Endless Debt

Hello everyone, this is Andlao, your loyal friend who updates once or twice a day.

First of all, I confess...

As you can see, when I was serializing this volume, my overall state was quite stretched, and my work and rest were always in a morbid cycle. I would either sleep for three or four hours a day and then forcefully turn on the phone, or sleep for ten or so at a stretch. Hours, sleep in darkness.

In order to adjust my condition, I went to the gym. After training hard for a few days, I couldn't sleep even more. I also went to the hospital and was prescribed some sleeping pills, but the effect of the medicine was not very effective on me. Once after taking the medicine , I still didn’t fall asleep all night long.

Not to mention, the bed recently collapsed with a hole in the middle, making it even worse to sleep on.

The good thing is that although my personal condition is not good, this volume still ends successfully without any danger, and then the book has officially entered the later stage. I predict that there will be two volumes left, and it will be almost finished.

And the state has been adjusted well recently, and the whole story is still moving along the outline of my Schrödinger state.

So I feel that it can still be implemented smoothly. As the status recovers, subsequent updates should be updated every day. For this reason, I tentatively plan to finish it by the end of the year.

Of course, I estimate that as long as my schedule explodes once, I will have to wait until next year to write.

Regarding the work, I want to share. To be honest, there is actually nothing to share.

If I have to say something, it is some experience in writing. This book undoubtedly made me aware of many problems, made many unnecessary mistakes, and some of my own problems.

But regarding this part, I plan to talk about it when I finish the book. If I talk about it now, it feels like I have arranged the funeral in advance.

So in this volume, the setting of the story is almost revealed, and then comes the plot to reveal the truth.

In this case, let’s talk about some trivial thoughts about life.

In addition to the explosive schedule, I have also been very anxious recently.

I am always anxious. In my opinion, my life is full of dead ends. It seems that when I cannot do anything or achieve anything at a certain age, I will be a failure and the game will be over.

But in fact, even if you pass that point, nothing will happen.

It’s like feeling that if you can’t get into a good high school or university, or find a good job, etc., your life will be ruined.

Life is extremely resilient, and many things that seem fatal are actually nothing more than that.

The most anxious time for something is before it happens.

I am making peace with my anxiety, but to say that I am making peace is to say that it is a mess.

I am a person with very low personal desires. My rent is 500 a month, and food and drinks are no more than 30. Apart from buying game models, I have almost no expenses. For this reason, I have a considerable savings, which is enough for me to spend a lot of money. for a long time.

Logically speaking, I shouldn't be anxious in this case, but I will always have a great obsession with "works".

I don’t know whether it’s lucky or unfortunate.

Relying on this obsession with my works, I believe that I still have a long working life. Also because of this obsession, I feel that my heart will be broken easily, and I may end up being a prostitute. .

Hi.

The work is the projection of the author. I admit here that I do have the same problem of overthinking as the characters I write.

I am the kind of person who takes one step and thinks of several subsequent steps. It is best if everything is under my control, but life is a game full of random events, and you cannot catch everything.

I always feel anxious thinking about this.

(The above words may not match the preface and the latter, and may even contradict themselves. Please forgive me. I just let myself go a little bit and talked nonsense.)

Then just talk about something that isn't anxiety-provoking.

After much thought, I adopted a little Siamese cat that digs coal.

I have a cat. I have thought about it since I was a child, and I really have a cat.

I don’t know if I have told readers that I have loved small things since I was a child.

When I was in elementary school, one day when I came home from school, a puppy ran out from under the bed. My dad said that no one else was keeping this puppy, so he gave it to him.

I was happy for 24 hours, but when I returned home, the dog was gone.

For a long time since then, every time I came home, I would look at the bottom of the bed expectantly, hoping that a dog would come out.

Of course, dogs will not be refreshed under the bed.

After many years, I finally got a kitten. I named it Qiaoqiao, also known as Sanbai, because Sanbai bought the cat. Later, I named it Qiansan because I was in the pet hospital. Charged a thousand yuan.

Friends have also given it many nicknames, such as Velvet and Mung Bean, but after several months of getting along with it, I don’t know whether this cat doesn’t like these names or simply doesn’t understand them. It seems to have no idea what it is. what is it call.

When I first got a cat, I was also very anxious. I was very worried about whether I would be able to take care of a little life. In the first week, I had the idea of ​​giving the kitten away several times, so that I would not have to take on the responsibility of taking care of this little life. Responsibility, and the anxiety it brings.

And then...then another week passed, and the cat grew a lot.

See, it’s not that difficult.

I get along very well with cats now. In proportion, this cat eats better than me. Moreover, Siamese is very kind and enthusiastic. It makes me feel a little bit shy.

Normally at home, I don't close the bedroom door. Because of this, I closed the door for the first time, hoping that I could have some private space.

I once doubted whether I had a cat or a person for the cat.

I saw a meme of Pokémon before. Pikachu was holding a bowl on the ground to eat, but Team Rocket's Meowth could eat it at the table, so I put the cat's food bowl on the coffee table and bought it for it. Instead of drinking from the water basin, he drank from my water cup, so I simply used the water cup as a water basin for him.

When it was time to publish this article, I finally had some other consumer goods, and bought a few boxes of cans for it. It meowed, as if it regarded me as its reborn parent.

It feels like I have found a Druid roommate, but this roommate cannot change back after turning into a cat.

Small animals are great. They are so cute and relieve me a lot of stress. Of course, they are really beasts when they are beasts.

Because I live on the first floor, I planted a bunch of cucumbers in the yard on the first floor. After several heavy rains, the cucumber seedlings have now climbed up the window, and the cucumbers produced are bigger than cats, and they are growing one after another. Can't finish it.

The previous generation Jojo was buried in the vegetable field. When I was burying it, I poured all its snacks into it. There might be some raw melon seeds, but after several fertilizations, it actually sprouted.

A sunflower over two meters high grew out of the vegetable field. What's even worse is that before it bloomed, I always thought it was the ultimate cucumber seedling.

In fact, if you think about it this way, life is pretty good.

I used to like Shui Group, but as my mental state deteriorated and I became more and more autistic, I cut off the Internet for a while. After several Shui Groups, I would be quoted out of context by group friends.

Let me make it clear here that no one will really believe the chat history!

I won’t go into the specific details. In short, with the cooperation and dissemination of my friends, my life experience can be described as a mess, and I just missed being published in the local newspaper.

Fortunately, the work was originally meant to amuse the readers, but now it directly bypasses the work to amuse the author.

You can do it, you can do it, but you have to pay.

Just kidding, that's probably the situation anyway. I'm trying my best to adjust my state and ensure the level I should have, so as to give this book a successful ending.

But before that, please take a few days off so that I can have a good rest and get some sleep.

Goodnight everybody.

Updates will resume on the 27th.