I'm a police officer in the world of Conan

If the price of human growth is loss, then the price is too heavy, and I can't breathe as if a mountain has been pressed on my head.

I've been suffering from the morning to the afternoon, and the feeling in my heart is still bitter, do human beings have to suffer?

I've been thinking about this question all the time.

Parents and the house and Gintama and your white shirt are not long-lasting.

Someday it will be lost.

After reading Gintama, my heart is empty, I have lost love, my heart is empty, my life is destined to be a failure

? Am I not going to succeed?

I asked myself, and I got the answer.

I'm not good enough, I'm not bad enough, and that's the source of the most conflicting and painful thing in my heart.

Just like Maleonn's confession said:

"All my conceit comes from my inferiority, and all my heroism comes from my weakness." The words in his mouth are full of doubt, and the affection is because he hates himself for being ruthless. There is nothing in this world that is born of nothingness, and when you stand in the light, there will be shadows behind you, and there is silence in the middle of the night because you have not heard the sound. "

The path of life is not clear, and when people are confused, they will fall into very serious pain.

Mental internal friction is severe, and physical dizziness is severe.

I can't be interested in anything, and if I have to say it, I have a small interest in writing this paragraph after paragraph of crude text for the readers.

Every reader's desire for my renewal is a great source of happiness for me.

I love that after the update, I feel the desire of readers to read the next chapter.

I also like the trust that readers place in me.

I failed my readers

, and every time I chose to escape, trying to hide my fears and anxieties with the help of something.

But I was also determined that I would never fail anyone again.

Absolutely do not run away, alcohol, cigarettes, are nothing more than indulgences, drain people's fighting spirit, to cheer up.

I've never been more than me, I've had family, I've had readers, and I've had goals I want to strive for.

I used to think of my goal as a person, a specific person, but when I lost it, I regretted it.

So I decided to change and change my goals to something more abstract.

Then go find one piece and become the One Piece of the New Age, or find the Seven Dragon Balls to summon a divine dragon and kneel down and beg him to give me a Doraemon.

Life is like a fat tiger, and I am Nobita, after being viciously bullied by the fat tiger, not only did I not have Doraemon's help, but there was also a husband on the side.

I wanted to resist but found that I couldn't beat it.

was whipped by the fat tiger's big mouth, and even if there were 10,000 grievances in Da Ambition, he could only swallow it himself.

Author's fungus me.,It's already the shape of Nobita.,The author bacteria are already MADAO.,Nobita without Doraemon grows up to be what MADAO looks like.。

As long as the author is full of flaws, there are no flaws, and the author can compare to Tokugawa Ieyasu in terms of self-abandonment, even if he becomes a general, he is also a waste wood general.

The author would rather do nothing than make a mistake.

Note on the sauce

: MADAO: In the TV version of Gintama Chapter 16, Hasegawa Taizo is called by Kagura "まるで (Marude) ダメな (Damena) おっさん (Ossan)" (completely useless uncle), abbreviated as マダオ, that is, MADAO

is originally a waste wood uncle, which can be used to describe waste firewood, and can also be used for self-deprecation.