Heroine’s Road to Becoming Scum

Although he participated in employee activities, with Cheng Qing's personality and usual image, no one dared to strike up a conversation or talk to him at all. Everyone felt that he was too far away, so he dared not approach or thought about approaching.

Therefore, Cheng Qing's existence is a bit embarrassing. As soon as he couldn’t get involved with the employees and play barbecue with everyone, secondly, when he was there, the employees couldn’t let go. They even talked and walked cautiously. Those who knew this was for a picnic, and those who didn’t even thought it was for an open-air meeting. It.

Even if Cheng Qing didn’t feel embarrassed, he could derive information from other people’s actions that his existence made them very cautious. He frowned slightly. Today, he came to a picnic. The company-owned bus did not drive himself. Here, it is not easy to call a taxi here.

Originally, I wanted to be more close to the people, but I didn't expect it to be like this in the end.

Just when Cheng Qing was thinking about how to leave, Cindy came over. There are a few gray marks on her face, which is as dirty as a kitten. Cheng Qing couldn't help but feel soft when she saw her, not because of other things, but because of her eyes. The clean always reminded him of the cat he had raised. It's a pity that the kitten hadn't grown up when she left, so every time she stared at Cindy, Cheng Qing would feel familiar.

Because of this, he is much gentler to her than others. Even after getting along for so long, the two can be regarded as very good friends.

Cindy is beautiful and lively, optimistic and hearty, and is very popular with everyone. Although she is a newcomer, she can do things and is considerate. Basically, she can't pick out her shortcomings. There are many people in the company who like her, and many pursuers. It can be said that most of them The goddess of unmarried male employees.

Many people are not moved by her pursuit, but they just like the CEO of Big Ice. This has to make people feel that the world is full of sadness: in general, it's just looking at the face. Sure enough, handsome men and beautiful women are a pair. Do they have to stand aside when they are ugly?

Isn’t the CEO and Cindy in an ambiguous period? Every time you see CEO Cindy’s red face, you will know. They make love bento every day, eat together at noon, and if they work overtime in the evening, the CEO will send Cindy home. What is this not boyfriend and girlfriend? It's just that these two people rarely act intimacy when there are outsiders. I don't know if Cindy is shy or the CEO is unwilling.

In short, it's hard to imagine that someone like the CEO will also have a girlfriend. It's amazing to think about it. But if I think about it carefully, I think it's normal again. The average girl may not be good enough, but Cindy is a good match when standing with him. Therefore, for these two people, everyone has a blessing mentality.

Cindy held the grilled skewers in her hand and brought them in a white paper plate. She squatted down next to Cheng Qing, then took a bite of a chicken wing and said, “You don’t like spicy food, so I only brushed a little chili sauce. After all, the barbecue wouldn’t taste good if it wasn’t spicy. Try it soon. I baked it myself."

Cheng Qing looked at the plate, reached for a lamb kebab, bit a piece, chewed twice, looked a little strange, but did not say anything, but silently finished the lamb kebab. After taking two bites, Cindy stuck out her tongue: "It doesn't seem to be very tasty, I am not good at making this." She carefully observed Cheng Qing's expression. "Ah... isn't it delicious?"

"No." Cheng Qing shook her head. "Not bad." It's just far worse than her usual level of cooking, but it's not unpalatable, at least it's well cooked.

Cindy stuck out her tongue: "I never had a chance to participate in a picnic before. This is the first time I joined the company, so I was a little nervous." She smiled, scratched her head, and slowly grilled the plate with Cheng Qing. It's all eaten.

Cheng Qing looked at the following table and said: "It's half past eleven."

"Ah? So fast?" Cindy was stunned, and took a look at her mobile phone. Cheng Qing noticed that a cute little pendant was tied to her mobile phone. The pendant was very delicate and looked very childish.

He was lost, and Cindy suggested, "Well, let's go back first, you must not find a taxi."

"I'll go back alone. You can stay and play." Cheng Qing didn't want to bother her. It's rare to come out to play with a colleague. If he went back home halfway, it would be really bad to say it.

Cindy didn’t care: “It’s okay. I’ve paid for the picnic expenses this time. Besides, I’m not the sponsor. Even if I’m not there, it’s fine.” She found her bag and carried it on her back, “You always send me home. , Let me give you one off this time?"

Cheng Qing glanced at her quietly, and a smile was raised at the corner of her mouth: "Okay."

After talking to the person in charge, Cindy took Cheng Qing away. It's not far from this grassland to the place where there is a car, but you have to go around. When he came, Cheng Qing didn't remember the route. Now he can only follow Cindy.

After taking a taxi, Cheng Qing sat in the car and looked at the sky outside. Today's weather is very good, and the world is different from Wangchuanhe.

The Wangchuan River was completely dark, even if it climbed out of Wangchuan and walked up to Naihe, it was still dark to greet him. The past was completely dark, and the future is nowhere to be seen. Only the present, but how many people can grasp the present? How many people invested in Wangchuan, they never came out, either completely lost their minds and became crazy, or were brutally swallowed, even the soul fragments would not be left behind. All of this is different from now.

While alive, you can breathe fresh air and meet many people, good people, bad people, men, women, people you like, people you hate...

Cheng Qing looked at Cindy beside her. Cindy actually fell asleep, because she couldn't help but nodded in the car, little by little like a chicken pecking at rice. The driver in front inadvertently saw Cheng Qing's eyes in the rearview mirror, and saw him take off his jacket and put it on his shoulder, and then let Cindy lean, jokingly: "This gentleman really loves his girlfriend. My daughter is about the same age as this young lady, and just had a boyfriend, alas."

"Sigh?" Cheng Qing asked softly, and chatted with the driver in a face-to-face manner.

"Her boyfriend, he said he is the director of the company, he is well paid, and he looks good. He looks good at talking and temperament, but he is not considerate." The driver continued to sigh. "The boys now don't know what it means to be considerate. They play games every day after get off work, but my old father-in-law is so worried."

Cheng Qing smiled: "I don't play games."

"It's okay not to play games. The young couple quarreled frequently about playing games."

Cheng Qing didn't say a word, and looked out the window again. The road signs and pedestrians faded back quickly, but he didn't know what he saw.

It's like... I saw everything, but I didn't remember anything.

Why is this so?

He himself couldn't figure out what he was thinking. So far in this world, he doesn't know what the real Cheng Qing wants. While powerless, he will toss and turn to think about whether his current step-by-step life is considered a task in progress. He once tried to call children Moze from the bottom of his heart. , But the kid who would always respond to him as soon as possible but refused to tell him what Cheng Qing really wanted.

What can you hold with such a pair of hands?

What can be caught?

Can his heart be redeemed even if he catches a certain person or something? Can his soul be freed by this? Cheng Qing didn't know, so he could only choose to continue to move forward, complete the task of this world, and return to his life, and then--

What then?

He doesn't know anymore.

Even if he met these wonderful people, he couldn't stay for them. Cheng Qing stroked her forehead and sighed. As a result, Cindy didn't wake up. The driver tried to wake Cindy, but Cheng Qing stopped him: "You can stop here. I will pay you the fare according to the time."

This kind of good thing falls from the sky, it is a fool to take advantage of it, so the driver happily agreed, and Cheng Qing sat down and waited until Cindy woke up.

When she woke up, there were traces on her face, one by one, red all over, and Cindy herself noticed it. After touching it, she felt embarrassed. This time she lost her face. I am embarrassed to see Cheng Qing. Cheng Qing just smiled: "Okay, let's get off the car."

After getting out of the car, Cindy found out that this was her home. She was stunned. Cheng Qing said to her: "Go home to clean up, take a shower, and I should go back."

He turned around and took two steps, but Cindy grabbed his hand for some reason. Cheng Qing looked down at it, and then twisted his brow slightly. Cindy also suddenly found herself too abrupt. After all, the two are only friends now. She bit her lip and asked, "You...you go back by yourself, is it okay?"

Cheng Qing thought she asked very strangely: "...what's wrong?"

"I just think you don't look very happy." Cindy looked straight into his eyes, "I don't know what you are worrying about, but I want to tell you that everything will pass, and it will be fine to get through this period of time."

Cheng Qing felt that her words made sense, and nodded and said, "Okay, I remembered it."

After experiencing those worlds, he is willing to open his heart to beautiful people, so facing Cindy's kindness, he smiled, this smile is different from the previous one, it is extra gentle. Cindy was shocked by the laughter's body, her hands clenched into fists nervously, she didn't know what to say to Cheng Qing, her face flushed. Fortunately, Cheng Qing did not speak, but said goodbye to her in the car.

"Goodbye, goodbye."

Waving his hands, stand still until the taxi disappears from sight.

When Cheng Qing came home, he was the only one quiet in the huge house. He was sitting in front of the study window. From here, it was a blue sky.

weather is good.

The wind is very fresh.

The white clouds are soft and the sun is warm.

But Cheng Qing just couldn't raise the energy, he couldn't raise it at all. I don't know how long he has passed, but he sits until the night falls, and then the phone prompts a new message. Cheng Qing glanced down, it was Cindy reminding him to remember to eat dinner.

As if she knew he would forget it. Cheng Qing smiled, feeling warm in her heart, got up and went to the kitchen, like every night in the past, to cook herself a lunch. He seemed to have used up all his emotions in the first few worlds, obviously--thinking that he had learned to love again, but now he actually felt like he had been hollowed out. Not only love, but also heart.

He thought that the love he had learned was continuous and would never stop, but now it seemed to be a glimmer of light. He should have known that the ghost that fell into the Forgotten River would not be able to come back to life.

Even if it is possessed by human flesh, even if it has bodily functions, even if it looks no different from ordinary people--but in fact, it is still different. The moment he chose to jump into Wangchuan, he was doomed, and he would never be like a human again. Even in this body, it is not a normal human being.

Cheng Qing was a little at a loss. He didn't remember the moment he jumped into Wangchuan, whether he was willing to continue being a human being, whether he gave up his longing for life, or he held the courage to be desperate for that moment, with a pitiful heart that was crumpled. Go down.

He would never forget the pain at that moment. The heart was cut open and cut into pieces, so painful and painful. In Wangchuan, it was torn apart, reorganized, then torn apart, and reorganized.

What supported him to retain this tone? He thought he should have really died long ago.

After dinner, Cheng Qing suddenly remembered that his office room card seemed to be forgotten by Cindy. He first called Cindy, but it showed that the other party was on the phone. After thinking about it, he decided to take it now and wait until he went to work to find Cindy. Too many employees saw it, and the impact was a little bad.

So Cheng Qing drove to Cindy's house. Although he has never been a guest in her house, he still knows where her house is. Only after asking people did he know that Cindy's so-called room 506 on the fifth floor has been vacant for a long time without anyone living in it.

Cheng Qing stood at door 506, and the enthusiastic aunt came over and asked him: "Young man, who are you looking for?"

"I'm looking for a girl named Cindy, do you know her?"

"I've never heard of a girl named Cindy living here, boy, have you been cheated by someone?" the aunt said pityingly. "Before 506, I lived with a young couple. After they moved out, the house became vacant. The landlord has been worried about not being able to rent it out. If you don't believe me, take a look. Look at the lock, it's all gone!"

"There should be nothing wrong, my friend will not lie to me."

"So you remembered it wrong? Maybe she doesn't live on the fifth floor at all?"

"It's the fifth floor, I'm pretty sure."

"Definitely not." The aunt waved her hand. "Tell me about what this girl looks like. As long as I live in this building, I will definitely have an impression!"

"Long hair, very beautiful, and very good personality, ah, her eyes are especially clean." Seeing her aunt thinking hard, Cheng Qing also emphasized it specially. "The eyes are really clean, they look like cats."

"Oh!" The aunt suddenly realized. "I know, you mean that weird girl? You go down every time you go to the fifth floor?!"

"Ok?"

"There is a girl. I have seen it several times. She always goes up to the fifth floor. But she doesn’t live here. I talked to her a few times. She said she came to find a friend. I drank a glass of water after my house."

Cheng Qing asked suddenly: "Mother, where do you live?"

"I live in 503."

"...Can you take me in and have a look?" Cheng Qing quickly took out her ID card, afraid that the other party would think she was a bad person. "I won't lie to you, I just want to take a look."

"It doesn't matter, the young man looks so good, he is definitely not a liar. Look at your dress, what does the aunt make you want?" The aunt is also very outspoken, and she agrees without saying anything, and walks in front of Cheng Qing and let him follow Yourself. Cheng Qing followed the aunt to her house and found a room, "Can I go in and take a look?"

The aunt said: "Yes."

Cheng Qing walked in, turned on the light in the room, and went to the window to look out. Sure enough, she could clearly see her car from here. He asked the aunt: "That girl... Has she only been here once?"

"Quite many times." The aunt scratched her head, thinking that these two people were really strange. "I said what you young people are doing now. Everyone likes my room very much. Is my room so good?" You must turn on the lights when you come in.

"...I see, thank you." Cheng Qing smiled at the aunt. The aunt was following him, feeling that the young man was a little lost. "Young man, are you okay? If you want to find that girl, when I see her in the future, I will help you to talk to her?"

Cheng Qing shook her head and said, "No, thank you." He will never come again, and girls will never come again.

He went back to his car, first spent a while, and then asked Mo Ze from the bottom of his heart: What is going on?

However, this time, Mo Ze did not respond to him.

Cheng Qing returned home in this way. When he called Cindy again, the other party was connected, but when he said that he was going to get the room card, Cindy tactfully refused, saying that he had already taken a bath and slept, or he would come and give it to him in person tomorrow. he. Cheng Qing responded and hung up the phone, and then lay down.

The next morning, Cindy really came with a thermos pot in her hand. Inside was the red date porridge she had cooked up early in the morning. This time the porridge was very delicious. She seemed to have returned to her usual craftsmanship. Cheng Qing drank it. A bowl, thanked her, but looked at her perfect hands.

It is really a perfect pair of hands, it can be said to be flawless, even the pores are not visible. At first glance, it is a hand that does not touch the sun, does not do housework, and is frequently maintained. Cheng Qing is also a rich man. He occasionally cooks his own meals, but because of his work all year round, there are some thin calluses on the palms and fingers.

It is strange to say that after studying business management and working for several years, Cindy, who is now a new employee in the company and often works overtime, has white and soft hands, but she can't see any cocoons.

Cheng Qing realized that he was indeed getting more and more distracted, and he hadn't even noticed such an obvious thing. I just don't know, is he not aware of it, or is the real Cheng Qing unwilling to notice? Or maybe, without having all the memories of Cheng Qing, he is still walking the old path of Cheng Qing at this moment?

If it wasn't for the accidental discovery last night, he would have always trusted this girl, right?

What a pair of beautiful eyes, but they are full of lies.

Cheng Qing did not speak. After drinking the porridge, she sat on the chair. Cindy smiled and talked to him. Cheng Qing asked her, "Do you need to wash the lunch box?"

She froze for a moment and said, "It's okay, I'll take it back and wash it."

In the company before, Cheng Qing took the initiative to wash the lunch box after lunch, but this time he asked her if she wanted to wash it.

Cindy's answer was expected by Cheng Qing, he was not surprised, but the smile on the corner of his mouth was unpredictable. "It's better to just wash it at my house, and put it in the dryer after washing, otherwise it won't be convenient for you to carry it back."

"Uh..." Cindy hesitated. "okay then."

"I'm going to the living room."

As soon as Cheng Qing left, Cindy carried the lunch box into the kitchen. She looked back nervously and found that Cheng Qing was not looking at herself, then she was relieved, looking at the faucet a little tangled, how does this work...

However, she was afraid that she would not be able to get through without washing, so she rinsed it with water, and then wiped it with a rag. Before she finished wiping, Cheng Qing's voice suddenly came from behind her: "Is it done?"

"what?!"

Cheng Qing took the lunch box in her hand, glanced at it, and said faintly: "You go to the living room, I'll wash it."

Cindy smiled reluctantly: "I think my fingers hurt a bit, so..."

Cheng Qing looked at her with a faint smile, washed the lunch box in front of her, wiped it dry with a rag, and handed it to her. Cindy hurriedly reached out to pick it up, but she let go before receiving Cheng Qing, and the lunch box fell to the ground with a clear and loud sound. Cindy was startled: "What's wrong with you? Why did you throw it on the ground?" He squatted down to pick it up, but was grabbed by Cheng Qing.

She raised her head to look at him, but he didn't look at her. He looked straight ahead and asked her, "Is it fun?"

"what did you say?"

"I'm asking you, is it fun?" Cheng Qing let go. He always smiled at her. Although most of the time the smile was very weak, it was indeed a smile. Cindy had never seen the indifference like this. . There are so many employees in the company, and they always say that the CEO is not close, so what about the flower of Gaoling. Cindy has always felt that this is not the case, but until now she did not know why others said that. If the Cheng Qing she saw was like this, then she would not want to approach him.

It's just now... She bit her lip tightly and still refuses to admit: "I don't know what you are talking about."

"Don't know?" Cheng Qing didn't want to admit that there was an emotion called disappointment in her heart slowly rising. "Since you said you don't know, then don't know."

He walked out of the kitchen and Cindy followed him. Cheng Qing said, "You can go back now."

Cindy didn't understand: "What did I do wrong? Even if you want me to leave, you have to give me a reason?" She looked at the man incredulously. Yesterday they were not all right. One day, why his attitude changed so much that she didn't dare to recognize it.

But at the same time, her clean eyes began to dodge, and there was a guilty conscience.