I really don't want to be a teacher

Lian Ge glanced at the middle-aged man, didn't say anything, just waited quietly,

……

"...It was also that year,"

The middle-aged man lowered his head and looked at the apple,

"It was my birthday that day. I can remember her birthday because it was the anniversary of her mother's death. But she always remembers my birthday. She has remembered it since she was very young, and has never forgotten it...

The year before that, on my birthday, she didn’t know how long she had accumulated the food expenses I gave her. On my birthday, she bought me a bag of apples. I didn’t eat it, and I didn’t taste it. In front of the spiritual seat, as a offering..."

As he spoke, the middle-aged man paused for a moment before continuing.

"That day, it was my birthday, and it was also a Friday. I was doing house repair work in the next village. I knew she was supposed to come back from school that afternoon, but I didn't go back early.

At that time, it was already very late, and the host family was already busy preparing dinner, and we were also packing up and finishing the work...

Just then, my cell phone rang, it was an unfamiliar number.

After answering the phone, she told me that she was the head teacher of Ruirui School, and that Ruirui had an accident at school, and asked me to go to school as soon as possible.

I asked her what was the matter, and she told me...Ruirui died..."

The middle-aged man still lowered his head, but his body was trembling slightly, so he couldn't continue speaking.

In the main room, it was quiet again.

……

"...At that time, when I heard this sentence, my mind seemed to be empty. I didn't know what I was thinking, and I didn't know what it was like."

After a long time, the middle-aged man raised his head, looked up, and continued to say,

"I don't know how I got to school. I just remember that when I got to school, Ruirui was still lying at the door of the toilet. There was blood all over her body and head, and her hands were clenched into fists, squeezed together. , squeezed very tightly...even though she...hadn't let go, inside that clenched fist was a handful of torn, crumpled change, one piece, five pieces, ten pieces of……"

"When I arrived at school, the three people who killed Ruirui had already been caught. They were two girls and a boy. The oldest boy was only one year older than Ruirui. I was standing next to him. He was still smiling at me, looking very happy..."

The middle-aged man spoke in a calm tone, but the hand holding the apple was clenched tighter and tighter.

"... After taking photos and investigating the scene, the police took me, Ruirui, and the three animals to the police station... The police were interrogating the three animals in the interrogation room, and the forensic doctor was in another room Here, I was doing an autopsy for Ruirui, and I was sitting at the door of that room, my mind still seemed to be empty, I didn’t know what I was thinking, I didn’t know what to think..."

"...After the interrogation and the autopsy, the police told me what happened...Those three beasts are often in the school, blackmailing and threatening some students, asking others to pay them 'protection fees', and so is Ruirui. Being blackmailed by one of them... They said that they had blackmailed Ruirui many times, and every time she was frightened, Ruirui would obediently pay the money... But that day, the three beasts happened to notice that Ruirui had money on her body. , blocked Ruirui at the door of the toilet, trying to blackmail her, but this time, Ruirui said nothing, so they held down Ruirui, and the other went to grab it, and Ruirui took the money from her pocket. He took it out, clenched his hands tightly, and covered his body, not letting go no matter what.

Those three beasts just started kicking and slapping, trying to get Ruirui to hand over the money, but Ruirui refused to hand over the money, and refused to let go no matter what,

Just like that, they punched and kicked Ruirui to death. "

The middle-aged man clenched his hands tighter, his body trembling,

"...I'm very angry, not only to these three beasts, but also to myself... For so long, I never knew about it, I don't even know, is there a time when Ruirui called and wanted to tell me I hung up the phone when I was there...Ruirui is so bullied, is it because she feels that no one can protect her..."

The middle-aged man had some pain on his face,

"... I was wrong, I was wrong... Ruirui is my daughter, she is my daughter... What am I, what am I..."

"Snapped!"

Raising his other hand, the middle-aged man slapped himself hard, his face and eye sockets turned red at the same time, his body trembled more violently, and he couldn't continue speaking.

In the main room, it became more and more quiet,

Gusts of breeze once again passed through the cracks on the roof of the backyard wall, blowing into the main room, shaking the incandescent lamp and the shadow of the person under the lamp.

……

"...After returning from the police station, I went to Ruirui's school to pack her things... Her things have been there for a long time, the cups that have been used for a long time, brought from home, the quilt cover that has been washed a little faded, next to her pillow On it... there were three sloppy apples, and on top of the apples, there was a notebook... I opened the notebook, and it was not a diary... It was written, and every time she called, she told me Every page is... but I never, ever get through the first thing..."

After a long time, the middle-aged man raised his head slightly, his body and voice still trembling,

"...turn to the last page and it says, 'Fruit Cake' 138RMB, extra pear 148RMB'

... At that time, I didn't like to eat apples, but pears. "

Chapter 320 Sharpening the Knife

in the main room,

The middle-aged man bent over, holding the apple, his hands and body trembling slightly,

"...The money she held was used to buy me a birthday cake, and the money she didn't let go of until she died was used to buy me a birthday cake..."

The voice trembled and whispered, the middle-aged man repeated over and over again,

"...She thought of me, and she still thought of me at that time, but I never protected her well. I'm a beast, a beast!"

The middle-aged man was in pain, clutching the apple,

"... until the day she passed away, I never treated her well. She tried desperately to please me, to like me, because I was her father, but I never seemed to remember that I was her Father, I only know that she is a girl, and I only think that she killed her mother...even before that day, I don't know how many times I have smiled at her, whether I have laughed..."

The middle-aged man trembled even more violently,

"...It was my birthday that day, but it became the anniversary of my daughter's death."

"...I was wrong, I'm sorry for her...Ruirui, daddy is sorry for you, daddy is sorry for you, daddy is wrong..."

The middle-aged man bowed, clutching the apple with one hand and the edge of the table with the other, repeating.

After a long time, the voice gradually subsided, and the middle-aged man fell silent again.

……

On the side, Lian Ge watched and listened quietly,

The middle-aged man turned around slowly, his eyes were still red, he raised his hand, glanced at the apple with some juice in his hand, took a bite, said nothing, kept silent, and slowed down bit by bit. Chewing slowly.

"...I regretted it, and the shadow of Ruirui was over and over again in my mind, but I couldn't even figure out what I did with Ruirui. It seemed that every time, I walked away."

The middle-aged man paused again, his tone calmed down again,

Looking at the slightly raised head, through the door leading to the backyard, looking at the dark backyard,

"...The more I think about it, the more blurred those memories become. I don't want her to disappear like this. I want her to be alive, so that I can accompany her, do things she likes to do with her, and buy her beautiful dresses , go to the park with her, send her to school, pick her up from school, cook her favorite food... buy her apples.

I regret it, and I want to make it up... But regretting is useless, she is gone. "

"...The three beasts who killed her were locked up in a special school. I went to the police station and picked up Ruirui and went home... When I got home, I never felt that after Ruirui was gone, there was nothing in this room. It's so quiet, there's no sound at all... I just sat next to Ruirui and watched her all night...

I don't want to bury her in the ground, don't want her to be like this, like this... I think she's smiling at me, but she's gone, gone... never coming back. "

Looking at the dim backyard, the middle-aged man said, his eyes were a little dazed,

……

"...At this time, I got to know a man, Shan Daxian, who lives in the next village. People in the village say that he can communicate yin and yang, and he can summon the upper body of dead souls.

I thought of Ruirui, I wanted to talk to her again, so I went.

I followed a villager, and when I arrived at his house, he sat cross-legged under the altar. He looked about 60 years old. When he saw me, he told me about my family before I could speak.

At that time, he was the last straw for me. I knelt down and begged him to let me see my daughter again.

He refused at first, and then, under my pleading, agreed. "

The middle-aged man spoke calmly, looked at the backyard, and said,

"... After he held the magic weapon and cast the spell, he seemed to be a different person. That afternoon, I seemed to see my daughter again. The way she spoke and her movements seemed to be...

I apologized to 'Ruirui', and I apologized over and over again, and I brought her an apple, and I let her eat it while talking to her.

That time, I chatted with 'Ruirui' for half an hour, and that Shan Daxian charged me 3000 yuan, which was half a month's wages for me to repair houses for others.

But I think, as long as I can see Ruirui again, and talk to Ruirui again, I am willing to spend any money, and I am willing to do so. "

The middle-aged man looked at the backyard without moving his eyes away. After a pause, he continued,

"...Since then, I have been saving money every month. Although it is a little bit hard, I think it will be worth it if I can see Ruirui.

…Every half a month, after I have saved enough money, I will take the money and go to that Shan Daxian, asking her to invite 'Ruirui' to come up and let me talk to Ruirui, every time it takes more than half an hour... …

As time passed, I began to be dissatisfied and just talk to Ruirui. I wanted to accompany Ruirui to the park, and I wanted to accompany Ruirui to buy skirts... But Shan Daxian said that he could not leave the execution ground.

But what I want is not just for Ruirui to be able to walk around after she comes up.I also want her to be able to go to school, to be able to grow up... I want her to be alive. "

Listening to the middle-aged man's narration, Lian Ge turned his eyes, glanced at him, and cast his eyes to the dim backyard,

"... I thought, isn't Shan Daxian supernatural? I want him to help Ruirui come back to life."

The middle-aged man continued to speak calmly,

"...The first time I heard my request, Shan Daxian didn't agree. But I begged him again and again, and he began to hesitate.

More than two months ago, I went to ask him again, and he told me that he had a secret method passed down from his ancestors, which should not have been passed on to the outside world, but seeing my sincerity, he could give it to me.

However, the Dharma cannot be handed down in person, and I need to give him 20 yuan before he is willing to give me the hand-copied ancestral secret dharma book.

When he said this, he took out the secret book and showed it to me, and he put it on his body..."

"Do you really believe it?" Lian Ge looked at the backyard and asked calmly,

Hearing this, the middle-aged man paused and fell silent for a while, but he didn't respond, he just continued talking,

"...I want Ruirui to come back to life, but 20 yuan, even if I sell everything in the house, I can't make up so much money. I said I would give him all my money, please I begged him to be merciful and give me that secret book... But this time, no matter how much I begged him, he didn't agree. His son kicked me out of his house directly.

I was not reconciled, I had already seen hope, and I didn't want to give up, so I knelt at the door of the Great Immortal Shan and knelt for a whole night, but until the next day, when I opened the door again, the Immortal Shan didn't let me in.

In the end, I fainted at the gate of Shan Daxian, and was carried back home by people from the same village...

At that time, I only felt that I was useless, I had a chance and hope, but I still couldn't save Ruirui..."

The middle-aged man looked up slightly, his eyes in a trance.

"But you still got the secret book."

Lian Ge didn't turn his head, looked at the backyard, and said calmly,

"Yes, I got the secret book."

The middle-aged man withdrew his gaze,

"I'm not reconciled, I don't want to give up, no matter what I do, I have to get that secret book, I want to make Ruirui come back to life... After I fainted and woke up, it was already afternoon,

I took three apples and put them next to the whetstone in the backyard. I took a butcher knife from the kitchen and poured some water on the whetstone. I ate the apples while sharpening the knife over and over again. ,

From afternoon until night, when it was dark, the rusty knife was already shining brightly, I took the knife and went to the house of Daxian Shan..."

Chapter 321 Shame

In the main room, under the incandescent light,

The middle-aged man holding the apple looked at the dark backyard, fell silent for a while,

"...When I came out of Shan Daxian's house again, the sharpened knife was dirty again, my hands were dirty, and my whole body was dirty..."

The middle-aged man was talking, raised his hands, his eyes were a little dazed,

After a pause, the hand was put down again,

"...But I think, if Ruirui can live again, can eat another bite of apple, can grow up, can go to school, can get married... no matter how dirty her body is, I will be willing..."

Looking at the dark backyard, the middle-aged fell silent again.

Lian Ge didn't turn his eyes away, but just waited quietly.

In the main room, under the incandescent light, it seemed even more quiet.

……

"...I got the secret method, and the secret method was also a little dirty. I took it, went home, took a dry handkerchief, wiped it carefully, and opened it ..."

The middle-aged man stood and talked, and then paused again after speaking,

"What's written on it?" Lian Ge asked calmly without turning his gaze.

"...After I spread it out, I saw the words on it. It was the same as that Shan Daxian said. This is a manuscript. On the first page above, there are only a few words: 'Yin who restores yang, violates the law of heaven , replace yin with yang, intercept vitality. Yang transforms yin, yin turns yang, a ray of vitality... needs to be "sacrificed" by people. "

After the middle-aged man was silent for a while, he replied,

"...And then, the next few pages will record the whole process."

"Did you follow the 'Secret Technique'?" Lian Ge said again with a calm tone.