I’m Not a Hero Like You

13. Nothing is over.(2)

“Come on, let’s move quickly! Gotta go back before it’s over! or what? Shall we just starve and leave?”

Early morning when the sun has just risen.

Amidst the hazy surroundings from the morning mist, a man in full body armor with a glossy black brushes his dark blue bobbed hair with his hand and stamps the sodden earth with his iron boots as if stamping a seal.

Moving diligently throughout the small campsite, he made eye contact with the soldiers one by one, greeted them, and entered the personnel check.

Every time they saw him, the soldiers screamed like they were going to die, but the man dispelled their foolishness with a smile.

“Hey, Miss Alessia? What the hell are you doing?”

“What? why?”

Just a few steps away from the campsite.

Among them, the man asked abruptly towards the existence who was sitting as if leaning against a tree and hugging someone.

Then, a woman with a heavy body made a chin gesture with her red eyes widening as if to say something.

Her long red hair swayed lightly like a mane at the beat of her head.

the man asked again.

“Why are you hugging a tough child? no way… Can’t stand it again?”

“Luke? Are you not asleep yet? What nonsense is that? My Ruel seems to be having nightmares, so I was stabilizing her as an older sister. Can’t you see that the priest is fulfilling his original role?”

“It’s to satisfy your selfish desires, why don’t you speak honestly? Are you still a saint?”

“Ah, did I do it because I wanted to become a saint? I was forced to go crazy around me, and I was pushed on my back. And aren’t your eyes that see this impurely and your rich imagination covered with demons?”

“under… When you say that, even though you have a mouth, you are at a loss for what to say. That shamelessness, will you give me half of it?”

Then, the man asked the boy struggling in her arms.

“Luel. how is it? Did you sleep well last night?”

“… Yes. Thanks for your consideration.”

The dark-haired boy who had barely crawled out of the woman’s arms calmly replied, holding his breath.

Looking at his state, who seemed to be still awake, the black-eyed man smiled lightly at the amber eyes he met just in time.

“Isn’t that blasphemous saintess doing something suspicious? Did you just touch it here and there, or fumble it? I mean… .”

“What a strange thing! What a disrespectful bastard in the world!”

“I never asked for your opinion, so let’s be quiet.”

Even though they grumbled like that, there was no sign of seriousness between the two in the true sense of the word.

To tell you what I felt, it was like watching a relationship of 10 years.

Eventually, the man leaves with a warning, not a warning.

She, too, quickly stood up.

“If you are having a hard time, tell your sister. I will hug you anytime.”

“That, say… Thank you very much.”

“It’s not just words, it’s sincerity, so it’s like that again. Are you still talking nonsense after tasting my happiness bag?”

“Yes? A happy bag?”

The boy, Kariel, opened her eyes wide and asked back.

“This is it. this.”

When I cross my arms under my chest, the massive chest forms a blatant mound between my clothes.

“Because it makes a man happy, it’s a happiness bag. Seeing and touching. If I just put up with my shoulder suffering a little, it’s a happy ending for everyone. how is it? Does that sound right?”

“… … .”

How should I treat this?

It was a type that Kariel had never encountered before, so it was very embarrassing.

In the first place, there is a human being, especially a woman, who approached me in a friendly and familiar way without any preconditions.

“By the way, if you’re a saintess, shouldn’t you act promiscuously like that?”

“Who is it?”

“uh… .”

“If you do something wrong, heaven will punish you. But won’t you get off? Do you know why?”

“Do not know… would you?”

Let Cariel respond with a smirk.

she said with a bright smile.

“It’s because the virtues I’ve accumulated are greater than the sins I’ve committed.”

“… … .”

“Or was he struck by lightning in his sleep? But what about never getting hit? That I’m doing very well. how is it? can’t you refute that’s the reality Otherwise, would I be doing this because I’m crazy? I feel like I want to quickly find a husband and get rid of all the saints and nabals. There are so many kids my age with four or five! What am I talking about!”

“… … .”

“How is it in that sense? do you live with me? Your face is just perfect! Because I like it.”

“under… haha.”

“I’m serious, so why take it as a joke? Is it because of this atmosphere? yes?!”

… Whether it was a joke or an outright flirtation, Kariel was a little confused.

Also, in front of fierce good intentions and powerful positive power, Kariel’s melancholy melted away in vain.

“Anyway, aren’t we supposed to get up and start? let’s go.”

Following her from the front, we reach the camp that is just being cleared.

It was the contents of pouring water into a large pot and hitting everything, but it was not a big problem to fill the stomach and heat the inside.

“Eat up! Is it when you’re growing up? If you eat that little, you won’t be popular with girls, right? If you eat a lot, luck and strength follow. There was a time when a prince of a country couldn’t eat much, so if he didn’t have the qualifications to become a king, he would almost fall out of the right to succeed the eldest son. Haven’t you heard of that story?”

“… … .”

Even though it was said in a similar, ridiculed way in the system, hearing it from her rather warmed my heart.

good and evil.

With only this difference, one can feel the same words as a sarcastic mockery and the other as a consideration for caring.

By the time we finished eating, the campsite was being cleaned up.

One of the soldiers feeding the horse took care of it.

“He is a cute boy. A lot of aegyo.”

“is that so?”

The boy soldier said as if he had not had a lot of such experiences.

“It looks more like a riding horse than a warhorse. Seeing that he is very patient and listens well to people, I think he is well educated. Her hair is well taken care of.”

Are you a noble?

“… … .”

Kariel silently nodded.

“Still, pulling a wagon or pulling a cart will take some getting used to. It’s okay to pick up someone, pack some luggage, and move… After all, if you’re not used to it, it’s going to be hard to say.”

“Normally, don’t you think that way?”

“Those who are not interested are like that. If you think of the horse as a tool, like a cart or carriage, rather than a friend.”

“… … .”

I don’t know why, but it was a word that made me think a lot.

“Then let’s go! Don’t even think about reaching home after the sun goes down! Let’s get there before we fall!”

“Let’s go easy, young boy!”

“Isn’t it nice to see the night view?”

“How nice would it be to do night patrol at the same time?”

“You talk nonsense! depart!”

When Luke got on the horse and put on the helmet, there was no other decent knight.

Maybe it was because the horse was also a horse with black hair, so it was a pair that went well together.

As the wagon departs at the same time, the saintess also puts on new clothes with chain armor and a golden cross pattern on a white background.

When he added the iron armor covering his limbs, there was literally no body armor.

The mace and shield hanging from his back, and the Arming Sword, a one-handed sword, also hung from his waist.

Except for his unexpectedly beautiful appearance and huge swollen chest, he was a decent warrior himself.

“… … .”

In the midst of moving, I want to spend a little bit of time meaningfully.

Kariel held the lute in her hand.

In addition to serving as practice, the purpose is to alleviate the boredom of those who are on the move.

other than that… .

“Did you see my dream?”

-What dream?

Kariel asked about the dream she had earlier.

-Ah, was that you? Well, something whitish was staring at me, so I threw out a word that bothered me.

“… Then what was it that you were fighting about?”

– The thing that clings to you.

“… … yes?”

– As soon as we left the system, the chaos started in earnest. Even if it wasn’t, I thought I’d tell you soon.

“… Can you elaborate a bit?”

-Do this or not?

A golden girl giggling.

If you look at it like this, there’s no such thing as a mischievous girl… .

-Think about the problems that arose right after you left the system, one by one.

“… … .”

Kariel immersed herself in Django while plucking the lute strings on top of the swaying horse.

priority… .

Is it pain similar to seizure symptoms?

Do you keep thinking of unknown things?

‘I heard it too.’

Besides that… .

“Did you say there was something stuck?”

– Well then.

“… So, is this something different from cursing?”

From what I learned at the academy, I heard that there are various types of curses, but the way they are activated and applied for the purpose of a single object, and the way they spread from one to the surroundings, such as contagious ways, are evenly composed.

-If that’s the case, why was there nothing wrong when you were inside the system, did it come to that point after you came out, that’s what you’re curious about?

“… I guess.”

I haven’t been able to sleep well lately because of this.

After escaping, I feel relatively comfortable, but every time I fall asleep, I have a dream in which Rueld catches me, or a dream in which Patina, Elhermina, Seras, and others follow me.

Even when Erath was waiting for me to go, I was so excited.

Even more so, when he had a dream in which Alessius was leading the military and pursuing him to kill him… .

No, that was even a little nice.

It was really nice to see that he voluntarily provided the conditions for me to retaliate justly.

Then, at the last minute, right before stabbing the sword into the guy’s heart.

I wondered if this was right or not for a moment.

Then I woke up from a dream

At this time, I felt two things.

One is with myself who regrets not being able to finish it.

… Another was that he was able to slaughter all the people around him, including Alessius, casually, without feeling any guilt or guilt, and being able to rejoice and laugh happily.

… such self-loathing.

But.

Aside from everything, the most serious thing was, of course, that.

… mother.

When she appeared in my dreams, my eyes would turn white and black.

It was just, despair itself.

When I woke up like that, it was common for my body to be wet with sweat.

The one who held onto me first and the most in my dreams.

Of course it was my mother.

-Did someone think it was to kick you out?

“… That’s something you can assume, but I don’t think so.”

-then?

“Instead of kicking them out, how about calling them?”

– What is the basis?

“… It’s vague, but I can hear it.”

A voice begging for help.

-So what’s the conclusion?

“… I don’t know yet.”

– By any chance, that curse or something made you hate from the world, did you come up with such an amazing idea?

“… But, is that possible?”

– Nothing is impossible, but it’s an outrageous waste of resources.

In other words, if someone has a reason to do so, I don’t know if that’s possible.

-How many such miraculous magic and curses are there?

“You don’t know either?”

-You know?

“… … .”

– But, it doesn’t make any sense.

So, change your thinking.

-If it’s enough to give a child who has a reason to hate it, wouldn’t it be much more likely than you just guessed?

“… It’s a difficult story.”

-why? You’re hated for that feel-good curse, and that’s why you’ve been treated the way you are? Even your dark and gloomy feelings are some kind of hypnosis or brainwashing? Is that what you want to think?

“… … .”

-Misunderstanding is oily resin.

As if the demon king was tired of it, he snorted.

-You’re still struggling to find a reason to forgive. Did you resent it terribly, but on the other hand, did you feel sorry for it?

“… … .”

Even in the midst of being broken and broken.

Putting empathy for others first, what kind of mindset is that?

Do you have some spare time, and start defending others in an absurd way?

Self-justification, a bastard who is poor at making excuses for himself, why is he so soft towards others?

‘But it’s not like I’m short of children.’

It just happened yesterday.

Because it was this guy who cut the monsters without hesitation and won the fight.

A subject that is afraid of swords and blades.

Rather, he was calm about what everyone should be afraid of, as if it were natural.

To say that it was because of the rigorous training to follow through, the adaptation was quicker than I thought.

No matter how realistic a dream may be, in the end, a dream is a dream.

Right now consciousness and the actual body.

The balance and harmony between the two is messed up, and he manages to do that again.

-I’ll make it clear for now. The kind of curse you expected was not common even in ancient times, and if you use it now, it’s not a curse, it’s just a divine punishment.

“Sacred Punishment?”

-It would be more persuasive to say that God had evil intentions and wanted you to be unhappy, and twisted your cause and effect.

So.

-Wake up the dream. It’s probably true that that opportunity was influenced by the grudge you harbored, but that’s not the fundamental reason why they treat you so badly.

I mean, that’s the point.

-You just suffered because you deserved it. It probably wouldn’t have been worse than it is now if it hadn’t been for the influence of grudge. However, my conclusion is that it wouldn’t have been much better than it is now.

suddenly.

ding!

The bouncing lute string, the string broke.

“Yes… That’s right.”

– Are you already homesick? I’m dreaming Where did you promise the other day? Maybe it’s because I’m still young, I envy you because you’re so sensitive! If I could miss something, I would have been very happy.

“… … .”

finally.

The malice they revealed to me.

No transcendent will, no magical product of any malice.

Just, their own sincerity… .

No, wait.

“… You didn’t lie to me, did you?”

-Shall we make a contract? Then what will you give me?

“… … .”

Kariel started replacing the broken string with a new one.

of course.

Although it is true that the Demon King mixed some lies with the truth.

However, it wasn’t that I was completely wrong.

-As I said before, I am using only a small part of your sight and hearing to come into contact with this world. So, as far as I can tell, most of them are guesswork. That there can be any errors.

If you solve it in advance like this, what will you be able to do?

By all means, her biggest weapon, I don’t know! because it was

“ha… .”

-Don’t think useless, focus on one thing.

Take Grandeus’ memento, Elbat, and then optimize your consciousness and body.

-If you plan to go back within 100 days, time will be very tight.

“… Or well, maybe a year longer.”

Even when I was writing the letter, it was not the same as now.

But.

Elhermina woke me up.

I didn’t have the confidence to face them again.

So. If it’s time to face it properly.

Either way, whether I am a father or a mother.

will have to settle