Holding You Into My Arms

After hanging up, Lin Jiayin turned and walked towards Tao Mo.

Tao Mo is looking down at something, it should be a report.

"As soon as you were calling, the doctor gave me directly." Seeing her coming, Tao Mo hurriedly passed the thin report form in his hand.

Lin Jiayin gave a soft hum, took the report and looked down.

The analysis was dense, and she went straight to the bottom summary.

Severe anxiety, mild depression.

Lin Jiayin tightened the corner of the paper.

Depression?

Is she suffering from depression?

It's just insomnia, how could it be depression?

"Don't think about it, I just checked on Baidu. Now many people are mildly depressed. Just adjust to it," Tao Mo pulled her forward. "Let's go to the doctor and get off work later. Up."

Lin Jiayin held the report and nodded blankly.

The doctor who had treated Lin Jiayin before was talking to other patients, and the nurse asked her to wait for someone to come out before going in.

Lin Jiayin stood at the door, and Tao Mo also stood beside her.

"Is Shen Zhan calling you just now?" Tao Mo asked suddenly.

"Yeah." Lin Jiayin answered.

Tao Mo looked at her and continued the topic that was interrupted by the ringtone before, "Really don't let Shen Zhan know?"

"I don't want to." Lin Jiayin shook her head.

"Afraid that he is worried?" Tao Mo choked and swallowed, "But you will worry more if you don't tell him."

It seems that she has no strength to speak, Lin Jiayin's voice is very small, "Not all, if you tell him it might be..."

"What will happen?"

"I can't tell you." Lin Jiayin exhaled, leaning back against the wall without breathing smoothly.

Looks very tired.

"Don't tell him," Lin Jiayin opened her throat, her voice louder as possible, "It will be better after a while."

Tao Mo sighed.

The door opened at this moment, and Lin Jiayin stood up from the wall, holding the report and walking in.

The doctor took the report form, looked at it carefully, then moved his gaze to the computer screen, held the mouse and clicked a few times, and then tapped the keyboard.

"I have prescribed two medicines for you. One is for hypnosis and calming, and the other is for anxiety. There will be precautions in the medication list, and someone will tell you when you take the medicine." After two rings, the doctor pulled out the medicine list and gave her, "I suggest you see a psychologist. The counseling room is in the building next door. It is free for minors and 280 per time for adults. You must make an appointment three days in advance. I have already made an appointment for you for the first time. If you don’t think it is necessary, you can cancel it yourself.

Lin Jiayin nodded, the medicine list in her hand was still warm, and she glanced down quickly.

Lorazepam tablets and magnesium valproate sustained-release tablets.

"Psychiatric drugs can only be prescribed for one month at a time. In your current condition, you can take the medication while doing psychotherapy," the doctor looked at her. "As long as you feel bad, you must come to the hospital and don't delay."

Lin Jiayin lightly tapped his chin and asked after a while silent, "Are there any side effects from eating this?"

"It's three-point poison. The side effects of these two drugs are generally dizziness, anorexia, nausea and vomiting, etc., the feeling will be obvious at the beginning of taking the medicine, and the symptoms will be reduced or disappear after adapting." The doctor pushed his glasses and continued. Said: "But your dose of medicine is not large. Compared with the side effects of insomnia and anxiety, it can be ignored."

"Oh..." Lin Jiayin nodded again.

"So be sure to take the medicine well, and don't have resistance." The doctor said.

Lin Jiayin smiled at her, then turned and left after thanking her.

"It's your roommate outside, isn't it?" The doctor stopped him and looked outside the hidden door.

"It's my roommate." Lin Jiayin turned around.

The doctor said, "Let your roommate come in. You can wait outside for a while."

Lin Jiayin was shocked, but still told Tao Mo to come in according to the doctor's instructions, and then waited outside by herself.

After Tao Mo entered, he closed the door with ease.

She stood at the door, her back against the wall, staring at the same white wall on the opposite side.

The brain is groggy, and the lack of sleep for a long time makes her thinking extremely slow.

After only waiting for a few minutes, Tao Mo came out.

"The doctor didn't say anything else, so I told you to take your medicine properly and send you to the hospital if your condition is not right." Tao Mo spoke first.

Lin Jiayin gave a long cry.

Tao Mo pursed her lips.

In fact, there are others.

Doctors say that anxiety is a mental illness, but over time, mental illness will produce physiological changes, and brain problems are prone to occur.

Although she is currently suffering from mild depression, if she has been anxious for a long time, her endocrine system will become unbalanced, her emotions will be out of control, and mild depression will turn to moderate or even severe...It is best to find a way to get her out of the anxious situation .

After paying the fee and taking the medicine, Lin Jiayin and Tao Mo walked out of the hospital together.

When leaving the hall, Lin Jiayin looked back a few times.

"What are you looking at?" Tao Mo asked.

"Nothing..." Lin Jiayin turned back.

She was looking for the girl just now, the girl with empty eyes.

She is no longer here, and there are other people sitting in her place.

At this moment, Lin Jiayin suddenly became scared.

Back at school, Lin Jiayin asked Tao Mo to have dinner at the snack street opposite.

After eating, Lin Jiayin went straight back to Senhe.

When Shen Zhan is not at home, she seems to have nothing to do.

Obviously, she was watching TV on the sofa before, but tonight it was dull. The TV sound was quite loud, so she stared at it blankly.

The hero and heroine are talking, but she can't seem to hear, and she doesn't understand what they are talking about.

The whole person was in a trance, confused.

In this way, groggy until more than 10 o'clock, Shen Zhan made a video call to her.

Shen Zhan in the front camera is still so handsome.

Lin Jiayin raised the phone, revealing her whole face.

"Miss me?" Shen Zhan asked with a smile.

Lin Jiayin responded softly, "Yes."

"Why don't you have strength?" Shen Zhan asked her.

"Because..." Lin Jiayin blinked her eyes, "I think you have no strength to think about it."

When the words came back, the voice became lighter and softer, his eyes suddenly became red, and the tip of his nose began to sour.

"I'll be back tomorrow night." Shen Zhan said.

Lin Jiayin raised the corners of her lips and smiled, "I want you to hug, Zhan Zhan."

The coquettish, somewhat hoarse, and slightly nasal sounds made Shen Zhan's heart tense and inexplicably sad.

"I'll change my appointment later," he said, "come back tomorrow afternoon."

"Okay." Lin Jiayin squinted and continued to laugh, "I'll wait for you to come back."

"How was your afternoon playing?" Shen Zhan asked.

"Okay."

Shen Zhan raised his eyebrows, "Have you bought the green hat?"

"Bought it and show it to me when you come back." Lin Jiayin pouted.

"I really dare to buy." Shen Zhan narrowed his eyebrows.

Lin Jiayin stared, "Is there anything I dare not dare to."

Shen Zhan chuckled lightly, "I still have something to do, it's too early, go to sleep."

"Remember to miss me." Lin Jiayin unconsciously grasped the hem of his clothes.

"Thinking every minute and every second." Shen Zhan said.

Lin Jiayin waved, "Then I'll hang up."

"Hang up, go to bed." Shen Zhan said softly.

After hanging up the video, Lin Jiayin cast her eyes on a bag of medicine placed in the center of the coffee table. After sending it out for a while, she got up to pick up a glass of water and took the medicine according to the instructions above.

Only eat half a pill on the first day and gradually increase the amount later.

Lin Jiayin raised her head and threw the medicine down her throat, suffocating a gulp of water.

Not knowing whether it would be useful, Lin Jiayin retreated back to the sofa.

For the first ten minutes, I didn't feel much. After a while, Lin Jiayin felt a little dizzy.

It's not the kind of drowsiness that is drowsiness, or simply the dizziness of the mind.

She frowned and stood up.

This body almost fell down.

The whole person is drunk, the world is spinning around, the floor seems to be moving all the time, and the walk is shaking.

She leaned on the wall and walked towards the bedroom, the plastic medicine bag hanging from her wrist banged.

Lin Jiayin thinks she looks funny like this.

He obviously didn't drink, like a drunkard.

She closed her eyes for a while and then opened the bedroom door after she was calm.

Kneeling down on the edge of the bed with his hands, lying on the ground, reached out and stuffed the plastic bag under the bed.

The moment I got up, my eyes went dark and my forehead hit the corner of the bed.

"Hiss——" Lin Jiayin bit her lip in pain and couldn't make any other sounds. After a while, she raised her hand to touch it.

Slimy and smashed to the skin.

After the collision, Lin Jiayin stood up and walked into the bathroom to look in the mirror.

Above the left eyebrow, near the temple, a small opening was opened, which kept bleeding out.

She turned around and walked back to the bedroom to find the medicine cabinet. She simply sterilized the poison with alcohol, pulled a small piece of gauze to cover it, and taped it on with medical tape.

Looking at herself in the mirror, Lin Jiayin gave a long eh.

It's so stupid, and so unfortunate.

Shen Zhan contacted the person in charge of Minghui, pushed forward the final contract signing, and rushed to the airport at 2 pm.

However, the flight was delayed, and I waited dry at the airport for more than two hours, and it was already 8 pm when I returned to Senhe.

He sent Lin Jiayin to WeChat before boarding the plane, got off the plane and turned on his mobile phone.

Lin Jiayin said that the teacher had something to do with her and that she would come back later, and Shen Zhan returned home to wait for you.

After sitting on the sofa for a while, he suddenly thought of the green hat Lin Jiayin said, swiping it on the coffee table, hooked the corners of his lips, stood up lazily, and walked to the bedroom.

He really didn't believe Lin Jiayin would buy a green hat back.

As soon as I entered the bedroom, the phone rang.

Shen Zhan thought it was Lin Jiayin, but turned out to be an unknown call. He swiped his finger and refused to answer it.

He receives many unknown calls and anonymous text messages every day.

It's not about educating him in a fuss, or just blaming him to die.

These people really have enough free time. If it weren't for work, he would have changed numbers.

Shen Zhan sat on the edge of the bed, lowered his head and pressed his phone.

One second before the black option was clicked, a text message popped out from the status bar at the top of the screen.

-I’m Tao Mo, I want to tell you something

A few seconds later, the phone number that was about to be blocked came back.

Shen Zhan flicked, got up and walked to the French window to answer.

"Is it Shen Zhan?" There was a female voice on the other end of the phone.

Shen Zhan met Tao Mo several times and heard her speak.

"Yeah." He responded.

Suddenly there was silence, as if hesitating.

"What's the matter?" Shen Zhan said first.

Tao Mo sighed, and was silent for a while before saying, "Do you think there is something wrong with Sister Lin?"

Lin Jiayin would not let her tell Shen Zhan about seeing a doctor, Tao Mo could only remind her in insinuation.

"Problem?" Shen Zhan frowned.

Tao Mo nodded: "Did she tell you about choosing her to go abroad for exchange in the courtyard?"

"I haven't said it." Shen Zhan gripped the phone tightly.

"Sister Lin was very happy when she came down, but now she suddenly regrets that she can't go," Tao Mo paused, and then said, "Because you are not going."

"Because of me?" Shen Zhan closed the window and turned around.

Tao Mo repeated what he had said to Lin Jiayin.

"I think she is watching you breathe."

Shen Zhan froze for a moment, and stopped.

"I don’t know if you can understand what I mean, that is, she tied the whole person to you, and regards you as very important, very, very important, more important than your own life, as long as you are a little bit bad, she You will be anxious and can't breathe." Tao Mo finished in one breath.

"Anxious... Can't breathe..." Shen Zhan murmured and repeated it in a low voice.

Recalling Lin Jiayin's state since the National Day, those thoughts that had been entangled in his mind suddenly unraveled.

Both sides suddenly became quiet.

After a while, Shen Zhan lowered his voice and said, "This matter will soon pass."

Jiang Xiaowen has found a lawyer and is waiting for the court to accept the hearing.

"Even if this incident is over, what will happen afterwards? What happens to her in the future?" Tao Mo raised her voice and said sharply, "You must make her understand that she is an independent individual. , Can’t keep looking at you and holding you, she will be tired and sick."

Shen Zhan was silent.

"You understand, don't you? You must understand in your heart." Tao Mo took a deep breath after asking and answering, and his voice went softer, "I said so much, you might think I am nosy, but I really You can't be dumb without talking."

"Do you know? She doesn't laugh much now." Tao Mo hung up after speaking.

Shen Zhan stood in front of the bed for a long time before stepping out and going to the school to find Lin Jiayin, and asked her in person.

The strength of the whole body seemed to be taken away, and the feeling of powerlessness was wrapped up. Just after two steps, the mobile phone slid from his hand and slipped into the bed.

Shen Zhan squatted down and touched his hand under the bed to pick it up.

The fingertips touched something similar to a plastic bag, and something rustled out, Shen Zhan was taken aback, and his finger hooked out.

...

Lin Jiayin came out of the office and looked up at the sky.

The sky is completely dark, only a few stars are shining, and the moonlight is not bright enough.

She sighed.

I always like to sigh lately.

Teacher Wang tried to persuade her all night, but her lips were worn out, and she was either silent or shaking her head.

Wang Yezhen stared at her angrily for a long time, and finally only said five words.

Okay, you go.

Deeply disappointed.

Lin Jiayin sighed again.

He took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and when he saw the WeChat sent to her by Shen Zhan, his frowned brows finally stretched out, and the corners of his lips were raised and smiled.

Shen Zhan sat on the sofa, holding a psychological test report in his hand, and looked down for a long time under the bright light.

There was no expression on his face, so he held the report, as if he was watching, and as if in a trance.

He always felt that Lin Jiayin was happy with him.

But now, he began to have doubts.

Does it make sense for her to be with herself?

Her light was given to him, but what about herself?

She is not happy at all now.

Even sick.

Because of him, all because of him.

Shen Zhan took a deep breath, weak, irritable, flustered, and at a loss what to do.

He raised his head, reached for the cigarette case on the coffee table, opened it and saw that it was full of candies, he was taken aback.

The sugar paper was shining colorfully under the light.

The glare made him even more irritable.

The suppressed emotions were no longer controlled by Zhi, he raised his hand and threw the cigarette case to the ground.

The hard candy clinked all over the floor.

Lin Jiayin pushed in at this moment.

"Shen Zhan?" She stood at the entrance, looking at everything she found, suddenly a little uneasy.

Shen Zhan hugged his head with his hands and lowered his head.

A candy rolled to her feet, and Lin Jiayin stepped over it.

"Why..." When she saw the medicine and the report on the table, her uneasy emotions grew wildly, and she rushed into her body.

Shen Zhan couldn't describe how he felt.

When he threw open the cigarette case that Lin Jiayin had replaced with candy for him, his heart hurt as if he was being severely picked up.

Everything is his business.

Why does Lin Jiayin suffer this?

Seeing Shen Zhan's head down, Lin Jiayin didn't know what to say. She pursed the corners of her lips, walked to the coffee table and squatted down, picked up all the candies rolling under her feet, and put them back in the cigarette case.

It seems that Yu Guang has caught her squatting movement, and Shen Zhan raised her head, "Don't pick it up."

The voice was very dry like a mouthful of sand.

Lin Jiayin paused, but soon lowered her head and continued to pick up candy.

"I said don't pick it up." Shen Zhan stood up tired.

Lin Jiayin raised her head, but didn't pay attention. His forehead touched the edge of the coffee table again.

It's a coincidence that it was the wound on the corner of the bed yesterday.

She hissed reflexively.

Shen Zhan saw a little blood leaking from the gauze on her forehead.

The heart was hammered violently, and tears came out of his eyes.

She is watching you breathe.

She tied her whole person to you.

She considers you very important, more important than her own life.

As long as you are a little bit bad, she will be anxious and can't breathe.

She can't keep looking at you like this and holding you.

She will be tired and sick.

Shen Zhan closed her eyes and opened them to see that she was still lowering her head to pick up candy.

As if not understanding what I said.

"Lin Jiayin." He walked over and lifted her up.

Lin Jiayin smiled, looked at him as if nothing happened, and shook the cigarette case in his hand, "You accidentally dropped it, right? It's okay, I picked it up for you."

"Lin Jiayin," Shen Zhan looked at her and called her name again.

"Call me Little Sun." She said, her eyes reddened, and tears rolled in her eyes.

Shen Zhan still looked at her, "Little Sun."

"Yeah." Lin Jiayin answered.

"You..." he said.

Lin Jiayin interrupted him and pointed to the medicine on the table, "I wanted to tell you when you came back."

"You," Shen Zhan was a little breathless after choking, "are you tired?"

"I'm not tired. Didn't I tell you? I like dancing very much." Even though tears had been slashed **** her cheeks, Lin Jiayin still said with a smile.

"I mean... is your heart tired?" Shen Zhan looked straight into her eyes.

Lin Jiayin choked suddenly.

Shen Zhan also tightened the corners of his lips.

After being silent for a while, Shen Zhan opened his mouth.

"You see you are sick."

"It's nothing, it's really nothing, it's going to be done soon," Lin Jiayin repeated, "It's almost done."

"We..." Shen Zhan closed his eyes and tried his best to say the next words, "Break up."

Lin Jiayin was taken aback, and suddenly shouted, "I don't want it."

"Let's see how thin you are." Shen Zhan opened his eyes and raised his hand to touch her skinny cheeks that have sunk in.

"The teacher said, I have to lose weight, and dancing is supposed to be very skinny. Did you break up with me because I was sick? I have already seen the doctor. The doctor said it’s not serious. Just take medicine on time. If you can get better, you can get better right away," Lin Jiayin said incoherently, her voice getting hoarse, "and I am not tired, not tired at all, even if tired, I am willing to do it, don’t blame yourself, I don’t blame... …"

"But I don't want to." Shen Zhan interrupted her.

His eyes were cold, unlike before, his eyes would become tender.

"Why?" Lin Jiayin opened his hand, took a step back, and looked at him tearfully.

"I don't want to, let's break up." Shen Zhan said in a cold tone.

"I don't want it." Lin Jiayin shook her head frantically.

Shen Zhan took a deep breath and pointed out the door, "Go away, get away, don't like me anymore."

Lin Jiayin still shook her head, dashed over, and leaped forward directly, hugging him tightly with both hands, and muttering in her mouth that I just like you don't stop rolling.

"I didn't tell you to roll into my arms." Shen Zhan was angry and funny.

Annoyed that she didn't care about becoming so exhausted, and laughed that she was so cruel that she could get into her arms even after she rolled.

"I don't roll, I just don't roll." Lin Jiayin cried and raised her head, with her chin on his chest, and said grievously: "Who will love you after I roll?"

The author has something to say: in the next chapter, we will make peace. It will not thunder and rain, and it will be sunny, including Zhao Ye. I am afraid that the author who sent you the blade will cry out crying, and it will end in about 30w.