Jiu Ge’s Beloved Spirit

"..." Fu Sheng looked at him, couldn't help but blush, looked away, and said nothing.

 Bit your lips and hold back.

 The baby in her arms was crying. It seemed that she felt the sadness of the adults. She cried hard and kept crying.

Fu Sheng said: "You get up first."

 He couldn't afford it, he just wanted her to agree.

He kept begging, but Fu Sheng never gave him the answer he wanted. In the end, Jun Lin said coldly: "Do what you have to do, and you will die sooner or later. If you really want to die, , raise the child and then die.”

"This way, after you die, you will have the dignity to go to Si Si."

Those days, he knelt for a long time.

 A long, long time—until the tears stopped falling, the limbs were stiff and unable to move, the whole person was silent, and the expression became calm and dull, like a clay sculpture that had lost its soul, leaving only an empty shell.

I knelt down for a long time and remained silent for a long time.

Finally one day, as if he had woken up and accepted the reality, he slowly supported himself and stood up.

 Don’t say anything, just hold the child in your arms and leave alone.

 Do what you should do - relying on this sentence, I have lived until now.

Now he has returned to his former self, always indifferent, without revealing his thoughts, and terrifyingly quiet and few words.

 If you have something to do, do it. If you have nothing to do, you can sit alone from day to night, and from night to day.

 This is the case every day.

 He rarely smiled. Most of the time, he just touched his lips and smiled calmly, with mechanical movements, and there was rarely any real emotion in his eyes.

He often falls into a trance, his pupils are slightly out of focus, and he looks quietly at unknown places without speaking or moving. Don't show your emotions, just suppress everything - your whole person is cold, your eyes are also cold, and you look at everything indifferently.

It is as if I am a bystander, a person who does not belong here. I only need to watch with a cold eye. When the time comes, I can immediately withdraw and leave, resolutely looking back without any attachment.

Fu Sheng came to see him and sighed inwardly when he saw how strong he was in supporting himself.

She wanted to say something, but she could only say that - no matter how much she said, she knew he wouldn't listen.

Knowing that she couldn't persuade him, she looked around, stayed quiet for a moment, and then started to change the topic: "Where is Nian Nian? Is she not here? Did she go to play with her good friends again?"

Jun Jiu Ge lowered his eyes and replied calmly: "Moyue went to find her uncle. She always likes to go there these days."

Fu Sheng understood, "That's it..."

 “Aren’t you going to follow?” she asked.

Jun Jiu Ge slowly poured tea for her and said: "If I go, it will only spoil her fun. She doesn't want me to follow her all the time."

She didn't want to, so he didn't bother to follow her, and he didn't want to interfere too much.

 For her, he only cares about his homework and doesn't want to care about anything else.

Fu Sheng nodded, looked at him, and said nothing.

His eyes fell on the tea in the cup. The tea was clear and the remaining leaves were stretched and light, floating in the sky.

She looked at the leaves on the tea, took a sip slowly, and said, "The weather has been good these days, everything is coming back to life, and the tea tastes a lot better."

As she spoke, she looked at the indifferent Jun Jiu Ge in front of her, and whispered: "Go out for a walk more...walk more, see more, think about it, maybe, I can call you Feeling better."

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　(Jiu Ge)》 didn't answer, was speechless, and remained cold.