A Porter Kidnapped by a Wizard

Chapter 41

041. Self-loathing

Retrieving a soul, no matter who it belongs to, is no fun. Even so, it was only done out of necessity.

Non-type… No, now that he had the name Endymion, he knew that his job would not be easy, but he had no other choice, so he had no choice.

‘If you don’t replenish the soul to the sword, something will happen in the end.’

This was more like a curse. Even if something unfortunate happens, it is unclear whether it will affect the owner or those around him.

So, in order to break the bondage of this curse, he in his previous life asked the Taoist to put this sword away from anyone’s touch.

‘But it was a wish that would not come true in the end.’

No more vain thoughts. In the end, even now that his life has passed, he has admitted that it is a curse he must embrace.

Endymion stared at the dagger in his hand with mixed emotions. I didn’t feel any change from the old look.

‘It’s still ominous.’

What should I do? Everything that has happened has been caused by himself. In a state of desperation, Endymion lowered his hand holding the dagger and now had to face the front.

“Selene.”

“…You,”

Selene asked with her pupils trembling like aspen trees as if she was quite shocked.

“Who the hell are you…?”

There seemed to be a lot of meaning in that question. However, Endymion lacked mental composure to figure out and answer them one by one.

That’s why he usually gave only standard answers.

“The porter you picked up during the war.”

A slave, by the way, someone you loved… Also, to explain one by one, he is a person with a number of strange stories.

Endymion puts countless words he couldn’t bear to say down his throat.

It was impossible to know how his resigned eyes would reflect on the other person. But once Selene looked straight into his eyes, she couldn’t hide her agitation.

At first glance, his calm eyes seemed to have created a ripple in Selene’s heart.

“No… the you I knew was not like this.”

I guess so.

Endymion muttered to himself. That would be the case, because she had never shown herself like this standing in front of her.

Not that she had any particular intention of deceiving Selene… I can’t say it out of conscience. Because, when I was thinking about escape, I had no feeling that I had actually left it as a trump card.

However, her attempt to deceive her was not the whole reason.

“I hated this power.”

Now I have no reason to hide it anymore, and I have no intention of doing so. For that reason, when the seal that suppressed his energy was lifted, his whole body, which had been empty until now, was filled with vitality, and it soon became full.

Then, Endymion’s eyes shimmered like wisps of fire as the energy that had not yet been captured escaped. Seeing that, Selene was only agitated once more.

‘No matter how much you are beyond human… After all, do you feel repulsed by this kind of appearance?’

Hey, Endymion even pulled out his sharp claws with the thought of putting an end to it.

“Do you see my eyes, my fingernails?”

“…….”

“I’ve had this power since I was very young. People called it natural talent.”

The problem was within the organization where he was born and no one would come along as a contract killer. Moreover, because she was born with her mother torn open, she had to endure even her father’s resentment.

“I don’t know if the circumstances were different… The family I grew up in ate me up. It made me realize that I was a monster.”

I’d rather… If general misfortune had been the end, Endymion would not have hated his power so much.

Before and after actually killing my father… He did not express his objection to contract killings or blood clots using his strength.

“Do you know when I… realized I was a monster?”

I don’t know. There is no way to know. It was an uncomfortable truth that Endymion did not want to know either.

“I killed my father. Because you abused me and my brother. And I killed my brother. Because you tried to kill me.”

As she confesses her sins that she has not told anyone about before, her heart becomes more and more empty. The energy that filled his body was still there, but his insides were about to crack open like dry ground.

He didn’t go into details here. It was not intentional to kill my brother. If it was my older brother who would rather kill me, he would have willingly killed me, but he couldn’t… He didn’t say

Instead of-

“I was able to find a will from my older brother who died by my hand. I had mixed feelings the moment I saw the will.”

It took an instant for the ominous feeling to rise to the brain. Because of that, Endymion quickly opened her will and read it—

“I didn’t know… I learned the hidden truth about myself….”

What was it? In Endymion’s eyes as he said that, a sense of shame that could not be hidden could be seen.

Selene unconsciously felt pity for that sight. So she stretched out her hand to comfort her, but….

Tak-!

Endymion refused her touch.

Was it a mistake?

No, it wasn’t a mistake like before.

His eyes were clearer than ever.

And the true story hadn’t even started yet.

“The price of the oath… There is one more long story, but I will not tell you about it.”

He took a moment to catch his breath and then continued talking.

“There’s a deal I once had. In that deal, I hoped for too much.”

Honestly, was it too much… Even now, I still have my doubts. However, it is natural that everything will be divided according to the standard of Taoism, which was another subject of the transaction.

“I wanted to live… And it was the price the family I had to spend my life with.”

The first was the mother, who passed away after giving birth to sons. The second is the father, but the process is different, but as a result, he died at the hands of his sons.

And finally… Older brother.

“In my older brother’s will, all the truths that had been hidden in a veil were written down.”

The reason why his mother died during childbirth, why his father, who was trying to kill the newborn Ha-jin, saved him, and why he wanted to be killed by his younger brother….

“My mother died just because she gave birth to me, and my father wanted to kill me, but he said that I would revive the family in the future, so he kept me alive.”

Why did Baeksan try to kill his younger brother? Could it be that he hated his younger brother after finding out about this? Who is the culprit that killed your parents?

No, that wasn’t it….

“Lastly, my older brother… Learned one more fact through my father’s diary, and acted as ‘pretend’ to kill me.”

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My brother’s birth day. The old man said

-However, if Ha Ha-jin doesn’t kill all of his family with his own hands, he will die soon after reaching the age of majority.

Baeksan would know. He knows that if he lives, his brother will die.

However, Ha Jin, her younger brother, decided that he would not try to kill her, so in the end, he set up a play to save her younger brother.

“The ferocity I harbored… Made it possible. In the end, I even killed my older brother. As a result, I survived.”

“…….”

It’s a messy family affair. It wasn’t usually complicated even to pretend. Selene’s expression was just like that.

She was too quick to say anything. Neither anger nor consolation could easily bring her out.

“I see… Can I like myself?”

It was a self-inflicted thing. So she resented herself even more. The strength I have, the talent my father let me live! I was sure that if my brother made a play, he would act as I wanted!! I just hated it all!!!

“…Now, do you know why I hid it?”

I finally said it. He was already blinded by his eyes. He could have passed it on smoothly without saying anything, but the feeling of not wanting to deceive Selene any more – and the sense of difference created by the mixture of the past life and the present life moved his heart.

Endymion stares at Selene despondently. She reacted with a lot of rigidity. Was it not easy to face her resentment head-on?

‘Yes… ‘

Even for Endymion, whose heart is twisted as much as it is twisted-

‘… After all, you see me as a monster, as I do.’

-The only thing that caught my eye was contempt and disgust.

If you don’t like the temple, you should leave the middle school.

Unexpectedly, I have been here for a long time.

Endymion sensed that the time had finally come.

Cheolgeureok-

Pull out the dagger. And the energy of resentment contained within it is focused on swordplay.

‘I originally wanted to hide it… I know now that my sins won’t disappear anyway.’

I gave up. What a shameful hypocrite.