I Became the Fiance of a Dragon in Romance Fantasy

40 – sure (1).

I opened my eyes. It was too vivid to be simply a dream that I had drunk, and I felt dirty.

What he said kept repeating itself over and over in my head.

[You know what she likes, what makes her happy, none of that… … I didn’t try to find out.]

It was intense, but it was true.

On the subject of wishing her well, I knew nothing about her. It wasn’t just that.

I didn’t tell her about me or even how I felt. He just skipped over it, and matched her words with a good assortment.

Of course, that alone could have eased Adilun’s heart to some extent. but… … None of the essential problems had been resolved, and she could not help but feel anxious.

Knowing what the problem was, I could see why she had been anxious and reluctant to look at me lately.

Adylune has yet to gain confidence in me.

When I think of the violence I showed her and the insults I spoke directly to her… … It would be strange to be so easily convinced.

Suddenly, my eyes widened, and I was lost in thought.

Unanswered questions continue to roam in my head, and my confidence in myself diminishes.

Why did I want her to be happy in the first place? Is it simply because of guilt?

If you tell the truth, will Adirun accept it?

Will the uneasiness in her mind go away just because the time she promised has passed?

To the questions that arise, try to answer yourself.

Why did you wish her happiness?

It was because she was shining brighter than anyone else in the novels I had read, and she was pursuing the line I was pursuing.

I know that I have lived a life of shame.

I treated many people harshly, and my past life, which I took for granted, would not be justified.

Even so… … I tried to change, or at least tried to do that good. I have nothing to say if you call it hypocrisy, but at least I was proud of myself. At least, it was better than inaction and crying out for good.

From my point of view, Adilun was the most ideal figure in my standards.

Even though he was ostracized and hated, he personally stepped forward in any crisis and saved even those who insulted him.

I hoped that such a person would be happy. Even if it is simply a typeface in a novel, if there is a world where she lives, I hoped that she would be happy.

But in reality, she wasn’t happy. My existence made her unhappy, and it made her suffer.

The guilt I felt there made me move for her.

but… … That guilt began to change little by little. Watching her scream that she considers herself miserable because of me, and seeing her rejoice that I care for her.

Not just because of guilt, but as a human being, I wanted to help her.

She is no longer the virtuous and flawless Adylun of the novels I knew, but she is just an ordinary person in need of my help.

As soon as one thought was organized, the next question ran through my head.

Even if I tell my truth… … Will Adiluun accept that sincerity?

And in such a state, just because the promised time with her passes, will the anxiety that has settled inside her be relieved?

They probably won’t accept it right now. Because Adilune has no confidence in me right now.

Even conversation was difficult, and there was little chance of her expressing her feelings. Because she distrusted me.

But if I continue to serve Adilun… … Gradually, she too will become convinced.

The certainty that I am for her.

If so, then let’s talk. what i think of her

yes. There is no need to rush. Because in order to always earn people’s trust, action is a prerequisite.

If I keep quiet about what I have to do… … Adilune will believe in me someday.

After I finished organizing my thoughts, my head became clear, and I was able to have confidence in what actions I should take.

It was an unpleasant encounter, but the conversation with Pyeonrin definitely made it possible to sort out the many unorganized thoughts I had.

If we meet next time, let’s say thank you.

* * *

Again, that dream.

I wiped the tears from my eyes, and before I knew it, I realized that the day was bright again.

It can’t go on like this.

You can’t be suspicious of Physis forever, afraid that he’ll suddenly change his attitude.

then. What should I do?

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Just yesterday, Physis said they were going back to Ortaire today, but that was difficult.

I wanted to know what he was thinking and what he was thinking of me.

That way, the anxiety remaining in my heart will be relieved. Only when I get rid of that anxiety will I be able to focus on my work.

So let’s meet and talk before Physis leaves for Ortaire. At least now he’s not ignoring me or ignoring me… … you’re going to have a conversation

After thinking like that, I washed my body thoroughly, and after finishing all the preparations, I headed to the room where Phisis was staying.

However, even when he gently knocks on the door, he does not hear his presence. Where did you go?

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Just in case, I asked the maids nearby, and Physis said that as soon as she woke up, she went straight to the gymnasium. Upon hearing that, I immediately moved to the gymnasium.

He was punching lightly in the middle of the gymnasium. However, I didn’t miss the airflow of mana coming out of that light punch.

bang!

Suddenly, the sound of something exploding in the air was heard, and the area around where his fist struck was distorted.

How the hell do you do something like that?

No, this is not important.

“good morning. Adilune.”

“Yeah. Good morning. Are you in training?”

“Nope. I was just organizing my thoughts.”

“May I ask what you were thinking?”

“just… … No big deal. what to do next I have been thinking about that for a while.”

“Did you find the answer to your worries?”

He nods at my question. Looking at his somewhat relieved expression, it seemed that he was not lying about finding the answer.

“By the way, what did Adirun come to see me for?”

“for a moment… … I want to talk a little bit.”

As if Phishes noticed something about my words, she waited for my words with serious eyes.

“You know what I’ve been feeling strange about lately, right?”

“Yeah. I know. And I was worried. Because I couldn’t figure out why. I really wanted to talk to Adilun. why are you so anxious Why do you shake when you see me… … I wanted to know.”

Also, he knew all too well about my condition.

I got straight to the point.

“Where should I start talking? The beginning… … It was during the jousting, when you were savagely ramming Alan Aiden.”

“You mean the tournament?”

“Yeah.”

“why… … ?”

He was sincerely puzzled. I could understand him. Alan Aiden is the one who insulted me. It was only natural to beat such a person like that.

“I saw your eyes then. that’s… … It was the same eyes you had back then when you hated me.”

“… … .”

“From then on, I started to get anxious. What if your change was just my illusion? What if you were actually thinking about me the way you used to? What if the change you have now is simply an act to change the situation around you?”

“The tail-to-tail questions continued to unnerve me. right now… … Even the day before, I had been determined to believe in you, but that resolve began to waver. Because I’ve never heard your thoughts.”

I continued talking, and he continued to listen to me without saying anything.

“And from then on, I had a dream.”

“dream… … you mean?”

When he said he had a dream, he put on a puzzled expression.

“Yeah. I showed you my favorite landscapes and told you about my favorites. By the way… … A dream in which you laugh bitterly at it.”

“then… … .”

“The anxiety is gradually amplified, and everything about you is starting to become suspicious. But I couldn’t even tell you my doubts directly. because… … I’m afraid you’ll quit acting and treat me like you used to.”

“Absolutely not.”

“Even if you say it can’t be, I’m probably still anxious. The anxiety inherent in me did not build up overnight. So, Phishes. I want to be sure that you have changed and that you don’t hate me anymore.”

When he hurriedly shook his head, I looked at him and said firmly.

“… … What can I do?”

“You said you were leaving today.”

“Yeah.”

“Please don’t leave. don’t leave… … Show me how you normally are and what kind of person you are. during the time I promised you. Can you please?”

“If you wish, I am willing.”

At his answer, I felt the anxiety that had been nestled within me pushed away a little.