A Heroine Who Can Never Be Abandoned

87 – Dongmin Lee (22)

Dongmin Lee (22)

I clenched my fists as I sat on the fabric sofa in the living room.

Blue veins are visible on the back of his hand.

An unmanly hand.

My father, who earned and ate every day through manual labor, said that my hands were thanks to him.

He said that my hands are like this because he supported his children and wife with the money he earned through hard work.

That it can be so soft.

Actually, he used the money he earned as a gift for prostitutes or for alcohol, although he never gave it for living expenses.

If you roll up your sleeves-

There is a sharp cane mark on the forearm.

I can’t see it, but there are marks on the back and legs.

When I was studying the bible with my mother or when my father was not in the mood, he hit me.

There was also a so-called ‘sweet spot’ on the top of my head.

It’s a trace of being ripped off in its prime.

There is also a cigarette bread mark under the collarbone.

This was from my middle and high school days.

Luckily, there are no special scars on the face, but the entire area except for the distal end is full of scars.

My body was a tree that repeatedly broke and regenerated.

“………”

Haerin returned early.

Because she burst into tears like an idiot, she canceled all plans and ran quickly.

Now she was silently revising her own schedule and mine on her shared schedule.

When she turned around, she felt very calm.

I collapsed.

I thought I could do it by myself somehow, but I couldn’t handle the world I created on my own.

Haerin came and sat next to me.

Then he took my hand, swept it gently, rolled up his sleeve, and wiped the scars there with his own hand.

“I will not forgive you for making things difficult for you.”

“………”

It was comforting, but embarrassing.

Harin.

Kang Hae-rin is the main character of 『Kang Hae-rin’s Murder Diary』.

If the hypothesis that reality is materializing according to the novel is correct, then the main character of this story is also she.

It is said that God does not give unbearable hardships, but at least in this changing world, that would only apply to Haerin, who was born as the main character.

No one can kill those monsters.

Unless it’s Haerin.

Then what am I in this world?

For a very brief moment, I felt like the Almighty, the Creator, but when I experienced it, I felt powerless.

It was impossible without Harin’s help.

“… I’m sorry.”

I told her that she cheated on her and went to visit Kim Hye-eun and what problem she was trying to solve.

And I also explained how her being in a coma affected my mind.

“I can feel it too.”

Haerin gave a little more strength to his clasped hands while shooting reddish eyes into my eyes.

Your expression was gentle, but it was an unforgettable look.

“Because he is a good person, he cannot bear to see those who bully him get hurt.”

“………”

“But it’s natural. This was a story made for me, and I wasn’t in it.”

She stroked my cheek.

“Isn’t it?”

I bowed my head in silence.

“There is nothing I can do.”

In the end, am I going to depend on her?

She proudly promised to protect me.

I didn’t collapse all at once.

Actually, it was shocking to see the same Kim Hye-eun, who had been bothering me, lying on her bed, in a coma, with her bruised face, but she had a premonition of something else.

If Kim Hye-eun became a character in 『Journal』, So if she became a victim of the Park Sang-woo episode that composes the novel, what would happen to her was also clear.

What Park Sang-woo will do next.

Surprisingly, the path of the villain Park Sang-woo, who had not been in contact with me, was almost following the ‘main story’.

The development of Kim Hye-eun helping him to sell drugs was also the setting in the beginning of this episode.

He tells her girlfriend that he is possessive of her and that he raids her while discussing her business, with her delusions.

Even that there was another man there.

Park Sang-woo thinks the man is her lover and breaks Kim Hye-eun’s head in a fit of rage.

I don’t know who the man was, but if the story goes on like this, his death was also expected.

Unlike the original story, Kim Hye-eun didn’t die and was in a coma, but –

It is yet to be seen whether the condition will improve.

If she even dies.

Can you say it wasn’t me who killed her?

“Not really.”

At that time, Haerin’s two fingers gently lifted my chin.

“He is strong enough.”

“………”

The corner of Haerin’s mouth went up.

‘He’s weak.’

In an instant, her words from the past overlapped.

After allowing her raid on her half, she wouldn’t believe her words that I was protecting her in her heart.

So she spoke frankly and directly.

‘He’s weak.’

Then is this a simple consolation?

“He is a person who knows better than anyone how the world flows, how it is broken, and how it is structured.”

Is that the end of the story?

I am a writer.

So you know the details of this story, so you can make preparations.

But that is wrong.

Knowing and doing are different.

Of course, now that Park Sang-woo’s episode is being materialized, if I had known that Kim Hye-eun would be her victim, she might have evacuated her earlier.

Even if it’s a consequential story, it’s not difficult if you think it’s ‘possible’.

I might have taken it somewhere else by force, or by threats.

The reason why he didn’t do that was because when Kim Hye-eun said he would move out of the house she was living with, it was obvious that Park Sang-woo would persistently pursue her.

But the problem still exists.

Park Sang-woo’s possessive desire spans several women, and besides Kim Hye-eun, his lover is elsewhere.

It was close to impossible to predict which of those people would become Park Sang-woo’s victim.

As for the timing of accidents.

This is because the act of trying to escape could itself have been a trigger that made Park Sang-woo move.

In the first place, I was prepared for Kim Hye-eun to be attacked by Park Sang-woo.

Park Sang-woo didn’t notice my existence, so he told me not to overdo it and not to leave the house for the time being.

That’s how I even gave Kim Hye-eun her advice.

To be honest, I don’t know what motivated Park Sang-woo.

I’ll have to check with the detectives later, but as a civilian myself, access to information is limited.

Critically, the names of the characters ‘change.’

Just as detective Park Seong-gang did not recognize the name ‘Park Seong-jae’ that refers to himself in the novel.

This also applies to other characters.

For example, the man who will become the next victim of Park Sang-woo.

Seo In-hwan.

How am I supposed to know where and what the guy who doesn’t even know his face is doing?

Stopping him is only possible by first confirming his existence, but that is beyond my ability.

In this case, the help of detectives was needed.

The most likely one is, of course, when Kim Hye-eun was raided, the man she said was with her.

In this way, the information of real people and characters in the novel is subtly altered, making it difficult for me, even as a writer, to accurately grasp the content.

Now, you can take the next step based on the clue of Kim Hye-eun, but there comes a moment when you will definitely have an adventure in this type of minesweeper.

A or B.

The moment I had to film without any basis.

At that time, my abilities were infinitely weak.

“All of that.”

At that time, Harin said.

“The ability to imagine and comprehend everything is proof of one’s strength.”

“………”

“Are you still imagining the ‘next’?”

“Next?”

“What happens next. Is that what scares you? If you can’t stop the materialization of the novel like this, you know better than anyone what will happen, so you’re the scariest one.”

That was unexpected.

I was speechless for a moment.

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In the meantime, Harin said.

“Fear does not come to those who do not know which direction this world is going. Fear only comes to those who can sense it.”

She put her hand on my head.

“I will forgive myself. You lied to me As long as you promise not to do that in the future.”

“… I will.”

“Of course the second strike will be counted.”

“……”

I nodded helplessly.

The thing I promised Haerin when I first came to this house.

1. You will have to arrange a meeting just once, but be indifferent to your sister before and after that.

2. Do not get involved with the villains in the 『Journal』.

Of this, I’m breaking the second one.

Breaking the second promise, on the other hand, means that there is no room for the first promise.

The second is to ask for a favor in exchange for a promise.

Now, no matter what happens, we must protect the first one.

If you violate-

‘What will become of me?’

Haerin never mentioned it.

She just laughed.

I mentioned it briefly the other day, but confinement? In my reply, he said that it would not stop with that.

I couldn’t imagine anything worse than confinement.

No matter how much I am the creator of Harin.

I was anxious.

Haerin was mysteriously calm.

Like a patient patient, he just watched me like a predator waiting for its prey.

Rather, I think I was more full of desire when I first met, when I came to the private house where I lived alone.

Then she gave me a deep kiss, and if she didn’t resist, she was ready to move on to the next step.

But now, even though they sleep in the same bed, they don’t show any desire, it’s just quiet.

Suddenly, her words came to mind.

‘Anything can be endured if there is a purpose.’

… Those words left a strange aftertaste.

“… I promise. I will not care about my sister.”

At my words, Haerin held out her little finger.

She laughed like a prankster.

A serious moment, at least to me, was clear, but her expression was strangely innocent and lively.

But at least, it was more persuasive than my sister’s statement that if the ‘angel’ was removed, the ‘devil’ would also disappear.

I couldn’t understand nor did I want to understand my sister who said such things.

Thanks to that, her plan has been roughly wrapped up.