i have a sword fairy

All I could see was Su Xiaoxiao's little head tilted up, bunches of wet and sticky black hair were blown up by the cold wind, and she couldn't see her face clearly at this time.

But Zhao Rong could feel that her gaze was cast on him through the countless rainwater between the two of them.

Face to face with his four eyes.

Presumably her wet face hidden in the darkness at this moment is still extremely beautiful.

Is she still biting half of her pink lip habitually as before, revealing a cute canine tooth?

This stupid girl.

But I really haven't figured it out yet...

At this moment.

Su Xiaoxiao moved.

Faintly visible in the darkness, she lowered her head, stretched out a trembling hand, and grabbed Zhao Rong's palm.

Hold on tight.

Zhao Rong only felt that her little hand, which was still soft just now, was cold and moist, like a winter plum blooming in the biting frost.

He didn't try to break free for a while.

In the darkness, Su Xiaoxiao suddenly raised her head again, she stretched out her other hand tentatively, and pulled Zhao Rong's right hand towards her chest with both hands.

Getting closer, getting closer.

She wanted to use the warmest place in her wet body to warm him.

She believed that the heat from her beating heart, burning with life, could melt his hand that made her feel cold and hopeless.

just.

next second.

Her movements stopped abruptly.

because.

He pulled his hand back hard.

Zhao Rong withdrew his hand, and seeing Su Xiaoxiao's body sluggish for an instant, a bad premonition surged in his heart.

He opened his mouth, ready to say something.

But I haven't had time to make a sound.

Su Xiaoxiao turned around abruptly, rushed out, and ran away desperately.

It disappeared in the heavy rain in an instant.

"return!"

Zhao Rong opened his eyes, shouted loudly, and chased forward.

But the sound seemed to be covered by the sound of rain, and there was no response at all.

Zhao Rong ran wildly in the rain.

Following the general direction, he chased desperately without stopping.

But the whole world was covered with rain and darkness.

Su Xiaoxiao has long since disappeared.

I don't know how long I ran.

The rain gradually decreased.

a moment.

Zhao Rong stopped slowly.

He propped his hands on his knees, staring blankly at the ground, panting heavily, his whole body was cold and drenched.

Zhao Rong sat back on the ground.

"Hey, stop chasing?"

Gui's voice sounded.

Zhao Rong remained silent, staring straight ahead.

There was still a dark forest ahead.

Gui said again: "You won't be fooled by the rain, right?"

Zhao Rong still didn't speak.

"Actually, I think this is pretty good. It's better not to get involved in these mundane things. Not only for yourself, but also for others. My generation of monks should be pure-hearted, ascetic and forgetful, and not involve cause and effect. Climb the mountain with all your strength... Don't go looking for your nominal lady, let's change our appearance and go to Nanxiaoyaozhou, where I know you well, let's find someone who can change your life against the sky..."

"I want it all."

Zhao Rong suddenly spoke, interrupting Gui's words.

"What did you say?"

"I said I want them all."

Gui: "What the hell are you talking about?"

Zhao Rong's voice was hoarse, which was the result of shouting again and again in the rain just now.

"Do you know what Liu Sanbian's death told me?"

This seat does not want to know.

However, Gui still cooperated and said, "What's the reason?"

"responsibility."

Zhao Rong said calmly.

"In the past, I thought that responsibility was just to do what my identity should do."

"It's like being my childhood sweetheart and my husband, I want to travel thousands of miles north and return a jade token to Qingjun."

"It's like being a Confucian scholar, on the Qingfengge ferry, I will complain if I don't agree, and I saved Su Xiaoxiao under the sword of that little Sikou."

"It's like helping Lin Wenruo to participate in the debate on Confucianism and Taoism as a close friend and Confucian scholar."

"Just like as a friend, I used the golden core to raz the Liang Jingqin mansion and take back Liu Sanbian's body."

"Another example."

"Liu Sanbian, as the Son of Man, single-handedly went to kill Qin Ji, and resolutely died."

"Lin Wenruo, as a minister and Confucian scholar, saved the Southern Kingdom with Confucianism."

"Lin Qingxuan refused to betray the family as a child of the Lanxi Lin family."

"These are the responsibilities I used to think."

Gui curiously asked, "Isn't that the responsibility?"

Zhao Rong said in a deep voice: "Yes, but not all, the responsibility is more than that."

"We also have a responsibility."

"That is, let things that cannot bear the consequences not happen."

"This is what Liu Sanbian's death told me. He regretted not taking Liu Qingshan back to see his adoptive father until his death. This is his greatest regret and pain. No matter how hard he tries to recover later, he can't make up for it. "

"For the people I care about, this kind of responsibility is what I should do my best to fulfill, instead of waiting until the regret that I can't bear the consequences happens, and then fulfill the so-called responsibility."

"It sounds... makes sense, thank you Mr. Zhao for pouring this bowl of chicken soup for me."

Gui didn't know what he thought of, after being silent for a while, he suddenly smiled and spoke, using a word he had heard from Zhao Rong before.

"However, what does this have to do with everything you said?"

Zhao Rong spoke seriously.

"Qing Jun and Xiao Xiao, I want them all!"

"..." Return.

Chapter 116 I Want It All

The sword spirit said helplessly: "Cooperating with what I just advised you, you are all farting? Didn't you listen to a word?"

Zhao Rong said word by word:

"I like Qingjun."

Ever since that night when he knew that he had only awakened the memory of the previous life and the original personality, the memory of the two lives had merged.

From his current perspective, review the past with Qing Jun.

He and Qingjun are childhood sweethearts, childhood sweethearts.

The little things about Qing Jun and him, and the things he did for him, are all in his mind at this moment, and they are his memories, which he will never forget.

In the past, she had been showing her love to him and waiting humblely, but she was short of saying "I like you" to express it directly.

She sewed up the wedding dress for him, and warmed Heiyu next to her body. A single sentence from his letter made her return desperately.

What did he do?

Heh, maybe my former self also had an excuse.

For example, the humble status of the son-in-law, for example, he didn't love Qingjun, and only regarded her as a playmate when he was young.

but.

That was all in the past.

The current Zhao Rong is sure that he likes Qingjun, so he doesn't care about the so-called son-in-law status.

This is enough.

The responsibility to those around you is to prevent things that cannot bear the consequences from happening.

Therefore, Zhao Rong is more determined to go north to return the jade, and tells Qingjun that he likes her now too.

It's not licking.

It's about expressing your heart and not letting anything happen that you can't bear the consequences.

If Qing Jun says he doesn't like him.

Zhao Rong will also leave gracefully, at most it will be because he will drink a lot of wine in the future, at least after both parties have made it clear, there will be no more misunderstandings and regrets.

The pattering rain gradually stopped.

Zhao Rong sat on the ground with his hands behind his back, looking at the slightly brighter lush forest in front of him.

He smiled brightly, and continued to answer the question he asked himself:

"I like Su Xiaoxiao too."

The previous he had been hesitant because he still didn't know if he was determined to be responsible to her to the end.

But not so long ago.

The moment Su Xiaoxiao turned around and left.

He has an answer.

At the moment when he was about to lose, he knew his true thoughts.

It was a momentary feeling of emptiness in my heart.

Zhao Rong didn't want to miss it, he had to be responsible to Su Xiaoxiao, he had to promise her that he would "occupy" her selfishly!

Gui curled his lips and said: "Young Master Zhao is really domineering, not only wants to be contaminated by the world of mortals, but also to roll around in the world of mortals."

Although it mocked Zhao Rong's fickleness, it did not accuse him of anything, because in this era, it is normal for ordinary men to have three wives and four concubines, monks on the mountain, several Taoist companions, and countless furnaces.

Well, there is a little difference on the mountain. For example, some female monks will also find many men to be Taoist companions or furnace cauldrons, not only men can do this.

In fact, no matter what era, no matter how the mainstream public opinion beautifies and exaggerates, the phenomenon of those who occupy more resources and have more partners will never be less.

Therefore, Zhao Rong's behavior is nothing more than a complaint, and although it admires the supreme way of forgetting love, there is a way to not forget love that can be cultivated.