CEO Above, Me Below

You can feel it, which means you can still control it. Luo Lie said, feeling a little excited in his heart. Since arriving here, Shi Xiaonian opened his heart to him for the first time, which is a good thing.

Is it because Gong Ou is here? Sure enough, all the crux still lies with Gong Ou.

But I need to look like a normal person, at least for the past two days. Shi Xiaonian said, his eyes revealed an extremely persistent look.

Why? Luo Lie spread his hands, For so long, I have never suggested you to take medicine because of the baby in your stomach. If you use it, what will you do if there are any consequences?

Babies are so fragile, and everyone wants the best for them.

Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian's eyes gradually dimmed, she lowered her eyes to look at her swollen belly, she held the corner of her clothes with her lowered hand, and squeezed her hand bit by bit, giving herself enough courage, If I say, I didn't Are you ready to have this baby?

What?

Luo Lie stared at her in shock, unbelievable.

When my adoptive mother died, I made a decision, I don't want this child. Shi Xiaonian said each word from his mouth, and it was extremely difficult, every word seemed to be biting his own flesh.

Min Qiujun's death was the last straw that crushed Shi Xiaonian's spirit. Since then, she has made this decision.

She doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore.

You say no now? You can only induce labor now. Do you know how much it hurts pregnant women? Luo Lie couldn't understand her thoughts. This child is a life. You want to selfishly decide the fate for him?

...

Shi Xiaonian lowered her head and did not speak.

Yes, not wanting children is also a kind of selfishness, she is very selfish.

Her face was terribly pale. Seeing her like this, Luo Lie softened her attitude, pulled a swivel chair and pushed it to the window, Mrs. Gong, since you are willing to chat with me, I think we should have a good chat.

Gong Ou is waiting for me downstairs, I will take the medicine and leave.

Shi Xiaonian said that she was afraid that she would not be able to control herself, and would not be able to face Gong Ou, which would make Gong Ou suspicious, and she would feel uneasy when she left, and her work efficiency would be poor.

It's about his future, his life.

After chatting with me, if you can impress me, I will let you go down. Luo Lie walked to the window, raised his hand and opened the curtains, letting a large piece of sunlight pour in, falling on the swivel chair, it was extremely bright, Sit down.

Shi Xiaonian raised her eyes to look at him, and walked forward helplessly, stepping forward step by step, gradually stepping into the sunlight.

The sunlight illuminated her whole body with a trace of weakness.

She sat down on the swivel chair, and Luo Lie leaned against the window, acting like a doctor, with the gray curtains fluttering slightly, he said, Say it, convince me.

I'm not worthy of being a mother. Shi Xiaonian sat on the swivel chair, like a believer who accepted God's admonition, and told her sins in detail, Because of my wrong decision, Xiaokui got shot. Fear of sequelae caused Holy to hurt others at a young age, leaving him with a shadow that will never be cleared for the rest of his life, I can't even take care of my two children now, how can I take care of this one in my stomach?

Once, she thought that the child in her womb would be full of happiness after being born, so she was so persistent that even Gong Ou couldn't be stubborn about her.

It wasn't until now that she realized that if it made the child unhappy, it must be her.

Go on.

Luo Lie decided to listen to her explanation before expressing her opinion.

Shi Xiaonian sat on the swivel chair, her whole body fell into the sunlight, as if the darkness of her whole body was illuminated brightly, she clenched her hands together again, and whispered, I killed many people, if I don't fall into the trap , those people will not die; if I can accurately predict the consequences of each decision I make, my adoptive mother will not die either.

Just like a student doing a question, she read every question carefully, but in the end she could only choose the wrong answer.

And this exam paper has no chance to start over.

Your kind of self-denial is very typical. You think that all the negativity is caused by yourself, but think about it carefully. Luo Lie leaned against the window and began to say, First, your adoptive mother has already committed suicide. She will commit suicide whether you go or not; second, many people died in the Hill incident, but the root cause is that Mr. Gong planned all this, in other words, he is the culprit.”

But he is for me. Shi Xiaonian said clearly, If he didn't know me and my human shortcomings, he wouldn't plan such a thing; if I was smart and strong enough to make him feel at ease, he wouldn't either. plan.

...

Luo Lie was speechless, she actually thought so.

The long silence made Shi Xiaonian raise her head, she looked at him with a dazed expression, and asked, Doctor Luo, is my logic wrong?

I……

Luo Lie wanted to refute, but he had no words. He felt that her words were full of questions, but he couldn't find any rebuttals for a while.

She was trapped by this set of logic.

That's right, right? I've thought about it for a long time, and no matter what I think, it's all my fault. Shi Xiaonian said bitterly, Instead of doing this, I might as well be more absolute. The baby is in my stomach, and he still has a problem. Without consciousness, he doesn't have to come to this world like Xiaokui and the others to be implicated by me.

Children should be the most carefree in the world, but what are her children going through?

Mrs. Gong. Luo Lie's head hurts, Mr. Gong will also be injured after losing the child. I think you don't want him to be sad.

It can be said to be an accident, so that the damage can be minimized.

Shi Xiaonian said.

She has even thought about this. It seems that she has had the idea of ​​abortion for a day or two.

Luo Lie looked at her, she was bathed in the sun, she looked very weak, her soft lips moved slightly, Give me the medicine, Doctor Luo.

Slow down, I'm afraid Gong Ou will find him, he is impatient, but he can't wait for her for too long.

Mrs. Gong, children need the care and protection of their parents. If you think you are not capable enough, there is Mr. Gong, right? Luo Lie said, I can see that you love Mr. Gong very much, and you also admire him to some extent. You should trust him.

Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian's eyes became darker and his lips pursed.

Mrs. Gong...

Gong Ou has a paranoid personality disorder. Although he has improved a lot these years, he is still paranoid and crazy in many things. Shi Xiaonian said in a low voice, I originally thought that adults should not treat children Get involved, but Gong Ou won't think so, he's too paranoid about me.

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In the Hill incident, he could completely avoid putting the two children in danger, but he was worried that I would do stupid things after being taken captive, so he would rather arrange for the two young children to accompany me so that I could worry about it and give me peace of mind. The will to survive. Shi Xiaonian lowered her eyes and said, her voice became more and more bitter, I am not a good mother, and he is not a perfect father either.

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Doctor Luo, I don't want to feel indebted to my child anymore. Shi Xiaonian said, raising her eyes to look at him pleadingly, Give me the medicine, let me calm down, at least I can't let Gong Ou who dares to make crazy choices for me Leave in worry.

If so, who knows what Gong Ou will do?

Luo Lie really wanted to persuade her, but she seemed to be moved by her inexplicably. She was mentally unstable, but the situation was not as bad as he imagined.

Because she thought a lot, considered a lot, and made corresponding measures to deal with it.

A man with a total nervous breakdown couldn't do that, and she was much stronger than he thought.

Have you really thought about it? Luo Lie asked, Or you can talk to Mr. Gong and let him choose to change appropriately, instead of doing everything absolutely to protect you, let him understand that hurting the person you care about is the same It's hurting you.

That's paranoid personality disorder.

That is Gong Ou, if he could change it completely, he would have changed it long ago.

...

Luo Lie was completely defeated, he could not persuade Shi Xiaonian, because she had already thought a lot, and she was very thoughtful.

Shi Xiaonian looked at him, Luo Lie sighed, walked to the shelf by the wall, and took a bottle of medicine from it.

Thanks.

Shi Xiaonian walked up to him.

Luo Lie clenched the medicine bottle tightly, and still looked at her hesitantly, Have you really thought about it? This is your child, and that is a life.

I've really made up my mind. Shi Xiaonian nodded firmly, After I send Gong Ou away and let him handle things in England with peace of mind, I will choose to get rid of the child.

Perhaps when Mr. Gong comes back, everything will be fine, and this difficult situation will not happen again. Luo Lie still hesitated as he clenched the medicine bottle tightly.

As long as people are alive, there will always be troubles. I can't afford to hurt the people around me. Shi Xiaonian said, his eyes were clean but dark, And I don't dare to predict the outcome of Gong Ou's trip this time. I planned for the worst, and I don't want him to leave full of worry.

She doesn't want Gong Ou to be outside and always thinks about whether my Shi Xiaonian is doing well in China, whether she is emotionally stable, whether she will be safe, and whether she will be obedient.

She slowly reached out to him.

Perhaps, after this incident, you can choose to leave Mr. Gong for a period of time to calm yourself down. Maybe then you won't think so, and you don't have to kill this child. Luo Lie still wanted to persuade her .

If she just wanted to avoid the harm she caused others, she could choose to leave alone.

Shi Xiaonian shook his head, I can't leave Gong Ou.

unable.

She couldn't do it, Gong Ou paid too much for her.

... Luo Lie had nothing to say, hesitated for a long time, and finally put the medicine bottle into her palm, Mrs. Gong, I misjudged you before, your mental state is not very good, but you She's the strongest woman I've ever seen.

Thanks.

Shi Xiaonian looked down at her palm, there was a small white medicine bottle on it, without any words, she clenched the medicine bottle tightly and walked out.