Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

Tears kept rolling in her eyes, Xu Nian covered her eyes, picked up the bank card on the ground and ran upstairs under the strange eyes of everyone, until she stopped on the eighth floor.

Her legs seemed to be injected with lead and iron, making it difficult for her to move. She looked at the intensive care unit not far away. What should she do?How should I tell my mother that the money for medical treatment is gone?

How should she make up for the 60 yuan surgery fee?What should a mother do without surgery?She hasn't brought her to enjoy a day of happiness, nor has she taken her to see the Pink Sea.

Xia Yanyue's phone call was like a slap on her face, much more painful than Shen Zhichu's two slaps.

Evil comes with evil, she betrayed her friend and indirectly killed her beloved, this day the retribution finally came to her.

Everything she did against her conscience turned out to be her own humiliation.

Not only did she not get money from Zhi's mother, she also lost Shen Zhichu who was the best to her.

When Dr. Zhang came out of the office, he saw Xu Nian who was stuck in the corridor as if he had lost his soul.

"Miss Xu, have you paid the surgery fee?"

Xu Nian clenched his lower lip and shook his head: "The money...the money for the operation is gone...Can Dr. Zhang give me a few days to collect enough money for the operation?"

"Didn't you say that the operation fee has already been collected? Why is it gone?"

Seeing that Xu Nian lowered her head and said no, Dr. Zhang speculated that something might have happened, but she didn't ask if she didn't say anything. Xu Nian is a sensible and filial person. When she took care of her mother day and night, doctors and nurses would see it.

If it was a minor operation of 60 to [-] yuan, he could still help her, but it was [-] yuan for the operation, and if the money was not collected, it would be hopeless.

The biggest disease these days is poverty.

Dr. Zhang patted her on the shoulder: "One week at most."

Xu Nian didn't know how to face her mother. Not only did she have no money for surgery, but the daughter she had always believed in lied to her and did unforgivable things.

Doctor Zhang sighed secretly, shook his head and left, leaving Xu Nian alone in the corridor, she was leaning against the cold wall, the room temperature was 27 degrees, but she felt so cold, Xu Nian hugged her arms and cried silently After a long time, her eyes were swollen like two walnuts, and her legs were numb. She supported the wall behind her and slowly got up to go to the bathroom, washed her face and looked at herself in the mirror.

Everything is blurry without glasses, and now it's so blurry that she can't even see her own face clearly.

No matter how much cold water was poured onto his face, his red eyes could not be concealed. It was obvious that he had cried.

Xu Nian didn't want her mother to worry, so she tidied up briefly and returned to the ward.

Xu's mother has already received a second bag of fluid. There is a TV in the ward but she doesn't like to watch it. She will only let her play it when Xu Nian is around.When she is fine, she sleeps or looks outside in a daze. People only forget the pain for a short time when they are absent-minded. If they can't bear it, they have to grit their teeth and bear it, because she still has a daughter, and she doesn't want her daughter to feel uneasy and fearful because of her illness. .

The glass windows were tightly closed, Mother Xu looked outside, and when she heard the movement, she turned her head.

"Niannian Autumn is here."

Xu Nian paused, and shifted his gaze to the window when he heard the voice.

The sweet-scented osmanthus outside is in bloom, but the windows are closed so that nothing can be smelled.

"Mom, we made sweet-scented osmanthus cake together in previous years. Do you want to eat it this year? Can I make it for you when you can eat after the operation?"

"Of course it's fine, but I can't drink osmanthus wine anymore." In the past, whenever the osmanthus blossoms bloomed, Xu's mother would make osmanthus wine and sell it, and the house was full of fragrance.

There is a decades-old osmanthus tree in the yard of the house. It enjoys the shade in summer and picks osmanthus in autumn. Xu Nian often climbs up the tree and shakes it. Mother holds a dustpan underneath and tells her to be careful.

As if thinking of the past, Xu's mother couldn't help but chuckled slightly: "You were like a monkey when you were young, you liked to climb trees everywhere and you were not afraid of falling. Every time I was down there, I was worried that you would fall. I can still catch you, but now that you grow up, I can’t catch you anymore.”

Xu Nian tried hard to suppress her heartache, her heart was full of pain, and the hands she put on her lap with her lips pursed kept tightening, because her shoulders trembled because of the suppression.

"Never mind?"

She gave a low "hmm.", not daring to raise her head to let her mother see her crying.

"You are crying." Mother Xu's voice was very gentle, "Why are you crying?"

"I'm just too scared. I'm afraid that something will happen to you, and I'll never taste your sweet-scented osmanthus cake again."

"Stupid boy, the sweet-scented osmanthus cake tastes the same. What's more, my mother taught you how to make it. I can't be with you all the time. One day you will learn to make sweet-scented osmanthus cake by yourself."

"Mom, the operation has been extended to a week later."

"What did Doctor Zhang say?"

"Ah."

Xu Nian didn't know that she had a habit when she lied, that is, she lowered her head and didn't dare to look at people, her eyes were in a trance, and her voice became quieter.

Xu's mother's eyes wandered for a moment, and she didn't ask Xu Nian further: "Well, it's okay, the operation can be extended, so I have a buffer time, in fact, I don't feel how serious my disease is, and there is no need for surgery to replace the kidney at all. , It’s too expensive, and it takes a long time to save to pay back the money.”

"Mom, you don't have to worry about money, I will find a way."

Xu Nian was going to raise money again, it was impossible to stay with Xu's mother all the time, so she hired a nurse and lied to Xu's mother that she was going to work.

After coming out of the hospital, Xu Nian called all the contacts on her phone, classmates, friends, colleagues, relatives, neighbors... one by one to borrow money.

She looked at Shen Zhichu's name on the list, her finger skipped her and swipe down.

When she chose to "betray" Shen Zhichu, she never thought that she would be forgiven. It is right for others to resent her for doing something wrong.

Just over 20 years old, Xu Nian's life entered the darkest stage because of a wrong decision. Many people hung up the phone when they heard that she was calling to borrow money.

Xu Nian followed the address, holding Xu's mother's medical certificate in his hand, and humbly borrowed money. He barely got down on his knees. More than 100 contacts, from top to bottom, ran from the north to the south of the city door-to-door to ask.

The icing on the cake is easy, but it is difficult to give charcoal in the snow. The 60 surgery fee is not easy to borrow, and she is not even qualified to go to the bank to borrow money.

She lost a lot of weight in just two days. Xu Nian put her idea of ​​money on selling kidneys on the black market. She is not smart enough to know where to find a way. The advertisements on the Internet are probably fake, and they are designed to deceive people. , I'm afraid I'll be dead by then.

So she approached Dr. Zhang and asked tentatively, "Dr. Zhang, do you know any patients who need a kidney transplant? I can do a match..."

Doctor Zhang was stunned, stood up and asked her, "Are you trying to sell your kidney?"

"Doctor Zhang, I know you're in trouble, but I don't have any money. I want to save my mother. I can't make up that much money for the operation." She looked for everyone she knew, but the money she could get was only 60 yuan, which was far from [-] yuan. Far.

"Help me, please help me." Xu Nian choked up, crying out of breath, his legs that had run all over Rongcheng finally couldn't support them, and his knees bent on the ground .

She doesn't want anything, ambition, humanity, self-esteem and kindness, she doesn't want anything, all she wants is her mother.

"Near."

Xu Nian's kneeling figure froze, and her heart felt like a taut string connected to her brain, causing a dull pain. She turned around stiffly and slowly, as if time had been secretly pressed to slow down, and the time passed so slowly.

She looked at her mother standing at the door and smiling at her.

"Nian Nian, let's go home, Mom won't be cured anymore."

Mother Xu had already changed into her own clothes. Last night she received a call from a neighbor saying that Xu Nian was going door to door begging for money for her medical treatment.

When she heard it, she resisted not calling Xu Nian, but silently packed her clothes and asked the nurse to help her with the discharge procedures, so there was no need to prescribe the medicine.

Doctors and nurses advised her to stay in the hospital and not to leave.

Xu's mother just smiled, her tone was gentle and flat: "I can't let my daughter lose her future because of medical treatment."

The operation fee of 70 million yuan will almost crush the future for ordinary people like them. She doesn't want her daughter to lose her ambition and have to pay back the money in debt in the future.

Xu's mother walked very slowly, but every step was steady. She walked up to Xu Nian, first touched her head, then bent down enduring the pain and took Xu Nian's hand to pull her up.

"Let's go home and make sweet-scented osmanthus cake."

Xu Nian followed behind Xu's mother, looking at her back, her hands were not as warm as before, but they were still so strong when holding her, and they always supported her when she was most helpless.

Mother's hand, once held her to sleep, led her to learn to walk, carried her when she was sick, wiped her tears when she was sad......

Xu Nian couldn't help but clenched Xu's mother's hand tightly. When she reached the hospital gate, she suddenly came to her senses and tried her best to keep her hand still.

"Mom, you can't leave the hospital, you need medical treatment."

Xu's mother turned her head and looked at Xu Nian. In the mother's eyes, the child would never grow up. She was still a child just like before. She reached out and hugged Xu Nian: "Nian Nian, I know my body well. It doesn't matter if I don't treat it or not. , Do you still remember what my mother told you two days ago? People are poor and their aspirations are endless. I don’t know how you put together the money for the surgery before, and I don’t know why the money ran out. Everyone has his own life. That money was obtained in a bad way, so I would rather not treat this disease."

Those eyes, which had been crying so hard that they could not shed any tears, suddenly burst into tears. She closed her eyes and leaned against her mother's thin arms, weeping in a muffled voice.

The hospital is a place where life and death reincarnate. There are many people who come here to see a doctor. Sadness and joy have become the norm. Passers-by look away when they hear the crying.

Crying is useless, but it's the easiest way to vent.

Mother Xu's heart was sour, and she rubbed Xu Nian's hair: "Life is only a few decades, mom doesn't want you to do irreparable things and feel guilty for the rest of your life."

She saw Xu Nian's pain, and blamed herself for being slow. She didn't realize that something was wrong with Xu Nian until now, "In my mother's eyes, you are better than anyone else. Nian Nian will always be my mother's favorite Nian Nian."

"Mom, but I want to save you, I don't want you to have trouble, I haven't brought you to enjoy the blessing yet."

"Aren't I still alive? People have hope when they live. Today is over and tomorrow will be a new day. As long as you are by my side, I will always look forward to tomorrow's sun. Let's go home. It's time to make osmanthus cake. "

.......

Xu's mother shaved her hair because of chemotherapy, which is very conspicuous in the crowd. Xu's mother has lived through decades of hard life, but there is no woman who does not love beauty. She touched her head and saw a hairpin when she passed by a store. It's a beautiful hat. She doesn't know the brand, but she knows it's expensive from the decoration inside.

"Mom." Xu Nian saw Xu's mother staring inside, "Mom, do you want that hat?"

"What nonsense are you talking about? It's so gaudy. Mom doesn't look good wearing it. I'd better go back and wear the hat you knitted for me."

The mother and daughter returned to the countryside by car, Xu's mother told Xu Nian to return the borrowed money, and took her to thank those who helped.

There is no cure for Xu's mother's illness. There are many prescriptions in the hospital, and there are a lot of colorful ones, which are scary to look at.

Xu's mother looked at the osmanthus tree in the yard full of flowers, and greeted Xu Nian to shake the osmanthus, making osmanthus cakes and brewing osmanthus wine as in previous years.

Xu's mother was busy in the kitchen, and Xu Nian stood by to help.

"Can you make sweet-scented osmanthus cake? Mom will teach you again."

"I feel like I'll never learn it in my life."

"How can you be so stupid?"

Xu Nian looked at his mother's soft side face illuminated by the light and shadow: "Mom, if you hadn't given birth to me, you should be very happy now." She is a pressure to her mother. Without her, maybe her mother has formed The new family also has money to see a doctor.

Mother Xu clapped her hands together and looked up at her seriously: "The greatest happiness in Mom's life is having you. Don't underestimate yourself. In Mom's eyes, nothing is more important than you."