Cynthia’s Cat

When Amanda's body stiffened, she suddenly felt that her child was very strange. She seldom cared about Booth since he was born, and didn't know when Booth had grown up.

Amanda has never seen her child directly. She even hates Booth. She doesn't know who Booth's father is. She may be an alcoholic, a gambler, a drug dealer, or a tramp. Because the people who take care of her business are the people at the bottom of the society.

In order to survive, she sells her body and earns a meager income. Because she is poisonous and addicted, she will buy "medicine" after a short period of time, otherwise the body will be very painful. In fact, she has also tried to quit. , But did not persist.

Amanda hates herself very much, but she still lives desperately, using her own methods, she is not a good mother, and she can't be a good mother if she is selfish.

When Amanda knew that she was pregnant with Booth, she thought about killing Booth, but she didn't have the money to pay for the surgery, so she couldn't perform the operation. A few months later, she fell under Booth.

Looking at the baby in her arms, Amanda even thought of strangling him to death in her arms. Later, she still did not bear the heart. She did a lot of wrong things in her life, and the only good thing she did might be not to kill Booth. He survived.

Amanda knows that she is not qualified to be a mother. Because of the drug-addiction relationship, Amanda is often very irritable. She will have hallucinations from time to time. When hallucinations occur, she becomes very impatient and often beats and scolds Booth.

After Amanda was sober, she saw the wounded Booth, her eyes showed a trace of distress, and she was soon hidden. Amanda kept hinting that she should not be soft-hearted, and Booth should have appeared in the world.

Every time she had hallucinations, she couldn't control her body, and only wanted to vent her mind. Many times little Booth was beaten into a coma by her.

She has fallen into a strange circle. As long as Amanda thinks that Booth might retaliate against her when he grows up, the intensity of the beating and scolding will become even more cruel, completely disregarding Little Booth's life and death, just want to vent her heart. The resentment of this world.

Amanda knew that she was not qualified to be a mother. Amanda was silent for a long time. Amanda knew that she was not qualified to be a mother. When Booth said that she wanted to kill her, the day finally came, but it was earlier than expected.

Amanda closed her eyes in resignation. She has never had the courage to commit suicide. If someone can kill her, "Booz, don't you want to kill me? Do it!"

Booth looked at Amanda suspiciously, what is this woman doing?

The smile on Booth’s face disappeared and he looked at Amanda indifferently.

Amanda's vision gradually blurred, and she wanted to continue to curse Booth, her body fell to the ground without strength.

The last scene she saw was that the condescending Booth squatted down slightly, his mouth closed and he didn't know what he was talking about.

Booth stared coldly at Amanda, who had fainted, "Mom, you hate me so much that you even want me to die. When I was a kid, I tried every means to please you, but you still hated me, and I even began to wonder if I was my mother. My child. It’s ridiculous that I am really your child. When I was a child, I didn’t hate your status as a prostitute. I even felt sorry for you who worked so hard to make money. But why do you hate me so much. Why?"