Death... and me

Roan was taken aback for a moment and immediately asked Sister Orb. 'Shouldn't the system get rid of anything that affects my soul? Kafan said he could unlock my sealed memories. How come the system didn't get rid of it until now?'

[The system only protects you against harmful things to your soul,] Sister Orb answered. [If someone tried to seal your memories at the moment, the system would definitely consider it as a harmful event and stop it from happening. However, the memories from before you became part of the system are not the system's problem. You could say the system took a picture of how your soul looked when it first took you in and then ensured it stayed that way. Even I didn't know you had a seal in your memories until this point.]

Roan mentally nodded, knowing that the system wasn't exactly thoughtful about such things. 

Rean, having heard everything, obviously asked. 'What will you do? Do you want to remember what or who you were before you became a Death Spirit?'

'Why do you ask?' Roan asked back.

Rean shrugged his shoulders. 'I'm very curious to know how you were before and would very much like to know. However, considering your personality, it simply doesn't seem like something you would care about. I can already picture you saying: whatever happened happened. It matters no more now... or something like that.'

Roan didn't deny that. If he couldn't remember and it made no difference to his state at the moment, then it truly held little importance in his mind. If anything, unlocking memories of the past might change who Roan is right now. 

In the end, he simply looked at Kafan and shook his head. "Forget it. I have too much on my plate right now to deal with. If I awaken some unknown new memories, not only will I have to organize my thoughts, but it might change who I am, and I'm very happy with my actual self for now."

Kafan's expression relaxed before he gave a nod of approval. "As expected, you always take the most optimal path. Very well, I will not awaken those memories." Right after, Kafan took a black crystal that contained a trace of his soul power inside and some Death Energy. he threw the crystal at Roan right after. "If you one day change your mind, just inject some Divine Energy into this crystal. It will react with the seal in your memories, unlocking everything inside. You can keep it, throw it away, or simply forget it exists. That's your choice."

Roan looked at that crystal and had the urge to break it right there and then. However, he held himself back and ultimately stared it inside the Soul Gem Dimensional Realm. Perhaps one day, when everything is over, he might want to know more about his past, so there was no harm in waiting until that time.

Kafan nodded and put this matter aside. "Very well. Let's continue, then. Your full soul fused and took the place of 50% of the first soul while taking control over the other 50% of Death Energy. That's how you became a Death Spirit Copy. Naturally, you were not a Real Death Spirit, so the ways of the Universe didn't work very well for you."

"What do you mean?" Roan got confused.

Kafan pointed in Roan's Dantian direction. "For a start, Death Spirit Copies can't cultivate. Or perhaps they can, but since cultivation energies didn't exist anymore, they didn't have such a chance. Who knows, if this side of the Universe regains its cultivation energies, perhaps the Death Spirit Copies will evolve to gain a cultivation method. Or perhaps not, I can't be sure."

Roan understood. "The same way the races alive on this side evolved to live without cultivation, so can they evolve to cultivate again once cultivation energies return. Death Spirit Copies might do the same."

"Exactly," Kafan nodded. "The life forms of the Universe are really amazing. They can always adapt, grow, and evolve according to the environment. It is truly a marvel of chaos. Well, it is a good thing, in my opinion."

"Continuing, after we succeded in creating our first Death Spirit Copy, we immediately tried to get it to cultivate," Kafan explained. "Too bad that we soon found out it was impossible. Such Death Spirits didn't have that ability, as I mentioned to you a moment ago. However, these Death Spirits had something that we, real death spirits, didn't."

Roan knew what it was. "Strength from the very start, right?"

Kafan was surprised Roan noticed it. "Yes! That's exactly what we noticed. Every single one of these Death Spirit Copies had a huge strength compared to any real new Death Spirit. A Real Death Spirit would start its cultivation from zero, just like any other race. Energy Gathering, Foundation Establishment, Core Formation, Core and Soul Fusion, etc, etc, etc..."

"Yet, every single Death Spirit was able to control enough Death Energy to be compared to at least a Nascent Soul Realm Death Spirit from the very start, with some being good enough to reach the Elemental Transformation Level of power. Of course, the huge majority was truly just at the Nascent Soul Level. Those who could perform above this level were few and far between."

Roan nodded. "I've never cultivated when I was a Death Spirit Copy. Yet, comparing the memories of my ability during that time and the cultivation world on the other side, I'm pretty sure I was quite strong. I was already like that since I first awakened as a Death Spirit Copy."

"Indeed," Kafan knew that. "You were obviously one of the Death Spirits who was born with an Elemental Transformation Realm level of strength. Of course, like I said, you weren't really at the Elemental Transformation Realm. In fact, you didn't have any cultivation at all. That was simply your raw power."

Kafan felt quite proud. "I trained countless Death Spirit Copies, yet you were truly a special case. Your abilities were so good that if you were a cultivator, you would be the type who could jump an entire realm to fight. The more I trained you, the more I liked you and your personality. In the end, I got a little too attached and decided to find a way for you to cultivate, which ultimately ended with us having this conversation now."

"Yes, yes, yes, whatever." Roan wasn't really the emotional type to join this kind of discussion. "Just continue the story."