is necessary for the maintenance of physical activity." - Romemus.

Presumably this sentence is the reason why the smile on the face of the always gentle goddess Esther disappears every time she mentions Romimos occasionally.

However, the problem now is that even if she leaves the pillow and bed early, makes herself a cup of hot tea, and opens a book, ready to face this new day full of infinite possibilities, a few hours later, Luo Mi Moss found that only one page had been turned over on her lap, and she couldn't remember what that page said at all.

She has been distracted, not doing anything!

A few months ago Romemos accidentally discovered in a very common ore a substance she had been looking for for a long time, and recently she has been trying to separate it from a pile of impurities as pure as possible. For this reason, she even consulted a bunch of so-called master alchemists who, in her opinion, were talking nonsense most of the time-although none of them could really turn stone into gold, after going through a lot of After the failure, they should have at least some experience in mineral extraction.

However, in the last few hours, she hadn't made any progress at all, not even made a failed attempt, and it was all Glorfindel's fault!It was because he insisted on reminding her of the little things from so long ago yesterday, which distracted her.

The only consolation is that she doesn't have to teach Aragorn today. If she can concentrate next, maybe she can—

Tuk tuk, someone knocked on the door.

"Antonia, are you there?" Gillian's voice sounded outside.

……

[Beep——], she even forgot that she promised Queen Gillean that she would accompany her to embroider today!

Undoubtedly, Glorfindel was also to blame.

"I'm very sorry, Your Highness." Antonia hurriedly opened the door in a panic, "I accidentally forgot our agreement."

"It doesn't matter." Gillian didn't mean to blame her, "We still have a lot of time."

According to human customs, it will be "Valentine's Day" in less than three months. On this day, women will give gifts made by themselves to the man they like, and if the man also likes the woman, he will give it to him. rebate.

Romemos commented on this: Although human life is not long, it takes a lot of effort to set up various anniversaries.

Although this day seems to be prepared for those young lovers who are tacit to each other but have not yet pierced the window paper, in fact, every woman whose girlish heart has not been completely wiped out is eager to make a move for it. The lovely Queen of Gondor Impressively also in this column.

Gilleen plans to give Arathorn a shirt that she sewed by herself on that day, but although her needlework is also good, it can't compare with those full-time maids in the court who do these things. Although Arathon must be very happy to receive such a heartfelt gift from his dear wife, Gilleen himself feels that this is not enough, and Antonia, as the person who is best at weaving and embroidery in Gondor, is naturally Jillraine is the perfect candidate to learn from.

"Although such a trivial matter is harmless, this is not your style, Antonia." Gilleen said, and the subject suddenly changed, "What did Lord Glorfindel tell you yesterday?"

Romemos was showing Gilleen how to make the embroidered pattern more even and smooth. Hearing this sentence, he almost pricked his fingers. Iluvita knew that she hadn't made such a low-level mistake for thousands of years?

"I just asked some small details about Romemos," she tried vaguely, "I told him everything I could answer. But that has nothing to do with my missed appointment today, why did you suddenly bring this up?" ?

"I thought you were as surprised as I was." Gilleen stopped what she was doing, "We have always taken it for granted that Lord Glorfindel and Romimos have a sworn feud, she deceived betrayed him, betrayed him, destroyed him."

"Except for the last point, isn't it true?" Antonia said. "As for destroying him, that's too high a view on Romimos. No one can completely destroy Glorfindel."

"However, he did die indirectly at the hands of Romimos, isn't that right?" Gilleen didn't intend to argue with Antonia. Moss' attitude doesn't seem to be as simple as pure hatred."

"Well, hehe..." Antonia smirked dryly, "Why do you think so?"

"Yesterday when you talked about Romimos and Princess Arisil, Romimos clearly knew that the javelin that stabbed Arisil was poisonous, but she deliberately didn't say it out. It can be said that she was also half of the one who killed Princess Arisil. The murderer. When I heard this, I didn't feel too special, because in my understanding, Romemus is such a cold-blooded and cruel person. It is not surprising that she would do such a thing. It stands to reason Lord Glorfindel should have a deeper understanding of this than I do, but he seems to have a harder time believing it than me."

"That's because he has been evading the facts and naively holding on to hope that Romimus is not as heinous as the rumors say." Antonia said unceremoniously, "It's not incomprehensible, to put it mildly Yes, Romimos can enter Gondolin—or he feels that he is somewhat responsible, and it is only natural to want to relieve his guilt in this way."

Gilleen frowned, and after thinking for a while, shook her head.

"I don't think Lord Glorfindel thinks so," she said. "Perhaps he does think he was responsible for the demise of Gondolin, but from what I know of Lord Glorfindel he doesn't think so." A person who finds all kinds of excuses for himself to escape, he told Romimos...I may not be accurate to say this, but I think it is more like 'deep love, deep responsibility'."

"Do you think he loves Romimos? That's absurd!"

"I'm not saying he loves Romimos," Gilraine said, "but obviously he loves Lanwen so much that he can't even accept that Romimus, who is somehow the same person as Langwen, should be like that." Unbearable."