Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

Zhao Qian was startled, and finally understood why Li Jingshen was acting weird just now?

Maybe she saw Shen Zhichu downstairs, maybe she saw him in a panic now, or maybe she didn't know how to face her, after all, she let go... That's why she panicked and fled to the elevator.

Zhao Qian understood that Li Jingshen wanted to talk to him for a while, now that Li Jingshen had lost his entertainment, he just chatted with Changqian to pass the time.

Zhao Qianshun asked, "What is Miss Shen doing in the hospital? Is she sick?"

Li Jingshen said hoarsely, "I saw her come out of the obstetrics and gynecology department."

That means she is pregnant, which is actually nothing unusual. After all, she and Bai Qiujing have been married for several months, and it is quite normal to have a pregnancy. However, Zhao Qian is a little worried that Li Jingshen has a knot in his heart that is difficult to untie. , resulting in depression.

"Maybe it's to check other aspects, not necessarily pregnancy."

Li Jingshen shook his head: "I also saw her protecting her belly carefully. I know her eyes, and I will never forget it." Because he has seen Shen Zhichu's pregnancy, she used to protect him and her child so carefully. .

Thinking of the two dead children, one died in his hands before he knew it, and the other was an abortion agreement signed by him himself, and the doctors and nurses tied Shen Zhichu there.

At that time, Shen Zhichu knelt on the ground and begged him not to kill the child, but he still did.

Maybe I didn't care so much the first time, but the second time was really heartbreaking, killing my own flesh and blood, watching a living life become a dead baby with my own eyes, it is not an exaggeration to feel a thousand arrows piercing my heart.

The corner of Li Jingshen's mouth was bitter again, his eyes still stayed outside the window, and he said to himself: "If me and her child were still here, they would be in elementary school by now."

If the first child is here, I am afraid that he is already in junior high school.

It was he who ruined the happiness that was within easy reach.

Zhao Qian couldn't find words to comfort Li Jingshen.

Originally thought that Li Jingshen would fall into the past for a long time because of "Shen Zhichu's pregnancy", but unexpectedly, Li Jingshen acted as if nothing had happened.

After staying in the hospital for one night, the next day he looked very energetic, and his usually sickly pale face was a little rosy.

Zhao Qian should have been happy to see Li Jingshen regained his energy, but he felt uneasy.

He remembered that before his grandmother died, he suddenly recovered like this and could speak forcefully. He thought it was because her condition had improved, but she fell asleep quietly in the afternoon and never woke up again.

Li Jingshen's current state is like his grandmother's state before her death, it's a flashback, not an improvement in her condition.

"Zhao Qian, I don't want to be hospitalized anymore, take me back to Bancheng." Li Jingshen's eyes returned to their original brightness, but the light was not directed at Zhao Qian, but as if he suddenly thought of something from within. Thoughts emanating from the outside.

Zhao Qian nodded in agreement, but he didn't refuse because he knew that Bancheng was Li Jingshen's home, it was his and Shen Zhichu's new house back then, and this might be the last time he would go home.

Zhao Qian put the wheelchair on, helped Li Jingshen to sit down, the hands that pushed back were trembling after being tightened, he pushed steadily, and when he went downstairs to help Li Jingshen into the rear seat, he turned around and left The driver's seat drives the car smoothly.

It will take about half an hour to get back to Bancheng. On the way, Li Jingshen said, "Zhao Qian, don't hold a funeral when I die. Bury me in the Li family cemetery so that I can watch over my parents and see the direction of the sea. Let me go quietly."

Zhao Qian concentrated on driving in front without making a sound, and Li Jingshen continued talking regardless of whether he heard it or not.

"You know about the inheritance, help me deal with it."

"It would be great if I could see Shen Zhichu's baby, I think it must look very good-looking."

"Tell me, do you want me to buy something as a gift..." Li Jingshen stopped in the middle of the conversation, "If she knew that it was from me, she would definitely not want it, so it's better to pretend that she doesn't know."

"I don't want to upset her." Li Jingshen's calm voice was a little soft.

Zhao Qian didn't say a word along the way, Li Jingshen couldn't catch cold, even though it was stuffy inside the car, he didn't open the window, but for some reason, his face was always icy, and at a crossroad when he encountered a red light, Zhao Qian stopped to wipe his face. He wiped his face, his palms were wet, it turned out that he had shed tears unknowingly.

In the middle of the city, in order to hide his jealousy, Zhao Qian kept his head down, not daring to look straight at Li Jingshen, and helped him down.

Li Jingshen gently pushed his hand away: "I can walk by myself, you let me walk back by myself."

His legs were weak and his steps were staggering. Relying on the perseverance of his body, he walked back slowly. He sat on the rocking chair on the balcony where Shen Zhichu usually sat and read. There were soft cushions and cushions on the rocking chair. , Li Jingshen held the handle and sat up carefully, the rocking chair swayed like a swing.

He leaned back, raised his head, the sun was just right at this time, such a good sun shone on Li Jingshen's face clearly, and he could see the tiny blood vessels under his skin, his whole body was enveloped in light, bringing The transparent fragility seems to disappear at any time.

"Zhao Qian, help me take off the wedding dress hanging in the bedroom."

Zhao Qian went upstairs, and soon came down with the wedding dress in his hands. Li Jingshen took it carefully and hugged him horizontally. That posture was the most standard and beautiful princess hug. Looking from a distance, it seemed that he was really holding someone in his arms. .

He should have mistook that wedding dress for Shen Zhichu.

"Is summer coming soon?" Li Jingshen asked.

Zhao Qian replied, "It's still far away."

Li Jingshen murmured: "Is it far? Why do I feel like I heard cicadas?"

Zhao Qian said: "You heard it wrong. There are no cicadas at this time. The cicadas will only come out in July, and that time is the hottest."

Cicadas in July will not come out in April.

Li Jingshen remembered what Shen Zhichu had asked him.

"Li Jingshen, have you ever seen cicadas sing in winter in summer?" In one sentence, he and Shen Zhichu were destined to be impossible in this life.

Li Jingshen said in a bitter voice: "In the past, I always thought it was annoying to hear cicadas singing in summer, but I really want to hear it this year...but I can't seem to hear it anymore."

"Zhao Qian, can you tell me how Shen Zhichu is doing recently? I want to know if she is doing well."

Zhao Qian told him straightforwardly: "She is doing well, the Bai family sincerely treats her like their own daughter, and Bai Qiujing also treats her very well. Miss Shen is indeed pregnant. It's been a week, and it's still a pair of twins." He went to check yesterday to see if Shen Zhichu was pregnant, and found the result very easily, the process is not difficult, and it is easy to do things if you have money.

Zhao Qian told Li Jingshen about Shen Zhichu's recent situation.

Li Jingshen closed his eyes and curled his mouth: "That's good...that's good..."

He repeated three words in his mouth, from loud to soft, from clear to more and more blurred, and finally became a silent fluttering of lips.

He still held the wedding dress tightly in his arms, and smiled at the sunshine outside.

He was grateful for meeting Shen Zhichu in his life, thanking her for loving him, thanking her for what she had done to him during the four years of marriage, and thanking her for marrying him.

The sun is just right today, with bursts of warmth, not at all, and occasionally accompanied by a cool breeze. He is holding the wedding dress, and he is still touching the ring on his finger. The inner ring of the ring is engraved with three letters: szc

He rubbed it lightly, as if he wanted to knead those three words into his bones and blood, and engrave them on his soul.

"Crack...creak..." The rocking chair was shaking, and Li Jingshen turned his body sideways, shaking the rocking chair, his eyes slightly opened a slit to look at the shadow that was about to disappear on the ground.

Sure enough, when a person is about to die, the shadow will leave, let alone a person.

You can't keep anything, what you have in life will be nothing after death.

As if he had figured it out, Li Jingshen loosened the ring weakly, and there was a crisp sound from the ground, and the ring rolled into a thin crack on the balcony.

When he closed his eyes, what Li Jingshen was thinking was: this year really can't wait for the cicadas to sing, and in a trance, he seemed to hear the wish that Shen Zhichu said to him that day with his back turned to him.

——"Li Jingshen, I hope you will be accompanied by the warm sun in winter, the cool breeze in summer, a bright future, no disease and no disaster, and when you meet a lover, you will grow old..."

"President Li..." Zhao Qian called out softly, and only silence responded to him.

Seeing Li Jingshen's "deep sleep", Zhao Qian sniffled and stretched out his hand to push the rocking chair.

"crunch...crunch..."

Li Jingshen died in the warm sun and breeze.