I’m Not a Hero Like You

90 – 30. That’s why.

-To be honest, I wonder if it’s right to tell you this at this point.

… What else to do.

While the demon king lays ground rice out of nowhere.

Ruines is back.

So that children are not disturbed by the noise outside. I wondered if it might have been a reflection of his face.

I don’t know if it’s because I don’t have medical knowledge or if it’s because I’ve been treating the condition beforehand.

Ruines’ expression hardened even more as he examined Kariel’s body.

“How could he behave with such a body… Did you?”

“… ….”

My body aches were actually nothing.

In other words, my physical condition was that serious.

If you are fully aware of the pain, you might think that this is hell.

My consciousness is sucked into the pain, and the only thing I can do is to endure it curled up like a baby right now.

… Nonetheless, it endures.

Now, overcoming is not the problem, but enduring itself should be the meaning.

“You will feel a little more comfortable.”

Louis Ness reached out and put his hand on his head.

A faint white light radiated from her hand.

Slightly, my body felt at ease.

“It’s hard to recover with my skills, but I’ll be able to relieve some of the pain.”

“Are you blunting your senses?”

Asses has been pretending to know.

And she is apart of him.

-You can peek into the past and memories of others, which is a privileged ability possessed by very few high elves. If I started to reveal this, I thought I would live for free in a different way, so I kept quiet for now… Because right now I’m not in a position to do that.

“… ….”

Now I’m saying that….

To the extent that it was difficult to control emotions, the Demon King excelled at annoying people.

-When you rely on this, the way you treat others will be more consistent. Communication is interaction. One-sided things are bound to be distorted. So, recognizing it later is useful for you, I thought objectively. If it wasn’t for the crisis situation like now, there’s no way I would have told you, right?

“… ….”

“Are you okay? Expression….”

“No. It has become much more comfortable.”

In fact, when the pain decreased a lot, it became easier to breathe.

As if to fill that vacant spot, the chills were rapidly building up.

If it is because of the pain that I have forgotten the cold, that is not the case.

Until a while ago, the two symptoms were stirring the whole body at the same time, so it was like dying.

Now, even the cold sweat was annoying, like thorns scratching the skin.

-The woman in front of me has many secrets. But she’s allowing you to some extent. You don’t need much. That’s enough.

“… ….”

-Later, even that won’t be necessary.

Are you telling me to test this ability with Ruines now?

-If you think understanding her will create difficulties in your future path, don’t do it. But do you have any doubts?

“… ….”

-I’ll tell you the way. It’s your choice. And, it’s not like you can do it right away just because you tell me.

The demon king repeated his explanation.

-It’s not something you see with your eyes. You see it with your head The head does not look at it with the eyes, but the head sees, hears, and feels. That feeling is important. Because this is the same area as a person without limbs understands their limbs.

‘No.’

I understand.

I just didn’t know if it was possible or not.

Thanks to the Demon King’s explanation, it was as if the lock had been unlocked.

It was brilliant, and the method was recognized.

Starting with Ruines’ hand on his head.

I gradually fell into a deeper place than that.

That feeling is somewhat similar to those from before.

I don’t know if I did it on purpose this time.

… As if I had voluntarily stepped into a thick fog.

It was a bit vague.

—-

It’s the world from a girl’s point of view.

Although she was a servant to an aristocratic family, she was hired as her maid.

The owner was her blood relative.

However, after the death of his father, the family’s family declined sharply.

In the process of disposing of property at a bargain price due to debt collection.

Their lives, kicked out even from the mansion where they stayed, were truly miserable.

No, it was probably only her younger brother who truly felt miserable.

He was young, he suffered from a disability, and no one understood him because of his eccentric personality.

“Where is a maid who earns money instead of her master!”

As her property was empty, the girl voluntarily threw herself into various jobs.

And the boy, who had to watch the scene, couldn’t understand it, so he ended up arguing.

“I have nothing now! I have nothing to give you! Why are you still staying?!”

“… ….”

The girl asks herself.

Why?

I don’t know.

Because they are related by blood?

Only one?

Do blood ties mean anything to me?

No.

Rather, because they were related by blood, didn’t his father treat him that way?

Before she came here, her life was truly miserable.

I just couldn’t die.

Even death was impossible because of my will.

They say dying is a breach of contract, and at least in that respect, they have been thoroughly managed over and over again.

Most of them were alive, but not alive.

I should have done the same myself.

“… ….”

Originally, her hair color wasn’t like this.

But now, it’s pure white, light as the sky.

My eyes also lost their color.

I don’t mind seeing it… Because of this, people around me have been stabbing me, saying how sinister it is.

… Actually, I didn’t feel anything.

“I was asked by the head of the household.”

“Did my father ever save my life?!”

“…… Quite the contrary.”

“What?”

Although he gave birth to me, it was his will that sold me to them.

I thought it was a coincidence, but it turned out that joining my family was a predestined result.

My father said he thought he would be dead or worse.

… ‘He’ came to visit me on the day of my father’s funeral.

Because I told you the truth.

Father you.

Until the moment you die.

They were pitiful and unscrupulous parents.

……….

She was devoted no matter who saw it.

Among those who admired her for seeing her, there were also her nobles.

She has offered to be transferred, for a considerable fee, and even to become a concubine.

She rejected them all.

In the end, the boy and the girl with crippled legs had to head to the city in search of work and a place to live.

But there was a limit to that as well.

“How long are you going to take care of me?!”

I overlooked it.

No, maybe it was ignored.

Even though I knew taking care of him wasn’t the best thing.

Her own heart had no mind to fathom such a thing.

The neat clothes were also shabby and shabby unlike before.

The only thing that survived was an iron staff.

Other than that, everything about him was shabby.

Indignant, the figure trying to leave the place by any means with an unsightly and miserable rhythm.

The girl could not even be restrained and was far away, so she had to watch.

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Belatedly, let’s come to our senses and pursue him.

I saw him fall in the middle of the street, missing his cane.

And then.

… A carriage was coming.

-That’s it.

The girl rushes.

Hugging the boy, being run over and trampled by her horseshoe.

I was hit by the body of the wagon and then bounced off as if I was being crushed by a wheel.

-Are you going to go through that? You die then

And all of that, this scene as if watching from a distance.

However.

Everything was distorted.

Now, I am here by borrowing her memories.

Therefore, I couldn’t figure out what she couldn’t remember.

“If only it had ended that way.”

There must have been no Ruines now.

… ….

… ….

“Thank you for your concern.”

“… ….”

She seemed to feel sorry for her lack of ability.

“If the nuns were here….”

“It’s okay.”

Kariel blinked her eyes as if to say not to mind.

Her physical condition has not improved.

It’s just that the pain has subsided a little.

Even that, when she let go of her hand, she quickly returned to her original state.

‘It can’t be helped.’

Cries are heard.

I wouldn’t have suffered like this if I had stayed at home quietly.

That’s true, but it’s wrong.

What kind of hardship is this for coming out recklessly?

That’s true, but it’s wrong.

Wherever you are, the pain is the same.

… Of course, compared to the hopeless pain I feel now, the anguish and pain of those days may seem childish.

Before I became like this, wasn’t every moment I was there painful?

“… ….”

Ruines.

Why is she here?

And why is her past that I have seen so bleak? Is it dark

“So, what are you going to do now? Are you going to just rest like this, or are you going to move?”

Asses brought him out of his thoughts into reality.

Venus heard Kariel’s message a while ago and left.

“… I have something to do.”

“What is it?”

“Before that.”

Kariel held out her hand.

“Can you lift me up?”

“Are you going to lend a hand to a weak woman like me? Among the many, many people here?”

“… ….”

“Anyway, the joke doesn’t work. Why did it become so boring?”

I manage to get her body upright, holding her hand.

At the same time.

Through her eyes, I could see myself as a child.

Even when he pretended to, he was a kid himself.

However, if there is a difference from herself now, it is that her hair, as well as her forehead, are very slender because she has tidied up her hair.

However, he was still a kid.

The girl was shunned by those around her.

She is a princess from a foreign country, with exceptional talents, ideas, and ways of thinking that are distinctly different from those of others.

Above all, since there is no consensus among peers.

She used to hang out mostly with her adults.

Hunting monsters. Rearrange the troops. Face the danger, face the struggle, and more.

Nevertheless, those who knew her situation kept their distance from her.

“Everyone can be different, right?”

God said that this world was born with a meaning even for a weed.

“Aces. Isn’t it because my sister is different from others because she does things different from others?”

“Is that so?”

As if the girl wasn’t going to be impressed, she brushed it off.

It was just that I didn’t show it.

… Even though everyone feared her child, her little boy, who was younger than her self, acknowledged her existence not because of her naivety, but because of her essence.

That was a deep comfort for the girl at the time.

“I thought I would accompany you during my stay.”

“I like it too!”

Kariel, who showed favor to Ases, was regarded as an unusual child by those around him.

Devil of the lake.

By the time she was over 10 years old, she was already being called that.

Athes had no doubt that her kindness towards Kariel would continue.

But.

That was a serious misunderstanding.

He treats himself the same way.

Because I treated everyone like that.

One day I had no choice but to ask.

“Why are you in such a hurry to help others when you have such lousy abilities?”

It’s safe to say that persuading others and unlocking their minds was an ability from Ases’ point of view.

It was natural for him, but it was impossible for Ashes himself.

“Why? It’s only natural to help as many people as possible, right?”

Of course?

“Why? Why do you help? They should support you you are a precious being no one can replace you Isn’t it rather a waste of time and a waste of efficiency if you act just like them? Losing you is a bigger waste. Others don’t know, but you know, right?”

Why live altruistically?

Why would you dedicate yourself to serving others?

“You are a human born with the right to be selfish! Why don’t you know that?”

It is clear that many people are helped and saved by his touch… It will be a noble journey.

But what about himself?

At first, I wondered if he was doing that to reveal the value of his existence as his pawn, but it wasn’t.

That was just, originally like that.

“… Sister. Like efficient and efficient. A world that only cares about profit. It will be another hell for those who can’t follow it. I hate that.”

“Is civilization developed that way? Even if you lead the weak, there is a limit to consideration, right? Are you going to take care of everything from when you are born until you die of old age? How is that different from livestock? If you’re a human, you have to take care of yourself, who are you going to help and who are you going to save? If it’s something like a ruling ideology that rulers often talk about for the benefit of the people, you’ll accept it, but do you really think you have to do it? That’s impossible Impossible.”

“I know very well. That it is impossible.”

“Then why don’t you do it? Knowing that it wouldn’t happen.”

“That’s why I do it.”

So do it.

“Since everyone gave up knowing it wouldn’t work, I wondered if it would be okay for me to try too.”

This is the problem with being smart.

Do I have to do it because it’s obvious that it won’t work? Do you need to Does it make sense to try? Value? How much effort do you have to put in? Time is? Effort? What are the benefits of doing so?

… Those calculations and questions were all excuses.

She realized that.

Through that question and answer.

However, that did not become salvation.

Just.

Knowing the way to go and instilling the courage to go that way.

It was clear.