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The scene went from chaotic to quiet.

Qin Chuli's mood also changed from furious to clenching his fists to hold back his emotions.

Zhou Enyou asked the fat man to drive out the car and took Qin Chuli home.

Along the way, Qin Chuli didn't speak.

After entering the house, he whispered to Zhou Enyou: "I'm going to cook."

Zhou Enyou didn't stop him and let him go to that small space to calm down.

By the time dinner was ready, Qin Chuli had returned to normal.

Zhou Enyou still didn't ask any more questions.

After dinner and washing up, Qin Chuli changed clothes and came out of the room. Zhou Enyou was still sitting on the sofa reading a book. Qin Chuli came over with the book and glanced at Zhou Enyou.

Zhou Enyou took the initiative this time and said, "Do you want to give you time to calm down for a while? If you want to go to Lao Wu and the others for a while, that's fine."

Qin Chuli shook his head and sat down at Zhou Enyou's feet.

Zhou Enyou said nothing and lowered his head to read.

At ten o'clock in the evening, when Zhou Enyou put away the book and lay down on the sofa, Qin Chuli also closed the book and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry for letting you hear this."

Zhou Enyou looked at him.

There was only a weak lamp around, and the room was quiet. Qin Chuli lowered his head, and the clothes on his body were loose, making him look a little thin at the moment.

"I also...don't know if you are willing to listen."

"However, he is not someone who will just give up. So, if you meet him in the future, just ignore him. I will handle the rest myself."

"As for...what he said about Xiaojie...do you want to listen?"

Zhou Enyou turned his head to look at him. Qin Chuli's expression was calmer than ever before, but his whole body seemed to be broken in the darkness.

"What do you want to say?" Zhou Enyou asked him.

Qin Chuli still lowered his head, "I never thought I could say it before. It's too hard to say, but if you want to hear it, then I'm willing to try."

Zhou Enyou: "Then let's not talk about it."

Qin Chuli raised his head and looked at Zhou Enyou.

Zhou Enyou said: "It's in the past, isn't it? Now that it's in the past, there's no need to bring it out to embarrass myself. I'm not a person who likes to listen to stories."

Qin Chuli shook his head, "It's...never passed."

For others, if others said Zhou Enyou's words, he would really stop speaking.

But this is Zhou Enyou.

He has to say it.

Regardless of whether she has him in her future, he hopes to tell him all about himself, and then let her judge whether he is worthy of deep friendship.

I didn’t say it before…

It was really too hard to talk about it, and now I have to say that he shouldn't escape anymore.

"However," Qin Chuli pursed his lips, feeling a little embarrassed, "it's a bit dirty. If you can't stand it, just stop."

Zhou Enyou looked deeply at Qin Chuli and said, "Okay."

"I was taken abroad when I was six years old. You may have heard before that Qin Yu's... is a bit special. His name is Xiaojie, a foreigner. At first, my dad would bring him to live in our house for a few days. Days later, it became more and more frequent. During that time, my grandfather was very busy and had no time at home.

I didn't notice anything unusual about Xiaojie at first. I could feel that he was very nice to me. But gradually, I felt a little uncomfortable because he would touch me here and there more and more. I wasn’t used to it at first and would rather hide in my room than come out to eat.

Xiaojie later came to the room by himself. I locked the door, so he took the key and came over when I was sleeping. For a long time, I didn't dare to really fall asleep. During that time, I suffered from mental breakdown. "

"I told Qin Yu, but he was stunned for a moment at first, and then slapped me hard and said I was a bitch! Later, Qin Yu himself became defensive, and Xiaojie didn't dare to go too far. I don't know why after that. , Qin Yu and Xiaojie started to quarrel,

There was another quarrel, and Xiaojie ran out. Qin Yu chased him out for a long time. The two of them came back wet. That day, after coming back, Qin Yu looked at me differently. That night, Qin Yu served me He insisted on watching me drink a glass of milk. I was only seven years old at the time, so I was very defensive, but he was my dad, so it was really hard to guess his malicious intent. Besides, he and Xiaojie..."

Qin Chuli paused for a moment, "When the power of the milk came back, I saw Xiaojie come in, smiling obscenely. He even started to untie his belt in front of me. I was so dizzy that I could hardly open my eyes. I was in a trance. , saw Qin Yu looking in through the crack in the door. "

"I called him, called him, but he only smiled sullenly. I used my last strength to shrink myself into the bathroom. When my mind was unconscious and my body was hot, I called the old man. As soon as the phone call came through, I The old man immediately understood the incoherent words, and then I used a wooden stick to jam the door lock, and then passed out. "

"When I woke up, the old man didn't come back. I thought everything was over. I opened the door to the room in a daze. The sound of rough breathing mixed with the rain suddenly flooded into my ears. I saw Qin Yu, him...him..."

Qin Chuli could hardly speak anymore.

He endured it, and in the end, he could only reluctantly say, "That was the most embarrassing interpretation of sex when I was young."

Zhou Enyou looked at him and asked softly, "So, you are afraid of contact with others?"

Qin Chuli nodded, "In the beginning, I was afraid of everyone around me. Qin Yu privately warned me not to tell anyone what happened that day, saying that I was a bitch, so that's why Xiaojie had thoughts about me. He also said that if I tell anyone, , people outside will think that I am abnormal, and the old man will not let me call the police, saying that it will bring shame to the Qin family. In short, it seems to have become my problem for a while. "

"Qin Yu was picky about what I wore, and he looked at me more and more displeased. Every time Xiaojie looked at me with that disgusting look, I felt creepy. For a long time, I only went to the bathroom. Inside, stick the stick on the door lock so you can have a good sleep."

"Later, I seemed to have some health problems, but I didn't dare to tell anyone. Later, the uncomfortable symptoms seemed to disappear, and I didn't care."

Just when Zhou Enyou thought, this was all in the past tense.

Qin Chuli said in a low voice: "Later, the old man's business became bigger, and we moved to another place, leaving Qin Yu to live there. Qin Yu didn't like me either, so we didn't see each other very often. Until the day of Qin Meng’s tenth birthday.”

"Qin Yu brought Xiaojie here. Xiaojie was very happy that day. I could feel that his eyes kept falling on you. I felt uncomfortable. I walked back to get some fresh air. Xiaojie followed me. I went back to the room and locked it. Door, I won’t go to bed until very late.”

"While sleeping, I felt a faint fragrance, and then the door of the hotel opened. I heard footsteps coming in. I opened my eyes hard and saw Xiaojie. He walked towards me with a smile. Then, he lay on the bed He came to my side, he seemed to say something at last, and then I heard a painful harsh sound. "

"I felt a red hot flash under my palm. I was so shocked that I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. In the end, I could only fall into an endless coma."

"When I woke up, the first thing I saw was Qin Yu. He stared at me in disbelief. I turned around blankly and saw Xiaojie dying next to me, with a dagger buried in his chest!"

"He died, right next to me. Later I learned that I was unconscious for two full hours."

"This...means that after Xiaojie died, he lay beside me for two hours."

Qin Chuli tried hard to control his irritated emotions and continued to speak word by word, "Qin Yu felt that it was me who made Xiaojie unable to love him, and it was me who killed Xiaojie! He always felt that the person who should go to hell was ,it's me!"

"He even hired someone to kill me. He felt that I had taken away the love of his life."

Qin Chuli lowered his head. After so many years, he still didn't understand. He didn't even understand the world. "But at that time," he said slowly, word by word, "I was only twelve years old."

An age that doesn’t understand anything.

What this world imposes on him is malice that is completely unable to channel itself.