If The Moon Won’t Hold You

This night, Cen Ning was pressed on this small bed several times.

I don't know if it was her previous incident that made him angry, or he was bored with her about to leave. The words and deeds of the night were extremely ruthless. The skin on Cen Ning's body was rubbed and bitten, and the skin was blue and purple, ambiguous and scary.

"Um...ah..." Late at night, he pulled her to linger, Cen Ning couldn't stand it, and the moment he was entered, he bit his shoulder severely.

The whole body of words and deeds tightened, suddenly got up, pinched her waist, and sank mercilessly.

Cen Ning continued to cry, she was extremely tired, but her body was like a demon, burning at a single point, as if she was completely under his control.

"Don't..." Her teary eyes were hazy, and her overly sensitive body was stirred up by layers of waves, and the momentum seemed to swallow her.

But tonight, no matter how she begged for mercy, how she acted like a baby, how she cried...none of them was useful. He is just like a copper wall and an iron wall, with unabated strength, and even a trend of getting stronger...

When she woke up the next day, Cen Ning seemed to fall apart. She moved, and the pain in her lower abdomen and somewhere came over clearly. She frowned tightly, and tears came out from the pain in an instant.

"Brother Xingzhi..." Cen Ning shouted a few more times, her voice was so dumb, the outside was empty and there was no response.

Cen Ning wanted to get out of bed, but in the process of moving her legs rubbed against her, and the hot pain caused her to stop. At this time, Cen Ning's fire burst into flames.

Feeling wronged and uncomfortable, she smashed the pillow to the ground at once.

"Brother Xingzhi! Hey-words and deeds? Words and deeds!"

Words and deeds came back from the outside while talking on the phone, and he walked in while talking on the phone. As a result, people heard a voice from inside before entering the room. The person on the other end of the phone heard it too, and he hesitated for a moment and said: "Okay, is it Cen Ning?"

The kindness of words and deeds was heard.

Xin Zechuan: "Huh? Really Cen Ning? What is this little girl doing? Angrily."

The words and deeds paused, with a rare guilty conscience: "It should be a tantrum."

Xin Zechuan: "Oh? Cen Ning will lose her temper. The sun is coming out from the west. I said, what are you doing, people are so angry, do you think this name is called, is it going to eat you?"

The words and deeds are a bit embarrassing: "Okay, I won't tell you anymore, hang up first."

"Well, well, you go and coax first." Xin Zechuan said in a broken voice, "You are also able to—"

Words and deeds: "..."

After Cen Ning shouted angrily, no one came in, so she endured the pain and wanted to get out of bed and go to the bathroom. But as soon as her feet hit the ground, someone opened the door and came in.

She raised her eyes and saw a small bag coming by in a refreshing manner.

"Why did you wake up?"

Cen Ning stared at him with red eyes: "I still want to go to school."

The words and deeds coughed softly: "Then don't go there for now, it's the same for reading at home."

Cen Ning turned her head: "I can't go if I want to."

Looking at her by words and deeds, she still feels distressed. Yesterday, she let it go for a while, but I think it's a bit too much when I get up and reflect on it today.

"Come here and I have a look."

"do not want."

"I will give you medicine."

Cen Ning was taken aback for a moment, and looked at him in shock, "Did you go out to buy medicine just now?"

"Um."

Cen Ning's face flushed: "I, I don't want this medicine..."

The words and deeds softened the voice: "Isn't it painful, good, come here."

"I'm not going."

"Then you want me to call a doctor."

"Do not!"

"That's it, come here obediently."

Cen Ning hesitated, and slowly stretched out his hand: "I'll do it myself..."

Helpless in words and deeds: "Ningning."

Cen Ning pursed her lips and said tragically, "Don't move me, I'm afraid."

Words and deeds: "..."

There was a stalemate for a long time, but in the end he was helped by words and deeds.

Cen Ning put his head under the pillow and felt ashamed when he felt his fingers come in with the ointment.

Why is there such an operation...

Next time, he must never be allowed to succeed next time! The kind that can't be coaxed!

**

A few days later, Cen Ning passed his thesis defense, and then successfully won the TOEFL. On the day she learned of the results, Tang Zheng also just completed the procedures for leaving the hospital. A few days ago, Tang Zheng continued to rehabilitate under Zhang Ziyi's supervision, and now he walks as normal.

The words and deeds took Cen Ning to pick Tang Zheng out of the hospital, and after sending the people back to the compound, the two returned to the Yan family together.

During this time, Cen Ning also often went back to Yan's home, but she often came back for dinner and left when she saw people, and never stayed overnight. Yan's family also didn't stop her, because they all understood that she would be in love with the scene.

"Ningning, are you really planning to study abroad?" Aunt Chen reluctantly said at the dinner table.

Cen Ning nodded: "I have prepared everything in the early stage, and the application has been submitted."

"Hey, how good is this? From now on you will be so far away by yourself, who will take care of you."

Cen Ning: "Don't worry, Aunt Chen, I can take care of myself."

"But how can your little girl's family be reassuring, and ah, you must be very busy with your studies and work so busy, what can you do if you don't see each other."

Yan Guofeng, who was eating by the side, heard the words: "It is good to go abroad, Ningning has the ability, and studies hard to be more promising in the future. As for the love of the children, no one can take them away."

"Father, that's not what I said..."

"What do you say then? Who would dare to grab Ningning." Yan Guofeng looked at Cen Ning and said, "Don't worry, Ningning, if this happens, I'll appoint it."

Xu Wanying smiled boredly: "Dad, if this happens, I can't blame it. If I'm to blame, I can't blame the girl for seeing."

Yan Guofeng frowned and said very seriously: "Why don't you blame him, you have to blame him for attracting bees and butterflies."

Cen Ning: "Grandpa..."

Words and deeds: "Grandpa is right."

Cen Ning: "..."

A faint smile on his words and deeds: "I hope Grandpa can supervise them."

Yan Guofeng: "It's still up to you."

Cen Ning: "..."

That night, Cen Ning did not leave. This was the first time she stayed in the small building after Wei Pinfang passed away.

In the dead of night, she sat on the sofa in a daze. At this moment, the doorbell rang. Cen Ning glanced at the door, and saw that behind the glass window next to the door, she hooked her with words and deeds.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Cen Ning opened the door and watched unexpectedly.

"Can't sleep, probably because you are used to hugging me by the side."

Cen Ning glanced at him, eyebrows crooked: "I'm not a pillow."

"You are better than a pillow."

"..."

"What to do while standing at the door, let me go in and sit down."

"……Oh."

Sitting on the sofa by one person turned into two on the sofa, hugging Cen Ning contentedly, finally feeling a little sleepy.

"Why are you sitting here at night?"

Cen Ning: "I miss my mother."

I glanced at her with low eyes and deeds, and saw the little girl shrink in his arms and whispered: "I never knew her. I always thought she was a selfish person, but when she died, I I discovered that the selfish person has always been me."

"Ningning..."

"Really, I always take it for granted to her. Brother Xingzhi, do you know? I used to think she knew embroidery every day when she had nothing to do, but I didn't know that she was for me. Embroidery was not her preference. She stayed up all night and every day. Doing those things uninterrupted, I just wanted to save me more money."

"At that time she smashed my father's camera angrily and I felt that she would never correct her thoughts for the rest of my life, so I ignored her and didn't talk to her, thinking that she was a stumbling block on my photography journey. But I didn't know. In fact, she already understood me a long time ago. She secretly watched my film festival and prepared me the tuition and living expenses for the first year of studying abroad..."

"I sometimes feel that I am really too bad. I have never tried to understand her. In this world, I have you, Ziyi, and many friends, but her, from beginning to end I was the only one, and I chose to alienate her, and I continued to blame her until she died."

Looking at Cen Ning's empty and self-blaming appearance, he hugged her distressedly: "Cen Ning, this can't be blamed on you, everyone has a temperament for everyone, and how do you know if your mother never said anything. "

"But I—"

"What you have to do now is not to blame yourself, but to live well. I believe that Aunt Wei wants to see you become better. She is willing to send you to school. She also believes that you have chosen this path. You should do it for her. Look, you can be a very successful person."

Cen Ning's eyes were hot, and she sniffed, showing a faint smile: "Well, I will."

The two chatted on the sofa for a while, and then got up after words and deeds, and took her to the room.

Cen Ning: "Are you not going back?"

Words and deeds: "I haven't slept in your room."

Cen Ning was slightly embarrassed: "No, in case I am embarrassed to see Aunt Chen tomorrow, you go back..."

His words and deeds raised his eyebrows: "Your relationship with me, sleeping in a room, they will only have fun."

Cen Ning: "..."

"Come in quickly, I'm very sleepy."

Cen Ning finally let him stay in the small building by his words and deeds. He was "arbitrarily bossy" in this regard, and it seemed that she could never say "no".

However, she should stay here for a while now. After she is gone, there will be a Pacific Ocean between the two.

**

A few months later, Cen Ning completely embarked on the road to the United States.

This year, Cen Ning was 22 years old.

It has been nearly ten years since she had nothing to do with her.

Compared with the past, she has gained love, friendship, and dreams, but at the same time, she also lost the person who brought her into this world and was connected with her.

This departure means the end of many things, and also a new beginning for her journey in life.

Once, she was cowardly and timid, not confident in anything. But now and in the future, she will be strong and courageous, completely in control of her life.

As for the person she loves most, she believes that they will be together better in the end.

"Brother Xing, do you remember the first time you saw me?"

"Yeah, remember."

"What did you think?"

"Me, I seem to be thinking...Where is the ugly girl?"

"So you must have hated me then?"

"Hate you? What about your conscience? I hate you and I will help you get the camera back. I hate you and wait for you to go home with you every day. I hate you for teaching you your homework tirelessly when you are so stupid? Do you think I am short-sighted? ."

"Oh... then you just like me."

"Thinking about it, would you like you? Don't pin me a **** hat."

"I grew up later, not a child!"

"Really," said with a smile, "how do I feel that you have always been like a kid."

"Always??"

"Oh, it's not anymore." He glanced at her and smiled meaningfully, "I'm grown up."