Jiu Ge’s Beloved Spirit

  Chapter 1865 Rose Manor + Duplicity (Extra 6)

  【Mr. Qiao’s monologue】

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  After I married you... I often feel that I don't love you enough.

  Always thinking, I want to give you everything.

  I have lived my whole life, I think I still don't know how to be satisfied, and I don't know how to be grateful.

  Thinking about it countless times, I am extremely glad that I met you, not someone else.

  Because of you, I can't rest assured.

  Because of you, I always feel that time is too little, life is too short, I always feel...

   Not enough.

   Nothing is enough.

   Still want to catch more, more.

But…

  In my life, no matter how hard I try, there is nothing I can do.

   There is no way to be with you all the time, no way, to have more and more time.

  God is very kind, let you come to my side, let me have you;

  But God is cruel, and wants me to leave you.

   I have to leave.

  I thought about it for a long time, thinking... what should I do?

  No matter how I think about it, I can't think of a way.

  So, I can only think about what I should do...to make you happy.

  Even if it is, I'm gone.

   I do many, many things.

  You don't need to know these things.

  I just hope you can be happy and live without burden.

   This is the last thing I can do for you.

   As for…

  Will you fall in love with someone else? I thought about it for a long time, and finally, the answer I got was...

   Yes.

  Because, being alone is very lonely.

actually…

  I don't mind if you fall in love with someone else.

  Because, I don't want you to be alone.

   It's so lonely alone.

  You alone can kick the quilt.

  No one will cover you with a quilt, and you will catch a cold, what should you do?

so…

  I don't mind if you forget me and fall into the arms of other men.

  As long as he loves you more than me, then...

enough.

But…

  I keep thinking that someone really...

  Do you love you more than me?

  —Mr. Joe.

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  【Jiang Wen Monologue】

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  I care about your past and all the wonderful things you had with another man.

  How much do you care?

Very concerned.

  I noticed, I was going crazy.

   At first when I found out that you had a husband, I thought I was angry.

   Annoyed at you, annoyed with that man, annoyed with...

Own.

   Annoyed why I didn't show up earlier, angry that I didn't succeed with that man, and angry at myself...

  Clearly minding to death, but still always thinking of you.

  Always uncontrollably thinking about you.

  Thinking of your kindness to me.

  Thinking of you, touching my head, would smile and say to me...Stupid rabbit.

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  I like your tenderness.

  Really, I really like it.

  I like it so much, I suddenly feel that I don't seem to mind it so much.

   I don’t mind that man had a past with you, I don’t mind that you love him, and I don’t mind...

  You were married to him and had a loving relationship.

  Really, don't mind.

  As long as you love me so much.

  I can care about nothing.

  What that person can do for you, so can I.

  I can wash and cook for you, earn money desperately, and put you to sleep.

  Anything is fine.

   Even, I am willing to take out my heart and show it to you.

  I want you to know that I love you no less than that man.

  Really, no less than that man.

   So, it’s okay to…

  Do you like me a little more?

   Really, just a little bit.

  I will love you more than anyone, including—that person.

  —Mr. Jiang Wen.

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  (end of this chapter)