Defeated By Love

The light in the recording studio is not particularly bright. There are a few places with light behind him. His appearance is shadowy, not very real, but his eyes are bright. The faint yellow light woven into a thin net and gently shrouded it.

Xie Ruhe opened the ring box, resting his feet on the ground. Then slowly, he knelt down on one knee in front of her. He met Shunian's eyes and said it again.

"will you marry me?"

Shunen's eyes moved downward following his movements. Her throat was dry and she was a little speechless. It seems to have a collateral effect, as well as sore eyes and nose.

Perhaps it was a sudden idea, this proposal seemed simple and hasty.

In addition to a ring, there are two others.

Nothing else.

Xie Ruhe looked up at her, her neck pulled into a straight line, and her Adam's apple slid up and down. He has always been calm, calm and indifferent. At this moment, he can't help but show his emotions, his lips are tight and his jaw collapses stiff.

Shunen's brain seemed to be broken. She sat on a chair with her toes lightly touching the ground, nervously looking for something to support herself, and calmly giving him an answer.

I don't know why the situation has become like this.

She just wanted to come in to find a reason for him to take a break, but she got one inexplicably. What she was only willing to let him give was equivalent to the promise of being together forever.

I don’t know what the future holds.

I don't know if the next road is difficult.

He has taken her entire life into his arms, as an indispensable existence in his life. There is no need to worry, no need to hesitate.

As long as it is her.

Shunen pressed her lips vigorously and stretched out her hand, wanting to respond as usual. Her lips moved, but she couldn't control her trembling, with a nasal voice: "Okay, okay."

Hearing this answer, Xie Ruhe seemed to be relieved and his eyebrows drooped. He took off the ring, put it on her ring finger religiously, and slowly pushed it in.

Time seemed to slow down at this moment.

Occasionally, he felt unreliable, and seemed to settle down with this action.

Shunen’s eye sockets were red, thinking about what he had just taught himself, and whispered abruptly in French: "Oui"

Xie Ruhe was taken aback, still half kneeling on the ground, holding his chin and smiling. Afterwards, he lowered his head, dropped a kiss on her finger, and said softly: "Seal it."

The next second, Shunen called him: "Xie Ruhe."

Xie Ruhe raised his head upon hearing the sound: "Huh?"

"I used to, when I first met you. That is, when I talked to you and you ignored me." Shunen sniffed, "I didn't like you at the time."

Listening to her words, Xie Ruhe lifted his eyelids and remembered his attitude at the time. He opened his mouth, but this is what he really did, and he didn't know how to explain it.

"I feel." Shunen whispered, "As long as I apologize to you, there will be no intersection afterwards. That will definitely feel good. I don't have to look for you all the time and look at your face."

Xie Ruhe rubbed her hand with his fingers: "I won't be like that anymore."

"I was, I just suddenly remembered this idea at the time." Shunen also got off the chair and rubbed him in his arms like a cat, "It feels amazing."

Shunen at that time, I probably wouldn't expect it.

Ten years later, she will be together forever with the people she once hoped that there would be no intersection.

The gloomy and silent boy.

She also changed from bleak to the sun in her long life.

Before the end of the holiday, Xie Ruhe took Shunian to see Ji Xinghuai.

Seeing the parents, Shunian couldn't be as calm and steady as Xie Ruhe. Although she had a phone call with Ji Xing several years ago, her identity is different now.

The mood is also different.

Xie Ruhe prepared gifts for Shunian.

But Shunian always felt bad, so she dragged her to the shopping mall one day in advance, and finally bought a box of tea and some health products.

She also checked a lot of notes on seeing parents online.

I feel I'm ready, and I can't sleep in bed at night.

Shunian turned over and over for a while, and finally couldn't help but ran to Xie Ruhe's room, did not wake him up, just stumbled and counted beside him.

"One cow, two cows, three cows..."

Before the tenth cow was counted, Xie Ruhe opened his eyes and said dumbly: "Can't sleep?"

Shunen nodded: "I'm counting sheep."

Xie Ruhe thought that he had just woke up and his head was still not sober, and he hesitantly asked: "Aren't you talking about a cow?"

"Yes." Shunian said solemnly, "I used to suffer from insomnia, so I often count sheep, but it is of no use. Later, I switched to cows, which seemed to make it easier to fall asleep."

Xie Ruhe: "..."

Seeing that he no longer had the tendency to speak, Shunen withdrew his thoughts, recalled where he had just counted, and then continued to count with his mind: "Eight cows, nine cows, ten..."

The next second, Xie Ruhe stretched out his hand to embrace her waist and pulled her into his arms.

Shunianben is lying down. Because of his behavior, her posture changed a little, and she leaned against him in his arms. His chin was against the top of her hair, and there was a light sleepiness in his voice: "You count yours."

Hearing this, Shunian looked back.

Xie Ruhe closed his eyes and said, "Normal it."

"..."

"You come to sleep, I have to hold you."

I don't know if Xie Ruhe's embrace brought the strength, or Shunen's strategy of counting the "bulls" played a role. It didn't take long for her to feel sleepy for half a night.

Shunian fell asleep as soon as he closed his eyes.

It was dawn when I woke up.

Shunian didn't use the bed and got up immediately to wash.

After being fed breakfast by Xie Ruhe, she went back to the room and changed to a plain, warm-toned skirt just over her knees according to the advice given on the Internet. Then he spent a long time in front of the dressing table, reluctantly applying makeup.

Xie Ruhe didn't urge her, but waited in the living room.

After a while, Shunen came out of the room.

Xie Ruhe sat on the sofa with a computer in front of him, still working.

Shunen walked over and said, "Are you gone?"

Hearing her voice, Xie Ruhe immediately closed the computer, responded in a low voice, then raised his eyes. He suddenly noticed the appearance of Shunen, his eyes fixed.

Shunen was staring at him inexplicably and asked, "What's the matter?"

Xie Ruhe whispered: "Come here."

She paused on the spot hesitantly, and then walked over obediently.

As soon as he walked half a meter away from him, Xie Ruhe grabbed her wrist and carried her into his arms. His eyes were dark, with an unknown emotion: "Very beautiful."

Shunen hasn't reacted yet.

His kiss had already fallen, with an unclear sentence in it.

"Let me kiss."

Ji Xinghuai lived not far from Xie Ruhe's home, and it took about half an hour to drive there.

Along the way, Xie Ruhe drove the car, Shunian sat in the passenger seat, like a student holding Buddha's feet before the exam, and continued to turn his mobile phone and watched the parents' precautions.

Xie Ruhe occasionally looked in her direction and couldn't help but curl his lips.

After a long time.

Shunen raised his eyes and looked out the car window.

The scenery outside quickly moved backwards, and the field of vision became blurred. The sky is clear, no thick clouds can be seen, the sun is falling downward, shining on the water, and unknown birds fly by.

There is still music in the car, a song by Xie Ruhe.

Shunen's mood suddenly calmed down a lot, and he put the phone back in his pocket.

Yu Guang noticed her movement, Xie Ruhe asked: "Don't watch it?"

"I'm finished." Shunen seemed to be hypnotizing herself, her voice was very soft, and her speaking rate was very slow. He spit out word by word, "I will behave well, don't worry."

Xie Ruhe couldn't help laughing: "Why are you so nervous?"

Shunian said honestly: "I'm afraid your grandpa will not like me."

Xie Ruhe said: "No."

Shunian muttered, "How do you know."

"Before you came to the house to record songs." Xie Ruhe said, "I told Fang Wencheng to find another music producer. But he listened to my grandpa and brought you home."

Shunen was at a loss: "Why?"

"He hopes." Xie Ruhe said calmly, "you can see me more."

"what?"

"So I won't dislike you."

Shunian looked at him indifferently.

Before long, the car also drove to where Ji Xing lived.

It is a rich mansion area in Ruchuan City.

Like a scene filmed in a TV series, Shunian was a bit at a loss when he got out of the car, so he immediately moved in and held Xie Ruhe's hand, very dependent.

Xie Ruhe took out the gift bag from the back seat of the car and said softly, "Don't be nervous."

Shunen couldn't help asking, "What if I don't behave well..."

Before she said anything, the villa in front of her suddenly opened the door, and a middle-aged man walked out. Seeing the two of them, he beckoned and smiled: "coming?"

Xie Ruhe nodded at him and shouted: "Second Uncle."

Shunian sweated his palms nervously, and subconsciously shouted, "Second Uncle."

The man looked at Shunian and smiled: "Is it Niannian?"

Shunen nodded quickly: "That's right."

"come on in."

The decoration of the house is partial to Chinese style, the space is large, but it is not luxurious, it looks very big, with the smell of books. At this time, there were no people in the living room, except for an aunt, only Ji Xinghuai sitting on the sofa.

Xie Ruhe's second uncle shouted to Ji Xinghuai: "Dad, people are here."

The old man is nearly 70 years old, his hair is gray, his eyes are energetic, and he looks healthy. He looked over and looked kind, and beckoned to Shunian kindly: "Girl."

Shunen licked his lips, released Xie Ruhe's hand, and walked over.

"Hello, Grandpa Ji."

"We've seen it before, do you remember?" Ji Xinghuai's face was covered with traces of time, and his voice was calm and steady after precipitation, "In Shiyan Town."

"I remember." Shunen nodded immediately, "You helped me a lot later, and I haven't been able to thank you in person."

Xie Ruhe stood aside, did not speak, and did not take the initiative to call someone.

Ji Xinghuai also treated him as if he did not exist.

"Thank you. Sit down." Noting the gift bag in Xie Ruhe's hand, Ji Xinghuai said again, "If you come next time, just come here and you don't need to bring anything."

Shunian obediently said: "Okay."

In the spacious living room, four people were seated on mahogany chairs.

Ji Xinghuai sat in the main seat, and Xie Ruhe's second uncle sat on the other side of him. Shunian and Xie Ruhe sat side by side.

Ji Xinghuai was mostly talking, asking about Shunen's situation, but he was not tricky, just some very common household words. Ask her about her job, how her parents are, and what she is doing recently.

Occasionally Xie Ruhe's second uncle would also say a few words.

Xie Ruhe remained silent throughout.

I don't know how long it took, the topic suddenly came to Xie Ruhe's mother Ji Xiangning.

"You should have seen Ahe's mother when you were still in Shiyan Town?" Ji Xinghuai took a sip of tea. When he said this, his whole person was a lot older in an instant. good relationship."

Shunian said, "I have seen it, my aunt is very nice."

"I also heard the news recently that that kid Xie Ji has passed away." Ji Xinghuai's eyebrows were a little more angry, "If it weren't for him! How could my daughter..."

The second uncle picked up the teapot, added some tea to Ji Xinghuai, and reminded: "Dad, don't talk about this."

Shunian didn't know what to say, and glanced in the direction of Xie Ruhe.

He lowered his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.

Realizing that it was not good to say these things in front of Shunen, Ji Xinghuai calmed down and sighed: "Girl, thanks to you, I can catch that beast."

Xie Ruhe finally opened his mouth, frowning and shouting: "Grandpa."

"You let me finish talking." Ji Xinghuai said, "Girl, my grandson has been angry with me before because I didn't tell him about you. At that time, I was afraid of irritating him. After a long time, I said no. It's exported."

Shunian knew about this for a long time, and shook his head: "It's okay."

"I did not do this thing right." Ji Xinghuai took Shunen's hand and gently patted the back of her hand, "I am old and think too much."

"..."

"I care too much." Ji Xinghuai's old eyes flushed, "always doing something wrong. If it weren't for me to stop Aning in every way, she ran to that small place..."

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe's second uncle turned his head, and his mood obviously got worse.

"She is in front of me, and I can watch and help a little bit, and I won't let her live like that." Ji Xinghuai said, "That will definitely not happen."

"Grandpa." Xie Ruhe said suddenly, "it's not your fault."

"..."

"If you think this way, then everyone is wrong. My mother never blamed you, only feels self-blame, and hasn't seen you back for so many years. I will only regret that I didn't listen to you."

"..."

"When she had the hardest time, her first thought was to go back to you. She would often ask me whether you should let you pick me up and take me to a better life."

"You are her support. She will always appreciate you, respect you, and love you."

"This is what she once told me."

After dinner at Ji's house.

After that, the two chatted with Ji Xinghuai for a while. Xie Ruhe didn't regain Ji Xinghuai's anger, and his attitude toward him changed back to the way it was before. Nearly eight o'clock, the two left Ji's house.

Shunen's belly is still a bit supportive.

Xie Ruhe was afraid that she would get motion sickness, so he simply parked the car here, planning to go some distance first, and then stop the car home. His mood is not bad, and he doesn't seem to be affected by Ji Xinghuai's words.

Shunen glanced at him secretly, and asked cautiously, "Do you still think of your father now?"

"It's rare." Xie Ruhe said casually, "My grandpa never came back."

"Oh."

"My dad was not like that before." Xie Ruhe recalled, "but I can't remember what he was like before, I can only think of him as drunk."

In a person's life, there are always several people who cannot be forgiven.

When I remembered, the hatred was still there, but I didn't want to waste my energy on him.

Shunian whispered to help Xie Ruhe: "It's not good anyway."

Xie Ruhe laughed and said: "But now, I will often think of my mother."

"Huh?" Shunen blinked and suddenly said, "Let's go see your mother tomorrow."

"Great."

"..."

"What about the day after tomorrow?"

"The day after tomorrow..." Shunian said, "Go to see my father?"

"Great."

Xie Ruhe asked again: "The day after tomorrow."

Shunen wondered: "The day after tomorrow? Do you have any places you want to go?"

"Yeah." Xie Ruhe paused, "Civil Affairs Bureau."

"..."

"..."

They walked under the bright street lamps, the shadows being stretched very long. At the intersection, two people, one tall and one short, held their palms together, so close that others could no longer shake them.

After a long time, Shunian spoke up.

"Okay."

Spring starts next year.

Since that Weibo last summer, Ahe Weibo, which became a zombie account again, finally posted another Weibo after the release of the new album——

Ahe: Lost to you. @书念

This album is the first time since three years, Ahe, who has been hiding behind the scenes, concentrated on creating, once again released an album that is completely his own.

From composing, arranging, writing lyrics, singing, to recording, mixing and post-production, he does it all by himself. It is an album that fans have been waiting for for a long time and belongs to Ahe.

His voice has not changed much from a few years ago.

The feeling for fans has become moist and bright.

The title of the album is "Lost to Like".

It's an album that talks about love to someone from the name of the album, to the name of the single, to every lyrics, every tune. Tell her all your thoughts.

From the first love to the eternal love.

All, tell her without reservation.

When he was young, he liked a girl.

That girl, who is upright, doesn't understand the world, always offends people because of some words. The heart is kind, and you don’t see others doing bad things. He was the only one who entered his world during those dark and obscure days.

He likes her so much.

Later, they separated.

Xie Ruhe thought that his likes could only be buried in his heart for a lifetime. He had thought that in the days to come, although he would never like anyone again, he might let time dilute such feelings.

But unexpectedly there was a moment of reunion.

It was a reunion after so many years.

It wasn't until the moment I saw her again that Xie Ruhe didn't start to feel surprised.

After so many years, he met so many people of all kinds, and never met someone better than her.

Like when I was young, hot and rich, once it burns, it can never be extinguished.

I thought I would be alone in this life, spending the rest of my life alone, without entering other people's lives, nor letting anyone step into his world.

Can finally.

It was lost to likes.

I lost to you.

At the end of last year, Shunian dubbed a character in the recent fire, and gradually became famous.

Two days after Xie Ruhe posted the Weibo, Shunian went to the gymnasium in the next city to participate in a live show of voice actors in order to promote the game.

The people involved are all voice actors of that game character.

Xie Ruhe accompanied her and sat in the VIP seat in the front row.

Shunen had never tried dubbing under the eyes of so many people, sweating his palms nervously, and then gradually entered the state, and successfully completed the live show.

After stepping down, some of her fans ran to her with paper and pen.

It is two little girls.

One of the eyes flashed brightly, and he said excitedly: "Goddess Goddess! Can you sign me! I like you so much!"

Shunian pursed her lips and smiled: "Okay."

After signing the name, hand the book to them both. Before saying goodbye to her, another girl suddenly said: "You are so amazing, I will be like you in the future."

Hearing this, Shunen's expression was stunned.

There are some unknown emotions in my heart fermenting, and then rising, almost overflowing.

In the past, she was sensitive to inferiority complex to self-rejection. She didn't even have the courage to go out and face the eyes of others. She felt that "death" was liberation and the only choice to start again.

But now, some people are also talking about it.

——Want to be like her.

Shunian raised his eyes suddenly and looked in Xie Ruhe's direction.

He still stayed in the original place, but he had already stood up, his eyes were on his body, his temperament was soft and restrained. In her eyes, there was a light that could not be ignored.

Next second.

Shunen suddenly ran in his direction and threw forcefully into his arms.

Because of the impact, Xie Ruhe took two steps back subconsciously, and then hugged her back.

They are holding the sun in their lives.

"When you are in the bottom of the valley, entangled by thorny vines, you shout with all your strength, but no one saves you. There are thorns around you, you can't escape, you can't escape, and you spend a long time in despair."

"Occasionally when you look up and the world you see is full of darkness, have you ever thought about—"

"One day, you can see the sky again."

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