37 – Fear of being pushed out, fear of being abandoned, and love.

“Me, master.”

I looked at the cat lady who strode forward with a surprised look.

She, who had pricked up her rabbit ears, was also startled by Mr. Pelter’s sudden action and turned her head away.

Her hands were slightly placed on her lower abdomen, but Ellie’s face could not hide her bewilderment at all.

To be honest, it’s not surprising that he would come closer to me, lower his head, and try to talk. I brought her for this purpose in the first place.

But why did I become perplexed by this action?

And why am I watching her in the dark?

“Yes, yes, Mr. Felter.”

In the end, I had no choice but to smile and answer her.

Looking at it now, her clothes were quite conspicuous for being quite local.

He was wearing a neat gray, black, and white overcoat with long sleeves that half covered his hands.

And most of all, her eyes were dark yellow and gave off a mild impression.

Blinking her eyes and brushing her short ears little by little, she approached and seemed to calm people’s hearts.

…Unlike someone who makes my heart race.

Besides, she stands upright in her place, wagging her long tail – yes.

It reminded me of a gray cat that I saw in a video once, standing on its legs like a meerkat to eat a snack.

Seeing her like that, the memory of the old place was inadvertently thrown away and I couldn’t help but smile.

“Ah… well, I’d like to ask for some clothes. I’m trying to buy comfortable clothes so I can stay at home for the time being, is that okay?”

Seeing her trying to make eye contact with me while raising her heels while saying hot, hot, it seemed as if my stiff mind was slowly loosening up.

It feels like holding a cute cat, doesn’t it feel like listening to her cute daughter just as she said?

“I’m sure you’ll have that much money. I’ll have to rest at home for a while… Do you like hot tea?”

“Eh? Oh, yes. But that’s too shameless-“

“Because I can do that much. I’ll pick out my favorite tea leaves and go.”

“Oh, thank you.”

Bashish, her expression as she smiled, looked so beautiful that she was surprised to see it once again.

Was it really because she felt like, for a moment, like my sister or family?

Or was it that his heart skipped a beat because he was attracted to her charm in a human way?

“Then shall we go, master? Sooner or later, Kellogg, eh. Sooner or later people will pour out into the streets.”

Even though she still has a small cough, her face that has become much more free and natural, talking to me with a much brighter look than that hardened and frightened expression,

It was as if I was proudly looking at a child who was telling me a story honestly, so I raised my mouth once again and tried to get away from her.

Goong.

until the road’s feet stuck to the ground.

Goong.

Turning around, he looked at me with wide eyes,

Goong.

Until I saw her hitting the floor with both feet.

***

After getting angry several, many times, you now know how to control your emotions a bit and how to deal with the extent of this condition, I guess?

Of course I don’t want him to get hurt, so I put some shackles on his feet.

I am so angry. I’m so angry that I feel like I’m going crazy.

What is that cat, what is that b*tch,

As if I forgot, can you forget me with your expression becoming haggard?

…I’m afraid.

I’m scared.

I can tell just by looking at your face.

Now it’s not a embarrassed face, but a face that says I’m uncomfortable, like…

You, you are far better off as a child who cares about you so defenselessly.

that, yes It would be much better to be a harmless child than me who is coercive.

…It’s like a stray cat…!

But I guess I need to think very, very coolly here.

I’d love to twist that nasty b*tch’s neck right now – but can’t I?

because you will hate me

i want you to love me I long for that.

I want you to whisper to me that you love me and to make you depend on me to the extent that you can’t be without me like that day.

Now that I think about it, I was walking in the wrong direction.

…Ah, hahahaha, it seems like you only realize something after you have a partner –

It feels like getting hit in the head.

Yes, that’s right, that’s right.

Was it?

I thought you were always attracted to me and wanted to rely on me, but on that day, was it just the way you were when you were struggling and complaining?

Was it me who did not like you at all and was just coercive?

…I feel like I ate one shot. It’s bittersweet.

If so, there’s something to do first.

Shall we start by getting rid of this useless phrase that keeps scaring you because you can’t control your emotions?

You know what? I don’t even consider myself useful for things like this that keep you from loving me.

You can be anything you want.

If you want me to be obedient, I’ll let you do it.

…if that’s what you really want.

So tell me.

give me confidence

will choose me I will only look at me you will only love me

You know I’m afraid, please, please, don’t abandon me like this.

Just don’t let that one b*tch separate us. please.

Having given everything to you, I can only see you now.

Please don’t leave me who wants your affection like this.

Suddenly, it seems like the distance between me and you has grown too far, so I’m scared, please.

Can you come and hug me right now?

Can you whisper to me that you still love me right now?

Can you stroke my ears and blush a bit?

i need you I can’t be without you

So please come back look at me

Don’t make me see only your back.

***

Seeing her fall forward while clutching her chest, I was very taken aback at first.

I wondered if something was wrong, and I was genuinely surprised.

For just one moment, seeing the owner smiling at me and being angry, for a moment, her face was filled with fear.

I don’t know what kind of expression my master made when he turned around and looked at her,

She had a frightened face, and in an instant, she collapsed into tears and sat down.

As the master hurriedly ran to her, she buried her head in his neck and squeezed his clothes.

I screamed in pain enough that the people around me were startled and turned their heads to find the source of the sound.

Even that, she bit the nape of his clothes and held her breath…

It was on purpose, but her trembling back gave a pitiful look.

When I saw that, my heart felt a little uncomfortable.

Of course, it was fortunate that the image of her, who had pressured me and swallowed her master, collapsed, but…

For some reason, my heart is heavy.

“Throw away, won’t throw away? I, I, I…”

With his eyes open, he saw her whispering in his ear, weeping endlessly.

As if she was out of breath and clinging to his body, she clung to him with all her strength, as if she was holding on to the last remaining blanket with all her strength.

Just a little bit, I did it because I was curious about his reaction.

As if her teeth collided with each other and she was sent out naked in a cold place somewhere, her face did not even become contemplative—

How desperate I must have been, how much pain I must have…

Have you ever imagined being thrown away? But is that something to be afraid of?

I must have underestimated the size of her love. I already thought it was big, but is it big enough to trade my life for?

…that’s why I’m curious.

In addition to the things I asked for, he was a master who wanted to do something more.

If you ask for a favor, like a kind-hearted merchant who buys a bag of apples and eats a tangerine with you,

Even though I didn’t give anything, when I see him acting like that, it’s just, colock.

Um, won’t you look back?

The master doesn’t hate her either.

Well, if you didn’t like it, you wouldn’t be rushing to her and hugging her as hard as you could.

So I’m more curious.

If I became a little more precious to him than I am now, how much favor would I receive?

…My curiosity sometimes makes me think it’s really mean, but it also makes me really curious.

Surely, when I wag my tail once, he smiles and tries to take care of something for me.

I am a person who is eager to do something a little more so that I can be as happy as possible when I ask for a favor.

It’s obvious that you’ll be happy if you’re with someone like that.

Now that the opportunity is in my hands, isn’t it polite to miss it?

Now that my master has brought me here, I’ll have to pay my price, Elly, as you say.

A little bit, I might have become sincere.

The affection I never received from my parents, the warmth I never felt from my parents,

I think this person will allow me to do them.

When you get away from here, who can you expect such things from?

I don’t know about your story, but I don’t want to miss this opportunity either.

Of course, I am not blind.

So I’ll wait.

Something you saw passing by must have been a painful sight to you.

But forgive me.

You are the one who ignited my curiosity.

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