Infinite Life: Trapped in a lifetime

Ken's death was a huge shock to all those who knew about it among the Kerner youth.

The whole thing is ridiculous to the point of being somewhat comical,

But the deaths of O'Connor and Ken made the whole thing difficult to be humorous.

For most of the mid-level and upper-level Kerner youth at this moment,

They may not necessarily be able to create another superior interest group just to avoid that the rights in their hands may be passed down to their heirs.

Just voluntarily give up having the next generation.

But they could understand Ken's nightmares and pain.

The words Ken said before his death were, to all the young people in Kellner who knew about them,

They are all in my mind, indelible and lingering.

That night,

The same age as Mo Dao, 36-year-old Pars,

Sitting in the office and staying up all night.

In the early morning, considering some of the work that still needs to be done during the day,

Only then did he force himself to fall asleep on the sofa.

Just after falling asleep,

Pars had a nightmare.

He dreamed of many young soldiers of Kerna who had died in previous wars.

In the dream, those who had sacrificed were standing in front of him,

But he didn't say a word, just looked at him with his eyes.

After waking up from the dream,

After sitting on the sofa and relaxing for a while, Pars got up again and started working.

Nine o'clock in the morning.

Pars's six-year-old son came to the office to find his father.

Pals forced a smile on his child.

After saying a few words to the child,

The child took a storybook and sat on the sofa to read it quietly.

From time to time, Pars would finish a piece of work in his hand and then look at his son who was reading a book. Sometimes he would be a little lost and not know what he was thinking.

What Pars didn't notice was that the children who were usually very close to him and even a little clingy,

Today in his office, he acted a little reserved and nervous.

In the eyes of Pars' son,

His father, who was always gentle and patient with him,

When I looked at him today, my eyes were a little strange, sometimes even a little scary.

He didn't know what he had done wrong to make his father angry, so he was a little cautious.

"dad……"

"Um?"

After the child looked at the storybook in his hand again, he jumped up from the sofa.

Then he cautiously approached the desk and reached out towards the desk, as if he wanted to take something.

"What are you doing!"

"Who asked you to touch these things! Who taught you!"

Pars, who was still trying to squeeze out a smile, after his child reached out toward the desk piled with documents,

Suddenly his face changed, and he yelled at the child angrily.

The child whose hand had touched the water glass was a little stunned.

He just wanted to get a glass of water for his father. To a certain extent, he was a little cautious, trying to 'please' his father who seemed to be in a bad mood.

After Pars spoke again, he immediately realized that he had gone too far and lost his composure.

"I'm sorry, dad is in a bad mood."

After taking a long breath, Pars apologized seriously to his child.

"Please help Dad get a glass of water. Well, I'll reward you with a candy."

Pars took the initiative to hand over the water glass next to him, and then took out a candy from the drawer.

"Okay, Dad."

Children's emotions come and go quickly.

The child, who was a little aggrieved after being attacked by Pars,

After taking the candy and the water glass, he trotted off to get water for his father.

Pars was beside him, looking at his child with a somewhat complicated look.

"Dong dong..."

"Come in."

Pars's wife knocked on the door and walked in.

She actually heard the voice of Pars's vicious child at the door,

But she didn't blame Pars for anything.

After paying attention to Pars' somewhat complicated look when he looked at the child, he just said,

"I'll take him back later."

"Well, okay."

"Daddy, water."

"Put it there."

Pars responded, turned back, and said to his child as gently as possible,

"You're reading a storybook? Can you understand all the words?"

Pars glanced at the book in his child's hand. There were a lot of words on it.

"I can understand them all. My mother taught me, and many uncles also taught me. I went to my godfather's office before, and my godfather read an article to me."

The child said with some pride when his father mentioned it.

Pars's eyes couldn't be more complicated.

"This storybook was lent to me by sister Kailin. I have already read all the previous storybooks."

"You weren't the one who snatched it away, were you?"

"No, Kailin lent me one. She had already read it, so I lent her mine."

The child just felt that his father's question was a bit strange, but he still answered it seriously.

Pars paused, he had noticed that he was not in a good mood now.

After forcing a smile on the child, he rubbed the child's hair.

"You go back first, dad has to work."

"Yeah. Then I'll come back tomorrow, Dad."

As he spoke, Pars's child ran away without waiting for his mother to join him.

Here, there is no need to worry about him getting lost.

Next to him, Pars's wife watched the entire exchange between her husband and their children, and did not say anything about Pars's emotions.

These days, she gradually learned something about Ken’s incident.

As one of the first batch of warriors of the Kerna Youth,

I also understand what Pars and others are thinking at the moment.

At this moment,

Pars' wife just stretched out her hand and rubbed Pars's brow.

"You didn't sleep last night?"

"Um."

Pars sat back on his seat and nodded slightly.

"... Before O'Connor was killed by Ken, he was about to interview for a job as a local affairs officer for a Kellner youth."

Pars was silent for a moment and then said another word.

"...If O'Connor is really better than other interviewees in all aspects, does the interviewer have to choose a worse person if it is reasonable and compliant?"

Pars's wife accompanied Pars and talked.

"...The former enemies of the Kelna youth, those external forces in Kelna, also said that their income was in Kelna, and everything was reasonable, legal and legitimate."

“The issue of the proportion of members of the northern and southern ethnic groups within the Kerna youth is also handled under the condition that everything is reasonable and compliant.”

Pars said again, then sat up straight and rubbed his face with his hands.

“...But under the circumstances that everything seems reasonable, should, and taken for granted, with the advancement of this reasonable and should matter,

An inevitable huge problem is accumulated and lies ahead.

This makes people feel even more frightened. "

Pals paused and then said,

"Mo Dae also said that this is an ongoing battle and it is impossible to solve this problem once and for all."

"But throughout my life, I have worked hard to solve this problem, and throughout my life, until I die, this problem will not be solved. And, in the foreseeable future, there is no possibility of solving it."

"Throughout my life, I will feel a strong sense of frustration when doing something that cannot be accomplished."

"Mo has an extremely strong heart. He always has patience beyond the times and is always able to accept everything that happens."

"Even though I had expectations, I still can't accept the things that happened in the youth of Kellner."

Pars's wife listened to her husband's words quietly, thought about it, and then said,

"Just like Mo said, this is a long battle. But your victory in this battle should not be the problem that Ken worries about never coming up again."

"It's that these problems have never been able to defeat the entire Kellner youth."

"Every time you solve a problem like this, it should be a victory. You shouldn't feel defeated."

Listening to his wife's words, Pars paused for a long time.

Then nodded,

"you're right."