[Hokage] Secrets of the Fathers [Fourth Generation Center]

Gaara, Shura who only loves himself.

I am Gaara, I am Shura who only loves myself.

I understand the word "myself", and "Shura" also understands it, but what is "love"? Can it be eaten? It cannot be eaten.

just kidding.

Can't I make a joke? Just do as the Romans do. This strange place like Konoha likes to joke so much. What's the big deal?Besides, Uzumaki Naruto said, you can write anything you want in the diary.I just wrote how about it.

However, I especially wanted to tell him that keeping a diary is a boring thing. If you don't write down the things you can remember, you will never forget them for the rest of your life. What's the point of writing down the things you can't remember? Especially this diary has a lock.No matter how strong the latest combination lock is, it is nothing more than a notebook, a notebook that can be opened with just one pull. It is such an unsafe thing and if I understand correctly, it is locked so that others don’t know about it. But since you don’t want people to know, don’t write it down. No one will know if it comes out.

Anyway,

This morning, Uzumaki Naruto gave me this diary. The moment I opened the title page, I saw his crooked and ugly handwriting wishing Gaara a happy birthday.

I struggled for a while, but finally I didn't tear up the notebook on the spot, and slapped the scraps back on his face, which was smiling more and more like an idiot.It's not that I want this book, but even though I also have a room, this is his house after all. As a hostage-like object, I won't be stupid enough to offend him and just stand by and watch his son giggle. The father of the head of the household is the Fourth Hokage, Minato Namikaze. Have you heard about it? It’s that golden flash that has already brought chaos to everyone when you were still alive. I can’t afford to offend him, can you?

mom.

I actually have nothing to say to you, and you may not want to see what I write, but the Hokage's son insisted that his father said that when he misses his mother, he writes it in the diary so that his mother can hear it. Then when he was dreaming, his mother would come to see his young master named Uzumaki Naruto. He was 13 years old, and he still believed in such nonsense. Naruto was a good liar. How could he raise such a stupid son who dared to believe anything he said.

Hey, mom.

Actually, it's pretty good that Naruto can remember my birthday. Although I don't want to tell him, I'm still a little touched. But Gaara was indeed born on January [-]th, but that's according to the calendar of the Land of Wind. As for the conversion to Konoha calendar that day, who knows what month and day it is. However, I am not going to let that sloppy math idiot learn to calculate the days. Anyway, there will be no Wind Country calendar in the future.

Mom, do you know that his whimsical Hokage father has officially informed the world at the end of last year that starting from January 61, 1, all government and private contracts, official documents, and reports of the Wind and Fire Economic Alliance, including internal and external, will have the same date? It was a really overbearing decision to unify the Konoha Chronicles.If you don't want to, then don't do business with the Fire Nation. Anyway, the Fire Nation is vast and rich in resources, so it's no big deal if it's really closed to the outside world.

Economic alliance, my mother must have never heard of what an economic alliance is.The Kingdom of Wind and the Kingdom of Fire have been fighting on and off for 100 years, but in the end, they really stopped fighting just to keep everyone fed.The leader of the Kingdom of Wind even wants to marry his daughter to the Kingdom of Fire.Maybe you think you can't understand it, but you really can't stand it anymore.

Forget it, let's talk about Naruto. That boy said he would celebrate my birthday every year from now on.I rarely celebrate birthdays at my age, but should I be happy?

I still can't laugh.Is it mom?

Gaara's mother died the day Gaara was born, just like Uzumaki Naruto, ah no, his father said that his mother died after being injured and not taken care of well. If the Hokage said so, then that's it.But if Mom, you said that if I tell Naruto the whole truth, Naruto, if Naruto, you are like me, your birthday is the anniversary of your mother’s death, will you xx happily celebrate your birthday?

Sorry, I said bad words. Of course, Mom, I don’t think you will care about such a small problem.In fact, I don't really care that I am a Shura who only loves myself. Although I always felt that you loved me when I was a child, I also love you because Yashamaru said so.But he later changed his mind and said you don't love me, you hate me. I'm so sorry because of me. You lost your life, Kazekage lost his wife, Temari Kankuro lost his mother, and Yashamaru lost his sister. I'm sorry, but why am I still like this? Resentment is not what I wanted. It was you who gave birth to me. It was Kazekage who made me into a weapon. It was Yashamaru who took care of me when I grew up.

Do you remember him, Yashamaru, your brother, my biological uncle?It looks very similar to the photo of you at home. No, I said the wrong thing again. That is not home. That house is not home.There should be a father, mother, brother and sister in the family.But there were only two people in that house, Yashamaru and me, and later there was no longer even Yashamaru.

You know, mom, I was 6 years old, only 6 years old.

What should a 6-year-old child be doing? Running around the streets and causing mischief with his friends. Anyway, that's what Uzumaki Naruto said.He just went to school at the time and met a group of very good friends. Together they were preparing to train to become a ninja. They skipped school together, fought together, played pranks together, and were made to stand at the door of the classroom together.Although I still don't think a teacher of a Hokage's son would dare to really teach him a lesson, but Konoha is a strange place.It wouldn't be surprising if you had seen that young master Naruto serving dishes in the cafeteria or sweeping the streets.

Anyway, when I was 6 years old, I was alone.

You said Yashamaru went there and died. He had explosive charms all over his body. With a bang, not even ashes were left. He accepted the Kazekage's assassination mission. It was so funny that a medical nin accepted the assassination mission.So to complete the mission, of course he had to choose to die together, but they all died together, and the assassination targets were all unscathed.By the way, what he came to kill was the One-Tail Jinchuuriki Ga, the ultimate weapon of the Sand Ninja.

& nbs

p;But I was unscathed.The reason is you, Mom.

Yashamaru said that the sand in the gourd behind my back is you. I have always believed that my mother is still by my side. Even if everyone runs away when they see me, at least my mother is still behind me and protecting me. Ah, since my mother is still looking at me, I can't lose to the monster in my body. If that monster takes away my body, where will my mother go to find me? But if Yashamaru died, he died in front of me. Mom, your soul is in the sand. Why did you only protect me and not your most beloved brother?

But it doesn't matter now.I'm 14 years old, Mom, it doesn't matter whether you love me or not. You still have to rely on yourself to live. So what if you love me? If you die, you can never come back. I'm not Uzumaki Naruto. How can you make me believe in this joke that I can talk to my mother just by writing a diary?

The Hokage who likes to lie to children always says that people have to look forward in life. I think he is right.I just turned 14 and I still have a long future ahead of me.Thanks to the Hokage's sealing technique, I no longer have to worry about my body being taken away by Shukaku. I finally feel that I have a future.Do you know this feeling? Mom, do you know how good it feels to be able to sleep soundly? Do you know how good it feels to be walking on the street to buy something and forget to pay and being chased half the street? Do you know it’s a crime? You don't know how good it feels to be hit by a fist on the head.

Moreover, I am no longer a 6-year-old child. I have lived with that cunning old fox-like Hokage for more than half a year.

So, I learned to doubt and think.It's really doubtful. Kazekage must have done it on purpose.The person he wants to kill is actually Yashamaru, not Gaara, right? Because there is really no need to kill a weapon. No matter how bad the weapon is, no matter how dangerous it is, it is better than facing a powerful enemy with bare hands. Recently, I have been thinking, Is it true that the 6-year-old me at that time relied too much on Yashamaru, so what the Kazekage was afraid of was actually this own weapon, which I couldn't control.

Mom, apart from that, Yashamaru may also have died on purpose. I have always eaten the food he made and poisoned me. No matter what he put into my stomach, the sand would not come out to stop it.That fool probably understood that it was because he accidentally controlled the Suna Ninja's most important weapon.So he didn't die because of killing me, but he was killed by some strange thing.Since you are going to die no matter what, you might as well die in front of me. So, mom, I don’t believe a word of Yashamaru’s words now.But it doesn't matter whether you love me or not, mother.You're dead and can't come back, so what if you love me?

Even, I am no longer in Sunagakure Village, I am in Konoha now.

Mom, have you ever seen Konoha? Do you know how much I like Konoha's sunshine, blue sky, white clouds and big trees? As for Sunagakure Village, I don't want to go back.There is too much sand and too much wind in the Kingdom of Wind.However, I will eventually return to that annoying place.

Mom, I admit, I did get the golden glitter lesson.Have I been brainwashed? I don’t know.Anyway, I know that he wants to use me, I know that I am being used by Konoha, I also know that I am being used by Kakashi, and I will even be used by unknown people in the future. I know, but so what, I am a weapon. , a weapon from birth.I am Shura who only loves myself.To love myself, I just need to make sure that I am living a good life.

Although Uzumaki Naruto always said that it feels good to be able to protect Konoha, even if I become a jinchuriki, I don't feel good.

That Uzumaki Naruto is a fool. He became a fool because he was living too happy. Mom, you know what? He is so happy that I really want to kill him.He always said that we are all Jinchuuriki, who is the same as him? He and I are different, even if we are both Jinchuuriki, we are not the same. Does he know the pain of Jinchuuriki? He doesn't know that even if he is a Jinchuuriki

He is an idiot, an idiot who was never discovered even though he was drugged with sleeping pills. He doesn't know that his father has to help him strengthen the seal of the Nine-Tails almost every month. He has spent so much effort just to prevent him from feeling what a Jinchuuriki is. Mom, do you know how to strengthen the seal? To put it bluntly, it's not complicated. Kakashi can do it too. The Shukaku seal on my body was made by him. But do you know the difference between the seals made by Naruto and Kakashi? What?It also peeled apart the entangled souls of humans and tailed beasts alive. Kakashi didn't care how Shukaku struggled in my body or how much pain I felt.But the Hokage will consider it.Naruto's father actually bled the Kyuubi in Naruto's body once a month. He fed the Kyuubi full with a large amount of blood containing the enemy's chakra, just to make his son feel better.

Mom, I'm jealous, really.The Hokage said that there are causes and effects behind seemingly complicated things, and we have to find those causes and effects in order to solve the problem.Yes, Mom Karma, why should I fight tooth and nail to protect those guys who run away when they see me?Afraid of own weapons joke.If only my father, the Kazekage, could be like Naruto's father.

If Uzumaki Naruto had never been protected by his father, and was even isolated and hated like me, he would still be willing to protect Konoha. I think I might be able to protect Sunagakure. But, Naruto really can What?

Anyway, the Hokage said that he believed in his son, unconditionally.

But mom, do you believe me?

But it doesn’t matter anymore, I just believe in myself.I am a Shura who only loves myself. I believe that I can live a good life, mother. I really believe that, a real mother.This is the promise I made to myself. I want to live a good life. I will live a good life.

January 61, Konoha [-]

There is a promise waiting

The bright stars are shining, and the golden sand has quietly returned to the gourd.

Gaara finally closed the diary and locked it, turned off the light and went to sleep.But immediately he stood up, picked up the diary placed on the table, opened the title page, and glanced at the crooked handwriting on Gaara's birthday.Then he locked it again, carefully wrapped it in newspapers, opened the drawer, and threw it in casually.