Dangerous girls put me in danger

Chapter 43.34 Saints and Fanatics

The knife has penetrated my throat, I can't breathe...it's blocked...

It's not just this level.

To put it bluntly, it feels like my life is about to drop.

The line of sight looks downward and becomes narrow.

The body sinks unconsciously, and I feel like my consciousness is fading away...

I feel like I don’t know where to return to.

Ah, this is what it feels like to die...

Lord Bishop, I am returning to the Lord. Please accept me and accept your children...

"You came into this world with God's favor, Holy."

However, I have never felt that there is anything different between myself and other people. Apart from being able to shine, which is a bit like a firefly, there is probably nothing special about me...

When I was in the orphanage, I didn't have a name, and no one thought I was strange. I worked with the others, working all day long, and then curled up under the quilt.

-A person is in bed, condensing light in the palm of his hand.

Then inside the quilt, the whole world was illuminated.

Looking at this light, I thought about dawn or something, it would be nice if it never came

In this case, only I can shine in the world, which is a very arrogant idea.

Then I was taken away from the orphanage not long after, and the person who took me away was the bishop who gave me the name "Saint".

But no one calls me by my name except the Bishop.

The priests around me called me the Holy Lady, and they knelt down in front of me with reverence, saying that I had great abilities and that I was chosen by God.

-At first I didn’t understand what they were saying at all, nor why they did what they did, but the nuns who took care of me would explain it to me patiently, then praise me and look at me with admiring eyes.

Ah, it turns out that my abilities were given by the gods. I can't help but start to think so.

God gave me this ability, it must be to make the world a better place.

To make this world a cleaner place,

I saw the cardinals taking the nuns to the chapel, forcibly taking off their clothes, and roaring like beasts.

Dirty things need to be cleaned up, right?

Filthy.

SF.

SF light novel

So, I shined.

Look, everything can be purified.

However, this time the nuns did not praise me, but looked at me in horror.

I was a little at a loss and felt that I had done something wrong, but I just followed their instructions and the dirty things had to be purified...

The bishop came to me and couldn't help but ask him.

".--Did you do something wrong?"

The bishop smiled and touched my head and said.

...It's not you who's wrong, it's the world itself that's full of filth, and human beings themselves...

--You are not guilty.

That was the last time I saw the Bishop.

After that, I was taken to a monastery surrounded by flower fields, where I lived alone.

Only during meal time would the nuns come to bring me meals and a change of clothes. The rest of the time, I was the only one here. There were many books about gods, and I spent most of my time reading these books.

I feel like I’ve become more religious.

As time goes by, I can understand things that I didn't understand when I was a child.

Occasionally, a pastor will come and tell me where there is dirt and it needs my strength to purify it.

The Bishop said I was not guilty.

I did nothing wrong. I was purifying the filth in this world for the Lord.

I've always thought so.

"Do you really think so?"

Until one day I was asked this question. = =

The person who asked me was someone who appeared in the monastery at some unknown time.

I call her Shadow.

Because her whole body is black, like a shadow, from the outline point of view, she is a girl about the same age as me.

She appeared suddenly. Before that, I was the only one in the monastery.

Her whole body was pitch black, but other than that, she was no different from ordinary people. She could talk, see, be touched, and need to eat.

So after Xiaoying appeared, there was one more cleaning job in my life.

The weird thing is, I don't think she's filthy, CExit

Although there are traces everywhere, like a puppy urinating everywhere, it feels dirty... but it doesn't make you feel disgusted.

My light can't remove her or the traces she left behind.

She was not in the monastery all the time. It should be said that she was not in the monastery most of the time.

He only occasionally comes to stay in the monastery for a few days like a tourist and talks to me about outside things.

That day, Xiaoying appeared in the garden outside the monastery, and a butterfly flew into her palm.

I ran to her happily when I saw her, because the last time she came was three months ago.

Xiaoying put her hands together to wrap the butterfly and asked me.

"Sage, how far can you go before you start?"

...Huh? Start?"

Xiao Ying smiled. Although she couldn't see her expression because her whole body was dark, I think she should be smiling.

"Yes, just kill."

".Lose....

'Human beings can easily kill bugs, such as cockroaches, mosquitoes, flies, etc., so there is a saying that kills fish with hands, and then it is difficult to kill them if they are replaced by frogs, and if they are replaced by birds, Replace it with...everyone has it, the 'unable to start' thing

.....

Kill?

“Among them, the most difficult one is probably ‘human’.”

“Of course, murder is a grave sin that will not be forgiven.

"Then, Saint, how far can you go?"

"Eh? Me?

"Aren't those priests here to give you some killing jobs?"

“That is judgment for sinners.

"It's just another way of saying it. In fact, it's killing people. Or do you have no idea about it at all?

Xiaoying's words were like a wake-up call to me, a naive person who had never thought about this issue.

From then on I started to feel a strong sense of self-blame.

Net...actually killing people.

No, that is not murder, those sinners should have...

But the essence is to kill. SF light novel

Once you start to hate yourself, you won't give yourself any chance to forgive yourself.

Then it was as if all his crimes were simply added together.

I began to refuse to accept the missions of those priests. I no longer wanted to kill anyone in the name of purification.

I locked myself in the confessional every day and confessed.

But no one can understand me.

I'm so lonely.

"Let me out

Through the gap in the window, I suddenly found someone in the garden.

Young men and women, fused together.

Filth, filth. filthy;.

Just like the beast-like cardinal I saw when I was little, squirming on top of the nuns.

....They all look so happy.

Yes, those nuns I saw when I was young...the expressions on their faces were not expressions of fear, but smiles of joy.

I really want to be fast too...ah...no

No!

That's filth!

Finally, the limit was reached.

When I came back to my senses, the monastery was gone, the garden was gone, everything was gone.

Xiaoying appeared in front of me and reached out to me.

"Holy, your light is really 'gentle'.

...Why?

"Because those who are illuminated by your light will die without any pain, right?"

Those words were just like what the bishop said to me back then, and they brought me salvation.

that's all- -

In the harsh criticism, I developed a rebellious mentality, and my limit suddenly came.

It made me determined.

This realization made me burst into tears, and I couldn't help but clasping my hands in prayer.

I want to cleanse the whole world. The mouth is light

I believe that my faith in God has become stronger. Quanxiao "now

"it hurts...

Didn't die.

I remembered Xiaoying’s words.

--The most painful thing is not death, but not being able to die when you want to.

Ah, that's indeed the case.

Why do I have to suffer like this?