Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

"Mom." Siyan Sixu called out in fear.

Gu Wanqiu's body shook a little, and Li Jinxing supported him in time, "Are you okay? Are you impressed?"

Li Jinxing was caring about Gu Wanqiu, but after asking this sentence, he felt a little ridiculous, and laughed at himself... He is not as important as a servant in Gu Wanqiu's heart.

Gu Wanqiu reacted so strongly to Mrs. Liu, but to him...he was a stranger at the time, even when he went to Qiule Manor and saw her father's photo in the cemetery, he didn't have much reaction.

Gu Wanqiu shook her head, the pain made her unable to speak for a short time, she closed her eyes, her brain froze, like a TV with a gray screen showing no signal, her ears also had tinnitus, buzzing, she frowned tightly, He covered his head with one hand.

"Father..." Seeing that it was useless to call mother, Si Yan grabbed Li Jinxing's clothes and tugged at them. Li Jinxing lowered his head and saw the worried eyes of the two children.

His own children, doesn't he know what they are thinking?When he was in the car, he felt the nervousness of the two children.

It's even worse now, they are all afraid that Gu Wanqiu will think of something, and then leave this house and don't want them. After all, from what Gu Wanqiu said, she is going to a place where there is no one and no one will find her.

The family that was finally formed, the mother that the two children found with great difficulty... Seeing that they are getting happier and happier, but this happiness is like an illusory dream, as if they will wake up in the next second.

They don't want to remind mom, and they don't want her to leave.

For Li Jinxing, Gu Wanqiu thinks about it or

I didn't think about it, there was no difference...Because no matter before or now, Gu Wanqiu hated him very much and wanted to leave.

Did they think that Gu Wanqiu didn't want to leave now?

She wanted to leave all the time, but her eager heart never stopped.

If he had to choose between the two, Li Jinxing would rather Gu Wanqiu recover his memory and let her know that what he said was not wrong, it was Gong Qing who was wrong, and the person who lied to her the most was Gong Qing.

Gu Wanqiu recovered his memory, and he could still know who kidnapped her and tortured her into that state.

The worries of the two children are unnecessary, Li Jinxing has no way to appease them now, and he can talk to them properly when Gu Wanqiu is not around.

Even if Gu Wanqiu leaves, he can still find them, she has no way to hide in a "place where they can't find them".

He could even be a little more ruthless, so that Gu Wanqiu couldn't even get out of the house.

Gu Wanqiu's face turned pale from the pain, and the headache lasted for a minute or two, which he could bear, but it was intermittent and uncomfortable.

Gu Wanqiu shook her head, which means she still didn't remember it, Li Jinxing felt a little disappointed, but the two children were indeed relieved.

Although selfish, they really didn't want to lose their mom.

After Gu Wanqiu recovered, she walked slowly inside.

"Who is Mrs. Liu?" she asked.

"It's just a servant. I invited her here. I originally invited her to look at the house and let her clean it when she saw it was dirty. After you came back, you lived here with her for a while. Maybe it was the feelings I had during that time, Mrs. Liu is a good person."

"Then where is she now?" Gu Wanqiu asked again

, she would react when she heard her name, maybe she would be able to remember it completely when she saw her name.

The doctor said that the best way to restore memory is not to stimulate it, just let it go. From Gu Wanqiu's point of view, this is just letting it go. She has gradually felt that she can remember everything.

Li Jinxing's throat was slightly blocked when he thought of the emaciated Mrs. Liu who died on the hospital bed, but in the end he still didn't choose to tell Gu Wanqiu the truth.

"After you left, she left too. After so many years, I don't know where she is."

"Can you find her?"

"No... After all, she is not an important person to me."

Gu Wanqiu lowered her eyes, her eyelashes trembling slightly to cover up the disappointment in her eyes.

But she was a little curious, she was not on guard against the servant who was strictly hired, but she still had a good relationship, and it would have such a big influence on her...

The more Gu Wanqiu walked in, the stronger the sense of familiarity in her brain. The memory fragments were too small to remind her of them all. The second floor was her room with a big balcony and a rocking chair. Gu Wanqiu I walked over and sat on it directly, stretching my legs and shaking it. Some old rocking chairs are rusty, and they creak when shaking.

There are special piano rooms, studios, and dance rooms...Gu Wanqiu went in one by one to see, she used to seem to be able to do everything, she could play the violin, play the piano, dance...and draw Paintings, portraits hanging in the studio, well preserved.

When Gu Wanqiu walked into the studio, the soft part of her heart was touched, and she felt a tingling sensation. She reached out and touched the oil painting on the wall, as if she could still feel the humidity of the paint.

Her hand... her fingertips trembled and felt a little painful. Her favorite thing in the past was painting. After all, she had drawn so much, and her favorite painting was boys and flowers. She looked at the boy on the canvas, There is a mole on the left eye, she thinks of Gong Qing, who also has a mole on the corner of Gong Qing's eye, so she has liked Gong Qing since she was a child, and Gong Qing did not lie to her.

But for some reason, the boy on the canvas didn't make her feel like Gong Qing.

So many paintings... She draws by imagination, or looking at photos, or has a model.

If someone is acting as a model for her, then this person is undoubtedly... Gu Wanqiu turned his head to look at Li Jinxing who was not far away, he was also looking at the painting on the wall, the scar on the tip of his left eyebrow was hit by the light , becomes more and more obvious.

Coming here is not nothing, at least here Gu Wanqiu found a sense of intimacy.

"Can I come and live here in the future?"

"Yes, you can move here whenever you want, but it's not very convenient here, it belongs to the old city."

Gu Wanqiu nodded. She was in the car just now, and she discovered this problem along the way. There is no big supermarket nearby, and you can only go to the nearby vegetable market to buy vegetables. The hospital is also far away. There are only small clinics and pharmacies nearby, and there are many restaurants. But they are all small restaurants and roadside stalls.

"Mom, if you want to live here, my brother and I will live with you." Siyan hurriedly stated that he wanted to get closer to Gu Wanqiu and behave more obediently, so that Gu Wanqiu liked him more and more. Maybe in the future, the idea of ​​"leaving" will be thrown away.

"Okay, when

Wait for us to come and live together. "

After the New Year's Eve, Gu Wanqiu decided to move here. At that time, he would also hire one or two nannies to clean the place carefully and buy some new furniture.

......

After the new year's holiday, and the vernal equinox is getting closer, Li Jinxing did not give up the idea of ​​restoring Gu Wanqiu's memory.

He is here with Gu Wanqiu, he is a villain before and after, there is no difference, but why does Gong Qing, a villain, want to be a good person, he doesn't want Gu Wanqiu to be kept in the dark.

Another one, Gu Wanqiu always felt that he was the one who was sorry for her first... He wanted to know, after Gu Wanqiu recovered his memory, he knew that she was the villain from the beginning, how would she feel?In addition, he also wanted to explain her father's death and tell her the complete truth. If he didn't believe it, Gu Wanqiu would be so heartless and didn't feel moved by him at all.

He even regretted a little, why he was so determined to take revenge on Gu Wanqiu back then, why didn't he tell her the truth... If, at the beginning, he hadn't been so ruthless and treated her better, wouldn't they have come to this situation? .

Unfortunately, there is no such thing.

No matter how much Li Jinxing thinks about it, he can't change it, and the past is irreversible.

......

In the blink of an eye, Gu Wanqiu's belly was already six months old. During this period, Li Jinxing did not know where to find Gu Wanqiu's previous photos, and wanted Gu Wanqiu to find some memories from the photos.

Memories add up, and one day she will be able to remember them.

But she didn't want to, when Gu Wanqiu saw the photos of her before, she was directly stimulated and caused a stomachache, and was sent to the hospital in the end.

The hospital raised the fetus for a few days.

She didn't remember the previous memories, but she thought of the memories of her plastic surgery period, which stayed in her mind, the most repressed memory, the doctor with all kinds of scalpels, cutting bones and faces, entangled Gauze, unrecognizable face.

How beautiful she was before, and how painful that period of plastic surgery was, it would be great if this memory could be lost.

......

A six-month-pregnant belly is compared to a five-month-old belly. Don’t look at the difference of one month, but the size is not on the same level. The six-month pregnant belly directly flattens the navel, and the round belly looks like a big watermelon. Stretch marks It also came out, and the black lines were very obvious, even if the medicine was applied, it didn't go off.

Gu Wanqiu is also a beauty lover, but she has seen her ugliest appearance, so the stretch marks on her stomach are nothing to her, it is better to have them on her stomach than on her face.

But it's impossible to say that she doesn't care at all, she would rather not have this child... If she didn't have this child in the first place, then she wouldn't feel uncomfortable with her stomach, and she would have to look at her pattern.

Nearly seven months pregnant, the fetal movement is getting stronger and stronger. The baby girl in the belly is very active. She punches her belly every day, and can always support her belly. The strength is not small. Every time the baby moves, Gu Wanqiu would feel pain for a while.

She could feel the fresh life in her body more and more, she was her daughter, she was alone, Gu Wanqiu asked herself, can she still go to the hospital to kill this child without distraction?

After Gong Qing took her away, the child would be more than seven months old, and a seven-month-old fetus could be born. If it was aborted, it would be no different from strangling a person to death!

The closer the vernal equinox was, the more Gu Wanqiu struggled in his heart. He was in great pain and couldn't sit still. At night, he would have nightmares. He dreamed that a fetus covered in blood was standing in front of her, with a pair of skull eyes staring straight at her. Looking at her, he asked her: "Mom, why don't you want me?"

Even in the hospital, Gu Wanqiu couldn't feel at ease to raise her baby, and the situation became more and more serious. Especially when she saw the medical staff in white coats, she could already imagine the scene of lying in the operating room waiting for an abortion.

Li Jinxing asked the doctor carefully how to solve Gu Wanqiu's situation.

The doctor replied and explained that Gu Wanqiu had prenatal anxiety.

The due date is still two months away, and the prenatal depression started so early?

A pregnant woman is inherently sensitive. This month, she has nothing to do. She can't save her baby by sitting and lying down quietly. She even has little time to go for a walk. She has nothing to do, so it's easy to think too much.

In addition, Gu Wanqiu has always been somewhat repulsed by the child in her stomach.

There are many factors that lead to prenatal anxiety, the most common of which is body anxiety.

Li Jinxing thought about it carefully, Gu Wanqiu seemed to be staring at his stomach in a daze.

After staying in the hospital for a few days, Li Jinxing took Gu Wanqi back.

Gu Wanqiu has now moved to the Gu family in Beicheng, where she will live more comfortably, so Li Jinxing arranged for three or four servants to take their two children with them

live in.

When Gu Wanqiu was six months pregnant, Li Jinxing successfully entered Gu Wanqiu's room and slept in the same bed as her.

She had a big belly, and it was difficult for her to sleep every day. She was often thirsty at night, drank too much water, and had to get up at night to go to the toilet. It was inconvenient for her to move, so Li Jinxing entered Gu Wanqiu's room with this reason.

Gu Wanqiu's bedroom is very big, and there is a big sofa inside, and Li Jinxing sleeps on the sofa at night.

Gu Wanqiu dared to lure wolves into the house because he knew that Li Jinxing would not do anything to her now that she had a big belly.

Moreover, it is indeed much more convenient to be strict and cautious. Gu Wanqiu does not dare to bother others in these trivial matters. With servants around her, she rarely asks them for help.

But Li Jinxing was different. After all, he was the one who took care of her when she was in the hospital, and he had made her get used to it, and... a mentality of dependence that she didn't even know about.

Li Jinxing slept lightly all night, and could always turn over and get up the first moment Gu Wanqiu felt unwell, help her turn over, serve tea, and then carried her to the bathroom.

The two are in the same room, very harmonious.

Li Jinxing researched about prenatal anxiety online, and learned more about it. He began to chat with Gu Wanqiu about the topic of giving birth from time to time.

When he saw Gu Wanqiu staring at his stomach again, Li Jinxing said: "After giving birth, I will take you to the hospital to remove these stretch marks."

Gu Wanqiu's movements became very sluggish. After sitting for a long time, her stomach seemed to be pressing on her chest, making it difficult for her to breathe, and her spine hurt a lot.

He could only slowly prop himself up and wanted to turn over, Li Jinxing quickly helped her when he saw this, he bought a very long pillow, when she was lying on her side, she could just put her stomach on it, it would be much more comfortable.

Gu Wanqiu was lying on his side, holding the pillow in his arms and said: "You must have forgotten the agreement between us, right? After I give birth to the child, we will return to the bridge, return to the road, and have nothing to do with each other from now on. By that time, I will have already left here, so why do you need to take me to do stretch mark surgery?"