[Hokage] Terukawa

"What are you laughing at?" Kakashi asked, his tone not very good.

"Laugh at you for being considerate, my good Kakashi."

As soon as his answer came out of my mouth, I felt an unspeakable sense of relief, a little happy but a little heavy. Compared with pure happiness, it was more like... a relief.

It should be a relief.

I wonder.

The temptation to somehow affect our future has been given the best answer, everything I wanted has been given.A relief, as it should be.

——"The dead end, the so-called poor wretch."

— “Can you imagine me like that?”

I have hidden too much content in these two sentences. I can't tell whether it is the expression of true feelings or... the hint and guidance of trying to influence Kakashi's thoughts, but the core content hidden in it is actually very concise: "Leaving Konoha is My inevitability."

This is actually a very simple and clear logic.Since I don't want to be a wretch who lives on the strength drawn from hatred, I must cut off that hatred along with its roots. On the other hand, there are more unspeakable thoughts between the two of us that need to be dealt with... ... Attachment makes people hesitate, revenge requires determination, but what I see is never a multiple-choice question, I just have to do it.I will definitely cut the flesh and blood of the enemy with the weapon in my hand, with the posture of going forward and never turning back. 7K

So I have to leave.

Leave for revenge.

There must be revenge.

Otherwise, I will not be able to comfort the dead of my loved ones, I will not be able to forgive myself, and I will not be able to free myself, and such a person will be immersed in pain and regret for the rest of his life.Prolonged pain will numb people's senses, torture people's minds, and make people become either violent or extreme, or submissive... It is meaningless, and this is not the ending I want.

Generally speaking, I don’t need anyone’s support and affirmation when it comes to revenge, a personal matter that has no room for it, but... but I also don’t want to disappear into Konoha as if evaporating someday. , if Kakashi, who is one of my closest and favorite people, can understand my choice - don't talk about beating around the bush and not talking well, some things are not right to speak out, let alone Kakashi That smart head, I don't think he will fail to understand the hidden lines I hide in my words. All he has to choose is "accept" or "not accept".

Fortunately, what he chose was exactly what I thought.

For a while, I couldn't suppress the corners of my raised mouth, but Kakashi's mood was obviously not good. Judging from his expression, he was even a little upset, so I, who was quite good at reading people's faces, restrainedly cleared my throat , leaned over to fetch the kettle, and poured him a cup of warm water.

"..." He gave me a complicated look, "Now I prefer to drink cold water."

I was speechless for a moment, so I could only cover my palm with a layer of ice-cold chakra, and then reached out to hold his cup.

"Stop, I have further requests," Kakashi stopped me, "How much cold water do you drink when you're trying to stay calm?"

"...is it cool at room temperature?"

"Then I will be cooler than your normal temperature." He said firmly.

I paused in place, and slowly typed out a question mark.

"Quit the fire, otherwise I might not be able to calm down." Kakashi urged with a cold face.

I... I think it is very strange to ask for such a specific request, but after all, the conversation just now is almost equivalent to a showdown. Kakashi must be in a bad mood if he wants to understand the key. explode.

Kakashi, who drank the cold water in one gulp, let out a heavy breath, as if he wanted to spit out something stuffed in his chest. He raised his head and looked at me, but he didn't say anything. He held the cup he put down with both hands. in the palm of your hand.He saw that I was a little confused, and my thoughts diverged in a weird way-what if he watched me crush the cup in my hand?Ah, then I probably have to bandage his palm again. If the wound is caused by shards of glass, maybe it’s not enough to use a chakra scalpel to relieve the pain...

"What did you say to Minato?" Kakashi asked.

"Minato, when he was left alone by my father, he probably didn't want me to go, but I've spent so long with him and Kushina, he won't fail to understand my thoughts," I smiled Laughing, "So, he probably saw that day long ago."

Kakashi frowned: "Yasaka Terukawa, don't play word games with me, you didn't tell him at all, did you? With Minato's character, even if he really expected it, it doesn't mean he will do nothing. I I advise you to confess to him as soon as possible, that he and Jiu Xinnai really regard you and me as family members, and you should not hide such an important matter from him anyway."

"I know, I know. Kakashi, I know what you said, and I have thought about it countless times in my heart."

I also poured myself a glass of cold water and drank it in one gulp. The voice from the vocal cords after passing through the water was no longer dry, but there was a little more melancholy.

"I will tell Minato, but not now. Now that the war has just ended, Konoha is waiting to be done, and I am needed in many places. It is not appropriate to leave now, and I need to make more preparations to convince him .”

"persuade?"

"It's about convincing Minato that I have a chance of success."

Kakashi sneered: "I advise you not to talk too much. How can you be sure about life-threatening matters?"

"If you don't have the certainty of winning, why don't you do it?" I asked rhetorically.

"With your current strength?"

"..." Kakashi's suddenly intense tone made me stupefied for a moment, I blinked, and said slowly, "I said that the time for revenge is not now, and I still have a hole card that I have never used. "

"It turns out that this gave you confidence. Well, it just so happens that I have also mastered a new hole card recently, everything is fair," Kakashi said indifferently, his straight brows were pressed down, and a cold light flashed in his eyes , "Yasaka Teruhe, when are you free? You and I have another appointment, let go of your hands and feet, and use all means. No amount of words can match the strength of strength, as long as you are strong enough... as long as you are strong enough , not to mention me, even Minato can’t force you to stay in Konoha!”

"Come as soon as you come, and play as soon as you play. It just so happens that I am also curious about how useful my hole cards are, and vice versa. Kakashi, thank you for sending me a pillow. This is a solid win-win situation."

I also immediately tilted my head to respond, half-truth and half-fake teasing and sarcasm came out of my inexpressible emotions.

"I will return all your words—I advise you not to talk too much. How did you know that Minato would force me to stay in Konoha? From the very beginning, he knew how I would choose, and related conversations have also been carried out. More than once, but it never made any real sense. Hatake Kakashi, I can tell you very clearly that in the ten years of Konoha, my thoughts have always been one and the same, and there has never been a moment of Shaken, change is out of the question. I know exactly what I want, and I can do my best to get closer to that direction—to be honest, I know what you are worried about.”

The surging blood made me short of breath, I took a breath and squeezed my ten fingers on the table.

"You are worried that hatred will blind my eyes, that all the way out will be cut off by myself, and that I will end up losing my mind and committing suicide—but my situation is really—"

I couldn't finish my sentence, because Kakashi, who was sitting still, suddenly jumped up and rushed towards me, but I couldn't avoid it in time.This was not difficult for me, but I was a little emotional and I was so unprepared for this white-haired boy—no, it was a young man, so that I froze in place for a while, and could only watch helplessly. Posted it in one breath.I could tell—of course he wasn't malicious, but there was anger that was almost visible to the naked eye. His hands were stretched out to my face, but it was definitely not in an attacking posture.

The cold temperature hit my chin, then my lips and the bottom of my nose. All the words I couldn’t utter were held back in my throat. The decoration of the house as far as I could see also moved down rapidly, like a piece of scenery that was torn away It's like changing all the way until I finally stop when I see the ceiling.

There was a crisp "bang" when the transformation stopped.

The pain from hitting the ground on the back of my head spread out belatedly, and I almost gasped for breath, but then I felt a heavy weight in my chest, and the sudden suffocation made me cough not come out.I subconsciously looked down with a fierce look in my eyes——what are you trying to do by suddenly jumping over to cover my mouth and still lying on top of me? !

However, the instigator of all this did not respond to my reaction. He still covered my mouth vigorously—the hand was cold and damp, probably from the sweat that came out at some point—at the same time, his eyes widened. He closed his eyes, and stared at me with anger still in his eyes:

"Don't say any more, you think too much, it's all wrong. You... are too arrogant, you never know what I'm worried about. My idea is very simple from the beginning, it's your revenge, no problem, I accept, but I never wish to see you... die."

"...Do I understand now? I just don't want you to die. What I hope is that you can live regardless of whether your revenge succeeds or not."

"Yasaka Terukawa, do you understand now?"

The palm covering my mouth was slowly removed, but I was lying on the ground in a daze and couldn't say a word anymore.I stared blankly at the ceiling that was supposed to be above my head, and my mind went blank for a moment, and I couldn't even feel the dull pain in the back of my head.

But the suffocation in the chest is always there.

I rolled my eyes and saw, as expected, a magnified version of Kakashi's face at the edge of my field of vision.He supported my side with one hand and my chest with the other, which seemed to be a very difficult posture, and I probably couldn't be blamed for his pressure making it difficult for me to breathe.

"Hey, answer me."

When Kakashi pressed for the third time, I raised my arms and firmly wrapped them around his shoulders.

Staring at the ceiling, my voice answered steadily: "Okay."

……

"Yasaka Terukawa, answer a question for me."

"Say."

"If I don't agree or understand from the beginning, what are you going to do?"

"Do you want to hear the truth or the lie?"

"Truth."

"Then you don't need to ask me, Kakashi, you know, I'm just 'telling' you. You are very important, but in this matter, your opinion is not important."

"...It is indeed your style, Yasaka Terukawa, a person like you who is arbitrary...you just give us a choice seemingly respectful, but that choice is actually meaningless at all, because you have already made your own decision , can't tolerate dissuasion from others at all. This is the case from language to behavior. Yasaka Terukawa, you, being consistent with your words and deeds is also a rare "virtue" to some extent. I——I can't do this, I Not even a fifth of yours."

"..."

"Like just now, I can imitate your tone of voice, your sarcasm when you speak, your . too much."

"..."

"I can't learn your arbitrariness and your decisive core... I may never learn it, and I will never be able to measure, be decisive, execute firmly, and go forward like you... But I don't feel sorry."

I didn't give him an answer, so Kakashi stopped talking and didn't speak anymore.

My heart also regained its calmness like water.

No waves.