He is more charming than Midsummer

Nan Xia had a problem with him. Even five years ago, he was indeed sorry for her, and he also admitted that he had not compensated Nan Xia properly.

Could it be that she wanted to forgive him by mentioning the past things again.

"I don't blame you, Feng Jingxuan, but if I could do it all over again, I would never want to meet you again. All my misfortunes started from meeting you."

Nan Xia sorted out her past, and she found that it was not so difficult to express all the pain in her heart: "Do you know? When I was thrown into the largest lake in Yuncheng, how cold it was, how cold it was. It made me tremble all over."

"I was about to give birth at that time. I was holding my belly in the lake. I didn't want to die like that. At the last moment, I still hated you. I thought you killed me because I heard you. voice, for so many years, I have been living with hatred for you."

She smiled miserably, feeling that her life was like a joke: "But later I found out that this incident had nothing to do with you, so why did I always think it was you."

She closed her eyes: "Because I don't trust you. There has been no love between you and me from the beginning. Do you still remember? The first thing you said when you woke up was that you wanted to divorce me. I still remember it now. Your indifferent attitude makes me believe that you and Song Yushang teamed up to harm me."

"I've already died once, so I won't do it again."

"Let's leave it at that. Anyway, our fate is over. Now my only hope is to treat Chenchen well. After he recovers, I will leave Yuncheng. You can let me go."

"No." Feng Jingxuan said reflexively.

How could Nanxia leave?Even if they couldn't be together, he wouldn't let her leave his side.

He wanted to watch her, even if it was nice to watch her living beside him.

Nan Xia said bitterly: "Actually, if you ask yourself, I have nothing to do with you. At most, when I married you, I only approved Mr. Feng without your consent. But by that time, you had become a vegetative state. I don’t have the ability to answer.”

"When you were in a vegetative state, I tried my best to take care of you every day, giving you body massage and hoping you would wake up early."

"I came back to Yuncheng later just to take care of Chenchen. I joined your company and made achievements for you. When I came to Feng's hospital, I also worked well and helped you increase the hospital's reputation."

"So, Feng Jingxuan, please let me go after this time. It will be good for you and me."

She breathed a sigh of relief, and there was white mist in the air.

For some reason, after saying all this, she felt empty inside.

Finally said it.

Maybe she and Feng Jingxuan will become strangers in the future.

fair enough.

The reason why they can still get along is because there is still a relationship between Chenchen and them. Once Chenchen's condition recovers, the only relationship between them will be gone.

That's when they completely separated.

Her body moved again, but Feng Jingxuan still stood in front of her. He was tall and straight, blocking all her paths.

Nan Xia stood still, and the surroundings fell into silence. There was nothing to say now. She had already said everything that should be said and what should not be said.

After a long time, Feng Jingxuan's voice became hoarse to the extreme. He gritted his teeth and said, "I can stop disturbing you during this period, but I have to ask a question."

Nan Xia lowered her head, hiding the pain on her face. She tried to adjust her emotions and said in a clear voice: "What's the problem?"

"five years ago."

The man's voice became deeper and deeper, like a stream slowly flowing through Nan Xia's ears: "I was sorry for what happened five years ago. If I had known the truth earlier, I would have protected you."

He owed Nan Xia an apology. Too many things had happened to Nan Xia over the years, and even an apology would be of no use now.

But even if he and Nan Xia can never be together in this life, if there is any, he still has to say it.

At that time, he was indeed wrong. When he woke up, the first person he saw was Song Yushang. He thought that Nan Xia was just a vain woman who married him while he was in trouble.

By the time he remembered everything, something had happened to Nan Xia.

Later, he spent a lot of time and energy looking for her, but even if he found her in the end, there was still a huge gap between them.

Nan Xia stretched out her hand and wiped her eyes carelessly, wiping away all the warm tears inside. She said lightly: "Is there any point in talking about this now?"

Feng Jingxuan smiled bitterly: "It doesn't make any sense."

He put down his hand somewhat dejectedly, and Nan Xia also took this opportunity to pass by him.

At this moment, a vague voice suddenly came from behind: "What should I do so that we can go back to the past?"

Back to the past?

Nan Xia paused for a moment, then walked forward resolutely.

Can she and Feng Jingxuan go back to the past?

A long time ago, she was still an innocent girl. At that time, she just wanted to be with Feng Jingxuan, without any messy thoughts or any interests, so she went to find Mr. Feng and was willing to bet her life.

God knows how happy she was when Feng Jingxuan woke up. She thought the two of them could finally be together.

But that's where the nightmare begins.

"Never possible."

"Feng Jingxuan, my friendship for you was buried in the sea five years ago."

"Even if you didn't do the murder, in the end it was you."

Nan Xia knew that she was expressing her anger, but it was hard for her not to care about it. After all, Song Yushang murdered herself and harmed her child, but she was not punished as she should have been. Instead, she was protected by Feng Jingxuan and sent to live abroad.

There are too many bad things about this man.

"Unless I can go back to five years ago and was not pushed from the sea, maybe I can let go."

That incident has become a lifelong psychological pressure for her. Every time she thinks about the cold and raging sea water, she will tremble all over. She even dreams about drowning every time she dreams at night.

If it happened again, she would divorce Feng Jingxuan immediately when he woke up.

She won't be able to swim through this muddy water.

After Nan Xia left, Feng Jingxuan still stood there, motionless, like a stone watching his wife, quietly looking at Nan Xia's back.

Suddenly, it started to rain.

The rain is not heavy.

Drops of water fell down, hitting the ground, hitting Feng Jingxuan's head, hitting his suit, and finally formed dots one by one.

Like a pearl, like someone's tears.

He closed his eyes, started the car, and drove to the night bar.

Nan Xia didn't sleep well that night, her mind was always dizzy, and she had many terrible dreams.

There were her children in the dream, but later they became farther and farther away from her. In the end, Chenchen's operation failed, and she was left alone.

She woke up from her dream, looked at the empty room, and hugged the pillow weakly.

After a long time, she fell into deep sleep again.

Two in the morning.

When He Zheng received the call, he hurried to the bar.

At this moment, there were several wine bottles beside Feng Jingxuan. He was shocked and quickly took the wine away from him: "Mr. Feng, you can't drink like this."

Feng Jingxuan has a stomach problem. What if he drinks to death if he drinks like this?

As his assistant, he was simply horrified to see his behavior.

"Nan Xia." The man leaned back lazily on the chair. He seemed drunk or just sleeping.

He Zheng sighed: "Mr. Feng, I am He Zheng. Let me take you back."

Looking at Feng Jingxuan's appearance, he and Miss Nan probably had another fight.

He didn't go back tonight, he must have gone to find Nan Xia.

After a long time, Feng Jingxuan opened his eyes. His eyes were soaked with alcohol, with a hazy sharpness, and his voice was low: "She said that she would only be forgiven if she returned to the sea five years ago and she was not pushed down. I."

This is just an excuse.

It is impossible to turn back time. Everyone can only look forward. They can never go back to five years ago. The reason why Nan Xia said this was to express that he did not forgive him.

She will never forgive him in this life, and they will never be together in this life.

But why was he so unwilling in his heart?

He has been looking for Nan Xia for five years, and he hopes they can be together well.

Such a simple request can never be realized.

Song Yushang was just a misunderstanding. He thought that Song Yushang was his savior, so he kept her by his side just to repay her kindness. He and her had always been on good terms.

He was very nice to Song Chuxue because he thought Song Chuxue was Nan Xia, and he wanted to make up for it, but he had never liked Song Chuxue.

As for Xia Chuwei, he just hoped that Xia Chuwei could donate bone marrow for Chenchen. Only in this way, Chenchen could survive, and Nanxia would have hope for the world.

The person he always cared about was Nan Xia.

But she no longer cares.

Feng Jingxuan stood up, his steps still steady, and he said, "He Zheng, take me to the beach."

"I'm going to see for myself what the sea in Yuncheng looks like."

He Zheng: "?"

Although he couldn't understand it, he still took Feng Jingxuan to the beach.

……

The next day, Nan Xia didn't wake up until 10 o'clock. Her brain hurt so much that she called the hospital to ask for leave.

Walking to the mirror, she found that her eyes were bloodshot. She would definitely not be able to go to work like this.

As soon as I washed my face, a video came over.

Over there is Chenchen's childish face.

A lot of things happened yesterday, and she confessed to Feng Jingxuan that she would never be with Feng Jingxuan in this life.

Feng Jingxuan finally acquiesced.

The two of them had agreed in advance.

"Mommy, you look so bad."

Chenchennai said with a purr.

A smile appeared on Nan Xia's face, but the smile was a little ugly: "Really? Maybe I didn't get a good rest yesterday."

Chenchen frowned and said like an adult: "Mommy, you must pay attention to your health."

"I will. I took leave today and plan to have a good rest at home." Nan Xia's expression was gentle: "Mommy will visit you later."

"Okay." Chenchen's voice was crisp, and then there seemed to be light in his dark eyes: "I dreamed about Yubao and Yinbao."

"Clap" sound.

The toothbrush in Nan Xia's hand fell down, and then she picked it up as if nothing happened.

She tried hard to hide her emotions and swallowed all the sadness and sorrow alone, but her voice betrayed her: "What happened to them in the dream?"

"I dreamed that we went to the park to play together. Leaves were falling all over the ground. Yubao was in the front, while Yinbao walked behind. She stepped on a leaf and made a squeaking sound."

"This is something Yinbao can do." A trace of nostalgia flashed in Nan Xia's eyes.

Yinbao is the most active baby inside, and every time she goes out, she is the most active.

Chenchen said: "I rarely dream about them."

Nan Xia felt a flash of distress in her heart. She always dreamed about them, but they were all bad things. She knew that Chen Chen must have missed them and dreamed about them.

Chenchen said seriously: "Mommy, what I mean is that Yubao and Yinbao are still alive."

He called Nan Xia early in the morning and seemed very excited, just for this matter: "I dreamed that they were doing well this time, and my heart was beating very hard. They were conveying news to me, and they were still Stay alive."

Nan Xia looked at his happy face and didn't speak, just remained silent.

Reason told her that she must break Chenchen's illusion, but reality told her that she could not attack Chenchen.

After all, Chenchen just hopes that they are still alive.

Nan Xia's heart ached, but she was an adult and had to accept these facts. Yubao and Yinbao had lost contact for so long. If they were still alive, they would have been found long ago. Wouldn't they have not been found until now? any news.

The chances of them surviving were slim, and she had accepted the news of their deaths.

"Mommy, believe me, they are really still alive. Maybe for some reasons, they can't come back, but they are not dead."

"You have to believe in the telepathy of our triplets. I can sense that they are not dead. Do you know? Mommy, every time Yubao and Yinbao are happy or sad, I can sense their mood. They is also like this."

"So they're definitely alive this time."

Nan Xia didn't believe it in her heart, but she still tried her best to raise the corners of her lips: "Mommy believes in you."

Chenchen looked at her for a while, then frowned: "Did you have a fight with daddy?"

Nan Xia's heart skipped a beat, and she couldn't think of how to explain it. Chenchen was a smart child, and ordinary reasons couldn't deceive him.

"Did Daddy bully you?" Chenchen asked again.

"No, I just didn't have a good rest last night and it has nothing to do with him." Nan Xia said quickly.

Chenchen grabbed his hand in the air and seemed to be touching her eyes through the screen. His voice was soft: "Mommy, I don't know what happened to you, but I hope you can be together."

Nan Xia lowered her eyes, not daring to look into Chen Chen's eyes.

For a child, maybe it's best for her parents to be together, but she just broke up with Feng Jingxuan, and it's no longer possible between them.