I really don't want to be a teacher

"At this moment, someone came to me, and he told me that he could help me find a suitable heart source..."

It took a long time for the man to continue talking.

Chapter 359

By the river, in front of the stall.

As the man spoke, his voice gradually subsided, and he fell silent again.

Lian Ge turned his gaze, glanced at the man, paused, and didn't say much.

"donor……"

The old monk looked at the man, clasped his hands together, and called out, but didn't continue, paused, and just recited the Buddha's name.

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"...He told me that he can help me find a suitable heart source, as long as I do something for them..."

The breeze carries the water vapor on the river, passing by from time to time, swaying the shadows of the trees and leaves behind the stalls,

Seemingly looking at the swaying shadow, the man spoke up and continued,

"...At that time, I was almost desperate. His words were like a life-saving straw. No matter where the straw was connected, I was willing to grab it..."

The man said, fell silent for a while, his eyes moved up slightly,

"...He told me that every once in a while, some heart patients would die on the operating table due to failed operations. But I am a doctor, a cardiac surgeon.

As long as I harvest the intact organs of these heart patients after they die and provide them with them, they will provide me with a heart source that can be used by my mother for a heart transplant. "

With that said, the man paused again,

"...At that time, after I listened to it, I didn't refuse. I just told him that I couldn't do this alone. He laughed when he heard what I said, and told me that I am not alone. As long as I agree Just do it."

"I agreed, agreed to take the intact organs of the patients I operated on after they died, and provided them. And they, told me, as long as I provide two liver or kidney donors, they will find them. heart source.

And at that time, my mother had reached the end stage of heart failure..."

The voice of the man's narration echoed in front of the booth, and the breeze blew by from time to time, but the street by the river became more and more quiet.

"...The first one is an old man who went into a coma when he was in the hospital. After discussing with his son and daughter, he decided to perform an operation on the old man.

Due to the age of the patient itself, the operation is very difficult.That operation was performed by me... I tried my best, but the operation still failed, and the old man died on the operating table. "

"...After the old man died, I realized what they meant when they said that I was not alone... I took the old man's liver and provided it to them.

When they got the liver, they gave me a sum of cash to take...and I took it. "

"Probably because of guilt, I donated that money."

The man was talking, turned his head, and fell silent again,

"...After that old man passed away, I haven't been able to provide them with a liver or kidney donor for a long time... And my mother is almost unable to support her."

"...the second one is a young girl, only 20 years old, with severe congenital heart disease... She is very weak and can only lie down most of the time, but she likes to laugh."

The man said, his eyes were a little dazed.

"...She was brought by her parents and came to see me. Her parents said that she used to have a patient who suffered from the same congenital heart disease as her. She came to me and healed after I performed the operation. of.

So, they brought her to me and wanted me to operate on her.

Before the operation, I took the operation consent form and talked to her parents and told them about the risks of the operation. After listening to my explanation, they signed it.They told me, trust me, trust me..."

"...I went back with the signed consent form for the operation, went to the ward, and looked at the girl...she was talking to the nurse about what to do after her operation was successful and she recovered.

She smiled happily and looked forward to it. She said that when she got well, she was going to the park, the amusement park, the cinema, and she wanted to go alone..."

"...Before anesthesia, she was lying on the operating table, her eyes were still looking forward, as if she was thinking about what she was looking forward to... She turned her head and asked me, will her operation be successful.

I looked at her, but didn't answer, she continued on by herself, she said, it will definitely succeed, it will definitely succeed..."

The voice gradually subsided, and the man fell silent again, but his eyes were a little absorbed in looking at the gently swaying branches and leaves.

……

The breeze blew across the streets by the river again, and along the riverside, under the street lights, it became more and more quiet.

On the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze and looked at the man, without saying anything.

The old monk clasped his hands together and remained silent.

……

"...Her operation failed and she fell on the operating table."

Turning his head, the man continued,

"I was holding a scalpel, standing by the operating table, just looking at her, just looking at her... as if I could see her smiling at me, and heard her tell me that she wanted to go to the park alone, amusement park……"

The man stared blankly,

"My colleague comforted me, saying that I am not to blame for the failure of this operation. We have done what we can and we have done our best... But I know that I made mistakes that I should not have made during the operation."

"... At the most critical moment, I hesitated, and I couldn't help but think of my mother... By the time I wanted to make amends, it was already too late."

"I killed her... I killed her."

Lost, the man said over and over again,

The voice gradually subsided, and the man fell silent again.

……

"...I took her kidney and provided it to them. They gave me another sum of money and told me that they are already looking for a donor for my mother's heart transplant, and they will notify me when they find it."

The man lost his mind and said,

"...I pushed open the door of the operating room. Outside the operating room, her parents were waiting outside the door. When they saw me coming out, they came over and asked me if the operation was successful... The expectation in their eyes was very similar to hers. Like. I looked at them and didn't answer, so they asked again... My colleague saw that I had been silent, so I spoke up, told them, and told them that the operation failed and she died...

Her parents fell down in the corridor, I didn't dare to look at them, and after saying sorry, I left, only hearing the cries of her parents behind me..."

Whispering and talking, the man didn't know whether he was talking to Lian Ge or himself,

"... Before her parents took her out of the hospital, they came to see me in the office. Her parents' eyes were still red, and when her mother spoke, she couldn't help crying...

Her parents told me that they don't blame me, they know that we did our best to save their daughter... They said, thank me, thank you for my willingness to operate on their daughter..."

The man said, with some pain on his face,

Gradually calm again, only silent,

……

"...After that, on the third day. They informed me that my mother's heart transplant donor had been found."

Looking at the swaying shadow in the shade, the man said.

The old monk looked at the man, put his palms together, and recited the Buddha's name.

"Amitabha……"

Looking at the man from the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze back and looked into the distance.

Along the streets by the river, the shops or shops still have some lights through the doors and windows, or the doors have been closed,

The street became more and more quiet, only a gust of breeze blowing from time to time, disturbing the shady branches and leaves by the river, the signboards on the shop doors, the white cloth in front of the stalls, and the skirts of several people under the dim street lamps.

Farther away, in the tall buildings, the lights of every household are still on, and the bustling place seems to be still lively.

Chapter 360 Scalpel

"...They said that the donor had already been checked with my mother and was a successful type match, so I should be ready to get a heart source..."

By the river, in front of the booth, the man was silent for a long time, then continued,

The voice of the voice mixed with the sound of the wind rang in front of the booth,

"...they gave me an address to go there as soon as possible...before I left the hospital, I went to see my mother in the ward.

My mother was lying on the hospital bed, much thinner than before she was admitted to the hospital... Before she got sick, I always felt that my mother was the one who could work in the seedling field for a day... She never seemed to be I said she was tired, and she had never been so weak...

At that time, her heart could no longer support her body, and most of the time, she was in a coma, and in the ward, there was only the ticking sound of life monitoring instruments... But that day, I stayed in the ward for a while Son, when I was about to leave, my mother woke up...

I poured her a glass of water, she couldn't sit up from the bed, so I sat by the bed and fed her.

While drinking water, she smiled and talked to me. She said that she seemed to have slept just now, and she was much more energetic.Just had a dream.

I dreamed that when my father was still there, when I was young, she and my father were threshing millet in the field, and I was also playing around in the millet, holding a small handful of millet, beside the mixing bucket, Just like my father, slapping millet.I couldn't beat the millet cleanly with that handful of millet, so my father beat his own millet, and then took the handful of millet I had thrashed to continue beating. My mother, holding the millet beside me, smiled. , looking at...

She said that the weather in the dream was really good. Although the sun was out, the wind was blowing...

As she was talking, she fell silent again. She asked me if the sun was out that day, and I said it, and there was still some wind blowing.

She smiled, then looked at me again, and said to me,

Said that I can't lie since I was a child, and I can't hide things. Although she didn't go out, it was raining outside the ward, and she could still hear it.

Then, she asked me again, asking if there was something on my mind.

I didn't speak, just shook my head.

She just looked at me, was silent for a while, and didn't ask any more questions, just took my arm and said to me,

Let me not worry about her, her life is enough, she can rest assured that I have a long time to live my own life...

Then she told me again, saying that if she... bury her on the mountain behind the house with my father, that's it, when I have time to go back to see her in the future, she will be far away can see me..."

The man said, fell silent for a while, and then continued,

"... When I left the ward, she told me that if you have to go out later, remember to bring your umbrella, so as not to let the rain wet your clothes, so as not to catch a cold."

……

"...I left the ward, arranged the preparations before the operation, and left the hospital. I took the car and went to the address they gave...to get the heart source."

The man turned his head, looked at the river, and said,

"It was an old factory building in an old park. When I got outside the factory building, he was already waiting for me there. He took me and entered the factory building.

...In the factory building, there was a separate room. After washing my hands and changing my clothes, I followed him into that room.In the room, it is a very standard operating room.

The operating table, shadowless lamp, all the things that should be in the operating room are there.

He smiled and asked me, can the operating room still be seen...

In the operating room, besides me and him, there were several other people, a person in charge of anesthesia, and an assistant... After I approached the operating table, the assistant handed me a scalpel.

...On the operating table, a person was lying, covered by a cloth, only revealing the scope of the thoracoabdominal surgery field of vision.

Although the man had been anesthetized and lay unresponsive on the operating table, the inserted trachea and the changing curve of the life monitor all proved that the man on the operating table was still alive...

The person who brought me in smiled and told me that this is the donor of my mother's heart, but I need to take it myself...

I held the knife and looked at the person lying on the operating table, but didn't respond.

He then continued on his own, saying that the person lying on the operating table was a homeless man, and it took them a lot of effort to find such a suitable donor.

He said, let me rest assured that their hands and feet are handled very cleanly, and even if there are fewer homeless people on the street, they don't care much.The homeless man had been checked before, and there was no infectious disease and no heart problems.The operating room also fully meets the standards. What I need to do is to remove the heart and put it in the storage container they have prepared to take away...

He also smiled and told me that I provided them with two livers and kidneys. The value of this heart is far greater than those two livers and kidneys, and they are at a loss. "

The man said, looking at the river, and then paused,

"... I was holding the knife, and I just stood beside the operating table, looking at the man on the operating table... The operating room was very quiet, only the sound of the monitor ticking, and then, the ticking sound disappeared. "

"...I took the man's heart and put it in a preservation container. He smiled happily beside me, saying that I am worthy of being a heart surgeon... Then he told me, let me put the operating table The kidney of that person was also removed...I did it."

The man said, his tone became more and more calm, he just looked at his hands,

"...I took that heart, went back to the hospital, and performed a heart transplant on my mother myself.

Before the operation, before anesthesia, I saw my mother in the ward and told her that a heart donor had been found.At that time, she was awake, she looked at me, said nothing, just touched my face..."

The man paused, then continued,

"...After the heart transplant was done, my mother was admitted to the ICU. I was standing outside the ICU door, watching my mother...

Two days later, my mother woke up. Although she couldn't leave the intensive care unit, she was able to talk to me... I stood at the door of the intensive care unit for a long time, until my mother noticed me and called me. walk into……