Hogwarts: I Can Still Learn

"Oh no, Sister Lin, you can't do this."

"Xu An, let go"

In a ward in the inpatient department of a certain city's People's Hospital, this scene was playing out:

A fifteen or sixteen-year-old boy in a hospital gown was half lying on the bed, tugging on the clothes of a young nurse and howling like a killing pig.

If this happened elsewhere, it would definitely be considered harassment of medical staff by patients.But judging from the reactions of other patients in the ward, this was obviously not the first time that it had happened. Not only were they not anxious at all, they even shared the seeds.

Obviously, the final question of "Take You to Breakthrough the College Entrance Examination Mathematics" that the nurse was holding tightly in her hand was the cause of their dispute.

"Sister Lin, please give it back to me. This is my last inventory," Xu An shouted while trying to reach for the book.

"No, it's no. I don't know you yet. I haven't given you any sense of time. Can you still sleep?" Facing a stubborn person like Xu An, Nurse Lin did not relent at all. No matter what, she could not let Xu An. His book needs to be returned.

"What's wrong, what's wrong?" There were two knocks at the door, and then, a doctor in a white coat led a fat old woman in.

Xu An was stunned and subconsciously saw that they looked like two people.

"Doctor Liu, Dean Han." He called.

Dr. Liu was his attending doctor, a man who exuded irresistible majesty. Xu An did not dare to flirt with Nurse Lin anymore. Anyway, he also hid a book of must-read questions.

Nurse Lin took the opportunity to step out, snorted at Xu An, and confiscated Uncle Zhang's melon seeds before leaving.

Xu An couldn't catch up, so he moved to the bed and asked the middle-aged woman to sit down.

He called her the director, but not the director of the hospital, but the director of the orphanage.

Xu An was diagnosed with cerebral hemangioma when he was very young. His biological parents cruelly threw him into an orphanage without explaining the situation to the orphanage.I didn't find out until I came to the hospital for a checkup when I felt unwell a few days ago. Unfortunately, it was already late.

Director Han treated her very well, ever since she was little. Later, when he was admitted to the hospital, she would still visit him every week even though he was far away from the orphanage.

"The date for the operation has been set." Dr. Liu put his hands in his pockets and said in a businesslike tone, "June [-]rd."

"Ah, it's not like I can't" I can't take the college entrance examination.

There will be an observation period of at least two weeks after the operation. During this period, he cannot go out and must be checked every day. This means that he will not be able to take the college entrance examination.

"Why do you still want to take the college entrance examination? Aren't you only 15 years old?" Dr. Liu frowned and asked three questions in succession, making Xu An not sure how to answer.

"Xiao An is already a senior in high school." Dean Han patiently explained to Dr. Liu.

Xu'an skipped two grades in elementary school and was admitted to the city's No. 13 middle school at the age of [-]. He dominated the rankings for three consecutive years and was nicknamed: Xu Shen.

"Can you postpone it for a few days until the college entrance examination is over?" Xu An asked.

"It's already very risky for me to arrange for you to wait until June. If the experts at the provincial hospital are not fully booked, every extra day you live in this situation will be a miracle. You are still so young. You can finish the operation with peace of mind. Next year Wouldn't it be the same if I take the exam again?" Dr. Liu advised earnestly.

"But the operation is not 100% successful." Xu An bent his knees and suppressed his smile. "Don't lie to me. Do you think I can't know if you don't tell me? Even if you have an operation like me, it's almost impossible." It can't be successful, right?" he said calmly.

Dr. Liu and Dean Han were silent. They carefully concealed all this from Xu An: the operation was a gamble. If it succeeded, he would live. If it failed, it would be "death". They wanted to deceive Xu An. An went to gamble, but Xu An didn't want to gamble at all, he couldn't afford it.

"It's up to you." Dr. Liu turned around and walked out the door. He had never seen such a patient who was unwilling to undergo surgery, but this was the first time he had seen such a young patient with the courage to face life and death.

Director Han quietly wiped away tears beside the bed. She didn't want to show such a fragile side in front of Xu An. Among the children in the orphanage, he was the most sensible. She didn't have to worry about anything since she was a child. , and also won a lot of scholarships to help her share the financial pressure of the orphanage.Ever since she was diagnosed with Xu An's illness, she always felt like something was weighing on her heart. She felt sorry for this child.

"Grandma Han, thank you." Xu An gently patted Dean Han on the back, "I have lived a very happy life in the past 15 years. I will leave the money for the surgery for my younger brothers and sisters to go to school."

Dean Han left, and they were the only patients left in the small ward. Xu An took out his must-answer questions from under the pillow and began to swim in the sea of ​​questions.

"Young man," Uncle Zhang, who was lying opposite him, spoke.

Xu An was a little surprised. It was not that Uncle Zhang had never talked to him, but usually he was already asleep at this point.

"Actually, our situations are similar." Uncle Zhang smiled kindly and pointed to the two people who were already sleeping on the other two beds. "Lao He, he will have surgery next month. He even feels that If he doesn’t live until that time, he signs an organ donation agreement and says that his eyes can still be left to his invisible granddaughter.”

Xu An was a little surprised. He had talked with the Old He mentioned by Uncle Zhang. This old man was cheerful all day long and did not look like he was about to die.

"And Xiao Song." Uncle Zhang continued, "Xiao Song has malignant acute leukemia. He cannot match the bone marrow and cannot undergo chemotherapy. He said that he will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow and go see the world."

Xu An couldn't help but look at the bed. Xiao Song was sleeping deeply, with his chest rising and falling and snoring slightly.

"I'm not that rich anymore. Even if I sell my house, I can't pay for the surgery." Uncle Zhang's tone was very calm, as if he wasn't talking about himself. "I'm thinking, wait until the day of the surgery." , I will hide, and leave the house for my younger son’s wedding. I have lived for so many years, and I have earned enough.”

As he spoke, there was a sound of snoring coming from the bed. Xu An simply stopped answering the questions, turned off the light gently, and crawled back into bed.

This is an unwritten rule in the inpatient unit. Out of politeness, they will not ask each other about their conditions.Only now did he realize that the people who chatted and laughed with him during the day were just like him, calmly waiting for death to come.

My head started to hurt again. In the past few days, the headaches had become more and more frequent. My temples were throbbing, and I was soon holding back a cold sweat.

Before, he could endure it and pretend that nothing happened.But this time, he felt vaguely that he couldn't survive it.

He didn't tell Dean Han, nor did he tell Dr. Liu.

Xu An endured the pain and took out a bank card from the pocket of his hospital gown, where the scholarship for this semester was stored. He had not used it much because he was hospitalized.

He took out the pen, wrote the password on the card, and put it back in his arms. He felt that his head was getting heavier and heavier.

It seems that there is no way to take the college entrance examination.

He obviously still owes his tablemate a meal.

Obviously there are several sets of questions that I want to do but I haven’t had time to do them.

I will never see my brothers and sisters again.

I originally promised to buy them clothes if they won the top scholarship.

Something hot slipped from the corner of his eye and dripped on the white hospital pillow.

Xu An fell asleep quietly, with a faint smile on his lips.

"Death" turns out to be such a feeling. It doesn't hurt much. It's like sinking into the sea, getting deeper and colder.

"di"

"Xu An from Ward 713"