Childhood Friend Who Sees the Future Utters Nonsense

66 – The first day I regretted breaking up

I look up at Park Si-yoon’s face in her arms.

As he twists her body around, repeatedly applying force to her left arm and then to her right arm, the facial expression that changes from moment to moment is very interesting. She can clearly see that Park Si-yoon is trying to silence the rising corners of her mouth.

If it were me two days ago, when she saw Park Si-yoon like that, she would have said, ‘Pervert.’ At this moment, I feel proud that she is happy with my presence, which makes me smile.

No, now that I think about it, metaphors like ‘If it were me two days ago’ are meaningless. If it were me back then, she wouldn’t have done something like this, even if it was just cringy.

The hug between us was at best like a special move that the other would use to comfort the other when something depressed happened.

It means that we have never hugged each other for the same trivial reasons, just to feel the warmth of the other person, to hear the other person’s heartbeat, and to see her face a little closer.

Is that why?

In fact, when I look back, hugging is not a very new activity between us, but at this moment, it feels new and mysterious.

Even though the purpose has changed to something more trivial.

“Park Si-yoon.”

“Huh?”

“Can I ask one question?”

“Yes.”

Even when we found out that we liked each other, the names and answers exchanged between us still remained the same.

Still, if the voice feels a little warmer and kinder than usual, does it mean that there is a pod in your ear as well?

Park Si-yoon smiled and faced me, still in my arms, almost like a koala cub, raising my head and trying to ask a question. It wasn’t the usual mischievous smile, but the gaze that seemed to be looking at something very precious made my body twist.

Wow, where did this idiot learn such a sweet eye smile? That’s a foul, foul. If you change your attitude like that in a day on a subject that you normally don’t care about, you won’t be able to get used to it.

Even though he expresses his dissatisfaction internally, he never says anything. I was embarrassed to even feel that.

“Ho, by any chance, since when did you…. Did you like it?”

When he endured Park Si-yoon’s gaze and asked the question he wanted to ask, his smile changed closer to his usual one.

“I ask too early.”

“Hey, I finally remembered it now, what should I do!”

Until just now, my mind was so blank that I couldn’t think of anything. I was in such a daze that I thought it was a miracle that I was able to answer Park Si-yoon’s words so calmly.

Fortunately, after feeling Park Si-yoon’s warmth so close for a long time, his heart calmed down and I was able to ask these questions. Otherwise, I might have repeated the same thing over and over like a broken wind-up doll until I got home.

Without knowing how I felt, I huffed at Park Si-yoon, who was making insensitive remarks.

“Well, that’s possible. “Because a lot of things happened.”

Only then did he open his mouth, patting my head as if he had done something wrong. It will come out like that a long time ago.

“To be honest, I haven’t really thought about it. But if I had to think back, it would have been before you became a trainee.”

“So the reason you endured it until now was because I was a trainee?”

“Well, that’s right. Should I say the timing was bad….”

Park Si-yoon shrugs his shoulders with a bitter smile.

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When I heard that, I realized that we had a really twisted and twisted relationship, so I started laughing without even realizing it.

On the other hand, at that time, I saw Park Si-yoon playing the guitar and she decided to become an idol. She did this because she liked Park Si-yoon, but on the contrary, she ended up choosing the option of distancing herself from Park Si-yoon.

We have come so far that we are so tired.

“Aren’t you sad?”

I felt regretful that we could have realized each other’s feelings almost five years earlier, maybe even much earlier, so I asked Park Si-yoon as if I wanted his sympathy.

“What didn’t we realize sooner?”

“Yes, there is that too…. Above all, if we had started dating earlier, we would have made more memories. “I kind of regret that.”

“Um…. “That’s right.”

Although she nodded her head as if she agreed with what I said, Park Si-yoon responded as if she had a slightly different opinion.

“But my thoughts are a little different. “Maybe it was a good thing I found out only now.”

“Why?”

“Well, if we had started dating earlier, you wouldn’t have been a trainee, and you wouldn’t have been able to meet good people like you do now. “I didn’t want to neglect you, so I didn’t even start editing.”

There is also that view. Well, if you think about it that way, Park Si-yoon might be right.

Of course, I would have been happy even if I had chosen that option and given up on becoming a trainee and ended up with Park Si-yoon. I can be sure of that.

However, thanks to discovering each other’s feelings a little later, we met other good people and had the opportunity to grow together. In exchange for a little time, more benefits were obtained.

“It must have been nice to have been flirting with you since middle school. Of course, it doesn’t mean I don’t like it.”

Perhaps he was worried that I might think negatively, but the way he belatedly added an explanation seemed a bit cute to me.

Seungyeon previously said that bean pods are worn when a man looks cute, not when he looks cool, and that seems to be exactly right. How can a boy as big as that guy look this cute?

“It’s just that, in my head, I can’t imagine you not being the next idol Han Yuna. So, I think I found out when the time was right for you, as you are, and as for me, as I do.”

“… “It’s not a good time, but if this becomes known, I might no longer be an idol.”

“Hmm, that’s true, but….”

Awkwardly avoiding eye contact, Park Si-yoon said as if making excuses, ‘That’s why you said you were an accomplice.’

Hey, it’s fun. This is my first time seeing Park Si-yoon so embarrassed by every word I say. It was nice because it was comfortable, but I also liked the fact that he was fidgeting and not being able to talk to me carelessly, because it made me feel like he was being cared for.

I got out of the arms of Park Si-yoon, who didn’t know what to do, and hugged his right arm with my arm and rested my head on him. The sound of his heart beating was quieter than before, but it was nice to feel another warm feeling.

“It’s a joke. Don’t worry, I won’t give up my position as an idol or your girlfriend. No matter what happens.”

“But don’t overdo it. “If anything happens, consult with me right away.”

“Oh, are you telling me to expect something now that you’re my boyfriend? “You look pretty cool, Park Si-yoon?”

In fact, it was Park Si-yoon’s job to lend a shoulder since they were childhood friends, but for some reason, seeing his profile become more trustworthy than before made me smile.

He took the hand he had placed on his thigh again and placed it on top of Park Si-yoon’s hand.

The fear that remained before I made my decision yesterday is gone. With this warmth, I feel like I can accomplish anything.

Thanks to you, not anyone else.

***

We returned to the apartment with regrets and had no choice but to board the elevator.

Every time I see the numbers starting to go up one floor at a time, I feel like my heart is tightening. If you inadvertently put pressure on your joined hands, you probably know that the time to break up is approaching.

Breaking up with Park Si-yoon was something I always thought insignificant, thinking, ‘We’ll meet tomorrow anyway.’ But it’s really surprising that I feel this much regret.

“It’s over there….”

“Huh?”

For some reason, I felt bad about parting ways like this, so I wriggled around and carefully called out to Park Si-yoon, and her eyes turned to me.

However, Park Si-yoon must be tired today because she has to prepare for the stage and do a lot of things, so she can’t ask if she can go out to play…. What should I do? She would like to at least make an appointment to meet tomorrow.

“Tomorrow, it’s the weekend. Right… ?”

“That’s right.”

“Oh, and you said earlier that you wanted to buy her new clothes, too. Right… ?”

“That’s right… ji?”

To be exact, she didn’t say she wanted to buy Park Si-yoon, she just said she wanted me to choose clothes that fit Park Si-yoon, but anyway, as long as we get along!

“So, by any chance are you free tomorrow? I wanted to go out shopping for clothes together…. Of course, there’s nothing I can do if I’m tired.”

“… Phew.”

In the past, I would have just said, ‘Follow me!’ With great force, but now that our relationship has changed, I speak more cautiously. Park Si-yoon also felt this way.

I got off the elevator, and Park Si-yoon, who had been watching me with laughter, touched my head with her hand. Somehow, it feels like that touch is telling me that it knows what I want to say.

“I’m not tired, so don’t worry. “While we’re out, let’s watch a movie together.”

“Really?”

Still, there was a movie I wanted to see!

I didn’t really expect it to get this far, but my eyes naturally widened at the unexpected sight of soybean paste.

“Once your debut date is confirmed next week, you’ll be even busier. “We should have some fun before that, right?”

“That’s true too…. Huh.”

As soon as I started dating Park Si-yoon, it was a bit disappointing that the time we could spend together was decreasing, so I lowered my voice without realizing it.

“If there is somewhere else you want to go, think about it. “Let’s go together tomorrow.”

“Is that okay? “Do you have any work tomorrow?”

“I’ll be free until the day after tomorrow, so don’t worry about it, just think about something to have fun with.”

The hand stroking his head is rough yet gentle.

Even if you say that, I know. Even though Park Si-yoon says that, he doesn’t really have much free time. He’s probably planning to make up for what he missed by working hard on other days.

I hate myself for accepting the offer even though I know that. But right now, my time with Park Si-yoon is so precious. So much so that I act foolishly, trying to rationalize that obvious lie as the truth.

Anyway, it was decided to meet again tomorrow morning, but I still have no intention of letting go of Park Si-yoon.

“… “You don’t want to go in?”

“Joe, just a little more.”

Standing between the front doors of both houses, he holds Park Si-yoon’s hand and wiggles.

Ugh, I don’t want to break up. It’s such a shame that we have to split up even though we know that we live right around the corner from each other. We even made a promise to meet tomorrow. I guess I’m really seriously ill.

“Now that I think about it, what are you going to do with your parents and Han Yu-jin? Are you going to tell me?”

“Ugh, not yet. Actually, I don’t mind revealing it, but I’m a little reluctant because I think they’ll make a lot of fun of me.”

“Well, with Han Yujin’s personality, it wouldn’t be a mess.”

Park Si-yoon smiles bitterly as if he was expecting it. The person who says that also seems reluctant to tell the truth because it is obvious that his aunt will cause trouble.

In the end, we agreed to inform both families a little later, and decided to spend some more time without going back to each other’s houses.

“… “What if Han Yu-jin comes out like this?”

“It’ll be okay, hehehe.”

This time, I was a little bolder and brought Park Si-yoon’s hand to my cheek and pressed it like a hamster. Park Si-yoon said anxiously as he looked at the front doors of both houses, as if his behavior was quite unsettling.

Anyway, I have a lot to worry about. Anyway, Han Yu-jin would be lying on her bed and looking at her phone.

Clutter.

“Child, Mom! How about just throwing it away tomorrow… ! Huh?”

Just when I thought.

Suddenly, without warning, my younger brother, Han Yu-jin, came out from the other side of the opened door of our house, grumbling and looking very angry. Looking at the container in her hand, it seems that her mother sent her on an errand to at least throw away her food waste.

My sister, who was like my enemy, saw my sister pressing her face into Park Si-yoon’s hand and opened her eyes round. Just about 3 seconds.

Bang!

– Ugh, Mom! Her older sister is with her older brother… !

Han Yu-jin’s urgent voice, which even the apartment’s soundproof wall could not block, was heard from beyond the closed door again, with an expression as if she had seen a ghost.

Ah, I should just listen to Park Si-yoon.