I’m Not a Hero Like You

10. I love you (2)

“We are a family now. I can assure you, from now on, I will take care of everything that tries to block and harm you.”

“… … .”

“Even the stigma that has been put on you, I will remove all of them. All preparations for him have been completed.”

just.

“Perhaps in this way, as I feared earlier, you will be considered dependent on me. However, if you don’t mind that… I swear… I will live to see only you.”

“… … .”

That’s absurd.

Even on the day of the announcement of the engagement ceremony.

The guy’s expression was really indifferent.

At that time, I was surrounded by inferiority complex and egotism.

Obsessed with resignation and obsession, I was looking at everything crookedly.

To me, you were like the sun.

The light was so intense I couldn’t even open my eyes to see you.

It was painful.

just by having you

Just by being compared to you.

Just by being criticized.

Because I was really out of breath.

However.

That, after all, is my fault.

It’s my own flaws.

Even this, I only found out after coming out of the abyss on my own.

suddenly.

such a picture is drawn.

The figure of the guy who forcibly lifted himself up from his crouching state and led him.

maybe.

maybe.

I.

… … If it hadn’t been for colluding with the Demon King.

maybe i really

… Wouldn’t she have been saved?

Wasn’t it saved?

“… … .”

greatly.

It’s a sweet home.

Although far from being kind.

Even though it’s miserable.

finally.

“Even I can feel sorry for myself. so… If you’re not in pain, I’d like to give Seras a chance.”

“… … ?”

what?

“Didn’t you know? That child has liked you since childhood.”

“Since childhood?”

I knew Seras had a crush on me.

Does that mean it’s been like that since childhood?

At that time, the childish cry of a child lingered in my ears.

[I will become a hero!]

In a small yard, a child holding a branch under a tree.

declared so.

“… … .”

“If I can be happy, I am willing. I don’t want to monopolize you and burden you. If I can’t take care of you alone, I’ll even use that child’s power.”

Seras Esdina.

“There is nothing like infinitely lacking, incomplete, and insufficient than me. At least my feelings for you will be sincere.”

“… … .”

Too.

I wonder if it’s a self-inflicted thing.

I wondered if it was right to suddenly burst out laughing here.

Even if it’s embarrassing, it’s because I’m suddenly stupid.

What is this?

“So, let’s go back.”

from now on i

“Until the day this body dies, I will protect you.”

“… … .”

It’s a strange feeling.

Even when it’s scary, something makes me laugh.

So, it was even more sad.

To the point where I don’t have time to explain anything.

I am in this situation now.

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Very… It was embarrassing.

“That’s not allowed.”

“Why? I hope you can understand the situation.”

Resentment, albeit weakly.

the guy

That cool-headed princess.

“That would be too cruel to you and to Seras.”

“… it’s okay to be a man You can see that much. I am Elhermina Berg Enzul! The distribution is not that narrow.”

“… … .”

A girl who forces her to have another lover besides herself.

I think I’m going crazy

Although it’s common for nobles to divide the main family and the second family.

Even among royalty in other countries, it’s quite common.

I, the emperor, even for my father’s sake.

I had never even thought about it like that.

“… … .”

in the first place.

The assumption itself that you will be connected with someone.

… Because I didn’t do it intentionally.

okay.

don’t expect

don’t trust

don’t dream

Because it’s so sweet, I’ll do it again.

I almost forgot that lesson.

‘Just in case, relying on him for everything and entrusting everything to him.’

yeah, that wouldn’t be too bad

If you want me to live within the system and not look at my parents’ faces.

The guy would be happy to do that.

No need to have a job, no need to work hard.

Even if you live the life of a rotten loser or an abandoned person.

The guy will gladly forgive you.

The confession and declaration of that guy now is a story based on that premise.

However.

However.

However… .

As a man.

… … There’s no way you can easily accept such an unruly life, right?

“… … .”

More than anything.

I colluded with the Demon King.

Right now, you are watching me obediently.

If that demon king is wrong.

If that demon king changes his mind

… … If you start to think watching me is boring.

I don’t know how to change

The will is doing.

But it is not dependent.

trust is doing

but don’t swear

The area I depend on and trust.

she watches over me

… The reality is that you will never be bored.

In the eyes of the devil and the demon king, my delayed and distorted life.

Wouldn’t it be very boring?

… Not to mention this composition that the child of Rueld who defeated the Demon King himself would defeat and eat Rueld to humiliate him from the front.

… From a third person’s point of view, how pleasant and interesting it would seem to be a topic of conversation.

Yes.

We made a deal, we made a contract.

finally.

The second deal is, don’t be comfortable with me.

It was his stern warning.

In addition.

“What about Alexius?”

“You have to pay for your sins.”

“… weren’t they siblings? Did you really think of me as a competitor?”

“All within the Empire are brothers and bonded together.”

However, what did that child do to you and to the people and servants who were against him?

“I will make you a good person.”

Unless you grow up and mature.

“… Until that happens, it will go through an arduous journey under my watchful eye.”

This is what His Majesty also allowed.

“If you wish, you will. Kariel.”

“… … .”

You are beyond imagination.

really.

enough to make your mouth drop open.

If you look closely.

Our family is by no means a weak family.

Right now, even with my father, it’s enough power to stand against a single country.

In the case of mother, there is no need to even discuss it at the point where the actual state religion of the empire is Irenis Church.

What I was swung and crushed.

That’s because I wasn’t good enough.

He was clumsy and did not carry the prestige of his parents on his back.

Also, because there was a mother who ran rampant all the way to never allow it.

My mother said it regularly.

It’s as if the belief is engraved into the brain stitch by stitch.

We are not privileged.

We are given power and rights to serve.

So, Kariel.

you are also willing

… devote yourself to the world

for the world we’ve been protecting.

In the future, even for the world we must protect.

Just like St. Kariel did in the past.

That is.

Where we can have eternal life, be saved and saved forever.

because it’s the only way

So, pray.

Pray.

Let’s pray together.

“… … .”

Come to think of it.

Did I mention that among the places we passed through, there was a territory where St. Cariel wrote a myth during his lifetime?

I’ll have to listen.

Kariel shook her head proudly.

“But, no.”

“… How many times have I told you to tell me why?”

The voice subsides.

Even anger is felt.

I’ve prepared this much.

I tried my best to this extent.

I appealed so earnestly.

why are you

“Because spilled water cannot be picked up.”

At Kariel’s words, Elhermina’s expression froze.

Either way, it’s too late.

yes, el.

If only you had confessed your truth a little sooner.

If only he had calmed me down step by step, and even if he tickled me like a frightened cat, he would have calmed me down and calmed me until the end.

Maybe me too, a little… .

“… … .”

I looked up into space.

Over there, the Demon King of Wisdom.

The Golden Demon King is watching.

With a very, very interesting look.

Right.

you are.

Even this situation was predicted long ago.

However, at that time there was no choice.

Really, I couldn’t help it.

“I… .”

But.

Aside from that.

My desire to defeat my father.

Still, not a single thing has changed.

‘Look at me’

Praise me.

Please be a little more kind.

me… .

I… .

… … .

I.

your one and only

… … Are you a son?

“… … .”

Not anymore.

Not anymore.

okay.

In the end, you’ve come this far.

oh

Ahh.

okay.

Something like that.

Now, why is my heart so empty and aching like a throb every moment?

Even if you fill something up, eat and eat, the inner hunger that is not filled, the emptiness.

It has always been my heart, and it has slowly festered my soul.

What did you expect, what did you wish for?

i just

… like any other child.

Did you want to be loved?

I don’t want to admit it, but

Although.

Eventually, I had to reach it.

also getting stronger.

and being recognized by others.

Even being praised by others.

I didn’t need all of them.

I just.

… … More than anyone else, I wanted to be loved by you.

Even if the world abandons me

At least you.

… like that.

I already have a relationship with them.

From that day five years ago.

… it was over

you guys

The moment I lost my expectations.

The moment you didn’t believe me.

the moment you betrayed me

the moment of betrayal.

A moment of disappointment.

cursed moment.

the moment it was killed.

Every moment, every moment, every moment!

I!

After that, I wanted to die.

“… … haha.”

So.

Now I can no longer expect praise, recognition, or love.

my broken heart

My broken heart, my crumpled heart, scattered in pieces.

miserable self-esteem.

To the point where I can’t quite accept it.

I am now.

… … because it’s broken

If something like that happens.

Even if he and she sincerely apologize to me, say that it is not too late, and plead with tears to do well.

Now, I can’t possibly accept all of that… .

‘It wasn’t water that spilled.’

It was a piece of my soul.

no more now

… There is nothing left.

“Are you sure you want to go? Even after hearing my, my sincere heart?”

“okay. sorry but. I can’t help it.”

now i’m afraid

That I will face them once again.

now.

That one fact scared me more than anything else in the world.

“stop! I won’t listen anymore! If you don’t want to talk, you have no choice but to cut off the conversation! Therefore I! I will not let you go!”

Hold on, hold on, as if it’s about to explode.

like a wounded beast.

Do you release suppressed emotions and resentment?

she groaned.

“Unless I, I give a good reason.”

i never

“… Above this dangerous world, I will not leave you unattended. It will not be presented or exported. Regret! Because once is enough!”

It should not be repeated any more.

“This heart and determination to hold on to you, even to the point of giving up what I endured! Did you think you could lose so easily?! No! You stray here! here! If I can’t hold you here! If a tragedy happens after that and what happens to you! I! I can’t stand it! I can’t stand it!”

so.

So.

Even if.

if, even if.

certainly.

certainly… .

if you want to leave this place

“Give me a reason that even I can understand.”

Kariel.

“Kariel Brendiard.”