I am in the dust when I love you

Gu Wan'er looked at the light that was still on, and opened the album again.

"Assistant He said that my little brother's stomach problem has improved a lot. This is good news. I will continue to work hard."

"Assistant He said, my little brother is still out for social gatherings, so he probably will be late when he comes back.

I'm really worried about his health, he already has an upset stomach, so he must drink less alcohol.

It's just that I sent a message, but he still didn't reply. "

"In recent days, he doesn't like to go home more and more. Counting the days, it's almost half a month.

Fortunately, Assistant He said that he would finish the food delivered every day.

That's good. "

"Grandpa called and asked me how I was doing these past two days.

I really want to tell Grandpa that I am not doing well.

My mother-in-law never let me call her mother, and my sister-in-law didn't like me very much.

Grandpa, I think I'm still an outsider, and I can't fit into their circle.

Grandpa, tell me, shouldn't I have come here to bother him back then?Thank you, why is it so difficult.

However, I can't complain in front of Grandpa.

The life I choose, even if it is kneeling, I will finish it.

Actually, I don't want much, I just want to see my little brother more every day.

After all, he was the one who carried me out of the mountain that year.

Otherwise, I would have stayed in that dark and suffocating loess like my parents. "

"Today is January [-], XX, and the sky is gloomy, just like the seaside in the deep winter of that year, cold and humid.

In the evening, I cooked a lot of delicious food, and called Assistant He, hoping that my little brother would come back and have a meal with me.

I never had my birthday here, because he didn't remember it.

For his birthday, in the past few years, I will make birthday cakes for him and design gifts for him.

But he never came back.

Since no one wanted those gifts, I threw them away too.

Early this morning, my grandfather's blessings were sent to my ears and my heart along with the morning sun.

Coincidentally, my birthday on the lunar calendar coincides with that day of that year.

I told my grandpa, this year, I want to stay here.

Grandpa told me that I was born in the twelfth lunar month and I was afraid of the cold. In winter, I must pay attention to keeping warm.

He also said, remember to eat longevity noodles at night.

He and Zhang Bo and others will also eat at home to celebrate my birthday.

Yes, I have been afraid of the cold since I was a child.

But seeing his body floating on the sea that day, I jumped down to save him without hesitation.

When I saw the cinnabar mole on his palm, I was ecstatic.

God!I actually saved him, my little brother!

do you know?I've been looking for him for years.

Grandpa said, Zhien wants to repay him, even today I saved him once, but without him, I would never have a chance to live, let alone save others.

So, I want to protect him and treat him well.

It's just that he is not that enthusiastic towards me, and he doesn't seem to need my kindness to him. "

"It's past twelve o'clock, and he still hasn't come back.

Fortunately, the cake was not too big, so I ate it myself. After only two bites, I suddenly couldn't eat any more, so I threw it away. "

......

"Today, he came back suddenly, but with a person behind him.

I have never seen that man, he is very young and looks good, but he is not as handsome as his little brother.

He is the most attractive person in my mind.

I just made seafood porridge, and seeing him eating it made me happy.

Recently, he seems to be very busy and rarely comes back.

I wanted to go to the company to see him, but he kept saying that I should go out as little as possible, and don't go to him if I have nothing to do, so I stopped thinking about it.

Here, as long as he can remember to come back from time to time, I will be content.

However, the man took out the needle and said he wanted my blood to save others.

Heh, save people, my little brother spoke, so I chose to obey.

I don't want to make him unhappy. "

......

"I thought that after so many years, no matter how cold and hard-hearted I am, I can cover it up for a day.

But I was wrong.

His heart is made of stone, and the outside is covered with frost.

But that frost is just for me.

In the newspaper, the strange woman was snuggling in his arms, smiling brightly, and he smiled too.

It turned out that he would laugh, but not at me.

What is marriage, I understand.

But apart from that piece of paper, we are just two familiar strangers.

But it seems that now, I have become the third party who meddles in other people's feelings.

Little brother, I will not say any complaints or unhappy words to you, but when the knife is stuck in my heart, I will still feel pain, very painful, very painful. "

.......

"Grandpa also saw the newspaper and called me to go home.

I said, good.

For some kindness, it should take several years to repay it.

It's just that I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.

Little brother, you said that when you arrange everything, you will come back to me.

But I waited for you in that hospital for three days, but you didn't come.

I'm so disappointed.

Because, until I left, I couldn't wait for you, and I didn't know your first and last name, let alone where you came from and where you lived.

Even, I only clearly remember that cinnabar mole, I can't even remember your face clearly.

When I finally met you, I thought God gave me a gift to fulfill my long-cherished wish.

It's just that everything is different from the ending I expected.

Maybe fate dictates that there can only be encounters between us, and there will be no results.

Little brother, what I owe you, I have almost paid it back, I think, I have to leave you.

Because in your eyes, there is no me at all, and now, I don't owe you anything.

Some things should be over. "

"The setting sun is lonely and returning to the west, and the floating life is half filled with duckweed.

Looking back at the lonely shadow, it's hard to calm down.

Recalling the past is half nostalgia and half absurd.Half fire, half cold.

The clouds are low, the geese are far away, and the cold wind is howling.

Looking forward to returning to the place, only the candlelight is left.

The dream is whirling, the tears are dry, the old memories are broken, and there is no one to share the love.

Singing to wine, there are so many things in my heart, where is the Iraqi, laughing like a Liying.

Keeping the lonely dream of the dying lamp, listening to the cold wind whimpering, the moon is hazy, and people who are not drunk are more worried, facing the moon until dawn. "

(Created by myself, tentatively named, Zui Ling Ding.)

Gu Wan'er cried until she couldn't make a sound.

The last words are full of Jane Zhen's despair for her brother and the loneliness and sadness of one person waiting for another person until dawn. This is also the last picture and ink she left in the album.

The woman in the painting is holding a wine glass in one hand, and the cold moon is half covered by clouds, giving off a bleak light.

The woman under the moon is far away from him, and has become two objects in this world who long for warmth and care for each other.

Watching it makes one feel heartbroken.

The signature was on December [-]th of the previous year.

It's only a few days away from her birthday.

But on the day not long after her, she donated bone marrow to Mu Yunie. For her grandfather, in order to get rid of this dust, she once again chose to compromise and became the target of revenge by others.