I’m Not a Hero Like You

67 – 22. Open the door one by one.

No, probably both.

“If it was dragging an ordinary human, it would have consumed three times as much time as it does now, right? And only when luck worked out.”

That’s right.

Even after entering the kingdom of Metran, it was still not easy to see the town, let alone the city, so the camp continued.

Until now, I had been teaching in a simple way, but the classes were similar to sparring.

“So, it’s not something like black magic or black magic that steals or extorts mana, but reverses it, entangles it, or entangles it according to the logic of the natural cycle….”

Ruirin, who talked like she was repeating what she had heard from me for so long.

“… I don’t know anything.”

“It is not against the flow of the river. To change the flow, block the flowing space, or to change the course, open an existing embankment or build a dam. Or make it.”

“I understand, but how do you use it with your body? That’s more confusing.”

… Well, to be honest, I have nothing to say about this.

The reason I came to understand this was because Grand Deus had been repeating his bizarre swordsmanship throughout and emptying his head for nearly several years.

The Demon King says that it was possible because of that, but he instructed me to do it just in case.

“What are these things used for?”

So, she demonstrated herself.

Even though it’s bent, it’s not unusable, and it’s a sword that can be held with both hands.

With the sword given by Elhermina.

“Don’t you understand more?! All movements and motions are wrong, right?!”

“… But the reason and principle are the same.”

“As I said when using a big sword, wood or rock? That makes sense, but when you use it with one hand, water and wind? How do you feel about this? Rather, are these metaphors correct?”

“… ….”

Surprisingly, the same is true.

But how do I explain this?

“There are trees, water flows, and wind blows on this land. If you look at it like that, in the end, the front and back are all… Maybe one….”

As I speak, I realize something.

First of all, it is questionable that this expression came out of my mouth.

So, did I know this long ago?

Unconsciously, but unconsciously?

“Why don’t you talk?”

“… The point is, in the end, even if it looks different, it’s not different, it’s this.”

“I hate words that try to get over things like that.”

No, but what about the truth?

If there’s one thing I’ve realized while talking about it.

… Even if it is the same decision and content, it is heard, felt, and accepted completely differently.

Anyway, I started to understand what the demon king had said before.

… Even that was still scratchy.

“… ….”

Even if I openly tell and show them, they are not understood or accepted.

To those who are trying to hide various visions, Grandeus’s visions are deeply deplorable, so I think about it for a while.

-Even if you repeat the same act, it’s different how sincerely, sincerely, and devoted your whole body and soul.

That must be so.

It’s not like the demon king made me commit suicide 100 times because he was bored and said sincerity is important.

There is nothing neglected even in the passing wind.

Even I tend to lose myself quickly when I’m dazed or distracted.

-And if chivalry isn’t the foundation, there won’t be anything meaningful even if you learn it the same way anyway?

So, even though she instructed Rui Lin to perform the movements separately, she did not instruct her to master them over and over again.

However, he has his own way, and I decided that I could remind him of that part and encourage him.

For example….

“I do my best. Seriously, genuinely trying, training, and planning… I think you know something about this.”

“What are you saying for granted?”

“But even that seems to still leave room.”

So if there’s anything I can do for you.

“… To the point of telling you what that calm is and letting you use it.”

Still, compared to others, she seemed to be able to figure things out as she matured prematurely.

She realizes once again that it is difficult for her to realize alone whether or not she can use it freely.

In the first place, even the concept wasn’t well known to the world.

Even those who use it are vague.

“… Is that something that different people accept differently? Like that bastard’s decision?”

“Yes.”

If your brain is slow, you should have personally enlightened me.

Fortunately, he’s the type of person who has a good head for things like this, so he decided to try an explanation first.

“Sincerity, sincerity is a kind of use of mental strength.”

“Physical strength?”

“Yes. If you think a lot, concentrate, and pay attention to something, you get tired even if you move your body less, right?”

“Oh, that makes sense. That’s right. That’s why I try to clear my head.”

“This is a way to use and control it as intended and extend its influence even to the body.”

“… It’s a bit difficult to say, but I understand.”

“For example, it is a thought, and thinking sometimes does not come true as you intended, right? Usually dragged along is not it?”

“That….”

Rui Lin snooped her head.

“Do you think so? Don’t you think it might be?”

“The way to understand is simple. You might not be able to sleep well because your body is tired, but when you think about going to sleep, you have arrogant thoughts, don’t you?”

“Yes… Joe? Still, considering tomorrow’s schedule, I can adjust it to some extent.”

“That means you have great control.”

“Commendation here?”

… I remember that I praised you every moment.

“And even when you focus on something, if you are interested, feel the need, and are eager, you can concentrate well… It’s annoying and cumbersome to even pay attention to, let alone focus on, anything that isn’t, isn’t it?”

“Isn’t that obvious?”

“But, in a way, suppressing the reluctance you feel when you force yourself to do something you don’t like is using your own will, right?”

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“That… Right?”

“For example, such willpower… When it comes to money, what you want to do is cheap, but what you don’t want to do is expensive… If you want to pay for expensive items, do you have to pay more?”

“It suddenly drifts in a strange direction, but I understand.”

“For example, thinking, exerting willpower, and concentrating are all consuming mental strength. Even things that stir up and suppress emotions.”

“Oh, I see that. If I want to eat but I can’t eat, sometimes I can stand it, but at some point, I think I can’t stand it and rush at it. Even though my pocket money is not good.”

“Yes. When to be patient and when not to be patient. What difference did it make?”

“… Is it because you lack strength?”

How did you manage to induce it well?

If you understand, it’s fast from then on.

Because when you know the necessity, you have the will to do something hard, or the will.

If you think about thinking vaguely… It’s a way of catching floating clouds, so it’s a little vague to lead why you should do it and what you should do.

Similarly, if you don’t feel the need, there’s no reason to work hard.

As long as you don’t have the will to pursue, if you still have to pursue it, in the end even this is mental power, and you have to waste it by borrowing it or overpaying it.

“… Like if you do something you don’t want to do, if you feel the need to do it, do it with all your might?”

“Yes.”

Both humans and animals are no exceptions to this.

I do my best even if I don’t have to do what I want to do.

I don’t like doing things I don’t want to do, even if I die soon, and if I keep ordering and instructing them to do them, I end up giving up a lot to get them done.

It’s thoughts and emotions, and even having these things becomes difficult later on, so you actually work with your eyes open like a corpse.

“… ….”

The slaves empty their thoughts while working and comfort themselves by saying that we shouldn’t even think that it is difficult… Maybe that’s why.

Nevertheless, I endure because I can endure it.

In other words.

Even if you force yourself to endure it until a certain moment.

At some point, there comes a time when you can’t hold on, and then….

“Then, sincerity is what the teacher said, so if you learn to be sincere, you will be able to control it?”

“… Part of it.”

“Huh? Part of?”

“Trees have their own ways, rocks, water, winds, and fires have their own ways of life and pursuits.”

Hopefully the water burns like fire.

That’s pure brute force.

Even if you try to do that, it will only boil or vaporize and become smoke.

“The innate nature and the nature pursued are different. If you understand yourself… As if he understands that he cannot touch water because he is fire. Then you’ll be out of trouble. It’s pain, so the discomfort is relieved.”

“… Uh, then if I want to be fire and not water.”

“I must die.”

“Yes?”

“… Kill yourself until your temper changes. I’m not sure if that will ever change.”

The reason why the demon king forced me to commit suicide.

…… Was it because of this

I suddenly realized it after I said it.

“… ….”

I stared at the guy with a curious chin in the air.

I see.

Is this the way of wisdom?

Knowledge and wisdom are different.

When I asked the Demon King about knowledge.

The Demon King said he would tell you simply, and gave an example.

[This is not absolute, but to help you understand it roughly? The conditions of knowledge are firstly justification, secondly belief, and thirdly truth.]

Let’s say a river flows over there.

[Is there a river flowing over there? This is the truth. And you see it and you know it Even if you check again later, this won’t change, right? Then can you have faith? But is that a fact that you see, experience, and know? So how do we make this fair? I have to bring others besides you and remind them of the same faith and truth as you.]

Just like that.

[A knowledge is born.]

But this is not absolute.

[What if a meteorite falls from the sky one day and devastates the area around the river? Is the river gone? Then, the river that was over there, me who knew that as knowledge? Is that knowledge really alive? It will degenerate into the knowledge that there was a river back then. Even this will become ambiguous as time goes by? Therefore, it is necessary to record it and go through historical research and verification for legitimacy and justification in the record. Ah, is it a little difficult to get here?]

“… ….”

Of course, that definition of knowledge is not absolute, as it was later revealed.

Did I even say that knowledge is a subjective and standard for defining knowledge?

That’s why.

The Demon King does not trust knowledge.

It is a kind of tool and means.

Not absolute.

However.

Those who do not know the essence of knowledge are like a baby bird being fed by a mother bird.

I blindly believe in that.

That is ignorance and ignorance.

And I, who heard it all.

I once asked this.

Then what is wisdom?

[It’s the most foolish thing to ask that.]

The devil sneers.

And back to the present.

… Still, I haven’t come to an answer to that question.

Some answers to the previous content, I may have reached.

“But that you have to die is not a metaphor, is it?”

“…… Uh.”

It is not a metaphor.

The only choice is to really die, or to realize the shock and pain layer by layer.

Maybe that’s it.

It will be dozens of times harder than dying in truth.

“Then what am I… Whether it be water or fire, I have to live according to my aptitude.”

“Instead, all you have to do is to nurture your uniqueness well.”

“I mean that!”

I am obsessed with useless or absurd things and do not have any regrets.

Maybe this is also part of wisdom.

Looking at Rui Lin, I reflected on her worries.