Empress Chu

Xiao Yu looked at her half understanding.

"For example, you want to paint because you want to, not because I can or like it." Chu Zhao said.

She gently stroked the child's head.

With such a young child and so dependent on her, she could easily turn him into her vassal.

Such a young child is also the most honorable person who holds the authority in the world.

It is very beneficial to her to turn him into her vassal and let him take her joy as her joy and her sorrow as her sorrow.

but--

She has been a vassal of others, living on the joy and anger of others, and only sees others but not herself.

How could she have the heart to let this child become like her?

This child is also miserable, just like her in this life, if she narrowly escapes death, she must live like a human being.

"We Ah Yu can like others, we can admire others, but we will always be Ah Yu and will not become someone else."

"Everyone has everyone's good, and Ah Yu also has his own good."

He seems to understand what his sister said, which is different from what he heard before. His mother used to say that the third uncle is so good, he is omnipotent in playing music, chess, calligraphy, painting, horseback riding and archery, and wants him to be like the third uncle.

He is looking forward to becoming like the third uncle, and then let the third uncle praise him for liking him.

Of course, now, he doesn't care whether the third uncle is good or not, and he doesn't want to be the third uncle, let alone whether the third uncle likes him or not.

He doesn't like the third uncle anymore.

He likes Sister Chu Zhao, and he wants to be like her. Like her, she must be very happy and will like him more.

It turns out that's not the case.

Xiao Yu nodded: "Sister, I remember."

The child's expression is serious, but after all, the child can't hide the uneasiness and tension in his eyes.

He was worried that he said wrong, worried that he did wrong, and worried that this sister didn't like him—Chu Zhao had never been in contact with Xiao Yu before, and he didn't know what kind of child the emperor's eldest grandson was raised in the deep palace.

Such a child must be held in the palm of everyone's hands, no one dares to offend him, no one will make him unhappy, and he should also be carefree.

But it all changed overnight.

This is too much for a child.

"Ayu." Chu Zhao said softly, asked him to sit down, held his hand, looked into his eyes, "It doesn't matter if you don't remember, don't understand, or do something wrong, you are still young, you can Learn slowly, don't be afraid, as long as you are not afraid, there is nothing terrible in this world."

Xiao Yu nodded again, this time it was much more relaxed than last time, and a slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

Although he half-understood, he understood one thing. He leaned over and snuggled into Chu Zhao's arms. His elder sister was very kind to him, different from how eunuchs and courtiers like Eunuch Qi treated him.

Like my mother—and not like her.

In short, it is sincerely good.

Chu Zhao looked at the child snuggling in front of him, and thought of the child he had no chance to meet in that life, and also thought of his mother who had no chance to see him.

She stroked his head lightly.

"Ayu, I was born without a mother," she said.

Xiao Yu was a little surprised and looked up at her. Like him, did my sister not have a mother?

Chu Zhao looked at him: "My mother died because she gave birth to me."

Six-year-olds don't quite understand what that means.

"It is very dangerous for a mother to give birth to a child. Many mothers will die due to accidents." Chu Zhao simply explained to him, "It is the luckiest thing for mothers and children to be safe."

She said and pinched Xiao Yu's cheek.

"Sister is so envious of you, Ah Yu and your mother are lucky mother and son."

Are he and his mother still lucky?Xiao Yu wanted to grin, but couldn't. Since the accident, he didn't even dare to think about his mother——

Warm hands embraced him in his arms, dispelling the chill, and a soft female voice fell from above his head.

"You have had your mother with you all these years, but I haven't had one day."

"I never knew what it was like to have a mother."

The sister is so pitiful, Xiao Yu stretched out his hand, hugged Chu Zhao, and gently patted Chu Zhao's back—just like his mother patted him.

"Ayu, but I believe my mother loves me very much." Chu Zhao let the child comfort her, and said softly, "Even if our mother is gone, their love will not disappear, they will always be in our hearts, and will always be with us .”

Xiao Yu nodded in her arms, hummed vigorously, and then raised his head.

"Sister," he said, "do you want to see your father?"

Chu Zhao was stunned for a moment: "Why do you—"

Xiao Yu said: "Eunuch Qi said that you and Taifu Deng were arguing. I was worried, so I came to have a look and heard what you said."

After all, he is the emperor, and no one dared to stop him from coming here to listen, and no one dared to disobey the order to disturb the three people in the hall.

Chu Zhao was silent for a moment, she wanted to find an opportunity to tell Xiao Yu slowly, since he knew——

"Yes." She nodded, lowering her gaze, "My father is going to die, Ah Yu, and I won't have a father either."

A small hand raised and stroked her cheek gently, as if to wipe her tears.

"Sister." Xiao Yu said, "Go and see him quickly, don't be like Ah Yu, who didn't run over to talk to his father that night, ran away in anger, and never saw his father again."

Chu Zhao didn't cry at first, but when he heard this sentence, a tear fell down.

Hey, Ah Yu.

Chapter 33 leaving

The night was deep, and the lights in the imperial city were a little darker than before, but they did not fall into silence, especially when they came to the front hall.

There were imperial guards patrolling, officials who had finished their work stood in the corridor and whispered, and eunuchs walked around with refreshments. When they saw a group of people walking slowly, everyone stopped.

"Empress." They bowed their heads and saluted.

Chu Zhao nodded: "My lords have worked hard."

The officials said one after another: "The duty of the minister."

Chu Zhao looked towards a palace: "Is the Tai Tuo here?"

The officials hurriedly said, "Master Tai Tu is here."

Chu Zhao looked at the eunuchs standing there again: "The autumn night is very humid, take care of the adults."

The eunuchs agreed in unison.

Chu Zhao passed them and headed for the Taifu.

The officials saw that there were eunuchs carrying food boxes in the queen's entourage, which seemed to be enough for a table - was this here to deliver supper to the Tai Tuo?

The Taifu now has three meals a day provided exclusively by the royal chef in the harem, and now the empress personally comes to deliver supper——

The Grand Tutor of the Supervisory Kingdom is indeed extraordinary.

but--

"I heard that after the banquet, the empress and the Taifu quarreled."

"I've also heard that the Tai Tuo lost his temper."

"At that time, Mr. Xie was also there."

"I don't know what unbelievable request the empress made."

"Did the Queen be pushed by the Third Young Master Xie—"

"Shh, be careful, be careful."

……

……

There were many people walking into the hall, and their footsteps were chaotic, making the originally quiet room noisy.

Deng Yi sat in front of the table and didn't even get up. It seemed that the person who came in was not the queen, let alone salute.

The officials who were originally in the palace shrank their heads and retreated hurriedly, pretending that they hadn't seen this scene - this Taifu came from a humble background and came to a sudden position, but his temper was not usually domineering.

What can I do, the little emperor and the little queen will have to live in his hands for many years.

Chu Zhao also didn't seem to notice Deng Yi's faux pas, and asked the eunuchs to put the dishes on the table, and then all the eunuchs and court ladies withdrew, leaving Xiaoman alone.

Xiaoman always seemed to be non-existent, but this time, she took a second look at Deng Yi and was a little wary. She could sense that this man was not kind——

Although it can be seen at a glance that this Deng Yi is not good at fighting, unlike that Xie Yanfang, who looks thin and thin, but can actually kill people.

However, these officials, even if they don't know kung fu, kill more people than those who know kung fu.

They kill without a knife.

"Master Taifu." Chu Zhao said with a smile, "This is a dish I personally selected, you come and try it."

Deng Yi said indifferently: "I am not hungry."

Chu Zhao bowed his knees and said with a smile, "Teacher, don't be angry because of me."

Deng Yi said: "Since the empress has already made a decision, how can she obey others? It doesn't matter whether I am angry or not, so I am not angry."

What he said was true. At this moment, he didn't have any anger, his expression was calm, and his face was cold.

He's not angry, and he doesn't care.

Chu Zhao sighed softly, and took a step forward: "Master Deng." He bowed again, "Thank you, Ah Zhao."

No longer being the Grand Tutor of the Palace, but having changed her former title, Deng Yi looked at her and said flatly: "As a minister, I dare not accept my mother's gratitude."

Chu Zhaodao: "Lord Deng reprimanded me in a fit of rage earlier, in order to protect the duty of the emperor. I left the imperial city and the capital. The Taifu was dissatisfied with me, but it was a good thing for me."

Deng Yi looked at her and didn't speak.

The girl smiled frankly: "If the Taifu and the third son are eager to let me leave, I will not dare."

She put it bluntly.

Only when two people disagree, can the three be balanced.

Deng Yi said: "Your Majesty, you are joking. Why is Miss A Zhao afraid? No matter whether you agree or not, Miss A Zhao's luggage has already been packed. Let's go over the wall tonight."

Chu Zhao smiled, looked at Xiaoman, and asked, "Xiaoman, have we packed our luggage?"

What's wrong with these people from the capital, Xiaoman turned her head and said in a muffled voice, "I don't know, and I don't care about cleaning up, just ask Ale."

Of course Chu Zhao didn't really want to ask, and looked at Deng Yi with a smile.

Deng Yi was silent for a moment, reached out to pick up the fruit tea on the table, wanted to drink it up, then stopped and said, "I really don't care about you—"

The existence of Chu Zhao is not necessary for him, on the contrary, it might be better not to be there, because he didn't have this girl in his imagination.

But since she exists—

He paused, still wanting to think more about her.

"I don't understand."

What if you don't understand and go to see each other?

Chu Zhao sat down opposite him, poured himself a cup of fruit tea, drank it down first, and said, "That's my father, and I'm his daughter, and we must see each other when we die."

Deng Yi said: "So what if we meet once? You know in your heart how your father's body is. Once you meet him, he can't be brought back to life."

This made people not know how to answer, Chu Zhao was a little helpless: "Master Deng, you can't talk like this."

Deng Yi said lightly: "Your Majesty, you are laughing at me, I am such a person." He drank the fruit tea and said, "That day in the palace, I had already bowed down to my mother."

Even though he got the jade seal and tiger amulet bestowed by the emperor, he never thought of going out of the palace to see if his mother was safe.

"It's a futile business," he said. "What's there to do but comfort your soul?"

It seemed that there was nothing left, Chu Zhao did not speak.

"People start to lose from birth in this life. What we have to do is to hold on to what we can hold, not to be greedy and unable to keep it." Deng Yi said, "Especially people like you and me, who have come to this day. position, if you are trapped in greed, hatred and obsession, then not only will you be in trouble, but the people around you will also end badly.”

Chu Zhao was silent for a moment: "I have lived for so long, and no one has ever told me like this." After speaking, he picked up the fruit tea and bowed solemnly, "Thank you sir for teaching me."