After deciding to give up, I became popular

"Yeah, yeah, going back, going back." X2

Natsukawa Kanade \u0026 Shiina Mahiru: "…"

044. Is it okay?

On a bench for resting, the young man and woman who had re-established contact sat together in silence, keeping a slight distance between them.

"…"

"How have you been lately?" As soon as Natsukawa Kanade said this, he regretted it.

An aura of a man obsessed with his ex-girlfriend instantly filled the air.

The awkward opening dialogue even made him want to die.

"I'm, I'm fine… How about you?" The angel-like girl seemed a little reserved, but at least she replied to him.

"Uh, me too…"

Natsukawa Kanade was taken aback, not expecting the angel to actually respond, so he nodded silently, but soon fell into silence again.

"…"

"…"

"You…" X2

"You go first…" X2

"Then I'll go first…" Natsukawa Kanade clenched his fist, cheering himself on in his heart.

Maybe at first he really didn't have any other thoughts, just wanted to follow those sneaky boys to check out the situation, but this alone time is a golden opportunity, he must seize it.

"Shiina… I want to apologize to you, I'm sorry!"

"Eh? No, I should be the one apologizing…"

"Please let me finish." Natsukawa Kanade reached out, wanting to hold her hand, but after trying for a long time, he finally retracted it.

"That day… I shouldn't have said those things to you, I didn't know you cared so much about that matter…"

He said it…

Natsukawa Kanade breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that a stubborn rock in his heart had finally been chiseled through, turning into a pile of rubble, and the heavy feeling of constraint had dissipated by more than half.

"At first, I just hoped you could calm down and ease the atmosphere at the time, so I said those things, I didn't expect… Anyway, I'm very sorry, I won't say that again in the future."

People can't truly empathize with each other.

The past him would indeed care about that kind of thing, but now he can calmly accept various evaluations from others, and won't be deeply disturbed by mere words.

It's just that Shiina, for some reason, seems to be unable to let it go…

Natsukawa Kanade shook his head, dispelling the strange fantasies in his mind.

The top priority is to find a way to continue repairing the relationship, any extra thoughts are useless.

"I know I may no longer have the right to ask, but I want to say it no matter what."

"If, if possible… I hope you can forgive my slip of the tongue at the time, and please continue to be… be friends with me in the future."

He no longer expects so-called love, but if even the request to be friends is rejected…

Natsukawa Kanade lowered his head, clenching his hands into fists, pressing them tightly against his thighs, his nervous and uneasy appearance like a child who has made a mistake waiting for the judgment of his elders.

The next moment, he felt his hand being wrapped in a warm force.

"No, I should be the one saying that to Kanade."

Natsukawa Kanade looked up and found Shiina Mahiru looking at him with a very gentle expression.

Affectionate, doting, and tolerant, like a true pure white angel, conveying infinite warmth and strength to him.

"That matter wasn't Kanade's fault in the first place, I was the one who said the wrong thing."

Shiina Mahiru shook her head, a trace of guilt flashing in her eyes.

That was her initial defense against Natsukawa Kanade to prevent him from deliberately getting close to her, thinking that malicious comments would make him back down, but she didn't expect… she even fell in love with him later.

Thus, the former defensive measures became a quick knife that hurt people.

"Therefore, whether it's apologizing or being friends, I should be the one to say it."

From Natsukawa Kanade's perspective, the angel slowly raised his hand and pressed it against her own cheek, gently stroking it.

"I'm sorry, Kanade, and… please continue to be friends with me."

"Kanade might not believe it, but for me… meeting Kanade is the luckiest thing that has ever happened to me in my life."

People always truly realize the value of something important when they lose it, this is the so-called nature.

However, for some people, that is completely a value judgment made after subconsciously comparing it with other things, not so-called sincere repentance.

But for Shiina Mahiru, this is her most genuine thought right now—Kanade is very important to her.

This is all the emotion she has accumulated for a year—

She likes Kanade, and it's okay even if she can only be by his side as a friend, as long as he often looks at her, she will be satisfied.

She likes Kanade, and she will like him no matter what he becomes, because she likes him as a person.

The former Kanade is naturally very good, after all, that was the trigger for her to fall in love with him. Even if he is still useless and unable to take care of himself, she is willing to always dote on him, just like he always agrees to her strange requests.

The current Kanade is also fine, excellent and eye-catching, and watching him look high-spirited in front of everyone, of course, makes her heart beat faster, but more importantly, that kind of Kanade makes her want to get close to him at any time.

Private subtle contact is naturally not enough, she is very greedy, and if possible, she hopes to be close to him at school at all times, even if others misunderstand.

Because she will explain with a smile, that is not a misunderstanding.

However, such actions will definitely bring a lot of trouble to Kanade, she doesn't want that, she can only fantasize about it a little in her heart.

"I am a greedy person, not only now, but also in the future, I want to always be by Kanade's side… Is that okay?"

She made the wrong choice in the past, but she won't be wrong in the future, she will always be by Kanade's side until Kanade no longer needs her.

"Shiina…"

"Eek!"

A sudden commotion interrupted the two's conversation.

Looking in the direction of the sound, at the corner of the wall, three girls were stacked on top of each other, lying crookedly on the ground.

"Cough, cough, well then… you guys continue?"

The trio naturally knew they had been discovered, but they were still unwilling to give up on seeing the subsequent plot.

"Ugh! You, you guys misunderstood!" Shiina Mahiru subconsciously let go of his hand, stood up completely, and explained in a flustered manner, "No, it's not what you think!"

The scene of near confession was witnessed by others, and even the always composed angel couldn't help but panic, and the shyness on her face couldn't be stopped at all.

"Oh my, what misunderstanding, we didn't say anything, don't be anxious, Shiina-san."

"Ugh! I didn't say anything! Quick, let's go back…"

"Cough, cough, class is almost over, you guys chat, I'll go back first." Looking at the way the girls were teasing each other, Natsukawa Kanade stood up.

It's okay to be alone, but staying here now would be too awkward, and more importantly… he absolutely can't stay here and be forced to argue with them at times like this, otherwise it will only make things worse, and it's better to pretend that nothing happened from the beginning.

Fortunately, these girls are also very concerned about Shiina, so they shouldn't make things too difficult for her, even if he leaves, Shiina should be able to handle it easily…

045. About the time the guest who came early in the morning kicked me out of the house

Natsukawa Kanade had a dream.

In the dream, he and the angel-like girl wearing a school swimsuit were playing in the pool, and while playing, they accidentally touched each other, and then he boldly leaned over.

"Is it okay?" He asked with a meaningful question.

The angel-like girl naturally didn't answer him, maybe she didn't know what he meant, she just kept being too shy to look up, so he leaned over and hugged the angel-like girl in his arms without explanation…

And then he woke up.

Without the support of the code, the subsequent CG screen could not be loaded at all, but the strange thing is that the output result was successfully exported.

"…"

So Natsukawa Kanade silently got up, went to the bathroom to take a shower and changed into new clothes.

People have desires, especially the most primitive three desires. In reality, they can still control their actions through reason, but in dreams, they can't do it at all, and they directly become prisoners.

Fortunately, he is a person living alone, and there is no chance to make a fool of himself, and today is the weekend, so there is plenty of time to deal with the aftermath.

However, a little shame still remains in his heart—he had clearly decided to become the other person's best friend for life, but the next day his heart changed in the dream…

Or, maybe it's not entirely his fault? It can only be said that the angel-like girl's charm is too moving, not only the tempting posture she leaned over in the pool hall yesterday, but also the delicate and charming face she had while hugging the stuffed animal and dozing off on the sofa last night… Her sense of defensiveness against him is too little, right? It's completely the two extremes from when they first met in the past.

In the past, he would take the initiative to lean over and then the angel-like girl would dislike him and avoid him, but now she is completely looking like "I am very easy to get", but when you really get in touch, you can find a touch of unshakeable stubbornness hidden under her docile surface…

So he really doesn't understand girls.

Shiina is like this, Senior is also very good at changing faces, and there are Shinomiya, Yukinoshita and the others… each one is mysterious, even Kato, with whom he always gets along very comfortably, always feels that she is also full of complex little thoughts, and he can't guess at all.

Fujiwara is even more out of the question, she has a natural chaotic attribute, it would be a miracle to be able to guess her thoughts. The only time he can take the initiative in the process of getting along is when he is with Eriri.

The reason is nothing else, it's just that the tsundere Eriri is really very easy to understand, as long as the iconic tone and words appear, you can understand her true thoughts, but recently it seems that there is also a trend of change, becoming sentimental…

Looking at it this way, it is still more relaxing to get along with boys, there are not so many things to worry about, you can talk about anything, for example, when getting along with Hachiman, he is really at his mercy; there is no gap in the communication with Shirogane and Ishigami, even topics about lewd aspects are okay, in short, it is very easy.

"Beep beep beep…" A crisp knock on the door rang, interrupting Natsukawa Kanade's daze.

"Who could it be so early?"

With such thoughts in mind, Natsukawa Kanade rinsed his mouth and hurriedly went to open the door.

"Shiina?"

Opening the door, the delicate and lovely angel-like girl appeared in front of him all of a sudden.

The protagonist of his fantasy has arrived! Natsukawa Kanade panicked all of a sudden, thinking that he might even be able to connect with others in a dream? But if that were really the case, Shiina would not have come to visit…

"Plea-Please come in!"

"Excuse me." Shiina nodded, then put on her exclusive slippers and entered the house.

The weather has already warmed up a bit recently, Natsukawa Kanade changed into short sleeves and shirts early on, but the angel-like girl is still dressed for spring, very conservative.

It's a bit of a pity, Natsukawa Kanade thought, what a fortunate thing it would be to see the angel-like girl's summer clothes, especially when she is wearing a skirt…

Thinking about it, he suddenly felt that his state was a bit wrong, his mind was full of strange fantasies, like that…

"You, you sit first, I'll go wash my face."

Actually, he had already washed up, but his current state was obviously not suitable for seeing people, so he prepared to calm down.

Shiina Mahiru nodded, without saying anything.

The host's lack of hospitality does not make her feel uncomfortable, but rather makes her feel more at ease.

She is too familiar with this place, so familiar that it is like being in her own home, and there is no feeling of being a guest at all.

Recalling Kanade's appearance just now, Shiina Mahiru realized that he probably hadn't eaten breakfast yet and had just gotten up, so such thoughts welled up in her heart—she wanted to make breakfast for Kanade.

Helping to make dinner or something can be explained as not being able to stand the other person's unhealthy lifestyle, but coming to a boy's house early in the morning to make him breakfast… it really feels like a newlywed wife!

But it's okay if she is really misunderstood like that, she wouldn't mind, Shiina Mahiru's pretty face was flushed, thinking like this, she also started to move.

First, she opened the refrigerator to check, but found nothing usable, so she went to the kitchen to check, but found not even a crumb of bread…

This kind of life is too simple, right? Could it be that Kanade actually never thought about eating breakfast? Really, this kind of lifestyle is too unhealthy! Sure enough, she must stare at him every day and make sure he eats well.

"Shiina?" Natsukawa Kanade suddenly appeared in the living room, looking a little hesitant.

He looked at Shiina Mahiru, who had just arrived at someone else's house and consciously put on an apron, and his mood was a little subtle.

Looking at the angel-like girl's appearance, she should want to make some dishes, although the behavior is easy to understand, but the reason behind it is difficult not to care about.

Early in the morning, she appeared at the house of a same-aged opposite sex without saying hello, although it's good that she rang the doorbell properly instead of directly opening the door with a key, but this is also quite strange.