Conan: I Am Not a Snake Spirit

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Outside the room, Chi Feichi waited for a long time, found that there was no movement in the room, turned to the door to check the situation, and saw Huiyuan Ai sitting by the bed, looking down at Bao in a daze, "Xiao Ai?"

Haibara mourned and raised his head subconsciously.

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The same is true when the godmother left last time.

And this time we have been together for a longer time, the feeling is even stronger...

Chi Feichi observed Hui Yuanai's aggrieved face, and was silent for a while, "You miss your mother?"

It was only then that Hai Yuanai realized that he might have forgotten to manage his expressions, and he didn't want to admit that he actually 'missed his mother', but thinking about Chi Feichi in front of him, he mumbled an 'um'.

Brother Feichi should understand her...

The next second, Hui Yuanai glanced at the phone that Chi Feichi took out, and asked speechlessly, "What are you doing?"

Chi Feichi watched Hui Yuanai return to her usual expression on the phone, and regretfully put away the phone, "Your expression just now is rare, it's a pity."

He actually pressed the camera button a little slower, all because he helped Huiyuan Ai with the schoolbag, which affected his performance and failed to take a picture for collection.

Hai Yuanai was speechless for a moment, lowered his head and zipped up the bag with the clothes, got up and carried it on his back, looking at Chi Feichi with a dark face, "Let's go."

Thankfully, she still thought that Brother Feichi should understand her feelings, they could hug together to keep warm, but she never thought that Brother Feichi thought of taking pictures of her in such a humiliating way...

There is no worse brother than this!

Chi Feichi turned around and led the way out, without any guilt to spoil the atmosphere at all, and still regretted not being able to take that photo.

So pitiful version of Hai Yuanai's photo, if I miss this time, my little sister is prepared, maybe there will be no next chance...

It feels wrong.

All the way to the parking lot, Hai Yuanai put her bag in the back seat, got into the car, and watched Chi Feichi get into the driver's seat, "Do you think this is teaching experience?"

On the way down the elevator, she thought about why.

Before meeting Chi Jianai, she didn't realize that she could miss someone so much, and she was lost as soon as the other party left.

Her sister is probably because she gathers less and leaves more, and occasionally gets together just to share life in a hurry, or it may be that she has always left the one.

As a male, Dr. A Li is sometimes not as delicate as Ike Kana, and she has been there all the time. She has never experienced Dr. A Li's sudden departure and unknown return date, so she has not thought about Dr. A Li.

Brother Feichi... At the beginning, she had missed Dr. A Li's place, and when she called the place she had been renting to her sister, but with the contact, she found that Brother Feichi was often active in By my side, if I want to meet today, I can make an appointment to meet by sending a message, and I live not far away, so I won't miss it too much if we separate.

From this point of view, Chi Kana feels depressed every time she leaves her, for two reasons.

First, at the godmother, she felt wholehearted care and concern, even if it was only a short-term loss, it was uncomfortable and disappointing, and her godmother seemed to have a kind of magic, no matter where she was, she could radiate warmth, not fiery enthusiasm, but Being able to conquer a person's heart without knowing it, and being loved by such a person makes my heart warm every day, that person suddenly leaves, and the temperature of the air drops is equally confusing.

The second reason is that in 'gathering and separation', she does not have any sovereignty.

Whether she used to be with her sister, or now with the doctor and brother Feichi, she has the right to choose, and Chi Jianai will fly from city to city, the distance between each other is too far and uncertain, and Chi Jianai still has something to do , is also full of uncertainty in time.

She doesn't have any sovereignty, so she is destined to be the one who misses more.

So, does Brother Feichi really understand her mood?

No, in this matter, Fei Chi should feel more deeply than her.

She should be the one who can only feel a part of it but not all of it.

She heard from her godmother that before the age of five, brother Fei and his parents had been living together. That was five years. Even if there was no memory of the baby two years earlier, it would have been at least two or three years. The godmother has been together many times this week, so after the godmother leaves, the kind of missing should also double, double and double.

Her real age is eighteen years old, not a child anymore. She has seen a lot of things and experienced a lot in the organization over the years, and she is open to meeting and parting, and that year's brother Fei Chi is also a five-year-old child. .

When my parents leave, I face the home where my parents seem to be everywhere and the air is cold, and I wait passively. That kind of missing... No, that should be pain, and that kind of pain is stronger. many times.

In addition, after being disturbed by Chi Feichi, she walked out of her low mood, and it seemed that she was not so uncomfortable when she thought about it. Brother Feichi back then, no one seemed to help him get out of this mood.

Thinking of this, she was so bored that she was about to suffocate. There were many questions she wanted to ask, but it seemed that she didn't need to ask anymore. She could think of the answer.

for example……

When I was thinking about it back then, when I realized that I didn't have any sovereignty, were you afraid? Have you ever felt uneasy?

There must be, she's okay, she has an eighteen-year-old mind, she knows more, and if you want to be more self-willed, she can ask Dr. Li to fly over, or hire someone to take her on a plane to find her godmother.

That's right, she knew that it was a plane trip, and knew a lot of ways to deal with it. She didn't lose her sovereignty completely, but as a five-year-old child, there are more unknowns in the outside world. Not only is the body unable to resist some dangers, but Even the understanding of the world and the way to deal with things are still in an absolutely weak position.

Brother Fei Chi had less choice than her back then. She was absolutely helpless and frustrated, followed by fear and anxiety.

Desperate?

There should be, long-term expectations are not met, long-term fear and anxiety are not appeased, if even prayers and petitions are fruitless, it must be desperate.

Have you resisted?

Even if a five-year-old child can't tell the injustice, once he can't ask for it, he will definitely notice it. If he realizes that he is so weak that he has no right to choose at all, he will resist.

Even the means of resistance, she can guess one or two, for a five-year-old child, it is probably crying, making mistakes, and responding in the most clumsy and irrational way.

Hate it?

There must be.

Losing is painful, and if tenderness or security exacerbates that pain, tenderness and security will be hated, along with the mother who once gave tenderness and the father who once gave security. .

In fact, there are other questions she doesn't know the answer to.

What happens after the resistance is ineffective?

now what? Can you let go now?

She dared not ask.

She was worried that her previous emotions had become a festering wound. In the loss of control, she would contaminate other parts of her heart. After opening it, she saw a devastated body that she could not bear.

Although Jack the Ripper in Cocoon is a game character, he is excellent in terms of setting and intelligence.

Such a villain actually regarded Brother Fei Chi, who had known each other for a short time, as a friend, and after that, he once played a broken plot like "kill Professor Moriarty".

She didn't think much about it before, she thought that Brother Feichi was easy to warm others, or that Hiroshi Sawada was on his deathbed, guessing that Brother Feichi, a game fan, would definitely participate in the cocoon game experience, and set it up for Brother Feichi in advance. 'Absolutely charming' Buff.

Thinking about it now, maybe it's because after Jack the Ripper and brother Feichi talked about certain aspects, Jack regarded brother Feichi as a friend who could understand him, or even another self.

In the London stage setting of the game, Jack kills his mother who abandoned him, and other victims are also selected as targets based on Jack's resentment towards his mother.

So, what about Brother Feichi?

If he wasn't so resentful that he wanted to kill someone, he probably wouldn't be able to understand Jack. If he didn't really understand, then an executioner like Jack wouldn't be so easily deceived.

...to think deeply.

She didn't want to think so, but if it was the same as what she thought, it would be better to tone down the resentment first, and then open up the treatment.

And not everyone is suitable for severing wounds and removing pus. Brother Fei Chi's medical records are still kept at Qingshan Fourth Hospital.

Besides, if Brother Fei is unwilling to disclose it, she will not have no chance...

...

Chi Feichi closed the car door, turned around and saw Huiyuan staring at him with a complicated look, feeling inexplicable, "What?"

Haiyuan grieved back to God, and said in a relaxed and leisurely tone, "Facing my mother's departure, how to quickly adjust my mood is the experience of using other things to divert attention and quickly get out of that emotion?"

Chi Fei sent the car late and backed out of the parking space, "You can try."

Is this an admission?

Hui Yuanai looked at Chi Feichi's calm profile, looked away, watched the car drive out of the parking lot, and decided to talk to Chi Feichi, "Brother Feichi, did I say it? My parents are here I died when I was very young. I saw on TV shows that children cried because they missed their parents. I thought about them, at least they still have parents, at least they still care about them. They are not much luckier than me. Now? I probably know the mood of those children..."

Chi Feichi suspects that his little sister is extremely depressed today. He knows all this. In the previous life, his parents left early, and he did not understand the mood of those children, but this life has the memory of the original consciousness, and he can understand it. I feel it is necessary to talk about it, "There is a saying in China, 'When parents are there, life still has a place to come from; when parents go, life is only the way back'. Missing a part, more loneliness, not enough confidence. And the American poet Emily Dickinson said, 'I could have endured the darkness, if I had not seen the light, but now the sun shines on my loneliness even more Desolate', sometimes, having and losing is no easier than not having..."

Haibara Ai:"……"

this……

She actually wanted to express to Brother Feichi - there are still many people who envy people who have parents~www.NovelMTL.com~ So it's not that bad, everyone is envious of each other.

But Brother Fei Chi actually seemed to know better than her.

And these two sentences are too good, she likes it very much...

Chi Feichi continued, "The two feelings are not hypocritical, only those who are in them can clearly understand the pain, and at the same time yearn for another life, but the beauty of the other life is completely imaginary. , the pain is ignored."

Haibara Ai:"……"

Yes, it makes sense, and it makes people think.

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