Go Through My Demon Host

  Chapter 3695 Don't pity me【Fan】

  Being together for a long time, the secrets in the body cannot be hidden.

Ranbai didn't want to say it, but didn't intend to hide it from Chu Xu.

  When you take off the watch, you can easily see the scar left on your wrist.

  I have been covering it for so many years, I don’t want to look at it, and I don’t want to accept other people’s strange and sympathetic eyes.

  It was the scar left by suicide by cutting the wrist. It was so ugly, it symbolized all the darkness in the past.

  So she wears a watch with her left hand all the year round, not to see the time, but to cover her injuries.

  In fact, Chu Xu had guessed a long time ago that it would not be a good thing, but when he saw such a scene, his brain exploded, completely unable to think.

  He never thought that such a good and arrogant person would even commit suicide.

  What is the point of despair before choosing to cut the wrist.

   "You..." Chu Xu's voice was trembling, but he couldn't say a word.

"Brother Xu, don't cry." When the boy saw that the boy's eyes were red, he gently supported his chin, and took his hand uncomfortably, instinctively not wanting to expose the scar to the air and his sleeves were hanging down. Covering the wound on the wrist was something that happened a few years ago, and the reaction has long since returned to mediocrity, "I'm afraid you are like this, so I won't show it to you."

"Jingbai." The shallow scar seemed to cut on Chu Xu's heart, and the blunt knife was disturbed. He felt pain for Jingbai when he looked at it, and he couldn't imagine how this person had been for so many years. When someone survived, he said every word, "I'll be nice to you."

  He wants to make up for what he has lost in vain over the years.

  Something others have,

  Gongbai also has it.

  Not worse than anyone.

   "Brother Xu, don't pity me." Dye Bai dropped her eyes, her eyelashes covering her eyes.

  She doesn’t need this kind of mercy.

   "It's not pitiful, but distressed."

you say.

  He is obviously such a clean and proud person.

  Why should we experience such a dirty and unbearable past?

   Hardworking, excellent and motivated.

  In return, it is not the gentleness of this world, but the more cruel reality.

  He should be in the sun, bearing the envy and admiration of everyone, and he can bear all the gentleness, he is worthy.

not like this.

no.

   "What happened long ago is nothing." Ranbai said lightly, "Didn't I have you? I'm lucky enough."

  But the injuries that fell on the teenagers, the stomach problems that fell in those seventeen years, the antidepressants and the painkillers that couldn’t stop.

   Jingbai struggled with suffocation for seventeen years, struggling for half his life to come out.

  Now,

   was comforting him.

  Chu Xu stretched out his hand and gently grasped the cold-cut wrist, then carefully touched the scar on it, and the hot white dye almost retracted subconsciously.

   "Does it hurt?" Chu Xu clenched tightly and asked in a low voice.

   "It's been too long." Dye Bai was silent for a moment, "I can't remember."

  Chu Xu stared at the scar.

  It must be painful.

  How could it not hurt to cut the wrist anymore.

  "Can you tell me something about your childhood?" Chu Xu's throat was dry, and his voice was a little dumb: "It doesn't matter if you don't want to talk, I just want to know more about you..."

"Okay." She responded, and then thought about it for a long time, and it was very good to be quiet. Then she said softly every word, her voice lingering in a deep and gentle voice: "Mu Mu is my cousin, you know this. Before. She gave me a lot of sugar, it was very sweet."

  Chu Xu was startled for a moment, then smiled: "Is it very sweet?"

  Ranbai gave a hum.

   Now when I think of it, I will be in a daze, but I will also remember it. Maybe it was too bitter in the past, so the sugar held firmly in the palm of my hand will be reluctant to eat, it will be so sweet, but now all this seems to be far away from her.

  The habit of sweetness is probably left behind, even the habit of collecting sugar paper has not changed.

  Now.

  Finally, she is no longer empty, no longer dead and silent.

  She now has one who will always hold him firmly.

  The atmosphere fell into quiet silence again.

  Chu Xu wants to know what happened to her before,

  In fact, she didn't have anything before, let alone anything to say, except for being beaten, it seemed that she couldn't think of anything else.

  I wanted to pick out some good things in those chaotic and unbearable past to tell Chu Xu, but found that in memory, except for the candy that was bitten in the mouth, nothing else could be found.

  Chu Xu waited quietly for a long time.

  Yanbai's throat rolled, and he couldn't say a word, so he was a little at a loss.

   "Enough." Chu Xu clenched his hand, and the blue veins protruded, "I know, don't say it."

  A few candies let Jing Bai remember till now.

  But for so many years, there are only these few candies.

  Yanbai calmed down.

  She knew that there was nothing in her past, so she never wanted to mention it to others, but Chu Xu was an accident, and she had nothing to say.

   "You still have me." Chu Xu grabbed his hand and said seriously: "You have mine."

   "I know." Dye Bai's tone was low, as usual: "I'm sleepy, go to sleep."

  Chu Xu's lips pressed lightly, with a hmm.

   After being together with Chu Xu, Ranbai hasn't had the same dream for a long time.

  Perhaps it was today that the scar was suddenly exposed in the dark, so that I could dream of the past.

dreaming.

   is a long night, unable to escape.

  The man drank soaring, he looked hideous.

He smashed the thin, young child's head against the wall according to the impression, and slammed the belt fiercely, and finally dragged the person outside the door to make her kneel. It was winter, very cold and dizzy. It seemed that there was some sticky blood-red liquid dripping from her forehead, blurring her eyes. She wanted to open her eyes, but she couldn’t open them. There was darkness in front of her. She was in a trance as if she heard the angry voices of neighbors and the man’s high retort. , There seems to be a woman hiding in the corner forever, refusing to speak out, fearing and hating.

   would hide in the corner from the panic at the very beginning and watch Mu Ping go crazy, and then later be numb and accustomed to being dragged out and beaten by Mu Ping. Because I lost ten yuan, I couldn't eat for a whole week and didn't dare to tell Mu Ping. It was Mu Ping's vent, it was Jing Wei's anger, they hysterically yelled at you as a trash, why don't you die.

  What was she thinking at the time.

Oh.

  She was thinking,

  Why is she not dead yet.

   "Bright? Bright!"

  She finally broke free from the nightmare.

  The blurred vision gradually focused, frozen in between Chu Xu's eyebrows.

  It's ridiculous to want to come.

  Just a Mu Ping can become a nightmare until now.

"Dreamed a dream." The white-dyed frown was slightly imperceptible, and soon fell into silence. He raised his hand and wiped the sweat on his forehead. Suddenly he felt a bit similar to blood, and unknowingly he had a cold sweat and a mute voice. : "I'll take a shower."

  Chu Xu kept looking at Dye Bai, and gave a light hum.

  Dye Bai went to the bathroom. After taking a cold shower, the ink hair was wet, and the drops of water slipped down Ling's shoulder blades. Looking at the person in the mirror, his eyes were bottomless.

Jing disconnected slightly.

  Mu Ping can't control her.

everything is over.

she wants.

  Born to Chu Xu.

  (End of this chapter)